I posted this on the other thread I had, but it’s been hours and hours and it’s not there … can stuff flat-out disappear? I wrote about what happened yesterday.
Tisha and Dolly and Carrie and Kitten and everyone who’s an EoW veteran - you are going to throttle me for this, because I loaded on the EoW. Loaded. It. On. I started slow the first day, and it seemed to do nothing, so the second day I tried about 8 drops, during the day, even though I wasn’t going to see any men. Thought I’d take my chances on women turning vicious.
Neck, chest, wrists, behind the ears. Possible hit from the Brinks truck man, who never talks to anyone, we joke that he’s afraid we’re going to try to rob him. We almost collided, and exchanged "oops"s, and when he passed by me again on his way out he joked to me and my coworker that I needed to be fired for attacking him. It was definitely flirty. She raised her eyebrows at me and said “Wow … he never talks to anyone, much less cracks a joke - he must like you!”
But that was about it, and none of my coworkers seemed annoyed with me or ready to fight me in a turf war, so I decided I had to really load it on for my date last night with my target if I wanted to see an effect. So after I showered, I used a lot. I lost track of the drops. 12? 14? Chest, neck, behind the ears, wrists. Let it dry and covered it with my normal scent, then about 20 minutes before seeing him I used 2 sprays of Instant Sexiness (to go) to the neck, and 3 of instant honesty (to go) to the hair and back of my head.
He’s unpredictable so I never know what to expect, but this is a guy who’s told me IT’S OVER, no more physical contact of any kind, and the last time we were together (2 weeks ago - too long) he was pretty rigid about that. But last night he was all smiles, and as silly and easy with me as I’ve seen him be in a long time. He was talkative and agreeable, and once we were alone, he let me get close - very close (all the better for inhaling the pheromones, right?) - and then we talked, and came to an agreement about what our relationship is going to be - which we haven’t managed to do during the entire 2+ years duration of it - and then he started kissing me. The guy who was never going to kiss me again. Kissed me. And promised to keep kissing me for a while longer. Meaning: agreed to have it not be over yet - which is something he’s never done before. Did the pheromones tip the scales in my favor? I don’t know, but I’ll be hedging my bets by loading myself up with them when I’m going to see him! Why take chances?
I do have to end it with this guy eventually, there are good reasons for ending it, but I wasn’t ready to do it now. I basically tried pheromones as a desperate measure - like, it can’t hurt, so I might as well try them. I can’t swear they worked, but I got the result I wanted, and it was a pretty unbelievable result. Thinking about it today, I’m almost incredulous. I wanted him to open up to me (IH) and be overwhelmingly attracted to me (EoW and IS/A) … and I got that. Coincidence? Maybe. But I still got what I wanted!