8/7/14
5:30PM
2x P77 @ 500 ng / spray (1 mcg)
1x TAL @ 2.5 mcg / spray (2.5 mcg)
1/2x P75 @ 10 mcg / spray (5 mcg)
1 1/2x P78 @ 15 mcg / spray (22.5 mcg)
The can-I-be-your-(blushing)-babysitter-mix
Wife calls up and says she has to work on a proposal at work until 11PM. Dammit..
Pick up the kids (walking distance) go take them to outdoor patio pizza place - big crowd scene.
The parents at the table next to us have two boys age 4-5? They start acting all ADD and loud, but the parents don’t seem used to seeing this behavior “what’s gotten into you two…?”. My son was pretty well-behaved. My daughter 7-months was very fidgety, but she’s teething so who knows.
Self-effects: Strong pressure at sperm chords specifically, not in a pleasant way really, some sweat and weight there. Got this specifically at 1 mcg P77 last time! Also extremely lethargic/sedate. I literally could have put my head down on the table and passed out if I wasn’t watching kids. Eyes feel extremely heavy and tired - I know it’s not from lack of sleep this time. I drank 3 glasses of water, and part of my son’s juice. Very thirsty! I did feel in a good mood and all the women looked extrmeley attractive, even if they weren’t - I’ve gotten this w/ P78 before. Some kind of beer-goggles effect. The P77 seems to weigh down the “high” and outright hornieness that I get w/ P78 alone. The P77 just seems to weigh everything down considerably, I feel so heavy and wiped out. I don’t really get much self-effect from TAL - maybe a confidence boost, it’s a bit more alpha.
My waitress, tall thin blond, comes over and goes way over board in helpfulness - she cuts up my son’s pizza into little squares for him at the table without asking. Makes extended conversation way beyond ordering. She makes the comment “when you have more children you’re going to need some support” … and I fire back “when I do I’ll give you a call” and she smiles as she’s cutting up his pizza… (her face looked like a yes). I mean, my wife won’t cut up his pizza for him..oh no, what my wife would do is order me to cut up his pizza, guaranteed. Didn’t ask her number or anything, but felt like she was offering her support.
Next, a waitress who had waited me maybe 2 months ago - early 30’s thin-bodied Latina, (she must have seen 1,000 people since then at this busy place) comes over to me even though I’m not one of her tables. Where did she come from? Was she watching me? I think I’d been wearing high P75 / eNone last time??? don’t know where I noted this one, but she had been entranced last time. She comes over and turns red in the face again, wants to talk to the baby and such, asks about her, asks all about me, starts telling me what she’s been up to. She tells me about her camping trip at some beach nearby. Wants to know if I like to go camping (!!!). I tell her I’d love to go camping but I need a babysitter. Does she babysit? Wait, is this the same conversation again??? She actually does offer to babysit!! But I don’t ask her for her number (personal rule). The look on her face, I read that she was actually thinking about some mutual interest in a beach camping experience…hmmm. She makes some qualifications about her baby-sitting experience… She’s totally red in the face at this point. This was all about the point I was paying the bill to leave - so then I head back.
*for the record, one of the women I cheated on my wife with was a waitress from an Argentinian steak house. Oh god, that woman had some much porn on her iPhone, it was maxed out. Though my wife doesn’t realize the steak house she keeps wanting me to take her to is the same one that woman works at.
Baby gets super fussy later but it may be teething, I don’t know. Put kids to bed. Wife gets back at 11PM - you’d think she’d be exhausted, but she seems really chipper, energized and up-beat or something. She says she feels “like she’s running on endorphins”. within 5 min she’s talking about sex. She was unusually aggressive and forward about it. I actually felt like I just wanted to go to sleep - so tired and sedate! All I can think about is sleep! But she was not having it, she wanted some Right Now. She did 2-3 attempts to get baby to sleep and she was still motivated for it, which usually she gives up by then. She was really kind of commanding about the sex, it was interesting. Kind of woke me up for a little bit there, and then of course I totally passed out.
I feel like P77 is far too sedating at this dose - effect good on others, just to much self-fx sedating.
Interestingly, P77 did not make me tired from the 7.5 mcg spray.