Hello everyone. I not good at writing, so I guess I’ll make a quick introduction about myself. Just call me by my nickname, killua. I am a guy, 20 years old, currently stay in Malaysia. Please don’t be shocked reading my problem details, cause I’m serious here. ^^
Few weeks ago, I was surfing the internet looking for some ways to improve myself, and that’s how I start to learn something about pheromone. I have searched a few sites with very pheromone product, but there’s one thing I’m sure of: there’s no such thing as magic potion that have no adverse effect. I am well aware of a real pheromone that will works wonder only when a right combination of ratio were use, and a wrong combination can end up either too strong, or have no effect at all, that’s why I have choose to sign up at this site to learn more, and hope it can help me change my life even more.
I use to live indoor all days playing games and sleeping before this, but now I am a college student, I realize that how much is socializing important to any of us. I have made a serious decision to make certain changes about myself, but some of my bad habits are hard to break. So now here’s my problem:
Ø I am kind of anti-social (not really, but don’t really go outdoor often if nothing important).
Ø I sometimes hate to talk ( but I always think a lot, but not telling out what am I thinking, even funny stuff)
Ø I have a very bad past, bad memory. Sometimes when I just get the mood to talk, I will think back about some of my sad memory, and always end up setting a barrier with the surrounding again. In other words, any minutes I will screw up any conversation.
Ø I always appear too strong, violent, and cold in front of some people. Actually, it’s not true. I think because of my eye brown make me looks serious or maybe because of I learn martial arts or maybe both, make me looks even worse ==”. But actually, I am a gentle guy inside me. I know myself more than anyone, and my friend who I share about myself a lot with say so too.
Ø I am not that confidence when it comes to presentation. I had overcome it by a lot through practice recently, but I don’t think it’s till enough. In martial arts however, I know that I’m sure that my ability is above average, but always refuse to fight, or maybe afraid of hurting my team mate.
Ø I have a look better than average (best feature: Eyes), and have better fashion taste than most guys around me. Obviously, I appear strong and cold most of the time (that’s not cold actually, is cool and smart, to Asians only I guess. Hahaha). I know there’re some girls interested with me when the first time they meet me (obvious sign of interest ^.~), but they always too shy to get to me ==”. Well, it’s not all their fault, because me, myself is not a talkative person, I really can’t get myself to entertain them. I always end up “ignoring” them, causing them disappointed, or screw out my chance when me myself is interested with them.
Ø I always being blur about what people or the lecturer is talking about, hard to focus on study and always asking annoying question about what’s other people talking.
Well, sorry for the long introduction, but I guess anyone seeing this can understand how serious am I toward solving my problems. I am still working hard to solve this, but I really do hope if pheromone can help me solve some of these problems so I can hasten my “self-upgrading” process.
So far, I have read some of the product of this site, and the comment left by some expert member, but I don’t really know what works for “MY” situation. I have plan to try out “Alpha A314” to boost my confidence, "Instant Openness” and “Instant Honesty” to help in communication problems, “Instant Shine” to make people around me happy without saying much and improve my focus, and finally maybe some “Turn Up The Heat” to get the girl who interested with me and I’m interested to her as well to make a move.
I have the plan, however I’m not expert and I don’t know how to combine them, and what ratio would suite me. I hope some expert out here could help me out with some advices, even if it’s just a small piece of advice; I’ll appreciate it a lot. ^^