Well, I can’t believe i’m finally here. I’s been a struggle, but I really wanted to wait untill I had the correct sense of directiobn to write my experiences (sense of direction is hard to quantify, lets just say i needed quiet time when I’m aware that social expectations are about to get high or higher than normal.
First, thanks to this awesome community and the team and regulars who run these baords that run this board, you’re all mad, crazy, wackie and i love it!.
three years ago i boke up with my wife, beginning afresh social anxiety and agoraphobia. i’ve tried every supplement under the sun including many illegal, some prescribed that are horrible and that are bannd for import or warned by the TGA.
I considered myself well versed in complimentery meds and the current modes of psychology. Mindfullness meditation is a powerful healing tool.
Three days ago, Wednesday the 19th, I began Instant Shine. I had many responsibilities that day, the first was my psych doc. I was running late and building nerves, so tried to remember instructions. Two sprays, one on neck so i could experience it, and one on hands. I was so much more at ease with calling and rebooking, and they were just as kind back (which just shows how narcissism and guilt are trult products of your own mind, they clearly did not smell me from 5 Kilometers away.
One more IS half hour later and 2 x Instant Honesty. I was ‘out’ running short errands and returning exhausted but not as much as i would usually. I rearranged debts, helped my ex with a prob regarding my sort-of-son (explain later) called people who owed money to me and and made calls to a governmnet agency to assist my dear sister with a a crises she was having.
I had lunch sitting down with my neighbours (family) and spoke briefly with them. This is highly unusual, they usually make lunch, i graba plate and run (they absolutely insist I eat two meals, with them or on my own, bless them!).
I’m aware of placebo effect, i’ve had every prescribed anti-depressant, anxiolytic and stimulant available in au (including horrible life degenerating anti-psychotics). I’ve had all the illegal agents (the best and worst being methylamphetamine and Cocaine, horrible succesors to my prescribed stimulants, dextro-amphetamine and methylphenidate). Codeine featured prominently in my life for two years but I kicked that. I’ve also had and am taking some ‘lightweight’ nootropics. So, whilst it was no doubt that some of what i felt onmy first day was placebo, my natural pattern is to not believe something will work (and Instant magic worked straight away!)
