Where are you at Walrus? It’s been awhile since last update. What’s been happening?
Hello my friend! 
I am hanging in there but not a lot of time to post. Divorce is speeding along now and trying to wrap things up, and I have been very occupied with the details. I am moving out of the house next week as well, so been packing and trying to find a new place to live.
I have been using a lot of A314 lately for the confidence boost, and it really helps. Shots of IH when I talk to the wife, and IS regularly to keep things light as possible. These three have been really working for me in combination. I haven’t been experimenting with the others much because I don’t want to try a mix that has negative effects during this critical time.
I’ve been working out a lot, and lost 12 pounds in the last 2.5 weeks. I have two women, one age 41 and the other 55, pursuing me hard. I have no interest in dating right now, and certainly not going to even entertain the notion of being seen with another woman while this is going on.
I continue to get good hits. I am hoping after the holidays and when the move is complete (next weekend), I can settle back into my daily reporting.
I hope to see more posts in your journal as well. I look forward to them. They are very entertaining! 
Friday**
December 24th, 2011
Christmas Eve Dinner
**Christmas Eve is normally a time when my family goes for a great meal at a different great restaurant each year. If you have read prior posts, I am nearing the end of my divorce with my wife, but we are trying to maintain a friendship. Both are kids are coming from out of town with their new girlfriends, so we all plan on going to a nearby steakhouse.
Plans change, and the younger has to work today and Monday, so he can’t make the trip. One of my wife’s friends is in town, and she invites her to come along with us along with our older son and his girlfriend. She is the same 30-year old mentioned previous in my journal. The 10… maybe she is 11. All I know is she makes jaws drop. She’s hot and she knows it.
I want to wear a mix that is a sure fire winner for a good time, and I go for my trusty combination that I have grown to love, except added a twist.
A314 - two drops, wrists and behind ears
IO - I substitute this instead of IH to encourage fun conversation. Two sprays to inside elbows.
Heavy Ammo - One spray to the throat
IS - Two sprays to back of neck
TAC - This is my experiment. I want to see the effect on the females. 2 sprays sides of neck.
My son and his girlfriend and myself arrive first, my wife and her friend arrive 15 minutes late (as usual). Her friend has her hair pulled straight tonight, and let me tell you.. WOW. 
She is the kind of girl I could not spit out a string of two short words that made sense before, but tonight that changed. It was a wonderful time of joking and laughing. Her friend was very open with me, and spent much of her time directing her look and conversation towards me, and asking advice on things. I was playful with her, and she really got into it. Even my wife was sharing her food with me and being very comfortable. I felt like I made a very significant social breakthrough tonight.
We parted ways after dinner with my wife’s friend giving me a nice hug, and also my wife. 
My son and his girlfriend came back to my place for a while to end out the evening.. a very good evening.
I am a firm believer in A314, IO/IH, and IS as a great social mix. It has become my bread and butter. It has been helping me tremendously learn the fine art of socializing with new people. The Ammo gives me a little edge. I am still inexperienced with TAC, but it seems to do what it claims, breaking down the intimidation factor and helping them feel more at ease. I got my full sized bottle of TAC now, so I am going to start sweet spot testing, but right now it looks like it will be another favorite of mine soon.
In my testing, I can see that TAC brings out the sensual side of women. A comfort and closeness that I haven’t quite experienced with any other mone. It colors a base like AMMO or A314 with a sweet velvety feel… 
Glad to see that you’re working through the social bumps and chasms that can arise with a divorce. Not only with your STBX, but your kids as well… Don’t want to win the battles at the cost of the war…
Thursday**
January 5, 2012
**It’s been a while since my last post. I survived the holidays, and there has been a lot of changes in my life. Over New Years weekend, I moved out of the house and away from my soon to be ex-wife and into a one bedroom apartment for the time being. I cannot say that I don’t like it. I can now line up my mones in the medicine cabinet and not stash them in a hiding spot
Not a lot of mone usage the last few weeks. I did head out on NYE for an outdoor bash in the Big D, downtown. A cool front was passing and got very windy, and especially with the tall building creating venturi effects and making the wind even stronger. Not a good environment to test the mones.
Something interesting happened yesterday. I went to the apartment office to reserve covered parking. One of the female employees that I had only saw briefly once was there, and I filled out the paperwork. She is pretty and mid 20’s, blond hair.
We get that done and I go to the mailboxes to pick up my mail. The metal mailbox door hinge is bent, and it is quite a hassle to open and shut it. You kind of have to muscle it open and shut. I go back into the office, to the same gal, and ask that it be repaired. I am standing, and she gets up to get the request form. She walks by me and squeezes my bicep, which was rock hard from workouts, and says “you don’t look like you would have trouble opening that door” and smiles. She continues to smile and look down as I fill the form out, kind of like a I-can’t-believe-I-did-that smile. I felt the same way… I can’t believe she did that.
This is the second time that a much younger girl recently has found my biceps as an object of attention and was forward about it. This time around, I was using no mones. What this shows is that mones are just a part of the attraction factor. I have worked very hard to improve my health and well being in the last few months. Eating better, working out, and have lost 15 pounds and counting. If you neglect your appearance, no amount of mones will get the girls swarming around you. They are not some kind of magic potion.
Saturday**
January 14, 2012**The plan was to spend the afternoon at an outdoor “touristy” area with my adult son and his girlfriend. It’s been a few weeks since I have ventured out from normal, everyday life. It was a sunny day, mid 60’s, no breeze. About as perfect as you can get.
A314 - 1 drop to the temples
IH - 1 spray to left crook of elbow
IO - 1 spray to right crook of elbow
IS - 2 sprays to back of neck
P106 - 2 sprays to sides of neck
I am well familiar with the my social effects of the A314/IH/IO/IS combination, so adding P106 to the mix is a bit of an experiment.
My personal issues had me a little glum over the past week, but had an immediate boost in mood after applying the mones. I also dropped a good 20 pounds so far, so one of my favorite button down shirts, who had been very lonely in the closet due to not being used much lately, fit perfectly
Normally crowded streets and shops and the whole touristy atmosphere causes aggravation, but not this time! We just went with the flow, cracking jokes, having a lot of fun. I felt my words flowed easily and my communication skills took another step up. We all had a wonderful day in every sense of the word. There were no obvious hits, but I wasn’t looking for any. Sometimes I feel like I have ADD because my attention can jump around, but was very focused on my companions the entire time together. I would like to test the self-effects of P106 as a standalone to see if I can replicate this focus.
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Have you tested the P106 alone yet? I’m interested to read about your results. Its a great molecule
Not yet. It’s pretty much my new toy, but will put that on To Do list
I do have the A314/IH/IO/IS combination down on self-effects and effects on others. The adding of P106 in that combination on Saturday gave the normal social enhancements a little more sense of purpose, and of leadership. Instead of the “going with the flow” effect, it became more of a “let’s go with MY flow, and I’ll show you guys a good time”.
I went light on the A314 (1 drop) and 2 sprays P106, but yes, unless I test with P106 alone, I won’t quite know what was the A314 or what was the P106. But together, they were excellent.
Sunday**
January 22, 2012
**I got a bunch of new toys to play with, including the UF2.5 mones (MX460-MX462). I was spending the day in Austin with my best friend. I planned on a day of drinking beer, smoking cigars, watching football, and general debauchery if at all possible.
I really wasn’t in a good situation to sweet spot test UF2.5, so I picked MX461 out of the three and added it to a social mix.
A314 - 1 drop
MX461 - 2 sprays on neck
MX297 - 1 spray on throat
IS - 2 sprays to back of neck
IO - 2 sprays to crooks of elbows
I applied MX461 first and did like the smell, even though it was faint and faded rather quickly. I sure hope the stealth diffusion takes hold and proves itself effective. I really do not like smelling like a cologne factory.
We ran into some friends of ours, a married couple. I know the woman well; her husband is very quiet and hard to get to know. She knows I have been going through a tough divorce and has emailed me now and then to see how I am doing. She has a big heart but I have never taken her emails wrongly, nor have I ever been inappropriate with her. She was very friendly when we saw them and chatted, but I can tell she seemed.. well.. fidgety. Kind of like a nervous schoolgirl. Her attention was solely on me and my friend didn’t exist to her. It made me somewhat uncomfortable because I didn’t really know what to expect with MX461 and certainly did not anticipate this meeting. Oh well 
Went to a bar to drink and watch the football game. It was quite empty actually. Nothing special to report.
We watched the final game at his house, and his wife was there. I have known these two for 20 years and his wife was pretty chatty, but I did not expect to “endure” what I did. Her and my friend were on the couch and I was off on a side chair. She invited me to sit on the couch since the view was best. I sat next to her. From kickoff at 5:30 to the end of the game, around 9:30, she never shut her mouth talking to me. Only on a good play she would stop for a sec so we could cheer/groan, but kept going unabated. My friend got so annoyed he moved to the floor and I was literally pinned between her and the armrest.
IO is great stuff but now I know to think ahead!
LOL, the marriage destroyer mix! Loving your reports. I agree about the stealth diffusion and smelling like a french whore
Tuesday**
January 31, 2012**
If anybody EVER doubts the power of A314, they need to seek professional help immediately!
Going to the doctor for a checkup, I put two drops A314 behind ear lobes, two sprays IO, two sprays IS. I had some things I needed to talk to the doc about, and you know how much of a hurry they always seem to be in!
He spent an entire hour with me, talking and listening, even apologizing when he accidentally interrupted me. He didn’t treat me as a “layman,” but rather as an informed patient.
I don’t see any area of my life that A314 cannot improve!!
Saturday**
February 4, 2012**
I have been experimenting with the UF2.5 mones this week, mainly MX460. I have had an emotional crash on the first two days (Wednesday and yesterday), but didn’t want to post and blame the mone because on both of those days, my wacky soon to be ex wife calls about her latest nutty financial shenanigans and put me in a pissy mood. Normally my moods are pretty level all the way around, even when dealing with her. I think now that with the one year anniversary of the divorce filing coming and going last month, and family members are now asking WTF the hold-up is every day, coupled with my anxiousness to move on with my life, I’m a little bit on a roller coaster.
So today I test it yet again since I do not plan to hear from her. Two sprays MX460, 2 sprays double TUTH, one spray P83, and two sprays 1x IS. Certainly I was a walking gigolo today. Didn’t do much in public, just a visit to the gym which was almost empty, and the ones that were there were a couple of guys. Looks like all the New Year resolution people are back to sitting at home eating pizza No problem. I wanted to OD on none today. I wanted to get to the bottom of the crash issue.
That was hours ago and still feeling really good. I think I got my answer. Maybe I should sell an recording of my soon to be ex for an audio version of Instant Jerk or Instant Emo, or whatever. Sheesh!
I hope you are also going to test it by itself? You have really great insights and the UF2.5 pack is designed to be worn by itself at 1-2 sprays. I’d hate for all that to get lost with everything else you were wearing.
Thursday**
February 9, 2012
**Today was going to be a good day to test MX460 on its own. Still a work day, but some afternoon errands would put me in some social situations without being confined to one place.
Two sprays of MX460 to the sides of neck mid-afternoon.
Weather is cool today, but dry. My mood today was neutral. Nothing really good or nothing really bad to influence the test.
In about 15 minutes, the self-effect was noticed. I got to feeling aggressive and impatient. A kind of a “don’t mess with me, but if you do, be quick about it” vibe. No obvious hits, but I don’t really look for them anymore. I just do my thing, and if something comes up noteworthy, I report. The women I came across were very business-like. In fact, everybody was business-like, so I’m pretty sure I came across as wanting to take care of business and nothing else.
I am going to keep testing this on its own, but if I had to compare the effects to another product, it would be IJ. More as things develop.
Update: About 4 hours after application, my mood settled. Not quite feeling so anxious, but have a good type of aggression still lingering. I do have to say, MX460 might do wonders for the libido. I’m not sure if it a placebo effect or something I ate About 5 hours in, the Schwans food service truck pulls up to the house with a new female driver, mid 30s. She was completely besides herself, tripping over her words, hanging onto each word I said. I was a major flirt just for fun, and she seemed to like it. I get to see her again in two weeks
Friday**
February 10, 2012
**MX460 - 1 spray to throat
I backed off to only one spray today. Self-effects were neutral. I didn’t get the IJ-like feeling like I did yesterday, which is good for the most part. I think it might be worthwhile to go back to 2 sprays to see if it recreates itself.
I gave blood today. Nurse, mid 30’s, was pretty and friendly. Lots of smiles and lighthearted chat.
As if females aren’t hard enough to figure out, knowing their level of interest in you is just another mystery of the universe. Sure, there are those that are very forward and open, but for the most part a woman will wait for the guy to make the move.
When sweet spot testing, I think the best way to approach it is in a controlled environment (or as close to it as possible). By controlled, I mean a consistent group of people. Work, social groups, family relations, romantic relationships, etc. You know their personalities already and you can observe the change, if any. Clubs and other scenarios where you run across random people is the most difficult to report on in an unbiased manner.
I think we all want to be honest reporters because we have nothing to gain or to lose by reporting the truth. I am starting to feel that self-effects is the baseline of reporting. Take for instance A314 and the confidence it brings. Did your buddies give you the alpha role when you wore A314 last, or did you just TAKE it? In the end, does it really matter?
Sunday**
February 26, 2012
**My apologies for not reporting anything in the last few weeks. I’ve spent it doing some self-effect and sweet spot testing for UF2.5 (MX460-462). Of the three, MX460 is not much of anything except getting me irritable at higher doses. MX461 and MX462 are interesting but in different ways.
MX461 really boosts my mood at 3 sprays to the point of almost intoxicating. That has become my sweet spot. MX462 seems to have some good effects on females, but I still have to pinpoint exactly what it does and my optimum level. I went to get my haircut last Saturday at some Aveda salon, and I made an appointment with some unknown female. I used a mix with MX462 as the base, but for the life of me cannot remember what. I know A314, IS and IO were part of it though.
The female (Amy) cutting my hair turned out to be late 20’s in my estimation. Attractive. Still a good test and a good environment, because Aveda salons normally have a lot of women. So Amy gives me the hair washing of my life, very slow and massaging my temples and the whole nine yards. It actually can be very sensual! 
I was really cocky and confident, and she really dug it. She was very open to me, and any gaps in the conversation while she was cutting was quickly filled in by her questions. She had a very nice tattoo on her arm and I made a comment about it. She stands very close to me, facing me while I am sitting, and her arm is up against me and she is letting me check it out as we chat. We probably talked a good 10 minutes without her doing her job but she at least had the comb and scissors in her hand. We just hit it off right from the very start, and I am looking forward to my next visit out here.
So today I was going to the local blood bank and run a few errands, so I decided to try something completely new.
1 x Heavy TUTH
1 x IS
1 x P83
1 x AndrosteRONE
The blood bank was empty except for four nurses. Two of them were well in their 40’s, one in her 30’s, and a young Hispanic nurse who was mid 20’s. She was very pretty and awesome dimples when she smiled. Luckily she was the one that took me in a room where she conducted some initial tests and gave me the questionnaire. She was very friendly and open, touching my vein and how big it was, saying she could probably see it from “outer space” I was playing around with her with some fun banter, and she was game.
When I got to the lounge chair to bleed, the nurse that spent the most time with me was one of the older ones. We had a very good rapport, but the young Hispanic gal is moving around the facility doing some cleanup and she keeps sneaking glances. As soon as I catch eye contact with her, down her eyes go. She’s a honey.
I’ve been definitely getting better at the art of banter with positive feedback. The right mone mix is very important to enhance the whole experience without coming across as the creepy guy. I am beginning to understand the art behind it.
Saturday
April 21, 2012
Hi guys. It has been like two months since I had posted last, so I thought I would take a few minutes to update what has been going on.
For those that do not know a little bit of my background, I have been going through the big D. Fifteen months into it, and it looks like I am just days away from a court date. My soon to be ex and myself have buried the hatchet and have been getting along decently, especially since she decided to stop being a greedy bitch. Besides, I think she has a boyfriend now so that prompted her to want to move the D along. And to think I have gone sex-less for 15 months because I didn’t think dating while still married was right… Bah! What she does is her business.
So… I’ve continued to wear mones almost daily for the last few months since my last post. I have really trimmed down considerably, losing around 40 pounds. Been going to the gym regularly. Confidence has been growing, even though I think anybody else that has gone through a divorce knows the toll it takes on that, among other things. One step at a time!
I have also started testosterone replacement therapy about a month ago. All those weird, unexplainable symptoms that started 4 years ago turns out were the beginnings of andropause. My doc wanted to put me on anti-depressants, but I went elsewhere for help and found the root cause. Guys, if you are over 40 and not feeling like you used to, look into getting your T counts checked. TRT has made a HUGE difference in every aspect of my life!!
OK, so I have been “checked out” by the ladies more in the last 2 or 3 months than I can remember. Blatant repeated stares. Lots of smiles as well, both from girls much younger than me to women my age. I am not even looking for hits anymore, so these are those that I have noticed.
One woman, 9 years younger, is chomping on the bit waiting for me to get the divorce final. In no uncertain terms, she has made it clear that her body is mine to do as I want. Not only is she attractive in that sense, she is also the nicest, most grounded person I have ever known (I have known her as a friend for 2 years. I just recently found out she has had a crush on me all that time). I am looking forward to taking her up on her offer!
Here has been the base mix I have been using:
1-2 drops A314 on wrists
2 sprays heavy Ammo to sides of throat
2 sprays IH on left crook of elbow
2 sprays IO on right crook of elbow
I have added some variants to this mix, such as TAC, UF2.5, P83, etc. depending on the situation. I have had very good results with the above base mix.
Something that tickled me was several weeks ago, at the doc getting my TRT injection, he started telling me about his first marriage (and divorce). About his ex getting pregnant by another man and saying it was his, and all the gory details. He then suddenly stops and said “I can’t believe I am telling you all this!” Oh, the glories of IH and IO!
I also am finding IJ to be a killer mone. I use 2 sprays, and maybe a shot or two of IS to lighten it a tad. I love the self-effect since I am naturally an introvert. Do not be scared off by the “Jerk” part of it! My only caution is to be sure you are in a good emotional state before using it. There is a fine line between giving you some good aggression to being in a pissy mood.
That’s it for now, my friends! I will post as more things come up.
Glad to see things are moving along for you WGB. TRT… Woah. Doctor’s are medication happy. Take a pill for every pain and ill you have to mask it. DON’T look for a root cause.
Pharmaceuticals love that! 
I see that you’ve been working on the self esteem and confidence through the gym as well. Keep on picking yourself up by your bootstraps, bud!
Love your comments on your combo. You mentioned TAC and P83, and did you notice anything particular on those? Want to get as many views on these G13 molecules to get a better handle on their potential. IJ, YES, I totally agree with your observations on its use. Good mood, IJ is easier to wear and buffering it with some IShine or TAC, for me, works beautifully.
Keep us in the loop on the D and the STBXW… as well as your own adventures!
Friday
May 4, 2012
Great news! Divorce was final April 25th! Just got back from my Freedom vacation. Fun!
OK, so I was separated for 15 months and refused to date during that time, so I felt like a virgin all over again. Had a lady friend who I spent some time with over vacation across country. I have known her for quite some time and forged a great friendship, but it turned into a little bit more since the beginning of the year. The plan was to meet after the divorce was final.
She is 41. Since I have had great success with my base mix mentioned in the last post, I decided to start there. I really did not want to go too heavy on the none, and decided that at first I would drop the Ammo. So on meeting day, I used the following simple mix:
A314 - one drop to wrists.
IH - two sprays to crook of elbow
IO - two sprays to crook of elbow
TAC - two sprays to throat
I have heard what they said about TAC and women’s orgasms, so let’s see if it holds true if I got the chance!
Oh boy, did I ever get the chance, and some. She was like putty. She became a religious woman for the next three days, crying OH GOD uncountable times. Eyes rolling back. Sounds emanated from her mouth that I have never heard before. I got scratches all over my backside. And when it was done, she could not wait until the next time. Wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted. The thing is, she is not a “slutty” woman. She just wanted more and I was happy to help out.
The last day I started adding 2 sprays Heavy Ammo, but at that point we were both reaching an exhaustion level and I am not sure if anything could have helped us any more.
So, my first real practical use of TAC was a winner. Looking forward to more as time goes on… all in the name of science!!
Wednesday
May 30, 2012
It’s beenalmost a month since my last post. I have been using A314, IH, IO, and Heavy Ammo all month in combination as specified by my last report), and it has been incredible. Lots of female attention from 30-ish up.
As stated, I got a new girl but we can only see each other so often because of the distance. With her, I have been adding 2 sprays of TAC to the throat to the above mix. If anything, she has been responding even more favorably. We spent 4 days together recently, and I was completely worn out at the end!
I have a bit of a new direction in my career, so my mone adventures should be ramping up. I have been a telecommuter for 15 years, but now landed a gig that requires me to be in an office environment daily. This starts next week, so I have a new playground! I look forward to playing around with my arsenal.