And I’m back on the phero-wagon after a long break away. Just ordered small TAA, TAF, TAC and TAL for testing and mixing purposes.
I was hoping for some MX335 or MX109 (hah, dream on) to be available, but no cigar. 
Hey you! 
Well, there are some to-gos of MX135 in the store. I have the ones you ordered, what mcgs did ya get?
I’m waiting for some cops, myself…and waiting. 
Getting desperate here…CAN ANYBODY HEAR MEEEEEEEEE! 
I also want P96, SteveO said that’s in the works.
It’s good to see you, Tak.
Bella
Hey Bella! So happy that you stopped by my journal! I saw the MX135 but I still have a fair amount of that in my goodie bags so I thought I’d leave some for the others.
I so love MX335 that I’m trying to pace myself on it.
Cops are needed, yes yes! Agreed. And more EST. I’m still kicking myself.
I got the concentrations that you recommended in reply to my other post, give or take what was available in to go sizes.
Buyer beware - Pheromones can mess with the status-quo
I have a little note that I wanted to write down for the longest of times. It’s about my best male friend and how little it takes to mess with the delicate balance of a friendship.
For years and years, my best friend and I have been as close as the fingers on a hand, inseparable and it is difficult to think of one without thinking of the other, I am told.
When I first started using pheromones, he was not in the country, having moved to the US for a year. Things were fine and dandy and I was happy to test out the pheros, affect my environment and try things out.
I swirled around my little potions, testing the boyfriend, the ex, the TG and all that.
And now that my best friend is back, it’s a little complicated. I noticed the littlest of changes in him. How he no longer views me as unsuitable dating material… how he “might” be interested (his words)… and all this, probably already dormant under the surface, brought there by my (ab)use of Instant Honesty and bonding pheros.
We would not be not good together, as good a match as kerosene and a lighter. Now, I’m trying to be extra-careful around him, regarding what mix I wear.
Oh boy. So, I guess it’s safe to say this attraction is one sided? Yes, * cough *, Honesty can be wicked…and definitely stay away from anything too sexual…though I don’t think it’s gonna matter much if he’s already traveling down that road. Jeez, even the socials are attractive. I know you don’t want to screw up the friendship. It’s a sticky wicket, pet.
How did he approach you with this? If you tell us a little more about his personality, maybe that would help us figure out something.
God, why isn’t it ever the ones we…want.
Bella
Hah, “sticky wicket” is an apt description, love that expression. I don’t hear it often in these parts.
Basically, he slipped it in the conversation one evening during dinner preparations that if I kept going the way that I was going, he’d be interested. And also, he’s been alluding to getting down and dirty with me more than his normal sex-obsessed mind would.
Bestie is a very upfront, blunt, extroverted person with a depth to him. He’s social but likes to connect on a deep level (hence the IH being a mistake around him) before he learns to appreciate others. I guess this is why he has trouble connecting with many people and often complains that others are too shallow and whatnot.
In a way, I think he expects a coup-de-foudre instant connection type in friendship. Therefore he doesn’t do well in large crowds or any place where people’s attention can be attracted to a source of distraction.
But he has an interest in combat sports (thai boxing and the like), in the army and has strong opinions in politics and society that he is not afraid to air in public. He has trouble adapting to social “graces” and feels that people should adapt more to him (or perhaps should have more of a “stiff upper lip” type reaction to unpleasant things), because he finds them to be very “weak” in opinion, etc… Basically, he hates anything too PC and being PC is difficult for him.
Also, his efforts to be socially agreeable can come off as smarmy because he turns on the charm extra-hard and it comes off as fake in comparison to his normal self.
He is a very slender slip of a thing but he walks with stiff shoulders, being as square as he can (often bumps into people because of that) and his body language is extremely rigid at all times.
In love, he’s been burnt badly by his ex, a real piece of work and does not trust women very much at this point.
He says he wants a girl with traditional values (not necessarily enforcing them very strictly, just in general and in aspiration) but with a healthy sexual appetite. Likes to be alpha and butts heads with me on this because he sees himself as the natural leader.
I do want to help him find the right girl for him but it’s like trying to eke blood from a stone because he can be difficult. I tried to have him use the Ammo but he didn’t see the benefit of it (his attitude is not congruent at all).
And also, he made a major blunder in regards to TG the other week, basically let the cat out of the bag in a very blunt and not at all helpful way (he said TG was angry after their little talk). One of my girlfriends said that it might have been accidentally on purpose (he might not see it as a bad thing but his subconscious might have made him pick the worst things to say).
After talking to Steve about p86, he asked me about the effect of p74 in terms of crashing.
I’m a little sleep deprived at all times, so this may affect my crashes, as my body felt deprived of whatever molecules mean that you are well rested.
p86 gave me a “cool, fun girl, verbal diarrhea” effect and crash. Very sociable, but diffusing information outside, wanting to communicate with others without necessarily listening to others. Just want to put my thoughts out there in the open.
p74 didn’t make me crash at all when I used it, no matter how many sprays (from memory, I used up to 5 at around 10mcgs). It made me really feel like the coolest but without the verbal diarrhea. This felt like others wanted to put their thoughts in my basket for review, me absorbing their talk, not necessarily sharing, more consumer than producer.
Aaaaaand waking up after dosing myself with Spaceland -a major gift I once received from Androtics!!-
5 sprays: hair, crown of head, open collar area
Falling asleep phase: After having hung up the phone, I switched off the light and lay down in bed. Normally, after talking on the phone, I’m a little agitated (perhaps not agitated but a little bit buzzed and still pumped from the conversation). My eyes took a little time to adjust to the darkness and I felt as everything was very, very quiet.
This morning when I woke up, it was in the middle of a rather vivid dream. The details now escape me, as I took too long to write it down but it felt more like watching a movie than having had a dream.
Despite having gone to bed really, REALLY late, I don’t feel as exhausted as I normally would. This is a little different because I’ve been sleep deprived for a couple of days and should just feel totally shattered.
Anyways, TGIF! and let’s see how I’m going to be doing tonight.
Good evening everyone! I had the best time ever this evening and was totally not expecting to.
Last night, I spent a whole lot of time on the phone, picking SteveO’s brains about pheros and mixes and NLP and wham, bam, it was 2 am and I was not getting a whole lot of sleep. So I tried the Spaceland thing that I described earlier today.
Fast-forward to this evening, after a tedious day and a last-minute rush to get things done, I get home, take a shower to wash my hair and reapply some new pheros.
Tonight, I tried on what I call the “superhero mix”. It’s taking the MX135 effect and adding tweaks to achieve the super-charismatic, super-charged effect that I go. Boy did this not dissapoint.
Dosage:
MO-EST - 10 mcgs - 4 sprays around the whole face/hair area
p74 - (dosage not known right now) - 3 sprays to head and hair
p86 - 10 mcgs - 4 sprays (neck, chest, back of head)
IS/A - 2 sprays - Neck/chest
p79 - 10 mcgs - 3 sprays to hair after all the other pheros
I’d already planned on adding MX134/135 but didn’t want to overload before my important meeting, as I had a fear I’d burn out or turn into a motormouth.
If you feel I put a lot in my hair, it’s because I have really long hair and it helps immensely with diffusion, floating around me with my every move.
I met up with some colleagues at a cafe near my home and we had a really good time, despite being in a rush. Conversation flowed and I felt as if my attention was divided between everyone equally. If anything, I was a bee, sampling on all the different conversations.
To me, it seems that I was very cool but my colleagues were a little strange, not as caring as we normally are. We are usually not as catty about our job but here, we were dissing the management right left and center. The feeling was a little like we are “too cool for school” kinda type.
Additional:
MX134 - 3 sprays to hair - For the TAL alphaness.
MX135 - 2 sprays - armpits as a deodorant refresher. This always works really well and when I move my arms, the chocolatini wafts out nicely in the sleeveless top I’m wearing, which is the only reason I do this. Strangely enough, it never stinks even if I sweat.
Can’t give too many details here as they’re pretty identifying but I had a meeting with someone for a job that might end up changing my life. Basically, the guy didn’t seem to hot about it when he arrived at the meeting but after I excused myself to add the MX134/MX135 combo, things changed dramatically.
The guy just sat back and seemed to reevaluate me right there and then, I could almost see my “approval gauge” going up by the second. We had a really good talk, conversation flowed seamlessly, points of conflict/dissagreement were glossed over to my advantage and we totally… clicked on a professional level.
He agreed to my terms on the thing and we are going to work together for something that basically benefits me the most. Also, he heaped compliments on my past achievements and showcase. I still can’t believe it, it felt so good to hear that he loves my work. 
It’s fantastic, I’m so buzzed! After this, the rest of my evening was naturally fantastic.
In the subway, I was alone in my little 6 seater section and this guy comes in, sits opposite me. He immediately did a double take and started watching me out of the corner of my eye. I pretended to be a little busy, checking my phone, my bag, my agenda… After a while, he leaned forward and asked me for the time. I gave it to him and he thanked me.
Then a little later, he started to ask me where I was from and I gave a dummy response. He then replied: “Oh, I’m only asking because I thought you’re Polish, like me”.
Let me tell you, I may look like a lot of things but Polish, no way. The whole Eastern European physical type? Even a blind drunk would see that I am so not.
He started to ask me for my phone and got a little more pressing but thankfully, it was my stop and I scrambled off.
I was meeting a friend and his new girlfriend for the first time with some mutual friends. We decided to grab some noodles and waited quite a while for our table. Since the restaurant was pretty full, we waited quite a bit outside, talking.
Throughout the meal, I really felt the center of attention and just could not stop talking (p86). Even me telling about my soap opera of a laugh had everyone in stitches, despite te boring repetitive nature of some events (p74?).
Normally, I do have to fight for attention but here, it was lavished on me. Totally. No restrictions. I was a total goddess (or attention whore, depending on how you see it 
) (p79 as amplifier). Welcome to the Takhisis show, don’t forget to tip your waitstaff.
And guess what, guys, NO crashing effect right now from the p86… well, I’m starting to feel tired but it’s past 1am and it’s been a long day.
In closing, I would like to add:
omgsquee!
TAA report
Spray: 3 @12.5 mcgs, in the facial vicinity (upper chest, forelock, neck)
Pre-spray mood: Dismal. I came home angry and frustrated at various things in my life, and not feeling very hopeful. Not even the Androtics package made me happy.
Action time: About 5 minutes, give or take.
Effect: My mood improved. I wouldn’t say it put me in a happy shiny mood, oh no, not at all. My mood was better and instead of feeling down and horrible about everything, I felt a lot of evil glee. The kind where I could go around murdering puppies while singing Julie Andrews and grinning from ear to ear.
TAL report
Spray: 3 @ 10 mcgs on hair, neck and cleavage
- 3 sprays of MX134
Pre-spray mood: Usual morning mood, rushed for work
Action time: 10 minutes, probably since my mind was foggy from sleep
Self-effect: Felt more goal oriented, ready for work and focused on doing something intelligently.
Reactions:
This morning and for the first time, senior work colleagues (and management) were first to greet me (MX134) and actually pay attention to my continued presence at the office. Usually around here, you have to greet people for them to greet you back, specially if they are a higher up in the hierarchy.
This time, I was the one being greeted!
I also felt much more confident in putting across what I wanted to do in my job, rather than wait for people to outline how I was expected to meet their goals. This felt much more rewarding.
My mind feels a little clearer, although still cluttered with a list of things. Now my priorities are emerging. It seems as if the roadmap of my agenda has become clear to me, and I have the gumption to push it (peacefully) to others (added TAL).