Though this is back in time but anyone who read my journal and knew i had worked up my boss and have bombarded with him with continous exposure to my mones.. this is one big day he reacted like this…though this result was not my expectation… but it happened. hence i say mones nudge people to behave in a way they do not intend to. or they actually create feelings in people for you and make them creoss thier own boundries. this is what happened with me.
Isa -3 clevage
IH-2 in back neck
IO-2 in cleavage and underarm
Mx134 ? 2 in behind ear and back of hands
P97-2, 20 mcg in clevage and rubbed with hands
P96 - 2 in front neck
P83 - 3 in neck.
Cops ? pure drops in back of knee 2 each and 2 in inner thigh.
My boss came back from travelling and i supposed to see him. Had a formal meeting for updates n all. I was in my cabin and which is all covered in this office. he crossed from outside and i heard his voice, he scremed, so i know he is around( somewhat like peacocking). i did not go out to give him attention and stay seated. he enters my cabin with bang and pretended he is rushing but stood there on door for no reason( mone cloud) . i rushed to greet him and extended my hand for a shake. and he couldn’t take off his eyes and didnt leave my hand. and asked me to follow him to his cabin. i took sometime to collect my stuff and laptop and rushed to his cabin.
I knocked and to my amusment he was not on his regulad seat, insted he was sitting on sofa bent down doing something with his shoe laces. i was startled as that was unexpected, and it was just close enough to the door. He smiles at me looking from corner of eye, gets up and hold my hand and pull me in. i was startled. he eases me, smilingly, took stuff from hand puts it away on a chester behind him while he was smiling looking me in the eyes holding the gaze. he pulls me in his arms, hold my waist and plants a kiss on my forehead. i was so scared and shaking. i resisted and pulled away. but he pulled me closer and held me tight with one arm and lifted me face with the other and kissed me.
it all hapeened so suddenly and he did not gave me time to figure out what he is upto. i finally pulled myself away and showed him discomfort but he was determined enough to not let me go. he pulled me in his chest again holding his gaze and started rubbing my cheeks , my hair my neck. by this time i could understand he is badly affected b my mones ever since but he broke his boundries today. yes he was developing feelings. i saw that in his eyes. not lust but something more, maybe love. it shook me inside cos i didnt see him in that light. he looked deep in my eyes and said you are so beautiful. i was so embarrassed by now and at this i somehow manged to say pls sir. again i struggled to pull myself away but he wont let me go. and said you have done some magic on me.
by now i could get hold of what was happening, so i held his hands and released me from his hug and stepped back while saying there are people outside your cabin. then he regained his senses and stepped back too.
i was stunned and could not stand his gaze anymore and broke the eye contact. i said i will see you later. you have your meeting first. and i rushed to pick my stuff. he held my arm again and said in a child like pleading manner.. i am sorry but dont go, pls sit with me for sometime, i wont do anything to you but just sit. i couldnt refuse. so we sat he on his seat and me across his big table in front of him. he was looking at me while i was looking down on table. the whole thing was making me uncomfortable.
i was thinking while he was silently looking at me. i respect this man so much and of course i admire him as well but i never thought , he would do something like this. its not him or me but mones playing their part.
the moment i realised this i broke the silence and asked him what happened to him. again a strange reply came- “you happened to me”. it gave me jitters in my entire body and he noticed it too. for sometime we kept silent.
i think that silence spoke evrything which we could not say. he took his glass of water from table and drank some, smiled and held right in front of me suggesting to sip some. i did take a sip and kept the glass on side. he gently caresed my cheek again. i dont know what he was feeling inside but i knew he was feeling love. at least eyes were so pure and gentle.
we sat for next 20 25 mins and could manage to talk a bit. nothing about work or anything.. we knew we were just breaking the silence with staments like… so howz life? what did you do when i was away? howZ work? howz helath… int the meantime i made 5 reqests to leave which he all denied and almost pleaded lovingly to sit for some more moments and each time i seated back. i too was feeling good inside for his gentle loving ways and caress he was giving on my cheeks and playing and putting away my bangs and curls from my face. it was all so beautiful and loving that in my heart i could not dare to be tough and leave.
after sometime i manged to convince him that i must leave and see him later on which he asked me that i am not annoyed and for sure will see him back. i said yes m not annoyed and will see him soon once he is done with work.
finally i came to my cabin and just when i left he gave me a final flying kiss and said come soon. i couldn’t help but smile and blinked with yes.
OMG i came to my cabin and held my head sitting in my chair , thinking and pondering and mulling over what all happened.
i think its all my fault, i dont mean to hurt him in any way , i like him very much for what he is but i do not want to break his heart or do anything which can create any problem for him. i must tell you any women would do anything for such a man, to be in a realtionship with him, his kind of man. he is a complete man of substance, his words with a tough masculin side and his gentle generous caring heart. it would be a dream come true for any women to know , if he is in love with that women.
but i have to pull myself back now, as i know i cant be with him for many reasons. i am sitting and thinking life has its own ways to present starnge moments to you. they last or not but i know its a memory created for lifetime which i will always cherish, to experience such love is a blessing for sure.
I do not know what will happen next and i more then willing to share with utmost honesty my beautiful experiences with life and mones.
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