P51Mustang's Journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
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I really don’t know how I’m going to keep chasing, I chase but not to the point where I’ll have no self respect for myself. And it’s to the point I’m just going to friend zone her and leave it be.

It’s going to be a hard decision but I think tonight was the last straw for me. There are plenty of options on things I can do and as selfish as it is, I want some reciprocation. I’m not getting it at all.

Big disappointment but hey, whatever. I’ve been through enough that I know when to cut my losses. Still an awesome friend, but I am almost sure that tonight was as far as I would go.

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P51 I am sorry, but good attitude about things, at least you ain’t beating yourself up. You are right, you do deserve reciprocation, you deserve the best! Why settle for something sooo unsatisfying?! Good move, best of luck! Keep strong, and on to the next one :stuck_out_tongue:

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Back to some putative testing.

Today I sprayed on about 25mcg of P130.

I was in a pretty crappy mood this morning, lack of sleep and just had no motivation to do anything at all. When things mount up all at once its easy to lose motivation but you gotta keep going forward cause it will just make you a better person to push through and strengthen your resolve.

About 5-10 min after application I was a bit more calm, I was more relaxed on the drive into work. I normally have my morning cigarette and I usually get like bad stomach anxiety from it in the morning, this time it wasn’t as pronounced. I did experience some nausea though, but that was probably from last night’s activities.

I did say I was getting in earlier to my co-workers today and I was about 15 minutes late, every road I took had traffic up the wazoo, and I actually left earlier expecting traffic. I was just calm and just driving and it didn’t seem to bother me that I was going to be late. Everything was a bit more smooth because it was probably because I was more relaxed.

I had a client meeting right almost when I got in. I got asked the question, as if the client was trying to call my qualifications out. He asked me about things that I normally don’t deal with, but was within my realm of my capacities. Essentially, because I’m covering here for someone else, and they are older and seasoned, I was getting tested because of that fact. I didn’t let his prodding affect me, I just simply told him the truth that this isn’t what I normally deal with with my clients and that I would find out for him. Eventually he asked me about other suggestions, and tried to test me on economic theory and current state of the economy. Again, I stayed calm and collected and threw out so much jargon that it seemed to flip a switch and haven’t gotten tested after that point.

He asked me if I worked out, and that he starting doing so now and was essentially trying to establish rapport with me. Talked about sports, talked about working out and essentially by the end of the interaction, he was asking me for advice instead of trying to test me.

Also, there was no A314 on me, just P130, and no cologne and a fresh shower.

I think with certain situations, that have stressful outcomes and with people looking to illicit emotional responses from people, P130 can help alleviate some of that stress.

The authoritative vibe and his attempts to establish rapport with me was probably my experience with working on myself and A314’s effects left over. But man, it really does help out with making you who you are and letting that come out, it takes some of the emotional “edge” off of interactions that normally would warrant those feelings. As a putative alone, without the rest of the conditioning that your body/mind goes through for whatever goal you have, is very effective, but this really shines coupled with who you are as a person.

I can foresee this as a personal reset switch when it comes to stressful situations. It won’t neccesarily get rid of your qualms/fears/hesitation, but I think it helps when you want to make that progress moving forward.

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Putative testing.

2.5 sprays of P125 approx 32.5mcg of pheromones.

So far I’m getting flowing and pleasant conversations with this Putative. Interactions have gone on longer and are more cordial than anything. My respect vibe is still there, but its more open and less threatening.

This might have to get field testesed in social situations when I go out tonight.

I decided to reapply again today about 5 horus after initial application.

P125 25mcg total to both sides of the neck.

I got a nice little rush when I applied this on, we’ll see how the rest of the interactions move forward on this day.

The interactions I had were just plain out pleasant. I met with a long time client today, and there was something different with her today in our interaction, it was less professional and more personal. I mean she was telling me about how she recently got engaged, this and that, but I couldn’t exactly pinpoint what was going on. So far what I noticed about this was more social in work environments.

Hmm

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I was also taking inventory of my pheromone inventory last night, and it’s sad I have like only a handful of MX301 sprays left. I mean I’ve tailored mixes to me that works as well, and sometimes better, but its so hard to replicate, keep in my car, spray two and go. MX395 had to be shelved too, that was another good blatant MX that worked well with me.

Sometimes I wish they release some more of these soon.

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Sooooooooooooooooo

Tested out P109 today, approximately 31.25 mcg (2.5 sprays new bottle, 5ml)

Anywhooooooo

I start my drive off today, not really noticing anything. Usually the self effects hit me like 10-15 min after application.

Today was eh, I was getting in today later, I didn’t have much to do, so I was nice and relaxed.

So as I’m going my car starts to slow down, starts reving down, won’t accelerate..

I’m out of gas.

Called my friend out, he got me gas. Went off on my merry way.

10 min later, I get tagged in a photo. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Hillarity ensues, 30 comments later.

I should have been more pissed. Considering the way my week has been. But nope, wasn’t really that big of a deal. I turned it into laughs

I think this is more, for self effects as “It happened, ok, move on and don’t let it drag you down” instead of “I don’t give a f*” self effect. It’s only my one time testing it so I gotta try again

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you need to try out P93 :slight_smile:

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I might just have to.

Tomorrow night is probably the best. I was thinking of keeping it simple. Some A314, Beta Nol, and P93.

Bring out some refreshers and good to go.

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I don’t know if it’s the P109

But I’m on point today.

I’ve been making everyone around the office laugh. I feel like I’m just having so much fun today

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P, just for future reference, there’s a little gauge right above your steering wheel (by all those numbers and other do dads) which reads the gas level in your car. When it gets to ‘E’ you should probably think about putting some more gas in there. Just a tip. :stuck_out_tongue:

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Isnt that exactly what he did though? I would suggest that you put gas in the car before it gets to E, which by the way means EMPTY or ESOPHAGUS or ELEPHANT depending which state you live in

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What he should have done was sprayed on some mones, stuck his leg out, and waited for some chick to pick him up. Every hurdle is an opportunity for success my friend. :slight_smile:

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Women, I still can’t understand them.

Techs

A314 2 drops front of neck, back of ears
MX301 2x sides of neck

It was a long day, I took it easy tonight just grabbed a drink. Saw D again. I was BSing with my two friends that worked there, it was still slow, there wasn’t too many people there and just winding down the day. I was relaxed, I mentally told myself no more with pursuing the interest there. I’ll be friendly and friend zone first.

D gets on shift and says hi. I know her by now, not the same happy D I met a few months ago. We smile at each other, I know there’s tension with us from the night before. I wasn’t really talking to her the prior night, it was busy, I was drunk, and it just didn’t click so to say. Plus I wasn’t gonna make an effort to be up her ass that point going forward.

Anyways, I asked how she was, and just said I’m just tired. I said, I know you well enough to know when you’re tired and when something is on your mind. She looks at me and just smiles, I said you can’t hide that something is bothering you from me, I know you. So she begins to tell me. Turns out to be an ex issue, go figure, makes a lot of sense now.

So we just get to talking and just kept the conversation light. I got a call from my mother and she needed a ride because the trains were all messed up. So I left but before I did she asked me if I was going to be back sometime next week. I told her I probably wouldn’t and that to have a good Thanksgiving, I hadda leave so I said gimmie a hug i’ll see you later. Two part purpose, you guys ought to know why by now.

Now the other part of the story.

I was up this morning, posted a status on up fb. We have a convo going back and forth between mine and hers. We do this for about 10 min. I’ll give the truncated version. Flirting again with me, and I don’t know what the heck is going on. We have an ongoing thing about visiting her in the city where she works at one of the bigger clubs there. Essentially she says she hopes I can get in because of the dress code (another inside joke), I tell her, well I know someone there, I should be ok (referring to her in the third person). Retorts back, “i hope she likes you enough”, I say back, yeah she likes me a little more than enough. Twisted it around again and said, “question is if i like her enough to go visit” and she goes I think so.

Now I don’t even know I’ve already relegated her to just a friend. I do like the flirting and the little sexual tension we have, but moving forward with anymore more, I’m just not sure. I did tell her that I know what she’s going through, if she needs to talk to someone, I’ve been there before. And I really do mean that, D is an awesome girl, but it just frustrates me to no end the circles we go around in. Well good thing I can just take it as fun now.

All about the mindset gentlemen. I forgot that for a bit but thanks for keeping me on track here.

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I’m an idiot, I used to always go with the mileage instead of the actual gauge but hey, we all learn. Can laugh about it later on.

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I use A LOT on Saturday night wow.

A314 SBE x2
P96 30mcg
P83 30mcg
P74 15mcg
P93 10mcg
Androstenone 5mcg
P75 2.5mcg
TAF 2.5mcg
IH4x x1

This mix seems to have that attraction pull factor to it. I was getting looks from everyone that night. I didn’t dress particularly well, it wasn’t a “night out” per se and it was more of all my friends going to a bar for people’s birthdays.

I was getting looks from two of these girls that I didn’t know, and it was to the point I wanted to just say hi, but I wasn’t feeling that well at all and I was tired. I wouldn’t have normally gone out that night but three of my friends had their birthdays so I couldn’t not go.

It really could have been a pretty interesting night, but arg.

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I think P51 is coming down with pirate sickness ARG :wink: I always wondered about that. Should you force yourself to entertain an opportunity or should it always feel natural. Do you feel that the P74 and the P96 coincide with each other? They seem to be cut from the same branch in terms of category but I feel one may perhaps muscle that tug of war more than the other. I dont have any P74 right now so I cant really test it myself so my next best bet is be inquisitive with you :smiley:

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I like the effects of P74 and P96 together so far. I haven’t tested them out exclusively, yet. But if you noticed, I don’t think I’ve used P74 many times at all over the last couple of months but when added on it gives that extra umph about it.

It seems to me P74 and P96; albeit still in the infancy of my testing, would be like, “i’m attracted to you and I can’t resist showing you.” That’s a pretty bold claim to make, so I gotta just test it out. Also if you noticed, most of the mixes I make aren’t for general hard hitting attraction, it is targeted to individual women. I’m relying more on my personality to get me in there and just amplify what I’m communicating.

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LOL!! Yea I see your subtlety in using 140mcg’s of pheros. :slight_smile:

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I like what P109 does for me, in a joking fun mood.

I spray about 25mcgs today and it really is a carefree lighthearted vibe that it gives you. Its like a party time/fun time molecule on how it affects me.

You know I did notice however I was getting irritation from nonesense, but I’m chalking that up to my exhausted nature this morning.

Also for example, I spilled hot tea, all over myself, this morning and all I did was laugh about it. It kinda gives you that “laugh about it now because in the bigger picture, it doesn’t matter”

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Its wintertime, the molecules won’t diffuse as much, LMAO