Okay, so school has been hell lately. You wont believe some of the shit that I’ve been going through every day for the past month, it’s just so ridiculous. There has been so much going around me, drama at school - doing class president extra-curricular work - plus preparing portfolio for university. And did I mention, 1000 people applied to this graphic design course in this university, and they only accept 60 people. OMFG what are the chances that I’m going to get in? I honestly have no hope. Good news is that I got my interview card for next week, bad news is that I didn’t prepare my portfolio yet.
OKAY…deep breath So to get rid of all this stress today. I decided to dose up on some mx235 and instant shine and stuffed in a few to-gos in my school bag 
, I needed some stuff just in case cause my semi-comps presentation was due. Plus I needed to lighten myself up today morning.
4 sprays of mx235
2 sprays of instant shine
Self effects: Felt hyper, but also anxious. But not in a bad way, I just felt a little shaky. This teacher I’ve got for this class is a total ass (total macho-alpha-male), so I had to prepare myself to see him! (he hated me when I wore mx134 or anything will tal it was interesting!)
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So I get into class, sit in a table. And during the whole presentation critique, he was always standing behind me. And he would open-close-open-close his pen/cap (it made the most annoying noise too) and right next to my ear! And he kept leaning beside me when he was trying to reach for the papers. And when he spoke (he uses his hands to make actions) and he would do it right infront of my face or above my head, it was really really weird. I couldn’t tell if he was just weird or if it was the pheros seriously. This guy is so weird to start off with.
At one point of the critique, this girl f**kin copied my idea! OMFG you had no clue how angry I was! I’ve been working on this concept for 3 weeks and she just stole it and the fact is that she went before me. Oh not to mention, she is my teacher’s pet. So I didn’t bother saying anything cause he would defend her anyways.
So after I present my concepts (which was the same thing as hers). She starts acting like I- I- IIIIIII stole her idea! Makes me sound like shit. This was the talk going around the whole class.
Anyhow, I try to forget about that stupid critique. And here comes trouble number 2. While I’m working, my dean wants to talk to me about the budget since I’m in-charge of the class fundraising money. Apparently, there was a difference of $500 in the safety box and according to my records. They suspected me of stealing that amount and started saying things like I better pay for it since I was in charge of the budget. So we had to go through each the record one by one, and turns out to be that he miscalculated the amount and just jumped to conclusions. When he found out that he was wrong, I was about to tear up (half of it from exhaustion/stress and the other half just being emotionally drained out). He offered to buy me dinner, he was trying to make up for it since I was getting all glassy-eyed lol…I say thanks and turn down the offer, but he keeps insisting to go with him to the cafetaria and I was like whatever might as well go get some food.
So anyhow, it’s night class is over. Mom calls me, she says that I got accepted in another university, but they need my portfolio by next monday. Holy hell that’s just so bad, I didn’t even start it and it takes a week to make a really good one.
Couldn’t take it…WAY TOO MUCH STRESS! omg, must take it out in some way
Went to the ladies room, no one was there so I quickly whipped out p96 and est. Don’t ask me why I used est, my brain was so fried, I was just putting on whatever on myself
4 sprays of p96 @ 37.5mcg
3 sprays of est @ 50mcg
Self effect: I was just breathing heavily since I didn’t want to break down. I did break down at one point. But the thing is that when I break down it usually takes me a big while to stop. After 5-10mins, I felt okay. And after 15mins, I felt a little better, I felt a bit content.
So I get out of the ladies room. And I walk down the hallway. My teacher is walking towards me (he’s about to go home)
Him: hey
Me: hi
Him: stares at me you okay?
Me: I’m always good.
Him: Smile
Me: Ugh…I got work to do.
Him: something wrong?
Me: Nope, bye see you tomorrow. smiles and walks to classroom
So it’s late night, and I finally get some work done. I get out of the lab room, to grab some coffee… and when I walked across his office (he was still there…and believe me, this guy does not stay that late!)
Anyhow, I dismiss my thoughts about him in his office hours, it was just so weird him staying that late, he’s usually the first one to leave when class is over. I come back and sit in the student lounge (it’s empty) and I have my muffin and coffee and guess who walks in…My teacher and this guy is an ass (really complicated guy actually).
So he walks in the lounge and stares at one of the student notices (so weird…) and he looks at me, says hi again. And I said hi back. But this time, I swear I looked okay (it’s not like my eyes were red, or like my face had that sorrow look) plus I felt waaaay better than before, I was smiling for once. So I ended up thinking about this funny comic strip I saw today and smiled randomly
He asks me what I’m smiling at, and I said that I thought of something. Between, this guy NEVER smiles, he always has that serious/straight look on his face (plus he’s super arrogant, ugh which makes it so much better). So I asked him why he never smile, and he gets all paranoid and fidgety like I did not make any sense. He was like “uh, I always smile” - which I gave the “yea right” look to him, and then he was like “oh no it’s not that, I’m always thinking, that’s why I hardly smile, I also not the happiest man” (WOAH, this guy is NEVER that personal…). So I tell him that he looks good when he smiles and that he should lighten up, and he gets all shy and coy and thanks me…woah, I didn’t expect this reaction from an arrogant-macho-alpha man. So when I got ready to go home, as I walked across his office in the hall way he froze with this big cheesy smile (he probably knew it was cheesy, but I’m sure that he was trying to make me laugh and I did). It was funny seeing this super-serious guy being such a goofball oh wow.
Anyhow, when I got home, before I went to bed, I always check my email. And I received an email from him, he replied to a question that I sent to him 2 weeks ago already. And he replied it a second time, which was sooooo weird. Interesting, cause this email didn’t have the previous reply I wrote to him at the bottom.
Sorry guys, I haven’t been able to keep in touch. I’m trying though.
xox
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Tell me how did this bitch get hold of your idea? Did you talk about it to anyone before hand? If so, stop doing that and keep your fabulous ideas to yourself and tell…no one. Design is a dog eat dog business. She’s the type who will steal anyone’s idea (and she’s not the only one) and take credit for it. Bitch. 
geeze).
What?!.. he likes barbecue!