Let’s suppose, for a moment, that P75 is a progestagen derivative. Not all that farfetched at all, biochemically. How do the effects compare with, say, men wearing an otherwise female substance, like copulins. 75 is only selectively intimidating, as you’ve shown. I’ve described 75 as the family sentry pheromone. The self effects speak to some endocrine/hypothalmic feedback, I think. What would happen if you wore too much TAL, for example. Not feminization, I don’t think. Instead, compensatory feedback as the body rights itself toward a more masculine state and more male phero output (more testosterone metabolites). Despite the weirdness of this, the derivation of corticoids from progest., despite being counterintuitive, isn’t weird at all. One of the sulfated C21 molecules has effects like 75, very energizing, and opposite to TAC or TAK. Watch how TAC buffers 75, and vice versa. If androsterone is the male provider, 75 is the armed frontiersman with wife and child in the Great Plains cabin, and he smells like it. Only the most wicked bandits confront him; women seek his protection, and the latter is welcomed.
Date: Friday Jan 16th, 2014
Application: P75 5mcg to front of throat at 10AM. At 1:45PM, 2 drop A314 total, shared behind both ears, and 1 spray P83 5mcg to front of throat. At 4-5PM, two sprays P75 diluted w/ 190 proof Everclear to 1.67mcg (give or take), so around 3.3mcg. I spilled a bit some I’m not exactly sure the mcg except that it is diluted to less than 5mcg, probably around 1/3 of that.
Noticed some physical anxiety symptoms in the mid-torso early on, which subsides, however emotionally I felt fearless and exhibited a lot of swagger throughout the day. I notice that I get erections very frequently with the P75 on at the 5mcg. Maybe 10 times a day, and it doesn’t completely subside, it maintains at about 1/4 filled out and sensitive-feeling most of the day. When relaxing on the couch, it can quickly go to 100% for no apparent reason, for an extended period of time.
There was a potluck mixer type event in the main hall at my work with many people socializing around 2PM. This was definitely a slow-hitter, but several individuals stuck by my side even after I would ignore them to talk to someone else. These individuals seemed VERY PLEASED that I had spoken to them. People seemed slightly intimidated and I needed to take the initiative to start conversations, but once I did they seemingly found it difficult to break from my side, or were unwilling to do so. As the mixer died down, I had taken a seat around a table and several other coworkers were also seated there. I got several of the coworkers talking about life stories and favorite types of alcohol / drinking etc. The conversation was somewhat uninhibited. The man at my left has previously reacted negatively to TUTH, with a cold angry stare, and has so far been cold socially. In this circumstance we were bonding and he was very buddy-buddy, being totally open and friendly with me, and jovially letting me guide the conversation. The group, all second shift, all hung on with me at the table until 3:00PM a full half hour after they were supposed to go back to their cubes to work (I was free to leave at 2PM so it was no skin of my back) and they only begrudgingly got up after a superior pointed to his watch for maybe the 2nd or 3rd time. A 24yo brunette who uses my office at 2nd shift hours was to my right and also was hanging on. I was mainly ignoring her, but when I looked her way she gave me a deep look with a smile each time.
When I got home my wife really got on my case about some comforters I had taken to a dry cleaners that she doesn’t think actually does the feather comforter process - she’s sure I ruined them because I didn’t listen. Then when I pointed out we never use clothes in a particular hall closet, she gave an angry-sounding response about her not fitting onto those clothes because she has been pregnant. The angry tone was off-putting to me and I went back downstairs.
I then diluted some of the P75 in the bathroom with everclear. It was around 1ml of 190 proof everclear, and 1/2ml of P75 5mcg. The label for the sephora bottle says it holds I think 5ml, but when I tried to put 1ml of P75 in there with a mini-size-syringe (for children’s medicine) only part of it went down in, the rest floated at the top of the rubber filler valve. I think an air bubble may have blocked the tiny hole an the filler valve - the directions say to hold it at a 45 degree angle. So I sucked 1/2ml back off and back into the blue spray bottle, but I’m not sure. Then put 1ml of everclear into there. A small amount of the P75 got spilled on the bathroom counter, which I cleaned up in the sink and put the blower on. This caused me some strong physical anxiety symptoms in my mid-torso, as I had experienced previously but stronger this time. I later experienced some serious swagger in body language, and manliness in my tone. A very nasty taste in my mouth. Around two sprays of the diluted mix to throat. Maybe it was 3.3mcg total, give or take, but I’m feeling unsure how it turned out.
When I went downstairs and moved more things out of my car from the old house, my wife was getting upset and overwhelmed, supposedly about the house being a mess and not having a shower or sleep, etc. She started criticizing me and I told her to chill out, so got red and cried a little. She didn’t like the way I said it or my tone came off too much talking down to her. I kissed her and we made up, I felt like she couldn’t get to me, she could get upset but she couldn’t upset me. She did eventually say something critical enough to get me a bit mad, while I was in the middle of feeding the baby a bottle while I had her in a sling, and making her dinner at the same time. She eventually withdrew and cried again, for the second time, when I pointed out she was just listing everything she didn’t like about me… by time time dinner was finished she seemed fine. We had a nice dinner…
After that I was overcome by intense sleepiness, and passed on the couch at around 8PM, very unusual. I was totally depleted. I couldn’t keep my self awake again until around midnight.
When I finally start to wake up, she was mildly affectionate, told me she loves me several times. Feeling that fullness and need to get off again, the P75 seems to accelerate that, much like TUTH does, except it doesn’t feel agressive like TUTH does, it just feels like a dominant kind of casual male swagger, jockish. We kissed in a bed for a while, and but when I got on top, she wanted me off of her, insisting she wanted to get some sleep. Then I was quickly out again - so sleepy! We both were.
Very early in the morning, I wake up and she was stroking my hand affectionately again, half-asleep. This was unusual.
In retrospect, every time I wear the P83, my wife’s attitude goes downhill and she floods (perhaps it brings her depressive tenancies, or her postpartum state to the forefront, I’m not sure), however at least with the P75 combo she is quickly forgiving. The combo however does seem to have a positive effect along side the P75 with coworkers. I don’t think I want to test P83 at home any more, but it has potential for other groups and cliques.
Date: 17-20th, Jan 2014
Application: P75 5mcg morning, 5mcg early afternoon, front of neck. Solo.
Environment: work, home.
Results: Used solo, I have found this carries much of the authoritive, drill-sargent nature that has been described. It is quite enjoyable. There is a stimulant-like quality. Pleasant light smell, but an unpleasant taste in the mouth. There can be a crash at this dose later in the evening. Quiets inner talk, which makes it easier to approach without anxiety or fear. This effect is long-lasting, even the next morning after it was used. People feel safe with me, although it can induce anxiety in others in a very selective manner… those that might otherwise argue with me or otherwise cause trouble. There is little to no arguing going on, nobody gives me any crap.
My wife has said that she wants me to smile less often, and smack her ass more often. She describes me as “more physical” with her, and our sexual play is more animalistic. There is biting, scratching, hair pulling. She seems to get more pleasure from pain. She suggested on a few occasions that she wanted me to degrade her a bit. She is more deferential. A few times when I am away, she calls me up and says that she misses me. More love is expressed to me. There is a sense that I bring security. P75 seems to hold many of the qualities of A314, but the effect is more raw, more physical and sexual. I am less polite, but people seem pleased with this.
Altogether, the effect is quite different when used solo vs. pairing with P83. At home, I am preferring the former.
P83 can an unleash dark inner struggle, where P75 quiets it and brings security.
Date: 1/23/14
Products: P75 25mcg, BNOL 12 mcg / spray (SL, diluted in 190 proof Everclear) 0.5ml of BNOL (10mg / 10ml bottle), and 3.25ml Everclear in Sephora atomizer.
Application: One spray P75 to neck at 2PM. One spray BNOL 12mcg to neck at 4PM. Once spray BNOL 24mcg to right wrist at 7PM.
Results: I feel that I am “getting used to” the P75 self-effects. A few times the last couple days my wife started to have what I can only describe as a breakdown due to not taking her antidepressants for a couple of days (she lost them, then found them) and I found that P75 dramatically improved her mood and resulted in her not blaming me for the way she felt. She was apologetic and defers to me. I have increase the ass-smacking frequency and harshness, as per her request, and this is yielding positive results sexually.
One spray to neck of BNOL, unlocked a kind of hypnotic self-talk that I usually exhibit while very drunk or high. I felt that I could hypnotize myself into believing or feeling anything I wanted. The effect was quite enjoyable and trance-like. The manly-feeling self-effects of P75 were quite excellent when paired with the BNOL trance.
At dinner, I put a second spray on the top of my wrist of BNOL, and left my arm outstretched towards my wife over dinner. It took a couple minutes to hit, but it hit her really hard, she started going on tangents, telling me deep personal stories that I had never heard before. Thinks I never knew and we’ve been together 10 years. Conversation got super-deep, which is interesting because is usually not a deep thinker. It was all very calm and relaxing, even though she was bringing up some trauma from her childhood. The combination of P75 and BNOL worked very well and I found it pleasant.
DATE: 01/26/14
Application: 2 1/2 drops A314, 5 mcg spray P75 front of neck, 4-5 sprays of Diluted BNOL.. 12mcg / spray on back of hands over the course of the day.
Environment: Around our house and her parents house.
Results:
The morning started out a bit rough, I got an invite on LinkedIn from some woman we didn’t remember (actually had been an old neighbor) and wife took it the old way, went into full-swing jealousy mode checking everything for evidence. I put on the A314 and P75, returned to confront her about the behavior. She backed down and her mood improved considerably from there on out. She apologized and things got really sweet after that. Confrontations with this combo on always seem to swing in my favor! Chalk more points on the scoreboard.
I then started adding BNOL in. My wife seems to like this combo very much! She was very cuddly, and as I increased the BNOL sprays, she became progressively more and more attached to me physically and relaxed - by the end of the evening at home she was taking any possible break from the baby to physically lay over me on the couch and in bed. Something new - she would turn to hang her entire breasts over my arm in a way that was very suggestive and just leave them there in my space. It was actually a bit contorted for her to accomplish this, but I’m not sure she realized she was doing it. This was at about 4-5 sprays of BNOL over the course of several hours. This behavior was quite a divergence from her recent pattern with the breastfeeding baby - “they are sore and don’t touch them”
Earlier in the evening following the 'mones applications, several relatives were over a her parents house for hours at a time. Her sister could not sit directly next to me, she would move away to a distance as if repelled from my space. I don’t think anyone else noticed - it seemed to be more of a respect for my space than anything - mood was positive and respect. Her boyfriend started teasing her and saying things in a dis-inhibited way that he usually does when drunk, which is always funny. Overall everyone’s mood seemed really good.
My brother-in-law’s girlfriend on the other hand seemed to linger by my side on the couch. She was enjoying my space and giving me some respect hits.
I was able to ask my wife and other women for things to retrieve and they would bring me food, items, etc. They wanted me to be the one to decide what we would watch on TV, and make other decisions. When we went to leave, I got long intimate hugs from everyone in the room - twice each!
Date: 02/05/14
Application: a314 1 1/2 drops. P75 2.5 mcg, P83 25 mcg, One shot TUTH. Added another 25mcg p83 later in evening.
Venue: latin restaurant for dinner with fiends, about 30kids for a kids entertainment event. Later at home with wife.
Results: initial application right before heading to restaurant. The husband offered for me to join him on a trip to amsterdam to all the coffee shops he’s frequented in the past. Wanted to join us on a ski trip, beach house, etc. Very buddy buddy. His wife gave me frequent arm touches and was leaning in close, rubbing her neck and sternum. Children at our table were extremely well behaved. Wife was in a good mood. Other children at the venue were insanely loud.
Later in the night hit a second 25 mcg of p83, things got a little spacy but pleasant. My wife did not flip out at all this time around with the P83 . After finally getting baby to sleep late, i made a bold move and we had actual sexual intercourse (first since before the birth), rather than just outer-course. Tonight she just couldn’t say no.
02/07/14
First test of p102
1 drop A314, later 1 spray p102 @ 5mcg
One drop before walking over. Go to african heritage coffeeshop and book store. Everything normal when i walk in and order. Feeling cool and solid. Sit down, one spray p102 on back of hand, press back of hands together. Walk up and get coffe from cute barista..linger a bit while she foams the milk and does one of those paterns on top. Sit down and wait. This smells very pleasant! Heart rate increases, maybe adrenaline surge? Vision changes… Increased sense of depth, contrast, attention, focus. I look up at the barista and she is staring at me… she looks away slyly, slowly, but does not shift the direction of her head… and body, slill in my direction. My ipad slips slightly and i am very startled, jumpy, i feel like i’ve had way too much coffee, but i havent touched my drink yet… Should i drink that? I have a few sips, and i’m convinced its the best coffee ever.. I can sense aall the complex subtle notes. I notice i get occasional flinches, or ticks. Nobody pays me any attention after that, just sit and read at my table a while. When i leave and older african american woman woman who had sat nearby stops and offers to hold the door for me… And smiles - have a nice day! … Respect hit.
When i get home, wife stops in for lunch as expected…however, she instead unexpectedly drags me upstairs for sex… Spur of the moment. Clothes fall off on the way up. She seems very focused on me, intent. We are very in the moment.
a314 1 1/2 drops. P75 2.5 mcg , P83 25 mcg , One shot TUTH - people weren’t intimidated the other day while wearing this mix?
How did you feel?
I haven’t had the guts yet to combine these 4, but maybe I’ll try it to the mall one day, just for kicks.
I did an extra shot of p83 at the end, that got spacy.
Thos was a good mix, i was feeling sexy with everyone and a cavelier, relaxed. I did not overthink things, just went in for the kill and did not meet much resistance. I got what i wanted. I was a straight shooter and didnt need to try too hard.
Tried p102 5 mcg again with p75 2.5 mcg, 1 drop a314 at home. Wife starts pinching my ass, puts the kid to bed, then puts on porn. Positive effects in bed again. This mix totally had us in the mood.
02/09/2014
Application: P96, 25mcg / spray from togo. Washed all application points, and applied the first half-spray or so that came out, to front of neck.
Environment: Slow sunday at home all day, with wife and kids.
Results: My wife was giving me a lot of eye contact, repeatedly, at every opportunity. Always with a smile, not just the smile, but full eyes smiling… So these are the smiling eyes people described, yes i see it now! It’s such a pleasant face she is making that the excessive looking doesn’t feel weird. It just feels reasuring each time.
Self effects. Cuddly, very relaxed and pleasant. Nobody had anything negative to say… its all positive. Not sexual per se, it has no sex drive, but does make everyone look very attractive. Did she loose weight, i swear she has? Did she change her makeup? Her skin feels so- perfect! Both wife and son want to cuddle up with me on the couch - son wants to be on my side, extremely unusual. They can not get close enough, still they want to cuddle closer, all wraped up with me. She has no concerns about personal space. No irritation.
If i get close, she will kiss me without hesitation a slow kiss, a bit longer than the ususl peck. if i bend over to reach a pot, will feel my butt…not a pinch or slap, instead a slow caress. Its all so unhurried. there is no agressive drive, it is not a hard on. She just seems to be drawn towards contact, its all comfort. It is just a light relaxed fuzzy blanket. Oh, this feels nice. Snuggle. Smiling eyes that just keep shining. I can see that it is bonding, without words, with just a light presence that can do no wrong. We dont care about sex, we just want to hold each other. Our hearts are toasty warm.
Verdict: At estimated 10-20 mcg, very slow burn product, at first I didn’t notice anything, but with extended one on one the product is simply radiant and first class luxury. The smiling affectionate attention is golden. Self effects were dreamy, yet clear, not druggy like other pheros, unless the drug is sheer love. Smelled very nice too.
Date: 03/06/14
Location: Work - office, then at conference room cleared of furniture for free employee yoga lessons. Later local hardware store and Whole Foods grocery store after work.
Application: 2 drops A314 behind ears. 1 spray TUTH to throat. 1 spray P102 @ 5mcg to back of neck. 1 1/2 sprays of P83 @ 25mcg/spray to front of throat. 1 spray P75 @ 5mcg/spray to throat, plus i put on a half spray 6 hours earlier. Three tiny dabs of beta-nol concentrate from SL on forehead & temples. Cover scent, GIORGIO ARMANI Acqua di Gi? “Essenza” (hits you as an aquatic-type, but then goes more in the woody and ambery direction).
Observations: all participants are 30s very attractive fit looking women, most have higher level jobs to me, or equal, except 2 older Asian guys near me from IT. Instructor is 30s attractive African american woman, big curves and narrow waist.
Instructor gets very close to me and takes my bare foot into her hands when asking me about any injuries and i mention how my tendon is pulled. Several more times she comes back to put her hands on me to assist my pose. I guess this is normal, but she seemed to be giving me special attention… Some of the women were looking pretty hot and bothered by the end of the lesson. I’m pretty sure i got everyone’s attention.
Leaving, two women took the elevator with me and were kind of flirty, they made sure to say good by to me with intent when we parted ways.
My boss earlier in day did a review with me and couldn’t maintain a solid line of thought well, and dropped his iPad…this was before with only fresh P75 on in small enclosed office. He seemed awestruck. Similar thing happened early in morning when i encounter both shift managers chatting.
Later after work, i go to local hardware store and female employee offers to go upstairs to get me something to save me the effort, then leans in close to help me pick through screws. Very Large boobed African american woman, back arched and basically shoving her bobs in my face (she is taller). Very chatty.
Go across to whole foods, a young short attractive female Latina employee quickly walks past stops right next to me, nobody else in the isle, and leans way over to “adjust her work boot” but it looked massively contrived, she wasn’t adjusting anything but my view up the back of her short skirt… This is like a foot away from me in an empty isle. The a male coworker comes around the bend and starts giving her shit about it in Spanish!
Walk over to the bakery section, a middle age African american woman starts talking to herself out loud, but she starts to make it that she is talking to me..about some chocolate baked good she wants, but it starts to unravel to flirty chatter, i walk off. Young lady at register is totally DITHL. i chuckle and go home. A few other possibly gay dudes seemed to be making excuses to stalk me it seems at certain points at the store.
An overall observation with this mix is that people would start talking to themselves out loud, but seemed to be trying to get my attention with it. There was some noticeable human Velcro effect going on - particularly African Americans and Latinas. If I started talking to someone, they couldn’t walk away without me dismissing them. People wanted to help me out and do me favors, eager to please. Several people dropped things, stumbled on their words excessively, and otherwise exhibited spaciness and degraded performance, with a trend towards honesty, chattiness, and an inability to edit what they were saying.
Date: 3/13/14
Application: TUTH @ 2 sprays, P83 25mcg @ 2 1/2 sprays (37.5mcg total), P102 5mcg @ 1 spray, P75 5mcg @ 1 spray, P96 25mcg @ 1 spray. 1 spray TAC 5mcg. Everything to neck.
Audience: Yoga Class at corporate office facility. Twenty women late 20’s to late 30’s & three 40 yo Asian IT guys.
Reactions: Self effects are extremely pleasant, focused, confident, and relaxed. The familiar sedative / relaxing effect of TAC creeps in. Masculine feel of P75 noticeable. I have been getting ear ringing with P75 lately, and this was rather loud. This is the first time I’ve used 2x of TUTH, and it made me feel very horny / sexual. Got a ton of hair flips, women rubbing their neck, lips, sternum, etc. The P102 gave me a bit of an adrenaline surge when I first put it on, and it seemed like some people got this same hit when I approached them. There was a crush effect I felt which I previously noticed with P96, perhaps the total absence of disgust at anything, things just looked beautiful and I felt like curling up with my girl.
Hits: When doing yoga, instructor lady put her hands on my hips and shoulders several times. She made excessive eye contact with me during the class. My mat was the first she stopped by to ask how I was doing, before going around to the rest of the class. A couple other women seemed to be stealing glances at me, but I couldn’t be sure.
There was an HR women, early 30’s blonde who was over-excited to see me show up to the class (she helped organize but didn’t participate), she had been exposed to 'mones before where she started hiking up her bra. She started trying to chat me up.
After class we had an all hands meeting for staff, woman who reaceted well to 'mones a few times prev. moved herself over so I could sit next to her - all I had to do was look at her and she moved and made some chatter. She rubbed her neck a few times… that meeting was all guys - maybe 30. There was one younger 20’s woman all the way across from me, I caught her staring directly at me at one point, but how could she know it was me.
When I got home, wife pinched my ass several times, first time almost as soon as she got home (usually she wants to settle in first). She was leaning way into me on the couch later, which she doesn’t necessarily do. She seemed to be getting that crush feeling. Everything felt extremely pleasant that evening, as it usually seems to with P96 - just dreamy.
In the morning when I got up, I was feeling horny and started making out with her, but she seemed tired still (it was 4AM). As I started to go, she said something to indicate she wanted sex. But I realized at that point I didn’t have time and needed to go.
Morning after - very pleasant feelings still persist. Like life is beautiful. I tend to get this with P96, the feeling lasts more than a day.
Yep, I get this too when I wear it a lot. It feels like there’s a little water in my ears.. Any idea how P75 causes this?
This seems like an OD symptom for self FX. tinnitus is a situation where too many neurons in the auditory cortex are processing the same sound frequencies, making those frequencies seem much louder. The way the ear works is there are hairs of different lengths which pick up different frequencies… when hairs are damaged the neurons that went to them can get assigned to other hairs due to nor-epinephrine exposure, which results from vagus nerve stimulation, which is caused by epinephrine due to an emotionally aroused state - fight or flight response, a loud boom for example, which might be loud enough to damage the hairs. it’s basically a type of stress disorder, where there is a locked emphasis on one thing. To undo it requires an aroused state during a variety of other things except that thing, so all the neurons eventually get re-assigned to de-emphasize.
Tinnitus can be reversed by stimulating the vagus nerve at the same time as playing a wide variety of other frequencies besides the one that is ringing, thus stimulating nerves in the auditory cortex to be re-assigned to any frequency except the one that is ringing.
Vagus nerve stimulation may also be achieved by one of the vagal maneuvers: holding the breath for a few seconds (think yoga breathing exercises in a variety of positions), dipping the face in cold water, coughing, or tensing the stomach muscles as if to bear down to have a bowel movement.
Research has shown that women having had complete spinal cord injury can experience orgasms through the vagus nerve, which can go from the uterus, cervix, and, it is presumed, the vagina to the brain.
Excessive activation of the vagal nerve during emotional stress can cause fainting and / or loss of bladder control. Relative dehydration tends to amplify these responses
the vagus nerve is responsible for lowering the heart rate
First, emotionally arousing events stimulate the nervous system to release epinephrine. Unable to get into the brain due to the blood-brain-barrier, it does the next best thing: It activates the ascending fibers of the vagus nerve, which in turn stimulate brain neurons in an area of the brainstem known as the nucleus of the solitary tract (NTS).
In this model, NTS neurons release norepinephrine into brain structures that process memory, such as the amygdala and hippocampus. Upon activation, these memory-related regions work harder to properly put the attributes of emotionally arousing experiences into long-term storage.
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I have an additional viewpoint - it is known that prostaglandins, which I believe are also pheromones, interact with the Vagus nerve, and can affect hearth rhythem. I also read that Tinnitus can be caused by migration of macrophages, which prostaglandins can mediate by way of the neural-immune interface, which is controversial and poorly understood.
Good to know. My ears are very dear to me - I’m a huge music addict and I always wear plugs to concerts and parties with loud music to protect my hearing. Was getting a bit worried about these side effects. Can’t stand the thought of ending up with permanent tinnitus - as far as I know there’s no cure for this (yet). So far looks like these OD selfies go away pretty fast for me and are only present after wearing P75 at 5 mcg for multiple days in a row (includes top-ups).
I am about 100% positive P75 causes nose twitching to the nasalis via cholinergic paths and cranial nerve VII. The excitatory effect may indeed be via noradrenergic paths (norepinephrine) vs. negative allosteric modulation. I think some phero OD and tolerance to self fx is via GABAergic downregulation and possible aldosterone (vasodilation/constriction), electrolytes and dehydration. This mimics a vascular headache/hangover. Look also to caffeine tolerance and withdrawal as a model. The mutual antagonism of TAC and P75 partly fits the cholinergic/anticholinergic model. Also the positive/negative allosteric model (if P75 is GABAergic and if TAC is also a weak THDOC analogue).
Date: Sat 3/15/2015
Application: Morning - 1/2 spray P75 @ 5mcg a spray. 2 drops A314. P102 1 spray @ 5mcg a spray. P96 1 spray @ 25mcg a spray. A couple sprays b-nol @ 25mcg / spray on hands
Venue: birthday for family friend, cattle-call type restaurant chain (not my idea), packed. Walked up to bar and early 40’s attractive blonde woman starts chatting me up about her life. She was a bit drunk and it came off like she was hitting on me. This is while I’m carrying a baby in a car seat. Started ignoring her when my wife showed up. Reservation lady said it would be 2 hours to seat party of 8. I said firmly NO, you will find us seats that are available more promptly. She says OK, I can get you a booth in an hour. Well that’s an improvement. Hanging out with family at bar, everyone kind of crowds around me.
Evening application added - another 1/2 spray of P75 @ 5mcg a spray. 2 sprays TUTH. 2 1/2 sprays of P83 @ 25mcg a spray. Another spray of B-nol, 25mcg.
Venue: Campfire outside condo building - guys were doing a lot of ass-kissing behavior and positive vibe. Guy’s girlfriend started giving me the look, but also acting shy. The guys called a cab and wanted me to join them at a crappy bar down the street. We go and guys keep buying me drinks. One after another. There are tons of single ladies, they are doing the who’s that guy! thing. I was definitely getting checked out big time. People are making a lot of mentions of sex. One woman comes over to my friend and I chatting and starts making all kinds of sexual references, until he ends up screwing up the conversation and embarrassing her. I was hoping he’s play it well and get laid, but he was hopeless. I was wearing my ring and like no way not on the market, making that clear. Ladies seemed really pissed about that. Guys kept buying me more drinks, I was getting a bit trashed. Rich guy invites me over to his super fancy expensive condo downtown for more drinks. When I go to leave, all the ladies stop what they are doing and one by one keep appearing to give me long hugs. I’m thinking, I don’t know you lady. The guy who invited me and his friend are employed for some military work, they worked in a detention center in Afghanistan or something, and are frequent fliers, but it’s unclear. They speak in code about things. They seem a bit intimidated but they want to take a selfie with me. They guy in the condo next to us on the roof deck that connects, makes sure to introduce himself. His job is he sells some kind of medical device to doctors. He has two girlfriends present, they are cheerleaders for the DC football team. One of them comes out to introduce, and she ends up starting to hit on me and telling me about her sexual problems on the dating scene. The guy who invited me over, his girlfriend starts telling me she is a nymphomaniac, and she needs to have sex now (hitting her man on the shoulder). I make my way for the door and get a cab back with other friend. In the cab, they are asking me questions about my sex life. I tell them about how I cheated on my wife, but she kind of forgave me, partially. And no, the sex is not so good being married with kids. Then I got out.
My wife had wanted me back at 12:30 - I said, I don’t tell you when to be home… I’ll text you where I’m at (which I did), I think I got back at 3:30AM. Wife was not really talking to me next day, doesn’t want to hold my hand or anything like that. Dog house I guess. Boo.
Why oh why do these mixes work so much better on other girls than my wife?
Date: Sunday 3/16:
Application: Washed. Applied 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcg / spray. 1 spray P102 @ 5mcg / spray. 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcg / spray. 2 drops A314. 1/2 spray P83 @ 25 mcg / spray
Venue: Wake up and 2 friend request pending on FB - guy and lady who had invited me to fancy condo after the bar the night previous… ok so they looked me up via. mutual friends? Over to in-laws house with wife. Everything seems peaceful and interesting. Father-in-law has great difficult concentrating on a task while I’m sitting next to him - he seems very intimidated. People are very polite to me. Wife does not want me to touch her, pushes my hand away. She seems icy!!! She’s super pissed about my staying out Sat night later that she wanted me back. Way more than I expected… damn you, P83… I thought 1/2 spray would avoid bad reaction / jealousy, I was mistaken!
Date: Monday 3/17
Application: put on 2x TUTH. 1/2 spray P75 (possible buildup). Did not wash from previous day.
Venue: Morning, expressed my anger to wife about her way of treating me day previously. She seems to soften and wants to talk. Application when she gets home from work. She seems more respectful, tells me how angry she is later in the evening late, I get angry back, and upset. She softens more, we end up hugging and cuddling as we fall asleep. She holds me tightly in her arms as she sleeps. She seems to be thawing.
Date: Tues 3/18
Application: 1/2 spray P75 after work (possible build-up continues). I assume the eNone is still on my neck, I spray over it.
Venue: Date w/ Wife at Pho restuarant. She shows up before I even get there. She says she is terrified. Her mood is softening. She says she wanted me sexually on Sat. now she wants me even more. I am in no mood to please her. My ears are ringing like never before. My mood is poor. I go home and make dinner. She’s all kisses when she gets home. After putting kids to be, she attacks me and good sex follows. She’s just soaking!
Next morning she is all kisses & super happy.
The continued use of P75 in heated arguments always seems to shift things in my favor, results in thawing/softening.
Combined with TUTH seems to push the argument towards makeup sex.
Side-effect - almost unbearable ringing in left ear due to P75 buildup / continuous exposure.
I decide after Tues to take a break from P75, too much ear-ringing, too much anger… though the angry sex had been exciting for both of us. I’m starting to feel an aversion to the P75 even at 2.5 mcg, it’s irritating me. I think i’ll have to dilute it.
Wed 1 drop A314, 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcg. Cuddly with wife. I can’t remember the day too well, except that I was playing music Way too loud in the car, some hardcore rap, and just loving it.
Thurs = Yoga @ Noon. 1 spray Acqua di Gio Essenza, 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcg. 2 drops A314. 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcg. 1 spray P83 @ 25 mcg.
Got a lot of looks from the ladies. When I walk in a few different ladies moved their mats hoping I’d go next to them. Funny. Instructor put her hands on my hips, helping to adjust my posture. I got some interesting looks from some of the ladies. Afterwards, in cafe a hangout social event was happening, a woman I know was giving me DITHL look, lingering around me. A few of the guys were lingering and giving me respect.
1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcg / spray, 1 spray TUTH after work. Aggressive irritated feeling rushes back. Started an argument with my wife later in the evening just because I was feeling agressive and kinda horny. She got challenging back. I was honest and NO BS arguing, but didn’t mention sex. Went to bed, trying to fall asleep, but I was too mad to sleep. Felt like throwing or breaking something. Tension noticeable in my neck / back. She comes back to bed and gets sexy on me. We had some intense sex and it was what you might call “angry sex”, my mood was almost semi-violent sexual. She was really turned on by it. I really banged her pretty hard. Next morning, ears ringing, but feeling super relaxed again.
Friday. 1 drop A314. 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcg / spray, 1 spray TUTH after work. I listen to Opera in the car after work right after spraying, and it’s just an amazing experience. visceral experience.
Date: Sat 3/22
5AM in the morning, wake up sex immediately without thinking. No resistance from wife, having a little trouble keeping it up, but I finish. Strange.
Application: A314 1 drop. 2 sprays P102 (3-4 hours apart) @ 5 mcg. 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcg / spray. 1 spray TAC @ 5 mcg. 1/2 spray TUTH. 1 spray P83 @ 25 mcg / spray. 1 spray Acqua di Gio Essenza
Venue:
Sleep in a bit, make food all day. Hungry. Focused. I clean everything in the house.
Friends over for dinner at our place… spent time on elevated deck pattio, light breeze, weather warming to 72 degrees, then getting chilly. Her friend’s husband was acting shy and respectful, embarassed, quiet - (I am told he did a college thesis on PUA strategies). My wife started giving him shit and he got even more embarassed. His wife was taking a lot of interest in me - she is latina, a bit overweight, late 30’s. she seems super impressed with me. The overall vibe wight me and the ladies is just sweet and crush-like.
Later all the neighbors were blasting music and started a big bonfire on the brick central patio area, heavy drinking all around, latin dancing, smoking a hookah, etc.
Guys were very buddy-buddy with me. Ladies were getting very close and friendly. On thin single blond early 30’s woman invited me up to her condo… just me… wanted to show me something… hmm. I made one of the other guys go with me, shouted at him to join. She showed me her bedroom, made us drink shots of wiskey, hang out on her elevated deck for a smoke, talked about her boyfriends, etc. She played us some music, etc… she didn’t want me to leave. I had friend tag along so I’d stay out of trouble. She seems to have a crush on me.
I refreshed with a few sprays of B-nol @ 25 mcg /spray… 3 sprays maybe… another woman, young single blonde thin, started telling me things that she didn’t know why she was telling me, it was out-of character cursing about labor and delivery (she delivers babies for aliving) - the best I can explain it is she was unable to edit what she was saying and she was getting very disinhibited. The overall vibe of the party was a bit out of control and super fun. One woman who never talks to anyone got close and opened up to me and seemed to start taking an interest, telling me her life story.. she is blonde, heavier-set, maybe German background. She might have started to get the crush-vibe, I could see the seed was planted.
Date: Sunday 3/23
Application: Wash w/ Dial Magnetic. 2 sprays P96 @ 25 mcg / spray. 2 sprays (3-4 hours apart) of P102 @ 5 mcg / spray. 1 drop A314. 1 spray TUTH. 2 sprays TAC @ 5 mcg / spray. 3 sprays b-nol from SL @ 25 mcg / spray. 1 spray Acqua di Gio Essenza. … Did the A314 and first spray of P102 in morning - lazy sunday morning brunch at home… rest before heading out about 1PM.
Venue: Wife’s friend’s house she is a co-worker, another Latina, and her elderly mother and her daughter (4 yo), and my daughter (3 months) and my 5 yo son… lazy sunday - recovering from hangover.
This completely cured my hangover. All day my son wanted to roughhouse with this mix. Actually both the kids did. They kept climbing on me, running in circles, come back and climb on me again. I was their fav. toy. I would pretend to be a 4 leg animal - horse or something, and they would compete to climb up on me and ride, then fall off, push eachother off, try to climb on. They were excited and having a blast. Crush effect more pronounced w/ P96 @ 2 sprays. And it lasted a long time.
Wife kept giving me the smiling eyes from across the room, it was very obvious. Her friend was giving me a ton of eye contact, a bit DITHL… showing a lot of interest. She gave me gave a hug coming and going and got weak-kneeded. her elderly mother seemed super impressed with me and kept looking at me.
Wife was having some difficulty concentrating and finding the right words. I would have to help her along sometimes to finish a sentence. On the couch later, wife would lean up close to me and her neck would just go limp, she would bury her head into me. Kept doing this over and over. Kisses were less rushed, more patient & sensual.
Monday morning wife shows no resistance to sex at 4AM, very compliant. however I’ve got trouble keeping it up. Frustrating. I never have this problem when I’ve been wearing P75, interestingly.