P78 test day 2
15 mcg (2 sprays 5 mcg wrists, 1 spray 5 mcg neck)
boring work conservative Dr clothes
white clinic coat
Holy shit- I feel like I’m pmsing. I woke up in a good mood before I sprayed. I played with the puppy said “GOOD MORNING MY LOVE!!” and rolled around on the floor rubbing her belly giggling like I normally do because I am a positive happy person.
Got dressed, sprayed. Took her outside for a walk. The guys at the store below me give her cookies everyday, we always say hi, we have a nice relationship. She pulls towards them and gets excited- she does this EVERY TIME. No big deal, I’m used to it, and I can control her really well.
But today, I snapped at her like she was about to kill a baby. I have never lost my patience with her unless I’m having a rough day but I yelled at her for nothing.
This bothered me.
So I feed her, walk out the door. All of a sudden, I’m grimacing about stuff I normally don’t even care about. I’m annoyed that the boo didn’t text me yesterday. I’m stressing about booking flights. I’m letting my thoughts get carried away. A helicopter flies overhead and I get lost in this disaster evacuation plan about what I would do if my building was hit by a missile. (okay super unrealistic, but living in NYC it’s not hard to imagine why I would do this- also, I’ve been doing this since I was kid. I need to know an evacuation route/plan for every type of emergency from every location I normally visit)
I get to clinic, some guy who flirts with me fake “bumps” into me out of my thoughts and it makes me laugh. Phew- out of that grump zone. I’m also upset because I strained my neck lifting weights (bad form on rear delt? too heavy load on chest press?) so I’ve had to take a few days off and it is driving me crazy.
I’m in the library working on my research and I have to change computers 3 times because I can’t stand the people next to me. One girl is talking annoyingly. The other girls food (a banana) is grossing me out. Then the other girls food is also grossing me out (a sandwich)— PREGNANT MUCH?!?
Seriously, the smell was fucking distracting!
I had a new attending sub today and she was fucking hot- totally the type of dikey girl I go for, cute but fairy/pixie hair, petite but def tom-boy in a slim subtle way. ugh! huge lady boner. (stealing this from Jett)
Ok- isn’t this supposed to make the boys want to jump me? WTF. I’m not touching it if it makes me this cranky.