Journaling endeavors of M.W.’s social metamorphosis

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Women's Journals
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Ok so I’m gonna start journaling…I’ll come back to this and formally introduce myself eventually, but I want to do a product report while its still fresh in my mind…

Ok I’m back lol

Hello All :slight_smile: Welcome to my journal–I ummm tend to ramble on and it can be a bit unorganized at times as I have, at best, 2 people inside of me trying to talk at once. Each with views that vary drastically. I am as my bff puts it, a walking contradiction. Stay tuned for evidence lol

Ok So here are my basics:

Age: 27 (28 next month)
Ethnicity: Mostly Afro American with some Native not far removed
Blood type: Dunno…Will ask doc to put in an order next time I need labs
Height: 5’6 and three quarters (does that matter?)
Body Type: Voluptuously Thick giggle
Looks: Ehh…I say I’ma hmmm well…I dunno see avatar for refrence
Zodiac Sign(s): Gemini/Aquarius/Scorpio (big astrology nut)
Marital Status: Living Single
Personality: Well..according to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator I’m an INFJ (Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Judging) In short, I’m dominantly introverted and rely on my intution and feelings when it comes to makin judgments. I think. Anywho here’s a link to a summary of INFJs if you’re interested
INFJ

Growing up, I was shy and timid. Now I’m mostly quiet and reserved ( prolly the same thing with jus a grown up spin to it) I usually open up after I observe and feel comfortable in my surroundings. Oh yeah I also have a “special circumstance,” I have PCOS which in short is a hormonal imbalance in which I have a higher then normal (whatever that is) amount of testosterone in my blood…I know, lovely… Thats kind of the reason why I’m here as I suspect that my testosterone production may (or may not, purely speculation) be giving me a masculine or androgynous (i get hit on by both genders) pheromone siggy and I was hoping to achieve one that matches my anatomy..Guess I should add that I’m heterosexual as some people tend to think that with the excessive testosterone my likings would be contrary. So not so, chicks are cool but I love men.

I’ve been working on my Bachelor’s degree for like 3 years now, taking no summers off and with it being so visible I decided to take this one off and give my social life some much needed attention. So far, I have 3 guys in mind… 2 are really test subjects that I’m going to use for the grand finale lol --Is that bad? Oh well… Brief Summary of my guys who I will refer to as the gangster, the gentleman, and the perfect blend.

The Gangster
Age: 32
Race: Afro American
Zodiac Sign: Aries

Met him a couple weeks back at a gas station and exchanged numbers. After the initial phone conversation, I came to realize that this guy is only out for two things; to divide (my legs that is) and conquer. I refer to him as The Gangster because he is uhhh street savy and induldges heavily in that life. Had I been like 5 years younger, he would definitely be my prime target but I’m kinda growing out of the wanting a bad boy stage. So far contact has been strictly by phone with the conversations being cut short when I tell him he can’t come over or I can’t come see him (work and school hasnt provided time for a meeting). I’m keeping him around because he makes an ideal test subject and being that I’m not into him mentally, I will be able to remain objective when it comes to discerning his reactions to the pheromones.

The Gentleman
Age: 25
Race: Afro American
Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius

“Met” him online last year and lost contact. He recently resurfaced and we’ve been talking for a month now. We live in the same city and havent met in person due to scheduling conflicts (fav excuse) He is opposite of my sun sign and it shows in our conversations. They are always fluid and we feel in each other’s gaps. I refer to him as The Gentleman because that is what he is simply put. Very respectful and easy going. I like him thus far but wont get my hopes up because online turned offline encounters haven’t been favorable for me.

The Perfect Blend
Age: 34
Race: Creole of Color (New Orleans Native)
Zodiac Sign: Leo

Right now, he is the creme de la creme to me. We met thro a mutual friend and due to distance talk mostly on the phone. We have met in person, tho it was kinda awkward. None the less, we still keep in contact. He is your typically alpha male hands down. I refer to him as the perfect blend because he, like myself, is both book and street smart. He is everything I look for in a man. We have an underlining power struggle going on tho as he is use to the submissive type and I’m not her. But in all honesty, I think that’s what keeps him around (aside from my kick ass personality). I pose as a challenge to him and he is most definitely up for it. He also like his woman to be feminine as he put it and here I am all tom boyish and what not, so I have a challenge at hand also. He’ll be either coming her or I’ll be going there next month so I have to get on it and find the perfect mix for him. I want to make our next visit one that he will remember for the rest of his life!

Ok…thats a lot of typing–if you read it all, I sry…I jus like to write :slight_smile:

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IShine+MX135+Family gathering=…

Ok so I went to my mother’s house for our family’s mother’s day dinner–Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mothers BTW-- and here’s what I wore

4 Sprays of IShine double strength; 1 split between the wrists, 1 to back of my neck, 1 to the chest, and 1 to the face-don’t ask me why I sprayed there lol

3 Sprays of MX135; 1 split between the wrist, 1 to the back of my neck, and 1 to the chest.

Self Effects: Crazy, Sexy, Cool with some smiling and giggling in between.

I ironed my clothes while the pheromones where drying down–I’m still not liking the chocolatini scent but I love MX135 thus far so I will work with it. Anywho, had no intention of puttin on any make up what so ever. After clothes were ironed (t shirt and jeans) I decided to put on some eye liner. Liked how the eyeliner looked, so I said what the heck lets add some shadow…Before I knew it, I my face was totally made up. Went into the bed room to put on my clothes and decided against wearing the t shirt and put on a nice button up blouse. Put on some earrings for extra measure and headed out to my moms.

The weather here is dreary; cloudy and rainy–sleeping weather. No effect to my mood though, still feeling bubbly.

Got to my destination, gave mommy her present, a hug, and did my rounds saying hello and hugging the relatives and what not. While doing so, everyone mentioned how happy they were to see me and were all smiles–I am the black sheep/outcast of my family so I’m counting that as a hit. Aunts and cousins Im ashamed to say that I really don’t care to much for outside of our shared blood line (the feeling is mutually shared) kept complementing me and asking if I lost weight (I havent :frowning: ) Everyone was interested in how work and school was going. I recently moved and my aunts and cousins wanted to know if I was having a house warming party, if I needed anything, and when they could come over to see the new place. It was soooo hard hiding my shock, everyone was so out of character including myself soooo…I did what I normally do when I’m confused; smiled and knodded lol

Usually during family functions, I come in say my hellos and shrink back into the background with no one complaining. Not the case today as I was literally center of attention. Mommy is extremely emotionally detached but kept hugging me and thanking me for her gift every chance she got. My little 2 year old cousin who I really dont get to see much climbed up into my lap and fell asleep. I was all like awwww how cute lol

All in all had a great day with my family, I actually enjoyed their company and am looking forward to the next gathering :slight_smile:

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Excellent!

I love that you’re getting the self affect you were after from mx135 already. And you had such great response from family too!

Mx135 does nearly the same thing for me, mentally girly if that makes sense.

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Hi Inkling :slight_smile:

Mentally girly definitely makes sense-- It’s some what foreign to me but I’m loving it so far

Today I wore 4 sprays of IShine; 1 split between the wrists, 1 on each side of my neck, and 1 to the chest covered it with some cool water for her scented oil and…I smelled like bug spray sigh I really like cool water for her but it takes a while for it to blend with the neroli. I figured since they were both “clean” scents they would mesh well…Nope, well not initially…By the time I got dressed it was less bug sprayish but I could still tell.

Self effects: None–:frowning: what happened to my buzz?? I miss it

Environment: The twilight zone lol j/k I went work

Effects on others: Got the glowing compliment again. One of the STNAs kept crowding my personal space ( I need atleast three feet because I’m absorbant–believe it or not) she didnt say anything tho, jus wanted to be near me…Strange. All in all everyone was pleasant even the head nurse who stays power tripping ( I loathe her). The DON asked me if I would like to sit in on some interviews next week–Not quite sure if that’s a hit as I am working on my bachelors for Human Resources Management..But whatever, I’ll take it lol

I’m a going to the pool hall in a lil bit with my bff so I sprayed 2 shots of Isexiness-a; 1 to the back of my neck and 1 split between the wrists. I added 2 sprays of Ishine over the application points to soften it a bit and 1 more spray to my chest 10 mins ago.

Self Effects: HEAD-ACHE–well its in the sinus area so face ache rather. I sprayed the Isexiness away from my face so I wouldnt get the attitudial (is that a word?) self effects…No such luck sigh Maybe a few more sprays of IShine? Oh and I’m not liking the neroli right now, its really assualting my nostrils…Most…Cover…Quickly… I will report my results if any from the pool hall later.

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Hey, Ms! It’s great to see more journals, and I can’t wait to see what else you write!

I have the same self-effects off of MX135. It’s seriously awesome. IS/B used to be my everyday, and it’s being nudged aside by MX135. Honestly the only thing that keeps it from becoming #1 is that Chocolatini scent. I’m not crazy about it, either, and until they offer it unscented or in other scents, I’m going to waffle on buying a large bottle.

Oh, who am I kidding, I probably will buy a large bottle anyway.

Great to have you aboard!

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Awww man, you mean to tell me thats the only scent MX135 comes in??? Even the bigger bottle? Say it aint so!! What a bummer as I really like it but the chocolatini is some what of a deterance for me…Jus doest agree with my chemistry, guess I’m chocolate enough :smiley:

Will post my pool hall experience after I get off the phone with “The Perfect Blend” giggle

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Pool Hall

Ok…So picking up where I left off which is…:confused:

Oh yeah I was bombarded by the neroli (was wearing 2 shots of Isexiness A and 3 sprays of Ishine double strength) so I covered it with some Pussy Oil (gosh that sounds bad) Ok so it was scented pussyoil lol Covered the neroli nicely. I also added some strawberries& champagne scented oil to various other places…Mmm I smell great…My face hurts, but I smell great.

Proceeded to meet my bff at the pool hall. Made a pit stop at the gas otherwise would have been stranded. I go to this gas station like everyday so the people working there know me and are always cordial. I get to the counter and the cashier has a pack of Newport 100s lights waiting for me (bad habit, I know) Everytime I go in there, who ever’s working does this regardless if I need cigerettes or not. Kinda bugs me because I dont like being predictable, but thats neither here nor there. Usually I just politely say I don’t need em but I wasn’t so polite this time. None the less, the cashier was extremely friendly towards me. He apologized and set them to the side all smiles…I’m thinkin wtf he smiling for? So I paid for the gas and he said “have a good nite darling” Uhh darling? So I’m thinking maybe he was just being sarcastic? Didn’t pick up on it…Who cares., my face hurts.

So I’m pumping my gas and apparently my face is all screwed up because this guy walks by and says “It can’t be that bad mama, smile” So I did, but it was a fake one and he just walked off shaking his head. At this point, I’m assuming that I’m not congruent with the signals I’m giving off? So I attempt to check myself. Pep talk time: Pull it together, fake it to you make it…There we go, all smiles again…

Pool Hall Time

I must add that I do not know how to shoot pool. I understand the logic jus can’t quite get the mechanics down… I only went as a means to get out the house and socialize…

Bff is waiting in the parking lot. Weather is still dreary from yesterday. Bff gets out the car and ask what took me so long. Gives bff the evil eye and continues to walk into the pool hall. Bff’s personality is hard to explain, hell how our friendship works is hard to explain. She is extremely loud, bossy, and uhh…ghetto but I love her dearly, bless her heart. She is an attention seeker, has to be noticed by any means necessary. I am the opposite, I shrink away from attention.

Anyways, we walk in and its a pretty small and diverse crowd. We chill at the bar and play the little slot machine thingies and order some drinks. Bar tender is cute–Kinda resembles JT… Made lots of eye contact, lots of smiles. Addressed me when checking to see if we were good. Bff suggested that he was only trying to get a tip. I laughed and said “interesting” and walked over to sign up for a table. She didn’t follow me because she likes to lead, and I didnt feel like being led…Hmm do I sense a power struggle brewing? lol

So I’m attempting to shoot solo and I hear “you not holding the stick right ma” from behind me. Know that voice all to well. I turn around and come face to face with my ex boyfriend. He’s all smiles, I’m all frowns and I now realize why I dont go out often; trying to avoid running into certain people lol He compliments me on how I look( I’ve lost 25 pounds since we last saw each other) and he kept looking at me smiling eyes all twinkling…I thanked him for the compliment and turned back around hoping he would take the hint. He didnt sigh He took the initiative to help me hold the stick properly…This is when Bff, ex boyfriend’s nemisis, decides to join the party…

Bff says with a smirk on her face “remember, he’s your ex for a reason” Ok so this is so not helping my mood, time to exit stage left. So before they could get to actin like fools, I announce that my head hurts and I’m leaving. I tell bff I’ll call her later and the ex is right on my heels as I walk away all the while asking me if I was gonna call him later. Umm No I’m not but thanks for asking. I get in the car, he grabs my hand kisses it (WTF?)and slides his card in it. Told me I was looking real good as I closed the door and stood there all twinkly eyed as I pulled off.

Summary: Isexiness A is going to be a problem with Bff. Ex encounter was definitely a hit as he never looked at me the way he did tonight. Never saw twinkles before, more like contempt. lol Bartender was a possible hit, or he could have been like bff said, trying to get a tip. Moral of the story: I need some Tah in my life lol

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Ahhh Yes, The Gentleman :slight_smile:

Yesterday was an oh so lovely day :smiley: Had the day off and decided to meet up with The Gentleman…

The Mix

1 spray of Instant Sexiness-A; back of neck (decided to give it one more chance)
3 sprays of Instant Shine; 1 split between the wrists, 1 to my cleavage, 1 rubbed around my neck
4 sprays of MX135; 1 to each wrists, 1 to my cleavage, 1 rubbed around my neck with finger tips and the residue to the ends of my hair

MX135 covers the neroli which is good, still not liking the scent…Smells like cherry codials ick So I covered with some pink sugar oil around the applications points then followed that with some cotton candy body spray…Mmmmm I smell so sweet

Self Effects: Cool, calm, and collected–All smiles, I fell wonderful and it shows type of vibe.

Got to the Gentleman’s house about 30 mins after application, he opened the door arms wide for a hug which I obliged. He’s a bit taller then I am so he had to bend down a little, he then rested his face in the crook of my neck and inhaled deep and sighed just as deeply. I giggled lol I was the one who broke the embrace and he jus stared at me then pulled me back in for another hug. He has big arms and gives the best hugs ever!! So after that we lounged around, joked, laughed, and watched some movies. Lots of cuddling, lots of me giggling all in all, great time.

His roomie came home (white male in his mid 20s) and he seemed awe struck by me, talk about staring. He’s studying photography and asked if I’d ever consider modeling. I laughed and asked was he serious. His look said dead ass–He’d seen the pictures I sent The Gentleman and said that I was photogenic. I told him my posture is too bad for modeling and he said I dont give myself enough credit. We all laughed and joked a bit and through the course of that, the roomie moved from the love seat to the sofa. So I am now sandwiched betwee them. Roomie is very touchy feely and The Gentleman wrapped his arm around my shoulders and scooted closer to melol

The Gentleman and I ended up going outside to chill. After a minute or two he says “hey lets go to your place” And thats what we did–More talking, more cuddling, more of me giggling. We ended up falling asleep on my couch all snuggled up :smiley: I must say it felt sooooo good to be in the arms of a man. One thing is for certain, you can definitely tell how a person feels about you by the way they touch you. I’m thinking I’ll keep The Gentleman around for a while!

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Great journal, M.W.! I’ve recently become a fan of your journal :smiley:! Can’t wait to read about your encounters with the other men!! The Gentleman really sounds like a gentleman…all cuddly and nice. Have fun!

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Count me as another fan, MW. With beauty, personality and pheromones on your side, it’s bound to be a wild ride! :smiley:

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LOL…great start to your journal..ah…Snagglepuss…lol :smiley: :stuck_out_tongue: Looking forward to more of your reports! Reps!

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Yay I love fans lol Thanks for reading my journal Fantasy, the gentleman is what I’ve been needing in my life…Been hug deprived for quite some time as the majority of the guys I’ve dealt with were to “macho” to display affection. And that’s why they were fired :smiley: lol I can’t wait to write about my encounters with the other guys–The perfect blend will be a while tho as we won’t be seeing each other til July :frowning:. I’m thinking I may play with The Gangster tomorrow might, that is if The Gentleman isnt occupying my time:o I’m about to put another order in so definitely stay tuned!

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lol A wild ride is what I’ve been needin in my life, in every sense of the phrase giggle I’ve never been on to be happy about parting with my money, but pheromones are soooooo worth it! I am so happy I found this site :slight_smile:

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Oh I forgot to tell you, I’m also a crazy astrology nut, M.W. :stuck_out_tongue: (I’m a Pisces). I keep track of the signs of everyone around me LOL. Hmm…pheromones should be a blast especially with compatible signs. The chemistry would be on fire!!! :smiley:

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They are definitely an addiction! I went through a phase where I was buying something new every week. :open_mouth:

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You know, I’m generally very conservative with my money… usually, if it isn’t necessary, and I can’t trick someone into getting it for me, :roll_eyes: I’ll just go without. But jeez, pheromones are so FUN to play with! :smiley: It makes life just that little bit sweeter. Totally worth the hole in my pocket… lol.

Great journal by the way :slight_smile: Gotta love the gentlemen types… oh, but the tough guys have their own appeal… Though I know I can’t live without the occasional cuddle session :o Hehe. Hope you get the right guy!

After a bit of hesitation, I typed that into google thinking (hoping, rather) “hey, maybe it’s a play on the word cat, and it’s an actual perfume or something.” Wrong! LOL nothing but vulgar pornish headlines… do you mean Pink Sugar oil, or did you actually use your… ahem… natural copulins?

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LOL-- No I dont use my own cops, not quite sure I produce them… I was referring to a frangrance oil I purchased from The Common Scents LLC - Body Oils, Fragrance Oils, Perfume Oils…

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I love Pisces–Actually, I love all the water signs I tend to connect with them on a deeper level (My Ascendant is Scorpio so maybe thats why). I know a lot of people think Astrology is hocus pocus, but I believe there is a time and place for everything in this world…But I’m a dreamer of sorts lol You are right though, pheromones+ compatible signs=Fire!!

Speaking of fire, found out The Gangster is an Aries so I am definitely playing with fire as all of my target’s sun signs are fire signs. Hmmm wondering what happens when you add Air to Fire? Stay tuned, I have reports coming…:smiley:

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Double Dating giggles

Yesterday…Ahhh, quite interesting to say the least. I double dated–Well not in the traditional sense of the word–Met up with The Gangster and The Gentleman, separately of course :wink: --Playa Playa lol

Anywho

Went for a walk with The Gentleman, I wore the same combo that I did for our first encounter. Pretty much the same results; hugging, smiling, holding hands, me giggling–It was priceless! The weather was wonderful, sunny not to warm, not to cold. We stopped at a park bench cuddled and had a good but light hearted conversation. I’m really liking this guy. I dont normally deal with men younger then me because of a few terrible experiences, but I’m glad I decided not to let my past hurt my future. He had to go to work so we parted ways with a drum roll please kiss:o

I’m thinking I want to add some Instant honesty to the mix and see if we can get into deeper conversations. Maybe its too soon for that tho? I’m kinda enjoying what we have going thus far, maybe I’ll let a little more time go by.

On the drive home, I get a phone call from The Gangster wanting to know what I had going on for the night. I had no plans as this whole socializing thing is still new to me so I told him I might hang out with my bff ( he doesnt need to kno that I have no life–yet lol) He asked if he could come by or vice versa–I told him I wasn’t really in the mood to stay in house so he suggested that we take a road trip to Detriot to hit up the casinos and maybe a few clubs. I told him I was game only if my bff and hubbie could go. He put up a protests initially but then I explained to him that I don’t know him from Adam and I’m not just about to go out of state with him. He hit me with the typical “I’m not a psycho killer” line and I retorted “you’re opinion is a little biased sweetie, its not like you’d tell me anyways” He laughed and said I got a smart ass mouth which is why he has to have me on his “team.” Yeah, whatever :roll_eyes: So I’m automatically thinking that he would definitely appreciate Instant Sexiness A.

I was going to use Instant Sexiness A on him anyways as it makes me bitchy and being that I have a good idea of his ultimate intention, I wanted to let him know it aint happening or atleast it won’t be easy giggle

The Mix
2 drops of Primal Instinct For Women behind my ears
3 sprays of Isexiness A; 1 to the back of my neck, 1 to the top of my head, and 1 spray rubbed into the ends of my hair
An itsy bitsy dab of MX134 under my nose
4 sprays of Instant Shine; 1 to each wrists, 1 on each side of my neck, 1 to my chest, and 1 to my face.
I rolled some PCC from my wrist to the crease of my elbow and rubbed it in with the other arm.

Since the PCC is Cucumber Melon scented, I decided to cover with Cucumber melon body spray and them some Cool Water for her as they mix really well on me.

Didn’t smell like bug spray this time, everything blended good.

Self Effects: No headache and my face didnt hurt yay No bitchiness, more so cockily confident border line arrogant. I kinda like that :smiley: But I knoooow it isnt going to mesh well with bff. Oh well…she’ll be alright.

We all meet up at bff’s house. The Gangster waited in his car until I pulled up and he got out looking oh so scrumptious. He really cleans up well…Anyways, he says “Its about time I got to see you” all smiles with his arms open for a hug. I’m thinking in my mind–“yeah, whateva” but I oblige and give him a friendly hug. We broke the embrace and he told me I smelled good and kept knodding his head as if he was agreeing with himself. I laughed and we went in. I introduced everyone and we chilled in the living room as my bff was still primping.

Bff’s husband is soooo not my type, and the feeling is mutual but he was more attentive then normal. Usually its just a “what’s good (insert my name here)?” and thats about it. He got to asking about work, how much longer did I have left with school (which he already knew as bff likes to discuss me often with him), and if I was liking my new place. Ok, I know its the other people who usually have the dihl look, but that was me all the way. In the 8 years I’ve known this man, we’ve never said more than 2 words to each other. Its not that we dislike each other we’re just indifferent about each other. So I was caught off guard, but he does like dominating woman as bff is one–or at least tries to be one.

Meanwhile, The Gangster just kinda hung back with his arm around my shoulders playing with my hair. Normally, that would bother me as I have a thing about personal space ifffff I don’t want it to be infiltrated, which I didn’t with him, but I figured hey–keep playin with it and get a good whiff while you at itlol

Bff is finally ready and we head out. It was kinda cool last night, so the windows were up and they were all subjected to my pheromones evil laugh Bff tried to dominate the conversation, but it always fell back on me. Bff’s hubby and The Gangster were just more intrigued with what I had to say, which was ironically, nothing lol Bff was in the front passenger seat and she kept turning around and looking at me strange. So I looked back at her…Strangely as if to say “what?!?”

Wait, The Gentleman is calling…Will continue this when I get off the phone with him :smiley:

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Aww The Gentleman sounds so sweet, I’m rooting for him :smiley:! I’m currently searching for someone like that, someone I can cuddle, chat, and giggle with sigh.
Ooooo you’re just dangling your charms in front of The Gangster and presenting a yummy challenge with that Instant Sexiness A :wink:. You go, girl!! Looking forward to more of your posts!