Well I just kind of went with it. I’m very social so meeting people wasn’t really a thing for me. I look at it as a new adventure and never close the door on the old one. I have friends all over the world and I go back and forth now where ever I want. Not sure what else I can tell you since really there’s no formula just an opportunity to grow 
So I’ve been working at reducing my dependencies. This having to work in another city is a bit helpful, very different pattern. Usefull for the time being but deep down inside I do crave for a more free lifestyle. I’ve always worked towards living a lifestyle that doesn’t involve working for someone else. I’ll just take this for now as a ‘recovery/self discovery period’ and once I have a firm foundation again, work towards that free lifestyle.
But definitly going through a period of self discovery… looking at what works and what doesn’t, embrace change.
I found this on youtube about your partner in crime… Whats peoples thoughts on it?
I wish I had it 6months ago, even though everything went to hell.. became unpractical and 95% dysfunctional I still miss her. Like in the video, a turd that won’t flush hehe.
uhhhh *sigh, I still can’t trust my own judgement
It takes time and effort. The best advice I can ever give someone is not to trust their judgement, or intuition or feelings, but rather trust yourself. After all the rest are merely small parts that make up the whole of you. Love yourself for everything you are: the extra pounds, the love handles, the way you cannot eat without spilling food on your clean shirt, the way you smell, the way you breath. Its all you my friend and when you love yourself, you love yourself completely . So I say unto you, love yourself and the rest will follow.
Thanks Steve, definitively putting the effort in at this point. lol almost turning my life upside down. I’ll be more settled soon. I don’t get much time to myself these days with the moving but I’m sure things will settle at some point.
A thought came to me the other day, never tell someone they aren’t good enough to do something. Build someone up, don’t tear them down… Because someday they will accomplish it. Everything I’ve been told I’m not good enough to do I went and did in a few months lol
I was thinking of singing this song in karaoke among others ~ Billy Joel - Always a Woman
Social test 10 - results from 1 to 10 = 7 Intent: Respect work mix
Test ingredients
Rone 3x 5mcg
Anol 3x 10mcg
TAA 3x 10mcg
P90 1x 10mcg
Situation
Applied 5min before work each day for 2 weeks
Applied
Lasted aprox 4hours
Result
Since starting this new job I had a goal of being friendly, approachable, and focused on my work. Comepared to other jobs I’ve had eveyone at this job seems to enjoy my company and incoprpoeted me into there dynamics right away. I think into the second week they didn’t mind me seeing them fool around and make jokes. This even though I sorta work at a higher level 
My opinions are highly respected by the president, and I’m accepted as an authority in my profession. Even some of the leading edge semi-unproven social media ideas seemed to be accepted at this point. I take on each task at hand and jumping right into many different problems as they arise, always having a solution.
Now the big test came one a day I decided not to use this mix. That day I almost had an emotional brake down. All the baggage of my past came and hit me, I didn’t feel confident in any of my ideas, felt a bit hopeless. Nobody come out of their way to talk to me, and I felt awkward when I went to chat with other people. By the end of the day I was taking a step back from myself and asking, where did all this emotion come from? It was as if I had been holding it in all that time and my body decided that since my focus was down it was a good time to release it. I didn’t get much done that day, my thoughts were quite clouded.
The biggest addition to this mix is the P90. I do believe it gives me a work attitude focus that’s great. Over the past tow weeks alot of strenuous problems came up that I systematically took apart even though I was very new and not knowing whats going on for the most part. I think it brings out the best in me in this respect.
Project UF test 1 - results from 1 to 10 = 7 Intent: Party with friends
Test ingredients
Mx392 2x
Situation
Applied 30min before meeting with friends and an hour before getting to a bar
Applied
Lasted aprox 4hours
Result
When I first put this stuff on it made me feel a bit wonky, my nose said “WHohha” which is unusual. I can’t smell so whenever my nose picks up something its usually pheromones. I don’t remember much on these so I don’t know what other results are on them. But for me, I felt like Snake from the Simpsons with this on. But not in a witty way like IJ would.
A bit more aggressive, more forceful, a bit more social. For example I went to go pick up a friend and instead of waiting for him to come out after txting, I went right up to his door and started knocking on it insistently. He didn’t come out right away so I went back to my car and started singing led Zeppelin - Its been a long time.
On the way to our destination I was sitting in the back of the car and even though its hard to hear someone in the back seat they always were attentive. Usually, I’d get drowned out form the loudness of the stereo when I’m in the back.
When walking around on the street I was always in the lead, and when it came to deciding on where to go I made the decisions. Which isn’t too far off from the usual, but on this night I don’t think anyone felt that it was up for debate.
Where we ended up I wasn’t that interested in any women there. I don’t really equate bars + booz with women these days. If I wanted something serious I wouldn’t be looking there. But without even wanting anything I do remember some women insisting on dancing with me.
The next day, it may or may not be related but when I was at the gym people kept asking me how many sets I had left. There were two other bench presses free, so I don’t know why they would ask me this. Which happened again on another machine. I answered back in a deep aggressive tone.
I’ve been moving my interests away from bars too. It just doesn’t interest me anymore quite frankly so I know the feeling. I found some pretty cool meetup groups that started recently so mostly I have been doing that. I think on Saturdays I will continue to hit up my friends club, but other than that its actually boring to me.
What happened at the gym with the people asking if your were done with the reps? Can you elaborate a bit more on that please? Were they asking you disrespectfully, as like hey you shouldn’t be using this machine, you should be over there with the girls! Just not sure what you meant.
Well it is still abit of an adventure for me to test and see if people interact with me different when living in a different city or if it remains constant. Its a well-known impression that where I used to live was abit asshole like and any ioi’s are really a remarkable feet. You got to be really good to get ioi in asshole town lol, everyone’s is usually instantly up on each other’s backs or giving the suspicious eye lmao.
At the gym, people were asking to use my equipment as if they want to exclusively use what I’m using even though there were identical and available equipment even just right beside me. I’m not sure if it was out of respect or disrespect, to me I believe they were confused.
Project UF test 2 - results from 1 to 10 = 5 Intent: Party with friends
Test ingredients
MX391 2x
TAA 10mcg 2x
TAC 10mxg 2x
Anol 10mcg 1x
Situation
Applied 30min before meeting with friends and an hour before getting to a bar
Applied
Lasted aprox 4hours
Result
Just like when using MX392 when I first put this stuff on it made me feel a bit wonky, my nose said “WHohha” which is unusual. Its like my brain took a shot of vodka for a second and phased out into static. Keep in mind, I don’t get tipsy from spraying on any typical products.
A older female room mate commented that I was extra musky and that I should never wear this in the house again. I went and put on some TAA and TAC to buffer, I was told I’m a bit better after. Maybe I’m borderline ODing on this stuff.
When I was being driven to our destination I couldn’t help but focus on the different elements assembled in the music playing on the radio. Picking out little supporting melodies in songs I have heard but never really paid attention to. There must be something in this mix for focus, which I’ve been playing with lately. Possibly P102.
When we had arrived at our destination my friends had very diluted intents and could not decide where they wanted to go. Me and a closer friend had made up our minds on one place but no one was inspired by our suggestion. So we broke away from the main group and went by ourselves.
I spoke to some women that night but I didn’t get any special attention. I had even walked by some slightly older 30+ women and still no interest. I think whatever is in this mix wasn’t being conductive to my situation, I wasn’t very inspired by it. Perhaps I will try it again at 1x or with more buffers.
So I like to sing… and usually I pick songs that represent how I’m feeling.
So lately I’ve been pushing my limits with Child In Time - Deep Purple
So I ended up moving to a new town and got pritty sick in the process. It seems I get sick after stressful ordeals. Before getting sick the other night I did visit some friends and tried out MX390. I’m initially feeling abit of a P95 vibe from it, will have to try it a bit more to see.
As a bit of an informal report I was feeling great using 2 sprays. Felt I could talk to anyone and always had something to say. Had that Grand Marnier feeling just subtly like P95 does. In casually speaking with one women I wasn’t really insinuating or pushing anything really, but she was very interested in me. At one point admitting “ahh you smell so good, but I’m engaged!” My intent was just to enjoy the night with friends, I didn’t want to mess with anyone’s arrangements lol.
At the end of the night we all decided to go to a friends cottage and picked up two other girls on the way. I wasn’t very interested in them but one ended up sitting on my lap even though my buddy beside me had puked all over himself. The mix definitly gave off ‘good times’ type of vibe!
Social test 11 - results from 1 to 10 = 9 Intent: Respect work mix
Test ingredients
Androsterone 2x 5mcg
Anol 2x 10mcg
TAA 2x 10mcg
P90 2x 10mcg
Situation
Applied 5min before work, slightly modified from my last report to have less socials and 1 more spray of P90.
Applied
Lasted aprox 6hours and residual up to 12hours
Result
I’ll briefly describe how my work days go. There are alot of projects going on and many different marketing issues to be solved so I could be looking into 5-10 different things at one time.
My boss the president can get abit anxious and or have anxiety every once and a while if things arn’t moving forward in his opinion. Otherwise very relaxed and casual workplace.
Wearing this mix I could walk into a meeting with my boss with him worried about a ton of things. The self effects kick in so I know exactly what to say so he knows things are on track. We also then start talking about strategy and all other things business. Then what was funny the other day I thought I was going to be in trouble but instead he offered to upgrade my desk and chair. Or the day before that he decided to have me look after the 30-100k marketing budget. (Our brand is going national). What makes it even better, when I first started this was supposed to be part time 3 days a week which was bumped to full time within a week or two. I’ve turned a part time work from home web contract worker job into what could be full time brand manager in a hot industry and awesome city
Also just the other day after work I drove back to my home city to buy a gym membership regularly $1000 for $200 (ridiculously cheap) at their head office. I got to talking to someone with connections with there head office and got them interested in selling our brand at there locations.
To add, on off days I’m definitely not as driven or sociable lol.
I absolutely love what P90 does with Arone. Its like business in a bottle, fits perfect with me.
You’re an amazing guy so really not surprised at all . Congratulations all the BIG prospects coming your way.
Have you used the A314 P90 edition yet?
Thanks! Haven’t tried it yet, but I’m sure it would be interesting. I probably could get the same results in just using A314 and some P90. The thing is at my work its very casual, happy and almost care free (besides my job which is abit more demanding). So I think the way I have the mix fits perfectly right now, I tried A314 not so long ago and while people would agree with me I did feel that others were a bit more confrontational with me. I was probably upsetting the relaxed balance by being too alpha lol.:o
Project UF test 3 - results from 1 to 10 = 5 Intent: Party with friends
Test ingredients
Initially through the day
TAA 10mcg 2x
Anol 10mcg 2x
Towards the afternoon
MX394 1x
Situation
Applied 30min before meeting with friends and then mx394 4hours into the day to see any changes in social dynamics.
Applied
Lasted aprox 12hours
Result
The day started with good moods and high spirits, we were heading to my cottage for a party. A number of people were coming, some buddies I knew very well and other women who are only acquaintances. All in mid to late twenties and Caucasian. Perfect sunny weather 26C.
Before putting on the MX I had just some light socials on, everyone was having an awesome time singing with music blaring during the road trip. Stopped off at some fun chill places along the way and different lakes. We were having a great time, I was respected, a bit of flirting.
Once applying the MX I found what I can only describe as my guests acting out of there own insecurities. For instance one of the women couldn’t stop trying to find ways to deflate my ego. Meanwhile earlier in the day she was complementing me perfectly and joking around! Good thing I have a bit of training now in deflecting bs but she almost got to me. I was thinking to myself, what gives! I brought you to my cottage for an awesome party lol. Other instances as well came up where each of my guests sorta acted out in some insecure way causing them to want to treat me very beta. This lasted even into the next day.
I don’t need to go into all the details but there’s no doubt in my mind that this mix didn’t complement me very well that night. I didn’t see the smoothness of interaction or camaraderie and rather lost what was built throughout the day.
Maybe at my age this mix needs more buffers for myself or its designed for some other application then what I desired that evening. Will have to cautiously try again sometime.
Social test 12 - results from 1 to 10 = 1 Intent: Respect work mix
Test ingredients
Androsterone 2x 5mcg
Anol 2x 10mcg
TAA 2x 10mcg
P90 2x 10mcg
Additional from the usual
A314 2x
Situation
Applied 5min before work, slightly modified from my last report to have A314 added
Applied
Lasted aprox 6hours and residual up to 12hours
Result
So this is my second time using A314 at this new work place, I have used it many many times in the past and the stuff is still liquid gold to me but in this application it wasn’t as helpfull.
As I’ve said before my new work place is very relaxed, no dress code, more emphases on going with gut feelings as opposed to reports.
Usually my ideas are met with enthusiasm, and what I say holds alot of weight and no opposition.
But I added A314 to my usual respect mix on a day I was completing a big project in half the time that it was expected to take. I went in to my bosses office to find he was confrontational on every topic that came up. Even to the point that he mentioned he doesn’t even want to be on the web anymore which is outrageous. I remained calm and tried to get to the roots of all these issues and what it came down to is that he wanted to sell more on the web. Which is easy, we had spoken of different plans before but it seemed that today he got a bit insecure about the direction of things.
But typically conversations go much more smoothly then this and it seemed as though I appeared to be too authoritative and or triggering some sort of negative response because of it.
I think my work defiantly needs easy going respect mixes
Project UF test 4 - results from 1 to 10 = 7 Intent: Camping Party with friends at a beach
Test ingredients
Initially through the day
TAA 10mcg 2x
Anol 10mcg 2x
Towards the afternoon
MX395 1x then a second application an hour later
Situation
Applied 30min before meeting with friends
Applied
Lasted aprox 6+hours
Result
I was being picked up by friends to go to a camp ground by a very nice beach. Apparently my friends had been stuck in traffic for hours before getting to me. So this really put MX395 to the test. They still had another 3 hours to get to the beach from my place!!
When I put on the MX I was definitely a more uplifted mood, I was very easy going about the situation, calm and collective but at the same time in good spirits.
For the road trip I could tell everyone was uneasy for the most part, I had made some soup for everyone once they came as I figured they would be hungry but the female driver was too focused in getting there to accept my invitation.
As I started the trip with them conversation wasn’t easy but by about 30min into the ride everyone was chatty with me and more cheerfull. What I had to say was received with respect and most conversation topics revolved around my answers.
I didn’t feel much to this mix being sexual and having a second spray didn’t change the dynamics from what I could tell. There was a second girl there but not my type at all, if there was something sexual in this mix I bet it would have intimidated her. When we got to the campground everyone helped build my tent then went to bed.
Good news and bad news, all at the same time…
First off, my kitty of 25 years passed away 
I attribute her long life due to living an ultra stress free lifestyle. We never once did anything to stress her, no vett, no traveling. Just snuggles
There were some times in my life I needed her, but now as I’ve gotten through some tough times and rather then needing her I only want her to stay her job must be done then . She had been dieing in Feb when I was going through one of the worst times in my life and I told her, you don’t leave me now its not time yet. She sprung back to life the next day
Miss you kitty, thank you for being there for me drama free
On my happy note my order has arrived. It came with some mixing supplies, so I’m going to venture into that realm.
Also got some more P95 so I can compare it with Johns IG mix pack 
Few other goodies like P123, IH I won at a live broadcast (thankyou!) and to replenish some supplies being P75 and Tac
Just going off to bed but I did 3x MX402 today and felt some nice Grand Marnier vibes 
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your pussy. I had a pussy cat growing up and he was a vicious SOB. He lived to the ripe old age of 22 and one day didn’t come home from hunting. We found him under his favorite tree as if he had gone to take his final nap. It was pretty wild because all the birds and squirrels were surrounding that tree as if they came to pay their respect to the neighborhood killer. They seriously formed a circle around the tree and if it wasn’t for all the activity we wouldn’t have known what had happened.
We buried him right there. Even though he used to scratch the hell out of me, kill every bird, chicken, mouse, fight other cats, dogs, come home stinking drunk we still loved him like one of the family. Again I am sorry for your loss and I am so glad you know it was time for him to move on and watch you from the spirit world. May Kitty rest in peace.