Tonight, I will be performing a self experiment using 30 mcg of P-75, plus that first “semi-spray”, which I estimate at 2.5 mcg. from a 5 mcg/spray bottle. The current time is 9:03 PM.
9:04 PM: Immediately after application, I notice that the smell is odd. Musty, almost, as if it’s something old and dried out after it got wet and slightly mildewed. As it dries down, this seems to be fading to a sweeter scent, but still with an undertone of must. No immediate noticeable effects. Application is to forearms and backs of hands. I have just emerged from the shower.
9:12 PM: Noticing that I am becoming slightly “out of it” and spacey. Concentration is unravelling, and especially the concentration of what my eyes are dealing with. Eyes seem to be doing the microsleep thing, even though I’m not all that tired, yet. Very introspective sort of concentration dissolution… sort of like I can sit and space out without really spacing, except I am spacing because I am so “within my own mind”, both visually and otherwise. Very interesting effect. It’s shifting my visual focus to the imagination instead of my eyes, apparently. No obvious “feeling” except that my head seems to be expanding very slightly.
9:20 PM: Seems to be shifting to a sort of relaxed, not drowsy but somehow still “tired” droopy eyed mindset… I want to close my eyes and lay there. Pretty sure I would fall asleep if I did.
9:24 PM: This is half of the sensation of being stoned. That relaxed, droopy eyed not all there chilled out “yeah but who cares, I’m chillin” feeling, without the high or buzz. Just nice and relaxed.
I theorize that P-75 is a disinhibitor and relaxant that will interact with other pheromones to enhance their effects this way. Make them have more impact because of it.
9:30 PM: seems to be fading from the initial application’s effects, but I had to look at my watch three times to get my eyes to go where I wanted them and see what time it was. The motion of looking seemed on auto pilot with nobody paying attention, so the effects are still in force, but the dazed effect seems to be fading a bit.
Now smells failt and more sweet than anything else, but it’s a more “pinched” and “narrow” sweet than alpha nol… alpha nol is sweet and has a diffuse sweetness that is very human. This is almost like the scent is not as “there”, like if Nol was someone standing right next to you, P-75 is someone standing six feet away… and the “humanness” isn’t there. Still has a faint undertone of must.
I notice I am making really strange spelling mistakes… faint ame out as “faly”, somehow, for instance, and I am making a lot more spelling mistakes.
9:39 PM: Eyes feeling different… almost failtly itchy… I have decided to leave spelling mistakes uncorrected so I can study them later. Eyes feel faintly itchy and want to close.
9:42 PM: Fading into tired and relaxed, just yawned. I went to bed last “night” around 12 noon today, after staying up all night, and woke up around 8 PM. Now I’m ready to sleep. Not sure how much longer this is going to be resisted… this is the sort of tired that swallows you from behind without you knowing it until you wake up.
9:47 PM: Very confusingly, I seem to be becoming both more and less tired at the same time. Now I also feel like I just woke up kinda tired relaxed daze-y.
9:49 PM: ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzthudbumpow! Wha?
9:53 PM: I think in the right concentration, this P will have a very nice effect of relaxing and disinhibiting the subject… but wow, what a self effect at 32.5 mcg. Why do I always wanna fall asleep in these damned self experiments?
9:58 PM: I think I am going to lay down and close my eyes and see what happens… not sure I’ll fall asleep. Might start having semi-lucid dreams. Eyes slightly itchy still.
10:15 PM: Layed down, closed eyes, and began letting my mind play… it’s like a cross between dreaming and being distantly conscious with your eyes closed. I remembered a bill I had to pay, so I got up. Interesting…
god, if P75 makes you think about bills, ill stay away from it!
lol No, it’s more like it relaxed my mind and in its play, I remembered that, “Hey, I was supposed to pay that $17 on the car insurance by the 21st, wasn’t I?”
The molecule shows promise, this suggests, as a sort of creativity enhancer of sorts, opening up access to the subconscious by distracting, or relaxing the conscious.
10:42 PM: Not tired per se, but I could close my eyes and just chill… I have that feeling like I’m sleep deprived, and need to close my eyes… but I’m really not tired at the same time… very odd. Concentration is still lowered significantly and I’m just very relaxed.
12:23 AM: Still feeling a sort of relaxed chilled out slowed down groove type thing… it’s almost heavy.
thought we lost you for a little bit to sleep
I was trying to see if it would make me fall asleep, make me lucid dream, or what. Turns my body on “low” and makes my mind play “in the background”, but I didn’t fall asleep.
How odd.
Just starting to feel fully normal again around 1:22 am now.
so atleast appears to last the “normal” length of other pheromones… typically 4 hours or so
2:30 am: I just noticed that I am responding differently to a friend of mine on IM. More of a “We’re such great buddies” type thing than usual. Very interesting! More playful than usual, and most of the “downer” and chilling effect is gone.