First I want to point out that this is all Tisha’s fault. Encouraging me to experiment with new pheromones is like throwing gasoline on an out-of-control blaze. I mixed more new things together here than I probably should have, but I got some interesting results.
It was my intention to experiment with TAH. I have learned what to expect from TAL, but I have never noticed anything from the small amounts of TAH I have used. From my 2.5mcg bottles I used three sprays of TAL and twice as much (six sprays, 15mcg) TAH. I used three drops of A314, which is typical for me and it balances the female pheromones.
I also used small amounts of other pheromones which are typical of my basic phero signature: 2 sprays Instant Honesty, Scent of Eros and one spray Instant Female Magic. This would have been a good test of the female pheromones TAL and TAH, over-balanced to the TAH side against the background of what I typically wear.
Then I realized my first stop was going to be in the rich, caucasian part of town so I mindlessly grabbed the P93 and sprayed myself with 10mcg of Blond Magic, which I’ve only just begun to experiment with.
Well, I was getting frustrated looking for the shirt was planning to wear, finding which pair of pants I left my cell phone in, all that. You know… I’m ready to go, but I haven’t quite managed to get myself dressed. So I (again, mindlessly) grabbed the TAK I have been experimenting with as a calming agent and blasted myself with 15mcg of TAK – as though it would wear off in fifteen or twenty minutes when I walked out the door (which, of course, it didn’t).
So I’m cursing myself a few minutes later as I walk down the street toward the subway. I feel really weird. Men never look at me and the women that do look my way have that sense of bewilderment that denec mentioned with TAH. I am getting very self-conscious and the TAK is making me feel very dissociated from my own body, awkward, clumbsy, strangely removed from the here and now.
Fortunately I discovered that 50 ml of vitamin V is a partial antidote for this mixture. I generally carry a miniture of vodka in my jacket. Life is full of emergencies. By the time I get to the bank I am a little more comfortable with feeling weird. The teller is a young caucasion woman who (unlike people on the street) recognizes me. She is just beaming. Seeing me is better than Christmas! Wow. I can’t remember the last time someone looked so glad to see me. And I don’t know this woman other than as a teller who has taken deposits of money from me on two or three occasions.
So lets review. I am hopped up on cuddly female pheromones. I have the A314 respect of an authority figure. I guess that makes me a princess. The P93 makes that a golden haired princess. And I’m a man so all this princessness is trapped in a male body. Plus the TAK has lifted me out of reality and somehow put me above what is going on with the rest of the world. There is only one name for this mix: Pre-op Repunzel.
When A.P.R. decides to introduce this as a consumer product, I think they should seek out a marketing agreement with Stolichnaya. Buy a liter of Stoli, get a bottle of Pre-op Rapunzel. Order Pre-op Rapundel, get a complementary bottle of vodka. I mean seriously, a man has to be pretty GD secure in his sexuality to intentionally go out into the world as Pre-op Rapunzel, stone cold sober!
So leaving the bank I decided I might be happier with my own kind. Where am I gonna find cutsy female creatures with an inflated sense of their respectability and importance, who, nevertheless, manage to perfom on a level above the rest of us? Stupid query, no? The only real question is: Which nudie bar do I go to?
The waitress was an attractive caucasian girl who I’d never seen before. I got an awful lot of prolonged eye contact and smiling, glowing attention. The first beer I ordered, she had inordinate difficulty making change. I think her problem was that she was trying to look at me while she was counting money.
I got more attention from the blond dancers where usually I would get less. The P93 really highlighted the blonds and caucasians in general. I was very skeptical about the Caucasian Magic thing, but today’s experiences made a believer outta me. I definitely had a stronger empathic connection with caucasians, whereas usually I have a stronger empathic connection with asians. I am caucasian. My children are half Chinese.
If I take Pre-op Rapunzel to the strip club again, I think I’ll wait until just before I arrive to add most of the mix, which can be uncomfortable in some real world situations. I’ll increase the TAH slightly and the P93 as well. And I’ll cut the TAK at least in half.
Tater says bisexual women (e.g. strippers?) like TAH and TAL but not TAA. This was part of the inspiration for what became the Pre-op Repunzel mix. I have noticed recently when I wear TAA to the strip club it is a less enjoyable experience. At first this is counterintuitive as TAA can be very good in some social mixes. The best I can figuer the TAA qualities of decreased personal distance, balanced, centered, here & now are just too real and interfere with the fantasy. TAA is too kinesthetic and strip clubs are visual. It might be different for a lap dance place.
I have not tried TAA and TAK together. I will soon. They strike me as having opposite effects. TAK is dissociative. TAA centers one in the physical self, in my experience. If TAA is bad for kinky women and strip clubs, perhaps a bit of TAK is good? I think I got too much today. That may be what gave the waitress problems making change. (Some of 'em are just dumb, but this one was distracted, not stupid.)