WOW !! WOW!! TRIPLE WOW!! i did not think i would get a response this fast let alone so many!!! faints happily wow u totally made me feel welcome and already at home! …
ok ..well ..stand at podium and clears her throat I really am outgoing most the time, ESPECIALLY online, and of course that would be easier hiding behind the keyboard right? looks right and left wondering who is gigglin … lol … I DO tend to smile a lot, and i do engage in conversations when people engage in them with me. I do not always start them though, unless i get an approving look or motion. Then i can be a chatterbox lol. What my goal for this exciting journey is a couple things.
One I really want to change the negative energy that surrounds me at the moment. I used to be known as someone who smiles more than normal and giggle a TON. But this energy in my home is getting very dark and its breaking me down and worn me ragged. I know what i have inside that makes me shine, but that is kinda pushed aside and a little gone due to the constant flow of the opposite that surrounds me. Does that make sense? i mean even my mom (love her and take care of her) is always in attack mode or in “we cant” “this cant” “impossible” and hard to make smile anymore. So are others in my household, and i would love to supercharge my inner happiness that is there already and saturate everyone and make them awaken a bit.
two..confidence, i been told i have a great personality and a beautiful face. I do see that sometimes, but being a bigger plus size, i have that little evil monster critic that lives inside telling me im not worthy im not worthy!! SO … i want to smash that little critc and say heck yeah im worthy! Bring it! … i know if i feel like people see my inner shine and my ability to shake it on the dance floor… (yup baby i got movveees lol) … and not my weight, or the lack of confidence i have because of it, i will feel much sexier and in turn, BE sexier. But really my inner monster will stop me from being who i love to be often and it sucks… i have been working on the weight a bit, and lost some, but not enough to make me feel like i can take on the world like i used to.
three… ok this kinda i guess would go along with number two but feeling SEXY!! i want to feel that combo, sexy and confident. But for others to see me that way too. I want to feel alive… fresh… young at heart and i know with that little bit i can go a long way. When i have a good day, one when i feel a lil more confident or sexy or alive than normal… i truly get a lot of reactions already and i know its because if i see someone down i flash my pearly whites gigglin and they cant help but smile. I do that because well.. i feel good. I like feeding off others who are happy to see me. I like walking a little more with a swing when i think they watch me walking away. I LOVE to live life again, like i did before… the negative energy around me has sucked out sooo much…
last but not least… i have a special someone that I am really crazy about. I know he adores me already but … to kick that up a notch would seriously rock. We havent been intimate … so it would be that much more important.
This one is the big one of the bunch for me. I want him and I both to walk away thinking that it was the most intimate experince we have ever had, emotionally and physically but emotionally more than anything. I want to dig deep for us both.
whew are ur eyes tired yet?? gigglin no im not working at the moment, so that isnt where i would use this. This will be for mostly the connection with him, and social settings of friends and fun evenings out. I just want to shine again and feel like everyone enjoys being around me again. I want to be the girl who they talk about that night at home. IN a good way of course sexy smile
Was that a little more helpful? I hope so… if im missing something just smack me upside the head tehe … and OH how flippin cute …“Knuddel Bussi” hugs and kisses that sooo made my day!!! THANK YOU FOR THAT i will be using that one for sure! Knuddel Bussi right back at all of you for being so awesome of a group! …u super rock!
steps down from podium gracefully, then ties her hands together to avoid herself from clicking the mouse and keyboard to the direction of her shopping cart and credit card…paying attention to the wonderful words of caution she got
BUT IT WILL BE HARD!!! SMILE 