Everyone’s journals on this website are so captivating! I’ve decided to start one of my own. 
Since tomorrow I’ll be purchasing my first order of pheromones (most likely the Female Wardrobe and LAM), I’ll be taking this first week to report on what my effect on others is like only my natural pheromones: with my children, parents, and other familiar people; first time encounters with new people in social/business situations; and my sexual experiences.
(If you’re looking below and don’t want to read my full introductory story, but you want to know a little bit about what brought me here, this is the TL;DR version. I’ve been in various states of transition for all of my adult life (from poverty, to finally finding a way to live comfortably; from teen single mom in a safehouse for women, to happily married mom of almost-3; from worker doing boring entry level jobs, to young entrepreneur) and now, I’m finding that as things are looking up for me and my family, I actually have the time and the emotional energy to figure out/decide who I am, and what I really want to do with my life/contribute to the world. I’m here to experiment and report on my experiences with using pheromones to help me initiate the enhancements I want to make to my social, work, and sex life.)
A new chapter of my life is currently opening up for me as my life is taking an upward turn. All of my young adult life has been lived in poverty, starting in High School when my father risked everything he owned to start a small business. We went from living comfortably as an upper middle class family to abruptly going through the hardships of foreclosure and struggling to put food on the table. I started working for my father to try to help him salvage what we had, but in the end, all of our resources- including my life savings -were spent. I soon lost my motivation, feeling that I really had no future, and for awhile that mentality really manifested in my having a directionless life.
Not long after I graduated High School, I had my first child, which rekindled my desire to live more responsibly and meaningfully so that I could be the sort of woman I’d want my daughter to look up to. Unfortunately, I lived at a women’s shelter/safe house throughout my pregnancy, but I was able to use the support I had there as a launching pad to get on my feet and provide for my child. It didn’t take long for me to get a job and to move out with my little one, and when she was two, I found a wonderful, sweet guy in my workplace to share our lives with us. We eloped, I had my second daughter, and although we’d just been making ends meet all this time until so recently, there was always a sense that, through the challenges, things were coming together.
Now, our 3rd child is due in about 3 weeks. We got creative about our lifestyle so that we could live comfortably on our limited budget and decided to start RV-ing full time. We finally saved up for our awesome RV in early Spring and have been enjoying it now through the Summer. (It feels so good to own a place of our own and to be free to explore!) I’ve been able to work flexible hours as a self-employed birth professional, and on my days home with my little ones- which are many! -I’ve been able to work toward completing certifications that improve my credentials/open up new opportunities.
Even though my life’s improvement had been slow and steady process, I sometimes had a difficult time seeing through all the obstacles that we had been facing financially- and that I had been facing emotionally -to get to this more comfortable place: My social life was at a complete standstill after High School because I was always in some sort of transition, for example. But now, with a budding career in a field that I find fulfilling and a stable financial situation, and now that I’m finally fully adjusted to my roles as a wife and a parent, it feels like a great time to start getting in touch with/building my identity as a young woman.
As such, this journal will chronicle my experiences getting back into the world. I’ll indulge my curiosity by exploring this new area we’ve moved to, be decidedly more confident than I used to be when interacting with new people, and report on the effects that pheromones have on my ability to engage with others socially (both the effects they have on me, and those they seem to have on other people). Additionally, I’ll share my experiences as a birth professional, using pheromones to give myself a more calming, reassuring, and authoritative presence to women who are navigating nursing their children for the first time, or in labor, or trying out prenatal yoga.
I’ll also share the experiences I have while experimenting on my husband (I’m calling him Bear), who is sweet, faithful, attentive, and charming, but infuriatingly laidback to the point of rarely initiating sex and definitely never asserting himself in bed. My drive is significantly higher than his, and although he is typically very eager to give in to me when I initiate, I intend to provoke him into doing the work for a change. Maybe just bit of LAM will be enough of a testosterone boost in him to incite a bit of spiciness to come from him! After all, there’s no better feeling than being chased. 
Hopefully someone will benefit from my “research” and enjoy my posts! I promise they won’t all be as long as this. Thanks for reading!
Abigail