Warning long report
OK, so I have been playing around with some ideas based upon my recent tests with putatives and my improv of MX353. I have a rough mix that I’m working on. I need to adjust the doses.
Thursday cont…
Second application At 12pm I applied 25 mcgs of P96, 5 mcgs of p75, 7.5 mcg’s of p76, 10 mcg P102, 7.5 mcg TAF, 5 mcg Androstenone, 10 mcg P83, 10 mcg p79
Self Effects Aware
Effects on others Within 5 minutes of spraying on I walked into Firestone to have my car looked at. The place was basically empty. One of the workers was on the phone. A lady walks in that apparently delivers stuff. She is waiting for the guy on the pone. She keeps smiling at me. Big whole body smiles. I wanted to hug her.
My friend swings by to pick me up. I hop in his truck and he starts talking. We head over to Costco. I walk into Costco, he has to run back to his truck so I walk right in and start looking around. He finds me and asks me how I got in without showing my card. No one ever asked me about a card. So we are looking around. He’s trying to find some stuff for his wife for Christmas. At one point I am on an aisle and we are discussing blankets. This redhead comes by me and grabs a snuggy or whatever you call them about 4 feet away. She locks eyes with me and giggles. I’m sure that was a hit. I didn’t see her before she picked up the blanket. I wasn’t in her way. She locked eyes with me when I glanced in her direction. I saw her again a few minutes later when she walked past me smiling. I didn’t notice any other hits there from what I can tell. (Just a note. My town has a very high population of 8’s and above. There are so many attractive women here.)
We swing over to Lowes for something. I think it was for window stuff. I get bored and walk around. This very attractive caramel flavored girl that works there, probably early 20’s, asked me if I need any help. “No not really. Unless you are bored and just want to walk around with me pretending to show me stuff.” She laughs at that and blushes a little. “I’m doing reporting” is all she says. She continues to look at me for a minute as I keep walking. “OK, have fun with that.”
Somewhere around 2pm I’m working and I have go into an office of a VP of a company that my company has a contract with to check on a wireless device. This company is one of the largest in the world btw. I’m a Network PM in my day job. I normally don’t do any installations, but my guys were tied up and I just needed to add some antennaes. So I walk into this posh office suite. At first I don’t see anyone as I head towards the conference room. Then I see “D”. Wow!! She’s in her late 30’s from what I have been told. I have seen her once before and she just seems to glow. At first she seems lost when she sees me. So I walk up and start telling her what I need to do. I ask her some questions to which she doesn’t have answers. She asks me who I am again. I can tell she is completely confused. So i ask her what her name is. Then I say “Oh I know who you are.” Honestly up until that point I hadn’t put it together yet. I currently work with people she used to work with. Her eyes light up and she relaxes a bit. I go into the conference room and do my work in like 5 mins. I come back out and she is talking to an older lady that is the VP’s assitant. D explains to the assistant what I am doing. And I go into some detail. Then something happens. I can’t leave, because the women keep asking me questions. D is smiling non stop. Her eyes are extremely wide. I don’t know if this is normal for her or not, but she does a lot of eye fluttering and then some hair play. But her and the other lady just keep talking to me. I can’t break the conversation. What should have taken 5 mins turns into 20 mins. They want to see what I have done. They want to talk to me about my coworkers. I bring up the Christmas party that we had and then the conversation really flows. D has become the essence of sensuality. The 3 of us end up in a conference room discussing something that another company is doing next week that has nothing to do with me. I’m glad the other lady was there, because the confined space increased D’s eye fluttering or twitching or whatever. It looks like her eyeballs are going to come out of their sockets. Honestly I would have licked this woman from head to toe. In looks she is a solid nine, but add sexual and sensuality and she’s an 11. She’s interested obviously. Joking with me some and flowing with the conversation, but never taking her eyes off of me. I finally am able to break the conversation when I mention that I need to speak with someone else about work we are doing this weekend. Another female that works in the building. A sensual older redhead. Apparently her name has some power to it, because they hurry me out the door. So I meet with the redhead, T. Her and I have met several times before. She sees me and says “Josie! How are you? What are you doing here?” Let me tell you that this is not the reaction I was expecting. So I give her a hard time about missing a meeting earlier in the week. She begins a friendly flirtatious banter. Her body however is telling me how comfortable she is in my presence and how much of a woman she is. Finally I get away from her too. I go down to where my contractors are and I mention that I got distracted by D. One of them laughs and says 'Oh you met D. yes she can be distracting and she knows it." I didn’t mention that I couldn’t make her stop talking to me.
At around 5pm I get back to Firestone. In the lobby is a blonde in her 30’s and a very attractive brunette with a shorter hair cut, and several target bags. The workers are not in the room. The lobby has a large L shaped couch. The brunette is on one side and the blonde on the other. So I walk around the back of the couch past both women and then in front of the brunette. "I say good evening ladies’ and I sit in the middle of the couch between the two. I’m not sure if the blonde said anything, because the brunette opened her body towards me and began talking. All kinds of IOI’s. Hair play, lip biting, batting of eyes, never looked away from me, lots of smiles, laughter, giggling, clothing adjustments, and even squuezing her legs together. It was a sight to behold. She told me where she lived, told me it was her son’s birthday party in 40 minutes. She talked to me about the new firestone opening closer to where we both live. Told me about her husband and her kids. Somewhere in here the blonde got her vehicle and left. I never got to say anything else to her, because the other lady had me completely engaged. When the workers came back in again I asked about my vehicle. Turns out they screwed up the part order so I was going to be there for a while. So I made a joke about needing to hurry because I was just invited to a birthday party. The brunette laughed and had a little twinkle in her eye. They got her vehicle around and she told me bye and to have a good night. It was a wonderful exchange.
I decided to walk over to Target for a while. The smiling lady that I had seen earlier in Firestone was coming in. Apparently she is a delivery person. She sees me and starts smiling and I think blushing. She starts asking how my day is going and about me walking to Target. She was giggling and laughing through the whole exchange. I’m not really sure what was said, because all I remember is how happy she was.
I get to Target. A lady passes me with her child. Then she comes towards me again. She stops, adjusts her jeans and shirt and then does a hair flip. I smile and watch her through the whole procedure. I see another girl in Target looking at a wedding registry. I have been walking through the area for a few minutes trying to find a kitchen utensil my wife wants. I get bored and open her with “You look as lost as I am” She laughs and then goes into the whole spill about the wedding. I ask a few questions to which she happily responds. After a minute or two I tell her good luck. I leave the aisle and she does too. A minute later she walks past me on another aisle and says “Still lost?” with this huge smile.
When I finally got home my wife was in a piss poor mood. She started complaining about something and having attitude immediately. (first day of her period). Completely knocked me off my feet. So I sat down for a minute contemplating. We had a date planned for that night, and I really didnt’ want to go anywhere with her at that point. Finally I decide we are going anyway. I go up to get ready after cleaning up the kitchen mess that I didn’t make. I am hurt, angry, and frustrated but I try to keep myself open and not shutdown. As I am ironing my pants she comes into the room in a nice black dress, after we have had another argument about what she is suppose to wear and me not communicating with her. Please be aware that she made a statement earlier about me wearing a tie and a jacket, so I assumed that she knew she was suppose to wear a dress. She apologizes for being bitchy and taking things out on me. I forgive her, hug her and continue getting ready.
Second application … At 8:30pm 5 mcgs of p75, 7.5 mcg’s of p76, 10 mcg P102, 7.5 mcg TAF, 5 mcg Androstenone, 10 mcg P83, 10 mcg p79, ~40 mcg’s of A1
We head out and grab some coffee from Starbucks. She fills me in on her day and why she is crabby. We arrive at the salsa club and sip our coffee in the van. I talk to her about some of the things I have read about feminine energy. She thinks that she has masculine energy and that I have feminine energy. Talk about a blow, so we discuss this. So we discuss this. I get into the feelings of what she would rather be in the bedroom the ravager or the ravagee. She says 50/50. I say I would rather be the ravager. We discuss her sister and her brother-in-laws relationship. Then she explains that I seem to be different at work then I am with her, that I am a chameleon, that I seem to have more masculine energy at work. So I explain that I have been trying to keep the peace, but that it just causes more problems. I also explain that we end up fighting when I go by my instinct. It was a good discussion I believe.
Third application.. 9:30pm 37.5mcg p96
We go in and dance. Right off the bat as soon as we walk in I get respect hits from the guys. I’m wearing black high gloss square toed boots, black slacks, a white button down french cuff shirt with black cuff links, a black blazer, and a black short brimmed fedora with some graphic design on it for flair. We start dancing and it’s ok. She keeps trying to lead and we run into problems. I call her on it. In salsa whenever or in the latin culture for that matter, when a woman tries to lead you don’t let her. If she can’t take the lead from your hands, you don’t let her touch you instead you turn her body where you want it. I noticed whenever she tried to lead or danced by herself she got off beat. I kept laughing at her and putting her where she needed to be. After a while she finally figured it out, that she needed to follow me and we danced very well. It was sensual and sexual. I did dance with one other lady that night. I used to dance with her a lot several years ago. I don’t know what the mones did for her because she has always been infatuated, but it was fun to dance with her. I remember standing at the bar at one point. there was a blond near me. She kept looking over her shoulder at me hair flipping and adjusting her clothes. Sometimes smiling at me.
The night ended in cuddle time. I remember thinking that dancing only works when I surrender to the music. Then my wife can surrender to me. She agreed.
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“10? Aren’t you in highschool? How did you get out at 10?” She gets this surprised look on her face a look of astonishment. “I’m not in highschool. I’m in college”. I just smile at her. She is still all bright eyed. I’m not sure what else was said. Maybe something about her being happy to see me or something. I think I was suppose to ask her what time she got off. I never got around to it. She left and I kept shopping. She came back and slammed a step ladder on top of one of the shelves at one point and smiled at me. I guess she left, because I didn’t see her anymore that night.
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