New P96 observations:
I usually wear 1 drop of A314 to work. It’s my sweetspot I’m very familliar with the effects it delivers in this environment. I usually add something to make it less intimidating like IShine or P74, but last week mostly P96. Dose range: 15-30 mcg. Usually 15 mcg (I have a 30 ml bottle in 7,5 mcg).
- P96 is a muscle relaxant, just like TAC. Physically I feel very mellow. Effects are very obvious when combined with A314, as this one usually gives me alpha posturing effects. With P96 my body feels more elastic, and the air around me feels more fluid. It feels like it takes more energy to move around. Also: my heart rate decreases.
- P96 selfies make me feel very empathic towards other people. If people on the phone give me shit I speak up less than I usually do, and I am more understanding. It makes me less productive, as my job requires me to have a go-getter mentality.
- When face-to-face with someone the empathy effects are even more obvious. What I like to do at work: first couple of hours I wear A314 solo to have a baseline of behaviour from the people towards me. Halfway I add something to the mix, so I can observe how other people respond to it. Also I can keep track of selfies this way. After adding 15 mcg of P96 to 1 drop, girls always open me! With A314 solo this rarely ever happens. It makes high eRone so much more approachable/attractive. I’m talking about girls in their early 20s here - 21-25 age range. If I respond positively and show that I’m willing to talk and have something interesting to say, they won’t let me go for the rest of the shift. It’s not like they talk my ears off constantly like with Anol, but they want to continue the conversation and seek topics to re-engage me over and over again. I usually sit next to the same people for 4 hours in a row, so I have enough time to observe effects on people. P96 more so has a romantic Bnol vibe. There is no oversharing about deep, dark and negative topics like with IH sometimes - only positive topics. Self-effects wise I always feel calm, interested and caring about what other people have to say. Even pretty boring conversations feel ‘nice’ and sensual, like I’m making a real connection with someone. Yes, like I reported earlier - P96 creates a bond and an ‘us’ feeling. ‘We’re in this together’. ‘I can totally relate to that’.
BUT after 3-4 hours the P96 effects **sometimes **change for me for the worst. Only at 15 mcg combined with A314 - I started to feel weak. The exact words I wrote down in my notes were: insecure, shaky, unstable, irritable, low blood sugar? The time I experienced this effect there was nothing out of the ordinairy for the rest. It was a normal day. I did have breakfast, a good lunch, ate some fruit during the day etc. I also wasn’t dwelling on negative thoughts at all before these effects started to kick in. I just felt it creeping up on me, really slowly. I felt a little disoriented, with people talking and talking and talking around me. All I wanted to do is get the hell away from everyone to be alone somewhere. The last 2 hours of my shift were an absolute horror. I didn’t have the confidence to interact with anyone so I just tried to focus on my work. I couldn’t wait to get home. My body language was was also very insecure. I was trembling and found myself constantly touching my face and rubbing my neck.
Immediately scrubbed my neck with a washcloth, hot water and some soap after getting home. Took a 1 hour nap, drank a blueberry smoothie, after that I felt great again. Met up with my date and had a great night without P96 ofcourse (will report on this later).
Miss Dragon reported feeling vulnerable, unsure and exposed. I used different key-words in my notes, but this is exactly how I felt. I was keeping it together by just focusing on my work, but in a different situation, around friends maybe, I might have burst into tears as well. That’s how awful I felt.
Strange thing is: this hadn’t happened to me before. Even when I tried higher dosages of P96 (highest I went a couple of times was 37,5 mcg).
I have felt slightly lethargic before while wearing P96, but nothing like this.
Not something you wanna experience during a date or when you need to interact with people. It was like all my confidence had just evaported without any reason. Really strange. I’ve read a lot of things about A1 depression hitting people out of nowhere. Analyzing my own notes and experiences, this looks very similar to all the reports I’ve read.
edit: for some reason linking to Miss Dragon’s journal doesn’t work. I was referring to post nr. 66 in her journal.