So I did quiet a bit of testing yesterday.
During the day I tested A314 various application points. I won’t bother with my usual reporting format for this because A314’s effects are well documented elsewhere.
I had little reaction with my family on 2 drops that I could tell but exposure was fairly minimal. I reapplied later in the day with 4 drops.
I found A314 reminded me of moisturiser and was very subtle.
I have 4 drops on today but I’ll be testing 2 again sometime over the next few weeks.
I did find my eldest stepson a bit more chatty. Don’t know if the self effects made my responses more appropriate which encouraged further interaction or whether it was purely the A314 on him. I will have to wait and see. He kept approaching me about little things, which is what he usually does when we are getting on and that makes it all the more strange considering what happened in the afternoon - I’ll get to that in a bit…
Alpha Vibe? Definitely as far as self effects are concerned. I felt broader, my shoulders were slung back even when sat at my computer. Message to self: upper lip is not a good application point. Even if it is well away from the lips themselves, I could till taste it.
My partner said something to her father which was a bit offish (it was about me). I retorted curtley but in I-am-the-boss kind of way. She took it very badly and felt I embarrassed her. Now I am quick to retort anyway it is something I have worked on i.e. biting my tongue but not this day. I didn’t think I was rude - not this time. The way I see it is I am the f*cking boss it’s just my SO refuses to see it that way. The problem is that I’ve lost quite a bit of respect in this family simply because I left work to help her care for her sons and I am no longer the bread winner. The bread winning bit WILL change - whether I return to work or go into business for myself I do not know yet but it WILL change.
Anyway, she went nuts as soon as I had dropped her father off. I told her the deal and she decided to leave (she does this quite a bit). Now, she needed me to take her on a shopping trip to look at and order a new fridge freezer, although she claimed she’d have a male friend assist in that department. Fine, whatever. So, she left and I got changed. I text her a few minutes later and said I was ready to take her. She came back… It normally takes hours before she calms down and we go off to wherever we had planned. Or at least a hell of a lot more than a single text.
We went to the store. A young, maybe 19 year old, female assistant asked if we need help. Definitely 9/10. I took the lead. A very quick and easy transaction. The assistant became chatty with the two of us after a while but didn’t seem to know who to talk to. I was leading and dealing with the the transaction but I made it clear my SO was paying. That may have just been confusion though, simply because I was leading and being the bloke an’ all…
So, later my eldest stepson is approaching me whilst at the store, whilst shopping in a different store and when we are back home. He would normally keep his distance after I had rowed with his mother. Except I didn’t. She rowed with me. She went nuts. I stuck to my guns without loosing my temper. And the row was all over within 30 mins.
She brought it up a bit later - not the row itself but the comment I made where I said I didn’t care. I didn’t engage in the conversation at the time because naturally I was more concerned with the row. She seems to have got the order things were said completely wrong, which makes a big difference.
I told her later that night that I cared. Earlier I had been referring to sleeping on the floor etc as she was telling me that I had sleep on the floor and to look for another place, then I had to leave at that moment etc. Usual hoops she likes me to jump through. She needed to be specific when asking me whether I meant that I didn’t care. Because if she wants to talk about me to her father like that when I am in the same room and NOT expect me to respond then I will leave and no I don’t f*cking care. But of course I do care. I care about the big picture. I care about my family. But, if that’s the way it’s going to be then then I will not care, I will leave and then I’ll start caring from a distance and be a father and supporter in a different way.
I’ll lay it out here so it makes sense.
Her to her father “We have to wait for “Damage_Control” because he sorting out his keys” (said in a derisory tone while he was waiting for a lift home).
“You’ll have to wait.” said assuredly maybe a little bit curt.
She seems to think she said “we are waiting” then I said “you’ll have to” then she said about the keys. Big, big difference. that would make me short and snappy for f*ck all.
Anyway…
Later on I cleaned off the A314 and tried 2 sprays of IS regular, 2.5 sprays of HEAVY AMMO (new bottle) and 4 sprays of IH.
Again we watched a TV show before settling. Not much conversion going on although I did prompt a few times. We were both tired.
I realised that IH isn’t necessarily about conversion. Sometimes, it can just be about the mood. We slept closer together last night. I brought her into my chest. She had good whiff of the AMMO. She said I smelt like fly spray LOL. I said it was deodorant.
First time with FF21. It was definitely soapy - not the sort of fragrance I would usually go for. Just as well really because I was thinking of getting Cool Water as a cover scent. I won’t bother now. I’ll customise AMMO with a different fragrance next time. Can’t wait to try Akuto.
If she hadn’t been tired I think she’d have been there for the taking. So soon after an argument? Definitely the mones helping out.
. In other words if you are a liar and a cheat then mones won’t change that perception. They will encourage the other party to believe that, but if all the while you still lie and cheat there won’t be substance for them to latch onto. I would amp up the TAC a bit though. Maybe 25-30 mcg 
