So today I decided to play with p109 since I have other putatives and pheros.
5 sprays p109 (@10mcg)
4 sprays tal (@12.5mcg)
3 sprays p74 (@37.7mcg)
2 sprays p79 (@25mcg)
3 sprays is/o x 2
3 sprays of mx274
Covered all this with Come2Me from LP. I know, I know, I should have started with a smaller dose, I’m still a newbie but that’s not an excuse lol
Self reactions: I felt like I was in control but a bit nervous for no reason at the same time.
Effects from others:
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In the bus, only one dude stared. I feel like this mix wasn’t “blatant” (but I’m not complaining)
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I sat in the back of the bus as usual, but this time, both the ladies and men were crowding around me.
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I go to school talk with proffesseur about annoucing for a fundraiser (since I’m one of the class presidents), she’s really cool about it —and she usually isn’t— don’t know if she was in a happy mood though.
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Anyways, when I decide to annouce about the fundraiser to the class (btw: I initiated the whole activity with the store manager, teachers…got shit…and finally got a mini contract from them). This other president, totally cuts me off, talks about all the stuff that I wrote down on my key cards (she actually took it from my table). And she started messing up the whole announcement to the class, and everybody started getting confused…And there was this HUGE drama in class.
So after break, I had to rewrite my stupid speech again (and I was pissed as hell), reannouced it to the class, and people were really into what I had to say. It was so quiet when I talked than the other presidents, so I thought this was pretty interesting.
So after I finish the annoucement, class ends. I walk out of the classroom pissed off, and there’s a bunch of people after me asking “Hey, you ok? you seem a bit tense”, “Wow, you alright? you wanna come for some coffee?”.
I kind of said no-thank you politely to the requests, and as I walked down the hall way, I saw the b*tch that messed up my speech, and I fricken yelled my a** off for fucking things up. And I’ve never ever yelled at anybody in my class ever since the first semester, so people were looking at her like -uh oh- I did feel bad doing it, and I’m not fully blaming the pheros, and I’m definately not pms-ing, so I don’t know what the hell went wrong.
So while she’s standing there with wide eyes, I finish my last sentence and keep walking down the hall way all grumpy and frown-y. And I see the world’s grumpiest teacher in the world (this guy is always grumpy), and he asked me if I was alright, I said yea…blah. I did give him the serious, don’t try to piss me off kinda look. And he started praising about my illustration skills from my last conceptual presentation a few days ago. And believe me, he has never said the word “beautiful work” to me ever. And he was more polite to me this time.
So I say thanks, now I was near the empty escalators, and the pua type guy who has been trying to get into my pants for the last two years comes, says hi, and was acting totally gentlemanly. And this guy is usually an arrogant dumb-ass who always makes a sexual comment about himself, or me whenever he sees me. So this was a really nice change.
So I come back to my second class, the girl that I yelled at is infront of my table. And when I went to my table, I didn’t even say a hi (don’t ask, I was in a bitchy mood). And while everyone was looking at us, she took something out of her school bag and placed it on my table. It was supposed to be a sorry gift --it was a box of licorice btw-- and she was all apologetic.
My guy friends were not as touchy/playful today (not complaining) but then they would have gotten frightened by the bitchy air I was giving out today lol
Anyways, things in school went okay. I get back on the bus, nothing special happend. I felt really tired and fell asleep, and when I woke up at my stop fiew a group of guys (they looked gang-ish) were staring at me. Kinda scarry so I jogged home lol.
So I come home, mom/sis asks me the same question with a different statement “Why, do you look intense today?” I never flame at my mom, cause she’s a sweetie trying to help out, but today, I was basically asking people to leave me alone lol maybe it’s been a bad day.
Plus I was pissed I didn’t win this year’s achievement award when I won it last year. So I felt totally stupid and worthless today. I need to get over it. So this may have been part of my moody-ness.
It must have just been a really bad day, don’t know if the pheros played a part, but I wrote down what mostly happened.
Good grief, I wrote a fricken novel because of my rambling. My brain is so fried…sorry if I cooked yours too lol.
im sorry that things were upsetting today 
poor you, but yea, I mean you’ve got to live with it, cause afterall, Mrs.B has been making up with your sillyness for so much years lol 