So, HI!
Like I said… sorry, this is going to be a novel, so bear with me… 
I live in the Bay Area, in California, about 35-45 minutes away from San Francisco. I’m in my late 20’s.. But, people who try to guess my age generally never guess above 20-23 or so. Which I know I’ll appreciate as I get older, lol. Good genes I guess, right? Ha..
Anyway. Why am I here, and what do I hope pheromones will do for me? Well, that is actually a long story and a bit of a journey. I’ll try to keep it to the important parts.
I’ve known about the existence of pheromone products for years. Sprays, wipes, cologne etc. The pheromone soaps was a new one for me, never heard of those. But I was never really interested in trying any of them. I am generally a confident, sunny, easy-going gal. A bit of a drama queen at times, but more because I am just very expressive rather than in a negative way. I tend to make friends easily and get hit on wherever I go. Not bragging.. just a fact, lol, and one that I get made of by my friends for all the time.
Enter the current stage of my life. I am a new single mama (to the most amazing, adorable, awesome 11 month old son in the world!!! 
). My son’s father and I have been separated since I was early in my pregnancy. That has been absolutely heart-wrenching for me. I had a difficult pregnancy and problems with post-partum depression, which is better now, but still rears it’s ugly-@$$ head from time to time. And now it’s looking like there is absolutely no chance of reconciliation, which is very hard for me. I’m still in love with him. But he is so angry and resentful and has stopped communicating with me. I know he is depressed, too, but just won’t talk about it. We used to have an easy relationship, used to talk about everything. We have a crazy past, and had our bad moments, like every couple does, but it was never anything we couldn’t make it through. Now it is like we can sometimes barely even be in the same room together, and it just hurts so much. I know I’m not perfect. But I sleep soundly at night knowing that I’ve done everything I can think of to get him to open up to me again.. and nothing works. I know he cares about me. And he definitely still wants sex with me, lol.. though after recent events I think I need to put an end to our fooling around, no matter how much I miss him. That’s going to be tough.. I am a VERY sensual person and I do love sex, no lie. But I think at least for now it’s necessary. I’m not even trying to get back together with him. All I want right now is for us to be able to get along again, to do what’s best for our child.
So, the main reason why I want to try using pheromones:
To wear when I need to see my ex to talk about things involving our son. That’s probably a new one for the books, eh? I have been spending the last few days reading all through many posts here and learning. I found this site after navigating many, many others and realizing that most of them were a little too scammy to believe or were all recommending the same products. Suspicious. But this site seemed like the real deal, so I spent some time here and have been amazed at what all I’ve found.
I understand what pheromones can and can’t do. My hope is that I can use something like Instant Openness or Instant Honesty (which I think might be better?), and maybe Instant Shine, to just help nudge us back towards being able to communicate better again, to help us re-find what we’ve lost, the easy friendship and reason why we were together and wanted a child in the first place. To help us feel better in each others’ presence so we can look past the hurt feelings and just talk again. I have read posts from women saying that Instant Shine just generally makes them and others around them feel good and happy. So this was a natural first pick for me. I’m also interested in trying other things, other products in the future. Hey, I like to get out on the town and feel sexy, too! Doesn’t happen often anymore, lol, but that’s besides the point. 
I am a bit low on funds since I’m still out of a job. So I hope I can get that gc, lol. I want to at least try a few things for now and will be able to afford more soon.
Any suggestions would be appreciated!! I would love to experiment and try some mixes, too, but for now I want to heed everyone’s advice and stick to the basics until I know how pheromone products are going to affect me and those around me. I’m thinking of in the future of trying to add either TAF, EST or P83 to the Instant Honesty and see what kind of effect that has. Anyone ever tried this?
So there is my background, so you can understand my story and what I’m looking for by joining this community. And if you are still with me and have read all the way to the end here, kudos to you, and I hope I haven’t scared you! I am just bein’ thorough and honest.. the only way I know how to be.
Thanks, all…
In the past, my own alpha tendencies actually probably are why our relationship worked so well for us… i think that’s part of the reason I was so in love, because I could be totally myself and wasn’t afraid of expressing myself in any way, and I knew he was secure, too. Recently though, I don’t know. With him being all over the map right now, maybe softening the edges might make me a little less threatening, I suppose? Not that I’m a threat to him lol but I sure as hell don’t know what is going on in his head at the moment.