Jingle bells, Batman smells,
Robin laid an egg!
The Batmobile
Lost its wheels
All on Christmas day!
Today, wore 2xInstant Shine normal strength on back of head (more of a skin app than anything, because of short hair) and 2xInstant Gentleman on wrists. In closed car, with air con on (it’s summer here, hot as hell), was singing silly songs to my daughter. Which is odd, I was feeling grungy this morning. I think must be phero self-effect, and I was able to do it because I am very relaxed when in the company of my mother and my daughter. Got kind of tired in afternoon but I think it was not a Shine crash but due to poor sleep patterns lately. Daughter was unusually cuddly with me today, and wanted to be carried, which she usually doesn’t.
I experienced an odd self-effect today. Openness seemed to increase my social anxiety and self-consciousness, not decrease it. I felt like I was under pressure to talk to people, and more aware of the people around me and their body language. After observing myself for a while, I think IO must change where my focus of attention is, putting it outside myself and on others. Also got a couple of hits, a woman in my phero trail making a random comment about the weather, and another woman standing excessively close to me on the bus.
Went to watch the fireworks down at the beach tonight. Wore A314 (3 drops, meant to be two but could not stop the third from escaping), wrists, chin. CTTM2 two-and-a-bit sprays, 1x strength, back of hands. A314 makes me do more of what I should do, and I also stand/sit up straighter, speak more loudly. Someone in a car wished me Happy N.Y. as I crossed the street, I shouted back the same thing. Which is unusual, I often would not have the presence of mind to do that. Was more open than usual with a bloke waiting at bus stop who asked me about the timetable. I feel impulses to interact with others more when I wear the A314, but I still suppress them. I still think it will help me develop better social habits. Fireworks were fun but no hits, but I think I did not try hard enough to interact with others. My shyness is too big a barrier for the pheros alone to overcome.
On bus spotted attractive woman with a guy who was rather obviously and awkwardly trying to touch her and kiss her. She just wasn’t having any of it. She was obviously uncomfortable. He was also turning to make strong eye contact with her. Trying too hard, in other words. He kept persisting though. I don’t think he’s getting anywhere tonight, she’s just irritated by him. I was looking at her and admiring her - she was pretty and tanned, well dressed - and she made eye contact a few times.
While I was trying Instant Openness for a while, I have decided to switch back to testing the effects of A314. This seems to have stronger positive self-effects, and to make me do what I know I should do. I understand that the 314 has long-term benefits, so I’ll keep wearing that for a while and then go back to trying openness once I’ve made some progress.
Something very weird happened to me recently. I have a profile on a social networking site, and a woman contacted me through a dating app on that site. At first, says she’s “very single” and looking for a relationship. I think, right, typical late thirties unconfident woman looking for a cuddly cookie monster like me, and stay in touch with her while being friendly but not too eager. Her story gradually changes. First it turns out she’s more looking for a hook-up, and she says she’s wealthy and will buy me dinner in exchange for some boom-chicka-wow-wow. Which didn’t shock me, as women tend to become more and more open about their desires as they feel more comfortable with you. (Thanks, A314! It doesn’t work over an internet connection but self-effects rock, making me masculine and dominant in attitude and communication.) Then the story keeps changing and finally, she tells me that she bisexual and wants a four-way, she’s lined up two wealthy other women who will pay me $2000 for a night of passion. Okaaaaay… Getting weird here, she’s basically been lying to me from the start about what’s really going on. Greed and lust overcame my common sense and I was still on board. And friends told me what they knew about this person’s reputation, that she really was wealthy and had a rep for paying guys for sex and then ditching them, so it looked like this was finally the truth coming from her. Then it turns out she’s married, and hubby will be joining in. I am not up for that at all. And I’m beginning to suspect that this person is a sociopath. One lie after another and appealing to my sense of greed to distract me. So I cut all communication with this person. A close call there.
The moral of the story for me is, I have to beware of appeals to my greed, it’s a distraction which makes me take my eye off the ball. I should have cut communication with this person much sooner.
On the plus side, I am finding that long-term use of A314 seems to be forming certain positive habits of mind. I am more upbeat and motivated than usual. I get down or beat myself up mentally on occasion, but it doesn’t last as long as it used to.
Inspired by another thread in teh Men’s Forums, I tried six drops of A314 yesterday. I normally only use 2-3 drops.
Crikey.
I was sitting up on the bus, ramrod straight, head forward. Reminds me of those famous statues of pharoahs seated that I’ve seen, sitting up straight with their hands on their knees, a posture of confidence and command. I felt as if I wanted to stand at attention!! Sir, yes SIR! Effect faded after a while, but it was really noticeable, much more so than usual with A314. Felt sort of bulletproof.
Edit: and in other news, tried P75 at 2.5mcg/spray, wrists, one spray. Neroli I think. The smell struck me as a little chemical and sour/bitter. Can’t really think of the right word for it. Faded as it dried down but not that pleasant IMO. Didn’t notice any self-effects.
Minor A314 self-hit, got the wrong item at Macca’s today, I usually would have been too shy to go up and complain but went straight to the counter jumped the queue and got an exchange. No probs.
In other news, Vitamin D supplementation seems to be helping my mood. I think I’m probably deficient in D and B, judging by the effects that supplementing with these is having (and also some physical symptoms), and not just psychologically, so I know it’s not just the placebo effect either.
Good for you! I used to be so shy that I’d have just dealt with what I got instead of getting an exchange. Gotta love how A314 helps one to feel more empowered.
My Dad just started taking vitamin D supplements and we’ve noticed a big improvement with him. Not just his mood but he is also much more alert and not sleeping nearly so much. I’m glad that it has helped you also.
Instant shine x4 today. Daughter with me today, she was bored and tired before we took her to the Chinese place for dinner, but before we went, I sprayed Shine x4 1 and a bit sprays on wrists. Perked up quickly, ate more than usual and made faces etc. Definitely seems more upbeat around me when I wear Shine. I wish I had worn some last week when she scraped her knee, would have made things much easier… really ought to get a to-go of this stuff to carry for emergencies.
Tried this, 1 spray @ 2.5mcg wrists. Got a similar “seriousness” self effect to A314 from it. Didn’t really interact with others much, so no noticeable effects on others.
I’ve got a pile of Androtics P’s and MXes that I have not used and realistically will not use. Don’t want to let them go to waste. Willing to let them go for a song to a good home. Unfortunately, Australia Post has rules on posting liquids, so may be necessary to send by courier - from Australia - which would be expensive.
These have been stored upright, in a box, in a cupboard - the proverbial “cool dry place”.
P90, P91, P92, P93, P94. 5ml. All in Neroli, all in 5mcg/spray. Part of a test pack I think. All unused.
P75, 30ml, 2.5mcg/spray. Level comes to top of label on bottle.
Come Talk To Me Mix 2, 30ml, not sure of concentration. Same amount as above.
Instant Openness, 30ml, 1x concentration, two-thirds full.
Instant Shine, 30ml, 4x concentration, level to top of label. Instant Gentleman, 30ml, 1x concentration, about one-third full.
Alpha 314, 10ml bottle, perhaps 25% full?
Love-Scent Androstadienone, 5ml, concentration 1mg/ml, in dropper bottle. Unused.
Okaaaaay… Getting weird here, she’s basically been lying to me from the start about what’s really going on. Greed and lust overcame my common sense and I was still on board. And friends told me what they knew about this person’s reputation, that she really was wealthy and had a rep for paying guys for sex and then ditching them, so it looked like this was finally the truth coming from her. Then it turns out she’s married, and hubby will be joining in. 