This past week I’ve tested Instant Honesty in combo with Ammo. Had some interesting results, but inconclusive so more testing is needed. I haven’t really noticed any self effects until maybe today.
So before I leave for work I wanted to test out an Ammo, Instant Honesty, and Instant Shine combo on someone at work. This was all just 1 spray of each at regular strength about 1 hour before I left. Unfortunately for me, the girl I wanted to test this on seemed busy and didn’t pay any attention to me while I was leaving, so I was kind of bummed at that. Got home to a hot and humid house here in Hawaii, and immediately and oddly I was reminded of a time in my life about 18 years ago when I was going through a breakup as a Senior in HS. I was at my friend’s house, it was in the middle of the day about the same time in the early afternoon as today, the house was hot and it was a typical humid Hawaiian day. I remember feeling a bit depressed and alone. This is the same feeling I got today for some reason.
Since I have to wake up and be at work at 4:30AM on Monday, I decided to get some sleep. Unfortunately since I generally work late and night, I’m having a hard time sleeping and keep waking up. The odd thing is when I am sleeping everything is fine. As soon as I wake up, I immediately feel depressed and alone and the memories of all the times feeling alone pops right into my head. This keeps going on and on as I keep waking up. It is better now since I think the pheromones are wearing off from earlier today. I really think this is the Instant Honesty or just pure coincidence. I’m really not sure where all this thoughts came from and why all of a sudden. My thinking is the Instant Honesty probably dub up some deep feelings and fears I have, but instead of talking it out with someone it turned into an inner conversation in my own head self consciously.
This kind of reinforces the idea that these pheromone products act as an enhancer or extension of what you are projecting. All these past weeks while testing I was in a good mood and seeing some good results and even if I say no results it didn’t bring me down. This was really the first time I felt really disappointed while wearing the pheromones and I think it took me to a bad place. Oh well, there is always tomorrow.