Self-effects journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
1

To stop a cough, a drop and a half of A314 was used. Since I get a minor nervous reaction/panic attack when I use A314, I also spray on 1 IS to buffer the effects of it so it’s less serious.

The cough, which was frequent and persistent over the weeks had stopped. Its as though the A314 programmed me to stop coughing and solidify a resistance to it. Maybe it brought out the manly resolve to fight the cough and strengthened the area of personality most associated with “will-power”.

Even days after the initial drop wore off and I showered, the effect remained and the coughing is very infrequent or any at all. I find when a spray of A314 or IS is used the mental programming caused by the chemical realignment of my neurons remains days and weeks after the initial application.

Later on at night, because of the A314 still in my system I could not sleep and kept waking up. I sprayed over Molecule-K TAK, which is a “sleep pheromone” over the areas of my wrist where I put drops of A314 and then the effect of the A314 was neutralized and I felt quickly to sleep. Molecule-K is great in making me fall asleep fast, and like IS is a great buffer on A314 so it won’t cause nervousness of panic attacks when being used.

Got another p102 on the mail and may use this in the future if I’m at a movie, classical music concert or something requiring acute auditory perception to see if it makes the experience more real. I’m very sensitive to these products and am still monitoring the self-effects.

2

I find a314 reminds me of liquid bandaid (my barber occasionally nicks me with the straight razor shaving around my ears/back of my neck because I’m jumpy when people are touching me) when I wore it Saturday. Constantly found myself thinking “who the hell is wearing so much liquid bandaid”

3

Newbie, start slowly with the p102. Some people have reported that it enhances awareness, but the primary effect is more like “hey everybody, look at me!” It’s like walking around with a spotlight on you, everyone is inclined to notice you even if they don’t know why. So if you are intentionally peacocking, or you want to be the center of attention, higher doses of p102 will do it.

I’m not trying to discourage you, I just don’t want you to be blindsided. Start with low doses, you might like it!

4

1 spray of IS was put on yesterday anticipating some letter or thoughts on email which could bring back memories about my “ex” could have me feeling sad. When it was tried on yesterday there were no deep sad feelings with one spray applied. Today in contrast, I did not put a spray on but there were deep feelings of sadness that I did not feel yesterday when I used the spray - but not of a debilitating sort where I would think a spray would be necessary.

As a potential side effect, and it could be because I was tired, I did feel a bit spaced out. So far this IS spray is still working and it seems one application lasts (i.e. one spray to the wrist) for the whole day. Still cautious about applying it everyday or too often since I’ve read the self-effects could wear off. However, since I never experienced a dramatic effect using IS, and it’s more of a milder “lighter” effect so I may not feel sad or miserable from deep introspective thoughts, it may be less likely to wear out compared with another user who may experience euphoria, start spraying often like crazy and see the effect gradually go away.

Sometimes I do not mind being “sad”, because it is real and not being masked by a spray, but if it’s debilitating then I’ll have to try a spray on, esp if I have to meet other people. Being depressed and meeting people in business is a no-no.

5

Potential depression-trigger. My mom said I could not see lady-friend and take other friend back home. She said that’s okay as another guy who likes her will be doing that.

1 spray of Instant Shine to chest. I did this when I was sitting down moping about that comment and starting to feel confused or down. (I have no one in my life at the moment).

Immediately, I just did not care. A light-bulb went on in my head. Interpretation is less or not personal at all and I’m seeing myself as having more time for myself to do what needs to be done rather than sitting down and getting jealous or bothered by that statement as it were. This IS makes me feel light in my thinking and like nothing can bother me.

This stuff is really good. Been using this for quite a while and the self-effect has not worn out.

There was an anger that was inflammed when I was talking about this with my mother. While it appeared it was bothering me, I was still mobilized and can think about what needs to be done so it is not as penetrating in that regard. In terms of saying things that express anger, or getting angry with God for sending the wrong women in my life, etc…, it has not been as helpful. I’ve only really put one spray. But there is no debilitating feeling on this and I’m still in movement which is the main thing rather than caught up in introspection.

6

Went to bed at 3:30 am in the morning due to poor self-discipline. Woke up from a half-sleep around 5:49 am (sun raises early up here) and usually when that happens I usually can’t catch the sleep back. Sprayed 1 TAK on my wrisk and I was gone. When I woke up at 10:00 am I appeared very well rested.

May try this rather than masturbating myself to sleep since that is also a lack of self-discipline.

7

Was hit with acute depression following a perceived “rejection” from a girl in a Christian group I had asked out to dinner and I was plagued with thoughts since the break-up last year and if I’ll ever find another woman that loves me.

1 spray of IS was applied to the neck. It seems this particular depression was acute and I don’t think one spray was enough to counter-act the negative thoughts or sadness.

A second spray was applied to the neck after. Afterwards a 3rd spray.

The 3rd spray nailed this sucker and the depression was really gone at this time and I was able to see things in a better perspective (i.e. less personal and more detached).

I’m not sure if the need to have used 3 sprays is an indication that the effect of TAA of Instant Shine is starting to ware off, of it’s because the effect is normally reported to be short-lived, and if it’s a particularly acute depression, then perhaps a higher dosage is needed.

In terms of effects on other people, I noticed my dad who was sitting opposite or next to me was all chatty and could not stop talking next to me.

It was a weird effect because the IS (2 spray) didn’t really help me overcome the sadness I was experiencing, but if it improved the mood of my dad and he was being effective, then that would appear to be more irritating since he’s happy because of the IS while I’m still sad at the core.

Again, this could be because the IS is losing effect on me and is having more effect on other people. That would lead to an effect of feeling irritated if there are happy people around you while you are still bothered about something.

After 3 sprays there is no further depression to report from the trigger and it seems that I’m back to normal at the moment.

Again, as I’ve read other reports of people using multiple sprays of IS, the fact that the product still worked is still hopeful, even if a higher dosage was used than before - even if it took 3 sprays to nail the bugger. Most people spray more than 1 spray of IS anyway and say the effect is short-lived.

Other molecules I may purchase include TAA / I may also look at putatives or MXes that influence mood in-case I need a back-up for IS down the road.

8

In following through “self-effects” of pheromones I’m noticing that when Instant Shine is used it makes it more fun hanging out with myself sometimes.

For example, if I look at porn, or images on the computer, usually there is a strong negative and toxic component to it which makes me feel “icky”. When Instant Shine is used, it becomes a lovely experience and I don’t feel like I’m a loser or moral failure but that I’m normal and it just puts a different spin.

So it’s like I’m not judging myself, second-guessing myself or doubting myself as much with Instant Shine on and my nerves are feeling more relaxed and things don’t seem to bother me as much when I spray this stuff on. It’s like a nice chill and I’m taking myself less seriously than I normally do.

Sometimes, how you feel about yourself, really determines to what extent you can enjoy hanging out with yourself, watching porn, watching movies, or any activity for that matter. If you feel that you need to have someone to enjoy these things with as a shared experience and are a loser if you don’t have someone or at least once in a while to counter-balance that, then that would undermine the capacity to enjoy solitary activities.

However, with Instant Shine molecule, this makes it not only possible, but very much fun. That I’m fun to be around with even if I have no-one, I don’t need to second-guess myself, judge myself, or feel there is something wrong or abnormal about me. With a spray of Instant Shine, all of that can go away and you can focus on the business of enjoying life.

I will continue experimenting with the use of pheromones and see how that affects the enjoyment of solitary activities. It’s like this pheromone temp. shuts down the “moral/judgmental” part of the brain and allows you to have fun.

May also test p102 and TUTH while viewing porn or movies in later experiments.

9

Applied one spray of Instant Shine on my right wrist today before looking at escort pages. This is normally what I look at when I view home since I’m turned on at the prospect that these are not images, but people you could actually book an appointment and meet.

With Instant Shine on, a particular mental frequency made me focus on mainly white or exotic “party-type” women or women who were portraying they were freaks or doing what they were doing for fun and getting high on getting paid rather than needing to do what they were doing for money (i.e as Tactius portrayed in his other posts). There was no hint that anyone was exploited or doing it because they had to and there were no focus on black women (i.e. which tends to occur without using pheromones).

The message is that seeing a very beautiful escort can build memories for a long time. Look at cheerful or happy escorts and you are having a good-time. I’m the winner if I spend money rather than thinking I’m smart by not spending because that means I’m having an amazing time and I used my money to have fun. In fact, you can lose money anyway, in something else, but you can’t loose a good memory or experience for a while.

There was no negative feelings after viewing these images (getting off on them) other than feeling the person is gone and the money and missing them afterwards. In other words, this stuff is making a mental/fictional encounter appear to be more real and causing a focus on happier imagery (i.e. smiling and beautiful women as opposed to older, black, or the type of women I may want to get off on but not really want to hang-out with to have fun).

So the point is, even on looking at images on escort pages, Instant Shine, can change a spin or mental wavelength on what is being viewed or how it is being viewed.

Next experiment would be trying Instant Gentleman for self-effects before looking at escort pages, TUTH, or and see what type of images that I would be gravitating towards. (i.e. maybe TUTH may go towards more aggressive types of images? Who knows.)

While I’ve never been with an escort before, or have no intention of seeing one, I know 100% for sure, if that day ever happens, I better spray myself with 4-5 sprays of Instant Shine since it looks like my own mental interpretation of how I feel about something like that would make a big difference on whether it’s a good experience or I feel ripped off and undesirable.

10

Noticing that I still have more or less of the same self-effects since I purchased the bottle. A spray to the neck was used today and I noticed this:

  1. Smiling, while not automatic, was nevertheless easier to do if I wanted to. It was like the muscles of my face was more relaxed and it simply felt easier to smile.

  2. Reset of thinking. More likely to recover faster from a negative thought, or not to dwell excessively on a thread of a thought which could be perceived as personal, threatening the ego, or disturbing. A reset occurs quickly and it’s easier to just shrug things off so it doesn’t hit at the core.

  3. Relaxation of nerves. It’s easier to see things cognitively more simple.

Now, before people start getting jealous that I’ve owned a bottle of IS for a long time and am still reporting these self-effects, I would say the following:

  1. Despite owning a bottle of IS for so long, it doesn’t mean I use it every day. It is used sparingly and most often as a last resort (i.e just before I feel I’m about to “loose it” or spiral into depression). I’m aware that your body can eventually adapt to the product so it loses the effect.

  2. The types of self-effects that I’m reporting are more “steering” or mental rather than an emotional high. So, it’s more likely on a level of subliminal suggestion which is not likely to ever wear out, no matter how many times you use it since it’s designed to align thoughts on a certain direction.

Since I never had a dramatic self-effect since I purchased this then it’s possible I can’t lose a self-effect I never had in the first place. It’s more likely this is a low-level type of effect that doesn’t wear out over time since it’s too much based on mental suggestion or positive cognitive re-adjustment and just some relaxing of the face muscles so that smiling is easier.

It’s more possible based on my own mental construct that I could be amplifying low-level self-effects simply because it’s the way I’m wired and that other people who use IS may still continue having these self-effects over time but it would be under-radar since it’s not being amplified. The issues I present on here are probably more “nervy” or that I take myself more seriously or personal than the average user so I may be more sensitive to it. Therefore I think it’s unlikely that I’ll ever lose this type of self-effect over time.

11

Instant Gentleman sprayed 1 to wrist before looking at escort pages. This time the type of escorts I was looking for had a certain elegance and class about them. More vulgar looking poses were not stimulating. About a couple of escorts pics were zeroed in.

So, a certain level of class had to be present in order to turn me on. It was sexy but not erotic or dirty or slutty, but a sexy classy type of girl. Fantasy interactions were more endearing (i.e. playing with hair, her sitting on my lap, not as interested in sex…more of a feeling of relaxing with a beautiful girl with a feeling of respect about her elegance and beauty and just being enamored by it. This in itself got me off because the sexiness really got me.

Okay, so these pheromones self-effects are having a real effect on what type of escorts or interpretation of images I’m looking at.

This is a wow moment that the self-effects of the spray of Instant Shine and Instant Gentleman are distinct in terms of image viewing preference. One is, I’m looking for a more “party-type freaky girl” and have a devil may care attitude towards the whole thing, (i.e. Instant Shine), the other is a more classy elegant type of girl who knows how to hold herself up well and has a good sense of style and fashion sense or a level of sophistication.

IS AND IG for now have two distinct self-effects in escort viewing patterns.
I’m confused on the effects of IG. Does it cause me to zero into elegant classy women who holds themselves up in such a way that they really have class?

Now that I’m used to the self-effects, and see that it could cause me to gravitate towards a classy girl (ie via imagery) I may feel more comfortable using this product in the future out there. Maybe it may resonate with a classy and sophisticated type of woman. Who knows?

TUTH sounds like an interesting experiment for self-effects, as is p102 and some of the other socials.

12

IG: further self-effects. Tuning into these videos on youtube:

Lady in Red: Chris de Burgh - Lady In Red (Lyric Video) - YouTube

Stompa from Serena Ryder looked sexy. Also some other vids with Kelly Sweet had a sexy and powerful look to it.

The song, Lady in Red, is an example of how I mentally felt being enamored by the beauty of the women I selected. Almost like an enchanting moment.

Again, the IG focusing or steering aspect is really interesting on the self-effects.