At 7:15 am I sprayed 2 sprays of MX300 only, to my chest/face/neck area, then at around 10:00 am, one more, and around 3:00 pm, one more, and yet another around 5-ish
Mostly self effects as follows:
- I felt more serious, less flirty, and less flirted with, than when I wore it with IS/A and/or IH or IS
- Mid morning, I found myself drawn to having long philosophical conversations with old men
- I felt a little more confident than normal, but not as confident and full of myself as when mixed
- I did not feel bitchy, per se, until I was provoked. And when I was provoked, it was a cool calm, “fuck you” kind of bitchiness, if you can quite call it bitchiness, I don’t know what to call it exactly.
- *Towards the end of the day, i realized that I had not gotten much work done, in fact, I felt kind of unfocused
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- I did feel less sensitive, but did not realize it until provoked, by emails from a rude overbearing male acquaintance (at this point I am reluctant to call him friend) who usually is able to really get me upset, often to tears
***Here is what provoked me:
I asked him what I owed him for work that he did, and things that he paid for with his own money, that I owed him for.
He has also been staying at a cottage of mine, because he had been helping me with a building project that the contractor (who might be stealing from me, I have to prove it, in the meantime the contractor has convinced the bank that my “friend” (who first alerted me to the problem) had to be off my project).
He actually had sent me some not-very-nice emails earlier in the day.
His email:
*You ask about the cottage, when do you need us out. We'll start packing by this week end.*
My reply:
I wanted to know what was done to the back cottage that I owe you for, but never mind, just let me know the total I owe you, and I wont question it, thats what I get for helping you, this attitude of meannss…this is how you have been acting, like Jekyl and Hyde, and you wonder why I havent wanted to check out the Kaumana project or anything else for that matter…one minute you are okay, and the next minute you have your head stuck in your asshole,
His reply:
*Why don’t you come look and see, check out your pumps and filtration water system why are you asking a lot of foolish question, just Like I didn’t do nothing at all here in
Ainaloa, If you feel I didn’t do any shit for you just keep the whole thing and don’t bother me, just like I’m Ernest, the way you checking on me If I didn’t do anything for you here and I’m the bad guy, SO BE IT. KEEP THE WHOLE THING , LOOK AT YOUR SELF, I DON’T WANT TO SAY THIS BUT I WILL.
YOU USED ME ! you the Jekyl and Hyde*
So I said:
I never said that, you silly…I just asked you a simple question, I know you helped me a lot, and I have also paid you, or at least tried to pay you, for EVERY SINGLE THING. So don’t you EVER say that I USED YOU, because that is THE LAST THING I WOULD EVER DO, AND YOU KNOW IT!!
*Please just tell me the total, and please DO NOT CONTACT ME unless you can act like a normal human being and not like a whiny little self-pitying pathetic loser "poor me, I've been USED, boo hoo hoo", no you haven't been USED, you moron. I always have helped you in whatever way I could, and paid you whenever you would let me.*
And, I had BETTER NOT hear one more word about ME USING YOU, or that you have EVER told ANYONE that I USED YOU (because you know damn well I didn’t).
boo hoo hoo, poor you, poor you, you just threw me on the side, boohooboo hoo. stupid ass
Followed by (from him):
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The amount you Owe Rocque and Irving you can pay them but you can not pay me, that’s all right, even if I had pay them with my own money for working up Kaumana for you, you dream home, why don’t you ask them your self, I’m very sick of you asking me all this questions what have I did for you. PLENTY ! ! ! You see, you smell, you touch, what have I done for you. choke for the time Stephanie guys came until you threw me on the side.
My reply:
I didn’t ask you what you have done for me, I know, you have done plent, and I have thanked you, and tried to help you in every way when you needed it, whatever I could do
Just give me the goddam total I owe you so that you will shut the fuck up
So, I was like, did I actually say that?? I NEVER speak like that, not in emails, not in person (though maybe I should, it was actually kind of satisfying!)
Hopefully I didn’t bore anyone with this lovely email conversation, but it sums up the “bitchy” (if you can call it that) effect of MX300 that I experienced today.
He still kept emailing a little, but he took longer in between… I think I must have shocked him a little 
(He also has fancied himself “in love” with me for the past couple years, though I have made it very clear that I did not want to take our friendship to that level. In fact, I would rather eat dog poo (I didn’t tell him that though)