6:30am I put 12.5 mcgs on the back of my hands and smear my forearms and jaw, then drive to work. Nothing really to note about the ride in.
7:15am another 12.5 at work (Dilbert world - cubicleland). A little later a co-worker calls over the cubicles to see if I left an envelope on her desk. “Say what?” So, I go over and see what was left on her desk and see that it’s not the boss’s handwriting either. I told her that she had a customer name and she could search – and she cut me of saying, "And find out who it belongs to! You’re a genius!’ Yeah, right! I don’t think that was the P99, but ?
8:30am and another 12.5 mcgs. Just trying to keep busy. Noting really to note.
9:55am and another 12.5 mcgs. Today is boring.
At 12 noon I have a smoke and bam! I caught one nicotine buzz! I thought this may have been with the help from P99, but then I realized the salesgirl give me ‘filters’ and not ‘lights’.
At 3:20 I notice some anxiety, but later I figured it was a call I had to make before I leave for the day.
4:30pm I leave for the day and head down to Watering hole N.
I park myself upwind of most everyone. At 5pm I put on another12.5mcgs and noticed nothing from the people downwind.
At 6pm I put on another 12.5mcgs and notice nothing as I stick around until 7:30 and go home.
Hate to say it, but P99 so far looks like a dud (or far too subtle) to me. I have half a to-go left and will visit this one again, later.
7:00am 1 spray (12.5 mcgs) on upper chest and drive off to breakfast. This day I’ll eat close to work. As I’m driving there is this strange feeling – hard to describe – not hunger, not guilt – kinda like ‘lovesick puppy’.
8:45am 2 sprays to forearms and wipe with back of hands and hands to jaw.
Again, I am not noticing anything unusual with my co-workers.
10:30am 3 sprays – same as before. I still have that undefined feeling. Later I go all the way home for lunch – which is 14 miles one way. And drive back. I had a burger.
I’m near the end of the to-go bottle and decide to ramp it up later at the watering hole.The rest of the workday was nothing of note.
5:30pm I arrive at Watering Hole N and my spot is taken and my only option is an inferior downwind spot. Shortly after 6pm a couple people leave and I am able to claim #2 stool – upwind of most everyone. I stop in the men’s room and I was able to get 14 sprays out of the rest of the bottle. 175 mcgs
Ms K, Mr D and Mr E are there. Mr E is quiet – he’s having woman problems. I ask him how he is weathering the storm and he just shakes his head and looks down.
BAM!! Ms K, who is wearing a ball cap, has the bill of her hat on my head as she had invaded my personal space! She’s telling me stuff she knows I already know. Another quarter inch closer and it is face on face contact. This is uncalled for!
Is P99 doing this? Making her want to get close? Did she get the ‘lovesick puppy’ feeling?
I think I’ll order another stronger bottle of this P99 and try it again on other women!
Hind sight is 20/20. I should have spun around and grabbed her butt and pulled her up onto my leg just to see what her reaction would have been. But for me the attraction is just not there with this girl.
Put 2 sprays on my forearms and into work at 8:00.
Too many people off work. Not a lot of opportunity to see effects.
I still get an ‘empty’ or ‘lonely’ type feeling - love sick puppy.
Didn’t waste anymore at work.
5:00pm - Watering Hole N - favorite spot - 3 sprays. I was watching the regulars for any effects, but Mr. W (a very good friend) walked in and sat next to me and wanted to talk about his troubles - that priority required my full attention for the next 3 hours - and trying to solve (relationship) problems with no apparent solution can really take it out of me.
I left shortly after he did. Tried to go to sleep at 10:30 but was irritated and agitated at the lack of cooperation on the part of the pillows.
A warm shower calmed me down.
The next day was nearly an exact repeat. I was able to sit down and talk with Ms. E in her cubical (wearing 100 mcgs). After about 3 minutes she became very quiet. I asked her if there was something wrong and she just replied that she was thinking of family members. I asked her if she wanted to talk about it and she did not. (Loneliness?)
When I got to the Watering Hole, Mr. W was already there and had been for most of the day.
I had put on 200 mcgs out in the car before I walked in. I guess I shouldn’t have done that. He had me very worried as we talked all evening. Barmaid S finally flagged him and I helped him home a little after midnight.
It was so late that the neck bones didn’t care about cooperation from the pillows.
I was thinking the P99 was some sort of ‘one on one’ communication enabler, but my focus was on Mr. W’s problems - serious problems, so I think that was me and not the P99 and can’t come to that conclusion as yet.
I have beta androstenol but have not used it solo - so I can’t call it either way at this time. But my gut feeling right now is no - P99 is something else - and not Instant Honesty either.
8:00am 1 spray (50 mcgs) at work.
9:10am 2 sprays - “love sick puppy effect” not as pronounced today.
10:00 break - 1 spray.
Stopped by and talked to Ms. T and compared notes on our common surgery adventure. Covered a lot of territory in 15 minutes - just the one subject.
Stopped by to see Mr. M and talked about a book I lent to him on human relationships. Seems he is interested and about a 1/4 way through it already and was surprised at the statistics and reasoning. Again we covered a lot of territory in a short amount of time - just one subject.
2:30pm - 1 spray. Stopped by to see Ms. E about a problem I’m having with a particular end of the line case where there is nothing else we can do. She takes off her shoes again and swings her feet. We spend several minutes going over and over seeking a solution - she becomes quieter - we decide to leave them until a supervisor can look at the futility and give us direction. A lot of really similar cases discussed in a short amount of time - just one type of problem subject.
3:10pm another spray. Ms. L drops by with a problem and we study the paper together and think. We both keep tossing options back and forth trying to identify a probable solution and come up with very many - and distill it down to bouncing it off another department. Again, a lot of territory in a short time - just one subject.
P99 just might be a one-on-one communications enabler - but in all these cases it was strictly business - think and analyze - no funny Spaceland behavior and no funny “spill the beans” Instant Honesty like effect noted.
Perhaps a slight loss of confidence in making decisions - or a desire for a mutually shared conclusion.
BAM!! Ms K, who is wearing a ball cap, has the bill of her hat on my head as she had invaded my personal space! She’s telling me stuff she knows I already know. Another quarter inch closer and it is face on face contact. 