Hi all. I’ve not posted in a while. My name is FullMoon for the purposes of this forum and I have bought myself a bag of goodies from the wonderful people at Androtics. Fair enough, there have been big question marks from people on whether it is the placebo effect or just the scent giving the effects, but I have always been one to be open minded and hey, if it gives me an edge, why the hell not.
Some background. I am a petite soft spoken girl of Asian descent, fairly attractive, good body, and intelligent. I have had many suitors, but mostly Asian males who want to go for a long term relationship - I am assuming because I am easy to get along with and I fit their traditional views of what a future mate should be like.
Now the fun part. I am working in a busy stressful environment. Very political. Lots of backstabbing and envious colleagues. I have worked my way up here, it is a temporary posting before I move on to an even better position. I have noticed a lot of shit happening around me lately. Namely, the bitches in the office are gossiping (and when I say bitches, I include men AND women) and are envious of a promotion I recently landed thanks to some MX134 and hours and hours of hard work.
I have been sleep deprived and when the colleague in question came up to me and bitchslapped me, I went ballistic apeshit.
I don’t know whether it was the TAL I was wearing, or the TAH on my head that I had sprayed on but this was ridiculous.
I started raising my voice and feeling indignant that I was being targeted for no good reason - out of character. I usually just walk away.
I got her angry and she ran off to complain to the bosses that I was being a tantrum bitch (shit)
I broke down and started crying - which is again out of chracter ( TAH ?? see my previous post on excessive crying and TAH in my partner)
Said bitch returned from her boss-tattle tale rampage and caught me off guard, and muttered something about me being useless and not fit for the high power position I have just obtained.
Anyway that’s the background. This has been brewing for some time so I ordered myself some power juice from the lovely Androtics people to fuck them up. To be honest, I have places to go and this department is a fucking mess anyway.
Today’s report.
A314 split between wrists, another drop split smeared along jawline and front of ear.
Strode into the office. The atmosphere was hostile. Didn’t give a shit. Just got on with work.
I was very civil and smiled and acted humble. The core assholes (immediate bosses and colleagues) were still being assholes but hey I can’t change that. In fact, they outright ostracised me today. I couldn’t care less.
The allied personnel who were briefed on my ‘tantrum’ started avoiding me and making snide remarks, I looked at them and they turned red. When I had to work with them later in the day, they were very respectful, even apologetic.
Had to attend another meeting with bosses (the ones who matter, not the low ranking gossipy bosses whom I had to deal with before) - they took my suggestions seriously and gave me respect although they seemed to deal with me more like a MAN instead of a WOMAN. It was military style which I like.
1 drop of A314 split between wrists and top of lip, p74 chocolatini to the head and around the hair 40mcg.
Walked in, was late. Didn’t give a fuck. Saw the junior person walking around, said hi and asked how he was doing. Had a run in with office bitch. She was acting even bitchier than usual, acted all huffy and angry, blamed me for a lot of shit that was happening in the office although it wasn’t my fault.
Felt awfully exhausted the rest of the day but managed to do everything well. Stayed in the office (home base) to manage some housekeeping duties. Was complimented on my manner by my clients who thought I was an excellent person, chatted and had a good laugh with the allied personnel. We had a good time until the rest of the asshole team came back from their outing and started rolling eyes and calling names, making snide remarks.
Question.
Why the fuck are they not intimidated by me yet?
Question2.
The chief got REALLY AGGRO and almost physically abused me today. WTF? He threw a rubber ball at me, claiming that he was trying to practise hand-eye coordination. He then mumbled something like 'TEN MARKS for busting out her eyeball" “TWENTY marks for smashing in her face”… fucking hell. 40 year old fat bozo acting like a 4 year old kid.
Now I’m pre-empting anyone who reckons I should take this to HR. The HR department is absolutely useless and this asshole (chief) is under the thumb of the resident bitch whom he is trying to bed. They hold a lot of power in the department and if a complaint is made, it will be me being let go.
Anyhoo. yes. comments welcome.
a lovely person turned nasty by her workplace
NB: I am a nice person, in fact, I grew up timid and very self-conscious. I have always been courteous and nice to my elders and I was thought to be too ‘quiet’ or ‘timid’ to pursue a high power job. Weird, huh, how things turn out.
Wow! Your work environment sounds crazy hostile. I wouldn’t wear any TAH in that atmosphere. I would power up on the TAL, maybe some Instant Shine or Openness to lighten the atmosphere a bit.
Hi FullMoon!!!
First of all, thank you for the courage in action, the pheros under fire. These are great reports and I’m positive you will be able to find a solution here.
I have been reading Wildflower’s journal, and he talks a lot about a P74 + Androstenone threshold that creates negative attention. This would explain the chiefs behavior. It may even be increased due to your sex and race. I have some experience with TAH on a woman, I wrote a report about it in the womens forum. Keep in mind it was a sexual report, but I think you are seeking a mix that would be a combination to inspire reverence and respect rather than happiness and communication.
I recommend trying different doses of IS/A or TAH in combination with one drop of A314. You could also add IO to buffer the A314. The recommendation for using feminine molecules on a man is that you use a proportionate amount to the masculine pheromones. As that applies to women, I don’t know, however it may be wise to match you dose of A314 with feminine pheromones. Instant Sexiness A may be very synergistic.
have you tried Instant Shine and/or TAK ? maybe bitchiness comes from insecurity and ramping up peoples’ feeling of threat might not be so helpful. possibly spray the shine on the back of your neck/to hair so you don’t get too oblivious to what is going on.
All this has gotten quite complicated. I had a shouting match with the dominant asshole over the phone today. He admitted that he was upset with me, but he has been unable to communicate why - he just started ranting some nonsensical bullshit about ‘investigating my behaviour’ and some other mumbo jumbo.
Surprisingly, the big boss, a well-respected 60 year old man who has managed the events of this company for 10+ years (I love this guy!) called me into his office later today. He is semi-retired and has earned the respect of his peers after years of service and is in this position as a ‘hobby’. He is very well respected in his field and is a known workaholic, enjoys teaching enthusiastic young ones and is well known internationally. I respect him for his status and have always worked well with him as he is well above petty office politics and focuses on getting the job done.
He told me that people have alerted him to the events which have been happening in the office and that he supported me fully, and that he was ready to help me out by taking disciplinary action should the situation escalate. He shared that he had his own problems when he was getting to his position and he knew that it was often a sticky situation with conflict resolution, but it was possible to resolve it. I was reassured that I was doing all the right things and that people would always be upset when someone showed potential. I acknowledged that it was a weakness of mine - that I sometimes had my head too stuck into work that I didn’t know how to appease the masses and avoid ‘firing squads’ (ie. I didn’t know how to flirt around with bosses to keep the peace or turn situations to my advantage, but of course I didn’t say that) when people started aiming at me. He stressed again the importance of keeping my cool and told me that the purpose of the meeting was to reassure me that he has my back, and that he was happy to give me another position (higher) in the firm should I change my mind regarding next year’s change in jobs.
This is all very confusing. Does he really have my back? Are they worried that I’ll get pissed off enough that I will sue?
P74 makes people exhausted. That’s been reported before.
I completely agree with PQ in not exacerbating the problems at hand. Document everything, keep records, keep track of time, get yourself a digital recorder.
A314 works from a standpoint of trust and respect for ALPHA dominance males. The key that you might read repeated over in our section is congruence. Its about being ALPHA so in your very own words timid mousy behavior does not fit the ALPHA dominance and thus is not working as it does.
I would suggest IH in massive amounts and Ishine just a little. Although the attacks are personal and severe, and yes warranting a lawsuit, I like to take people at their words. Never lay your cards down until you need to, but hinting is always good. Let that mgr who sided with you that you can get through it professionally. Mention subtle hints like legalities of lawsuits without ever saying it. You got to the position because you are smart so use your intelligence to win, not your emotions.
Delete any reference to saying anything bad about anyone, like making people cry. It can and will be used against you. I’m confident you can make it through this.
I do not act mousey at work. Only recently thanks to exhaustion and personal degradation at the hands of the local firing squad. In fact, I was labelled bitchy and too domineering. I thought it best to keep my head down and be as humble as possible.
Will try IO and IH and keep a low profile for now.
Sheesh, what kind of office is this? Sounds like you guys need need more space so you stay out of one another’s faces.
No matter where you work you’ll have conflicts and confrontations. I get along great with all of my bosses but jealous peers are unavoidable if you’re talented and ambitious. When they fail to succeed due to weak abilities or character, they fall back on to the Neanderthal stage and resort to intimidations. Who knows, there may even be racial overtones under the surface. I know I’ve seen that ugly beast more than a few times in conflicts.
I’d take the old guy’s advice at face value. He basically said you have potential worth protecting so do your best, keep cool and he’ll try to protect you if your enemies cross the line. I think it’s extremely important stay above it all and don’t let them see you upset or angry. Even if you’re on fire inside and plotting your revenge unto the 7th generation, act like you’re a stone cold Buddha. Keeping your cool under stress plus talent means you’ll go far. If you crack easily they can never trust you under fire and you’ll always have to sit second or third chair.
I find myself agreeing with Gegogi… and continue to keep the big boss in the loop about what’s happening (and your efforts to resolve it). I’m sure you’d find his experience in business valuable to you, so pick his brains at every opportunity, not just about this.
Had some time to think today. Went into the office phero-free on a weekend to finish up some work. The weekend people were lovely. Towards the end of the day, it was like a cloud was lifted, I felt like I was the old me again. Time and space to think without stupid petty people talking smack and bothering me.
I started on a few projects at once and immediately felt happier. I had lots of ideas rushing in and I will be putting them in action for Monday. I was still assertive, but humble with the people I bumped into today (mostly either senior or junior) - maybe I do not deal well with ‘same-hierarchy’ colleagues? I am okay with bosses and underlings. I am fine with allied staff from other departments. IS my nature too competitive?
Pheros: none.
Hmm. Comments?
PS: The resident bitch initially tried to get on my good side when I first joined the office. She started ‘clueing’ me in on the latest gossip, trying to push me into agreeing with her on how useless person A was, criticising her on how slow she worked, even how she flipped her hair. She would then follow on with how she, herself was the golden girl of the office and how all the bosses will fight over her as she is such an invaluable and indispensable asset. She still does it now (talk about thickface), which irks me to no end. I mean, geez, the bosses in question are friendly with her but HER WORK IS NOT OUTSTANDING - IT IS MEDIOCRE AT BEST! The asshole boss I was having a dominance contest with before is trying to bed her; the others just humour her since they know that she is immature and easily manipulated. (Sorry! I have to tell it like it is!)
After I’ve been here for a bit, I have discovered that A happens to be a drop-dead gorgeous leggy blonde who flirts with this petty piece-of-crap’s boyfriend from time to time.
PPS: Just occured to me. It would be funny if I ended the saga with ‘…and I work for the local plumbing agency, they are discriminating against me because I am such a great plumber despite being Asian and female; old guy is head Mario’ or something stupid like that.
Please don’t make light of the respected occupation of plumbing. They have revolutionized urban environments and allowed hordes of humans to live on top of one another and shit in safety, disease and turd free. Plumbing firms are great places to work and Thomas Crapper is among the best, and also the inventor of the first commercially successful flush toilet (hence Crapper). Crapper has become synonymous with toilet (like Xerox and clean-x are synonymous with photocopy and tissue paper) and brought the profession of plumber to new levels of shitdom.
I used to be very timid as well. Always pushed around.
Eventually you just get pushed too far and then your true self comes out. Or at least the part of you that needs to come out so you can adapt to such hostile environments.
Just keep smiling and saying hi and being nice. If they keep acting out that’s their problem, but don’t give em any reason to “tattle” on you to the boss. Obviously you’re dealing with very immature people. Show em you’re better than that. Good luck
As for the “resident bitch” (sounds like Resident Evil ), one thing you can try is withdrawing attention when she says something negative and rewarding her with attention when she says something positive. This will train her to only say positive things when she’s around you.
