I wore TAK today. The first half-spray, plus a full spray. It was approximately 12-15mcg of TAK.
Went out to eat with two friends (a married couple) at a nice asian place. The conversation seemed difficult to get going. He seemed preoccupied and she wasn’t as talkative as normal with me. This stuff seemed to really tone things down with people. Additionally, I found myself getting tired at around 3.5 hours into things. I could have easily laid down and passed out. It also took abnormally long for the asian waitress to give us our checks and serve us. I don’t know if everybody was just more reserved or more absorbed in their own world… perhaps it was a boy in the bubble effect. It seemed to wear off quickly, within 2 hours or so.
Update to Wednesday’s meeting. Today I received a check in the mail from the guy. I didn’t ask for any money in my initial consultation, but he decided to pay me anyway, despite not ultimately deciding to purchase my services. Normally in my business he would pay anyway, but I’m just starting off myself, so I am more interested in building a client base than racking up fees.
I’ve been 'moneless for about a month. I just haven’t had the opportunity to wear them around people and I wanted to cleanse my palate.
Today, I headed to a superbowl party. I put on 20mcg of TAK and 20mcg of p83, both to my head. I think things diffused faster than I wanted, but it was alright. With my first interactions, I said things that were rather ballsy, but they were favorably received. I also felt a bit more comfortable in my skin. I noticed some pupil dilation on a girl I’d just met, but I’m not sure if it is attributable to the mones or not. I wanted to pair these two up to see if the somewhat relaxing TAK would mix favorably with the disinhibiting p83, but I feel that the two molecules weren’t directed anywhere so it was a bit of a wash. Perhaps a different ratio would help as well. I bet more p83 than TAK would be a better combo.
I’ve worn P83 and TAK with some very interesting results. I won’t lead you to far into it so you can get a feel of the effects with a clean slate, but I will say it wasn’t what I expected.
I do love the idea of rebooting your system away from the mones. I’ve been off them for more than a week myself. Its good to clean the palette and get a renewed feel for them. Glad you are back to testing though too
Well, on the subject of P83 and TAK, my mother mentioned that I smelled nice when I left the house. I have an extended party to go to on Friday, so I’ll probably wear the two then. I’m not sure of the ratios that I want to wear, but I think I’ll put them on much closer to the venue. Maybe two sprays on each side of my neck.
Today I went back to the old standard of Ammo. I went into a local sub shack and the hot snobby/condescending/unhappy girl acted slightly differently in a more favorable way, but I can’t it was much. There was a moment where I felt that she became sexually intimidated (in a good way) and had to turn away. You know that whole thing about having her break eye contact first… that’s what I mean. Very subtle.
I wore the 20mcg of TAK and 20mcg of P83 again yesterday. It was just me with a husband and wife team, with a bunch of strangers. The husband is a bit of a stick in the mud, but he seemed even more curmudgeonly than usual. I made an unintentional etiquette gaff and apparently two others made faces at me. I didn’t notice, but the husband did and made sure to tell me.
His wife has always liked me (perhaps part of her husband’s partial disdain for me), and there wasn’t any noticeable change in her behavior that I noticed.
To be fair to him, his job does really stink. He is an inner-city teacher and has gradually lost hope in humanity after dealing with kids who have no hope or desire to achieve anything academically.
That being said, I have worn A314 a few times recently. I went to ask a female friend what she thought of my cologne, and she said it smelled very fresh. Mind you, this is one of the latest revisions which, to me, smells astringent. Guess it smells different to women, much different. Another thing is that this seems to diffuse much further than I’m used to A314 diffusing. It seems like the imagined halo around my neck/head is more like a 2-3 foot circle around my entire body. I wonder if AD used a lighter essential oil or something.
You know, it’s amazing you realize how much your life is different with A314 just by going off of it and then back on. I’ve been having more arguments with well-meaning family members as of late and it is directly caused by the A314. They don’t like whatever I’m doing for whatever reason (usually doesn’t fit their idea of me) and they cause arguments. Their side is usually emotion based and not necessarily reducible to logic, which really gets me going.
I think after a few weeks this will go away or lessen, if I recall.
I was having a conversation with a female friend of mine and I realized that while I was leading the discussion, I was mostly leading it towards my interests. While she is completely off limits to me, quite frankly I should have been using my interaction for practice.
I’m not saying I should try to game her or anything, but I realized that in some conversations I’m selfish as to where the conversation goes. Not all the time, mind you. I should certainly be free to express myself, but there is a way of doing this that also builds rapport. I’ve always been able to carry a conversation, or so I thought, but I never really sat down and considered the basic elements of a discussion. This was a rare one for me, as there are usually never any “dead ends,” but it made me think that my conversational skills can be improved.
And denial is the second, fourth and seventh steps!
I wore two sprays of IJ to the Dr.'s office today. It was a specialist and I also had to have a CAT scan done. When I went to the place to get a CAT scan, there was quite a line, but after getting my information down they called me first to go in. I completely forgot about these types of small, life-enhancing effects of mones since I was off. It’s nice to have this stuff happen again and realize it when it is happening. It’s also a surprising reaction to IJ, at least from the amount of testing I’ve done so far.
I mentioned it before, but I forgot how much A314 makes that indelible impression on women so that I get incessant text messages that end in things like “okay?” or “is that ok with you?”
