Tonight was an interesting one.
I thought about what I had said in the Saturday thread and modified things a bit. Instead of mx350 (mx203) I decided to go with straight p93 (4x10mcg). If my memory serves me correctly, 203/350 is 12.5 mcg spray of p93… so that’s why I went there.
1 drop A1 split wrists and throat
4x 10mcg spray p93 (each wrist + both sides of neck)
3x 50mcg meo-est (each wrist and front of throat)
3x 10mcg p83 (each wrist and throat)
.3/.5 spray x 12.5 mcg p75 to wrist then spread all over other app points
all neroli scented (minus the A1)
I smeared all of it together after each application.
I applied at approx 9pm. Went out to dinner @ a Thai restaurant with a friend. No major hits @ dinner but I did get a couple of good stares from the waitress and smiles.
Dropped my friend off and headed out to the bar where my other friend was going to be at. Just wanted to go for some drinks then I was gonna go to another spot to hang out with C from my Saturday report. C ended up being at the first spot I showed up at.
Same interactions as before.. lots of cutesy shit. Kino, kisses, etc. As the night would progress on though, things started to get interesting. She made a comment about the fact that she had been ‘chasing’ me and that was not like her. This sparked further conversation about how much she liked me etc. *note - this is the one who burned me 3 months ago and blew me off for another guy.
The conversation became very directed to the fact that she wanted me to be hers. I personally am not in the mindset where I can commit to anyone… and I am ‘dating’ at the moment and spending time with people who I enjoy spending time with. I am not sleeping with all of these girls, but each one provides some aspect of the attention I desire so I’m enjoying it. Some is more physical, some is more intellectual, some is just vibing… and I like it.
So I basically got put on the spot and was told that this person does not want to be lead around to believe there’s something more than there is. It’s funny because this is 100% role reversal from what happened like 3 months ago. There’s some factors involved that she’s dated/been involved with various people of a lesser quality or caliber of person than I am. I don’t say this in a disrespectful way at all, but they just don’t fill her needs. I’m the one who didn’t chase her and she bounced off to others that would and now she’s playing the chase game with me.
Tonight’s situation was extremely emotional though and I was not expecting it. I’m not sure how deep the mones were involved as alcohol was definitely a part of the equation, but the intensity of the emotional outburst seems to be spurred by them.
In my readings p93 has a bit of a chatterbox and crushy effect attached to it. I think this is pretty accurate. It’s social, it’s honest, and it’s HIGHLY attractive. It’s almost like b-nol but more intense in some ways. I’m really interested in testing the p93 more now.
In light of the current situation things are a bit crazy. I have one girl who has almost completely shut me out because of her ways of coping with major issues, and I have one who’s trying to make me hers lol. It’s kinda ridiculous at this point.
I’m going to use this exact mix in Reno tomorrow night. I like the self effects from the meo-est + A1 (calm and mellow) + p75 (didn’t talk much about it but it definitely adds a masculine vibe to the mix). C is going to be around. I’m hoping she hits me up in the morning and actually wants to talk while not under the influence. I do like this one.. I did awhile ago but she burned me so I’m very cautious. She’s said a lot of things about how she fucked up in the past but she wants me now. I wish she’d realize that words are words, and actions = real. But I digress…
Tomorrow in Reno I will apply the same mix before I head out to play the event. Hopefully things don’t get too crazy up there haha.