Aphasia? Does she normally slur words fairly easily when drinking? Try just using a good dose of P96 and something sexy. Not a heavy hit. Light. A I’m not going to comment upon what I think P96 is beyond sayin one of the more advanced 21-Carbon derivatives of keen interest to drug researchers. It’s probably never been named on any phero forum. The good ones usually aren’t. I’ve seen a few compounds only for sale as 1000 micrograms. Not even enough to fill one order. So, this being a rare one, it’s not mumbo jumbo at all.
Can you get me a better idea what self effects I’m looking for with the P96 / drinking combo?
She was not drinking at that time, however I was drinking wine later in the day - maybe 4 hour after putting on P96. Actually, she was drinking Ginger Ale on Sun (when she had the loss of words), for the anti-nausea effects of ginger - it always seems to work for her. She was feeling nauseous after eating in the morning. She had smoked a hookah the night prev. and she doesn’t normally smoke. She does take Effexor. She is on a lower dose now 75 mg. She use to take 300 mg for years, and I finally convinced her to take a lower dose just recently.
She also just had a mirena iud put in about a month ago now. I have read that some women will ovulate with the Mirena in. I would like to know how I should adjust my use of eNone based on this.
Also I had on P96 25 mcg on Sat when everyone was drinking very heavily and passing a hookah around. That party got completely wild and out of control, but in a good way. But I had P83 on at 25 mcg as well as TUTH.
Her inability to remember what she was saying, or find the words, and the burying of her head to my body - that happened in the car in this instance, but i happened several more times that day at 2 spray P96, 25 mcg / each. She was also hung over and tired.
The main effect I get with P96 is a crush feeling and she wants to cuddle. She is not normally a cuddly person. Its out of character for her, and she just can’t seem to help it when I’m wearing the P96.
Some of these seem to be non-selective or dose-dependent. Broad spectrum of fx, more so than say effexor. She could also have a paradoxical response. Unlike men, women are subject to almost weekly mood fluctuations (some). Can’t be helped. Some progestagens (21 carbons) may help even out the fluctuations. There’s a reason why women use alprazolam, alcohol and weed. Coping mechanism. Makes them (and men) feel better.
Mon 3/24
Application: 1 drop A313. 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcg / spray. 2 sprays B-Nol from SL @ 25 mcg / spray. 1/2 spray TUTH.
Venue: friend’s house for dinner. I was a bit spacy with just the B-nol. Then added P96 & Shared a bottle of wine. I had more wine than her. Very silly self-effects. Especially me in the car on way home. I kept making jokes that I thought were insanely funny, and she was only mildly amused - more just amused that I was amused, but thinking my jokes were not as funny as I thought they were. Bearing in mind, I’m an optimist and she’s always been the big pessimist and has major depressive tendencies. To me, everything was funny, even if it wasn’t. She was at least in a good mood and seeming positive, which is better than the norm.
There is an irrepressible crush-like happiness with P96, and with alcohol my self effect turns to a ticklish amusement at everything. bubbly excitement.
ex. of joke I thought was funny. radio add aired for driving school for your kids, taught by real cops. To me that was hilarious because cops either drive exactly the speed limit (which nobody ever does) or they go 100 miles an hour. But they are obviously not going to teach you to drive like a normal person. I was dying laughing. My wife is just looking at me, only mildly amused. Joking, I compared that to a cop teaching you do do anything else - learn to cook from a cop! I crack up. Because obviously the food would be either too by the book, or wildly extreme (like their driving) but either way it’s somehow recognizably made by a cop. I’m laughing … she doesn’t get it. You get the idea. The conversations went like this for a few hours.
She mentions sex but the baby is beckoning her and I’m ready for bed, not particularly caring. I keep saying I just want to snuggle up with her and cuddle, and I meant it.
Morning Tues 3/25
She makes an effort in the morning to put the baby aside and snare me back to the sheets for some sex, though I am somewhat distracted by the baby sounds and it hampers me finishing towards the end. I did seem to last a bit longer. I’m just not worrying about sex at all. Not feeling enough aggression or drive. But I feel pleasant just “being there”. Oddly, she’s the one pushing for sex, not me. I didn’t particularly care about finishing - which is strange. Then she demands that I try again to finish, she tries getting me worked up - dirty talk. I try again, but I’m still feeling hampered and don’t feel like I particularly need to.
After the P96 plus alcohol, I’m more concerned about taking care of the baby and cuddling than getting some. Which is a bit of a role-reversal for us. I feel like all is well in the world, calm and centered. I’m definitely not much of a hard-on.
She gave me the smiling eyes a few times. I also caught myself giving her the same look back a few times. This is such a hallmark.
I will have to try it again without the b-nol.
before work starts I do another P75 1/2 spray @ 5 mcg / spray
feeling a bit more drive creeping back. Still feeling peaceful though
3/25
I have used a considerable amount of my A314 oil, and want to save it for specific encounters in the future… also I find the oil does not jump out with the same attraction I was looking for - so after reading monesmadedoit’s posts about IG tests, I decided to order some for more general use. Plus, I’m almost out of my TUTH to-go, and that just won’t do. I have enough Neroli products, so I was willing to pay for Akuto since IG will be my base.
ordered:
TUTH 2.5 mcg, 30 ml
IG 1x, 30 ml - Akuto Fragrance Option
I plan to test out the 1-2 sprays IG w/ 1/2 spray TUTH for general day-to-day.
Will compare TUTH to P75 w/ IG
I still have a small amount of P96, & P102 in to-gos.
I still have a substantial amount of B-Nol from SL
P83 @ 25 and P75 @ 5 mcg, both 30ml are still in ample supply.
I would like to get my hands on some TAK at ng levels for testing.
Anyone care to spare some?
additionally I want to test P95, P97, P103, P78, P79, P80
I’m considering getting some TAL for my wife and i to test out. She is already quite bossy but doesn’t get taken as seriously as she’d like at work. I just don’t want to make her depression any worse. I’m not looking for sexy so much as her just taken more seriously with the management. Maybe ng levels of rone?
I could use some TAA and a 15 mcg of P74 to round out my collection for daily use.
One day, just try straight 25 mcg BNOL and 5 mcg TAF. Maybe then swap P79 for TAF.
Observations of different 'mones on me when I’m around my baby girl (3 months) P75 @ 5 mcg makes my baby girl smile, even when she’s sleeping (she’s always sleeping). Lots of big smiles! B-nol gets lots of babble - she tries to mimic/repeat what I am saying and does unusually well, perpetual arm/leg motions, relaxed mood. TUTH is upsetting even at 2.5 mcg, even if applied way earlier in the day, and 5 mcg just forget about it. P75 over TUTH gets a warmer reception, but eventually gets agitated. A314 is iffy at 1 drop, kinda scary at 2. Terrifying at 3. P75 2.5 plus A314, warmer reception, but gets iffy / agitated with extended close proximity.
3/25 - afternoon / evening
Test! P75 1 1/2 sprays @ 5 mcg / spray (7.5 mcg total) plus 2 sprays TUTH
This is more P75 than I have dared to use yet.
Wife was extremely pleasant!!! Happy, good mood. Helpful. She wanted to feed me, got me chocolate cake. She made some sexual comments. Wanted to tell me all about her day. She wanted us to go to bed early and spend some special time together… baby girl was smiles at first, then starts getting iffy, then gets agitaged and mom has to take her downstairs to calm down. Had to get some sleep.
This morning, wife’s is in a very good mood and helpful. Baby’s mood is ok, but not great.
3/26 - did not wash from previous day. After work, 1 add’l spray TUTH, 1 full spray P75 @ 5 mcg / spray. Go to coffee lounge / bar after work, with 3 m/o baby sleeping in car seat in tow. Happy hour. There is an area with about 12 couches and coffee tables cluttered together at this venue, lots of people very crowded on iPads and such.
I ask a few women to let me by so I can get to a seat I was headed for, w/ car seat. Sit down and late-30’s looking white woman wearing a lot of jewelry professional clothing, light brown hair, she turns bright red immediately and just starts talking at me. She’s asking me probing questions and wants to tell me all about her life, her favorite things, her plans, what she’s like. Adjusting her bra and blouse constantly, hair flips, etc. I gather she’s a lobbyist in the hill for natural gas. Not married. Apparently the baby I have in tow is no deterrent. She tells me her entire schedule, everything there possibly is to know about her. He thoughts seem unedited and she’s eyeing me. The only thing I had to say to her to set her off was looking her in the eyes for a second when I was sitting down “don’t let me interrupt your tea” or something to that effect when I moved by her. It hit her like a freight train. She mentioned at one point early in convo. that she needed to be going to some event. I just hung out ordering Tom Collins for happy hour, and she lingered by me talking my ear off for 2 hours until I left. She didn’t get her check until I asked for mine. When I leave she waves at me. I made sure through all this to text my wife to let her know where I was at.
There was also a younger 30’s or late 20’s tall thin attractive blonde woman on the other end of her couch. She also got bright red in the face. She was pretending to read her book, but she keeps shooting side glances at me and adjusting things, rubbing her neck/sternum… she gets increasingly flustered seemingly overwhelmed, and then disappears. There was no way any of the other people could have talked to me since the lobbyist woman had me locked down. Sitting next to me on my couch to my left, attractive thin brunet with very long hair has an attractive date with her. The chemistry between them goes from about a dull 3 to a 10 in a short timespan. She starts flipping her long hair so hard she actually hit me in the head a couple times with her long hair. She’s starting to talk suggestively to her date. Nice. Eventually she drags him off. There is a middle aged guy sitting behind me at a table, he has his face buried in his hand and the look on his face - like he’s having the worst day of his life.
Go home, wife acts very positive and upbeat. No negative reactions noted. She reacts positively to touches. She wants to order chinese and I like the idea so I do that. I mention something about fun once she gets the baby to sleep. Once she get baby to sleep, late, she’s like lets just talk, pushing back. So I just start talking about stuff and rubbing her thigh until she can’t take it anymore and she puts the moves on me. P75 seems to cure any sexual problems for me. She was also talking dirty and encouraging me.
3/27 - Should get my Akuto scent IG today, along w/ more TUTH, possibly before my Thurs Yoga class @ noon today.
Did not wash from previous day - I still have TUTH and P75 in large amounts on from two previous days, so wondering what effect that’ll have. I woman I know who works upstairs at my job happens by me at the coffee machine, she just came down to get milk out of fridge. She has a baby same age as mine. Looks like she hasn’t showered in a week, wearing sweats and hoodie, sleep deprived. She gets red when she passes me and starts chatting me up. Leans back against counter and rubbing her neck, lots of hair flips… her hair looks dirty and she’s apologizing, but she doesn’t stop. My boss is there and kind of enjoying the show, but keeping his distance from me. I hang out for a while to see how long she would talk to me without a reason well apparently she’s not going anywhere now! She just keeps talking with a slight blush. I sense that my boss is going to hint we need to get to work, but he doesn’t say it. I decide to make an well-timed exit.
what mcg / spray would you recommend buying? I was having difficulty understanding the sweet spot from your notes. Does it vary depending what you combine it with? I don’t like to be over-sedated.
FedEx prob. won’t get me my package before yoga today, but maybe later today they will re-try.
Got another phone call from FedEx… they say they will swing around again this afternoon.
Date: 3/27 - Thurs
Application: P83 1 1/2 sprays @ 25 mcg / spray (37.5 mcg total) + P75 1 spray @ 5 mcg / spray. Have not yet washed from previous days - see posts on applications for the past two days.
Venue: Thurs Yoga class. Women around me gave me a lot of looks. At one point I looked at the instructor and asked me if I wanted to ask her something. I said smiled and said no. She comes around and stands next to me several times. The tree women behind me left early - about 2/3 the way though the class. One of them was african american. All three were younger. The rest of the class lingers unusually long after class and chit-chats. Everyone seemed very red by the end of the class, and a bit worked up. One girl who works in my same room at a different time came up to me and said she was exhausted from the class. There had been a lot of laughter in the class, and smiles, at least that I saw.
No sedation worry with TAF. Get 30 mL 2.5 mcg. It is a very useful steering mone for any mix. I’m interested also in how LS BNOL compares to Androtics BNOL. I think they’d be interested as well. You’ll have to test your personal tolerance for F, but I stick with < 10 mcg and 50 mcg BNOL. Test that with some drinks. Mind = blown.
Friday 3/28
Order arrived late last night - still same day it was expected. AD called to correct the address immediately when FedEx had an issue. Turned out shipping label was correct but the edge was cut off so it was illegible. Outstanding customer service!
Instant Gentleman 1x in Akuto scent, standard strength. First impression last night - this scent smells fantastic to me in a spray! I like it better than Neroli. My wife said she didn’t smell anything when I’m sitting right next to her - ?? The next morning I can still smell it distinctly on my neck. Very sexy scent in my opinion.
I was already wearing 1 spray TUTH, 1 drop A314 before the package arrived. After one spray (or slightly less due to priming), wife’s mood improved considerably. We’d had a little argument earlier in the evening, and she’d had an unusually stressful day, and she was a bit sour. Very shortly after spraying she turned noticeably red in the face w/ rosy cheeks, and displayed a persistent smile and optimistic positive vibe - a clear improvement in mood. She got cuddly on the couch. Next morning she keeps telling me she loves me, like 8 times. Kisses me repeatedly.
to-go sample freebie of P74 also arrived.
Instant Gentleman v1.1, 1x, Akuto, 3/25/14, order#89325, #3B12721K
Turn Up The Heat v1.1, 2.5 mcgs, 3/24/14, #3B12721K
P74 5ml, 5 mcgs, gift, Batch#N
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others already at my disposal:
P83 30ml, 25 mcgs, order#85321, Batch#8
P75 30ml, 5 mcgs, order#86849, Batch#8
Alpha314 oil, 10ml, Rev32,
P96 5ml, 25 mcgs, order#86849, Batch#8
P102 5ml, 5 mcgs, gift, Batch#8
Empty (or bottomed out) to-gos:
I’ll keep these in case I want to use them for the same product in the future.
P74, 5 mcgs, Gift, Batch#8
TAC, 5 mcgs, Gift, Batch#8
TUTH v1.1, 5ml, 2.5 mcgs
Ammunition v1.0 1x
IO v1.0, 1x
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Question: The Ammunition and IO to-gos that I tried were v1.0. Are there 1.1 versions available now? What is the difference with v1.1?
I will have to get an androtics bottle w/ neroli scent alcohol so I can make the comparison as similar as possible.
I have already gotten some rather shocking and bizarre moments w/ the S.L. BNOL in 190 proof everclear, where thoughts are unedited and spoken out loud, when combining with Instant-line products mainly. The molecules in the instants seem to bring that out. I’m very interested to see how TAF amplifies that. I will not be making another purchase for a little while, but this project will be a to-do item for my next order.
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UPDATE: Washed well, and tried 2x of IG w/ 1/2 spray TUTH. Talked to this Asian mid 20’s woman who works in the library, very introverted, working in her office cube. I ask what she’s working on, she got very flirty with me (for her), red in the face, seemed like she was going to make an excuse to talk to me all day. Great eye contact and hair teasing, leaning towards me sideways, pulling on her clothes. Once I was sufficiently impressed with the response I made an excuse to exit - maybe 15-20 min.
You sprayed IG?
So, 1 spray TUTH, a drop 314, add 1 spray IG?
Yes, 1 spray IG (akuto) - I tried to prime it but it still felt like 3/4 a spray. 30 ml bottle.
The TUTH was from to-go, and I think that was the last spray, will be using a 30 ml bottle from now on.
I’m going to be testing the IG / TUTH combo for a while.
At 2x the IG has some nice self-fx. I can see why people call it jovial. It has good relaxed vibes, but not sedating to me, just smoothed out.
body FX… I’m comparing this to how I feel compared to using the P75 mostly the last few weeks.
I’ve had some green tea, not sure how much that contributes.
Inner thighs feel stiulated / alive - mostly lower body. I have a more aware sense of my body. Groin feels a bit tingly - different than the pinching /sweatiness I felt with P75. No I can’t chalk this up to just green tea.
I can here myself thinking of what to say more… a bit self conscious, but anxieties are smoothed over.
It’s been a couple months since I used Ammo, so I’m having difficulty comparing to IG + TUTH. I do think that the IG gave me a more flirtatious hit with the Asian girl. With Ammo she was more DITHL, just stunned, but she did talk for hours… hmm well I was combining IO with Ammo at that time. She was not this flirtatious & rosy. This time she seemed more relaxed, comfortable. This is basically the same way my wife was looking last night.
3/28
Go to target wearing 2x IG, 1/2 TUTH. 20’s girl in front of me drops all her change out of her chance purse. I help her pick it up. She turns red and acts flirty but quiet. Looks me right in the eyes with a twinkle. Girl behind me is flipping her hair like crazy too. Meanwhile, the cashier lady, older black lady, puts my stuff on the girl’s bill. Then she screws up again and puts my stuff on the next guys bill. She tells me that that “I’m working it”, in a sexy voice.
I get a DITHL from on neighbor’s GF who I don’t like, on Friday evening when they were getting ready for a bike ride.
Another neighbor girl, who had invited me up to her place alone during party last week, comes over to our door with her dog to show him off to my son supposedly. She gets a good whiff of me.
3/29
2 sprays IG, 1/2 Spray TUTH.
We run into neighbors, and they invite us out Latin dancing. She is Puerto Rican and he is Honduras.
Wife says she wants to go. And she wants to dance with other guys there, am I okay with that. I’m like sure, fine. Nothing about me going or a babysitter. When I say I want to go out too and get babysitter, she says she hasn’t agreed to that. ??? When I repeat that she wants to go there to dance with other guys, she says I’m being condescending. She acts like this might be a girls-only thing. I think unlikely that neighbor would go without her boyfriend.
Air and Space Museum, w/ wife and son. Biggest hit was in the museum store, a late 30’s woman starts chatting me up out of the blue while I’m shopping with my wife and son for legos. She is talking about her own son and how much he loves legos. She just keeps talking and talking to me, working very hard to keep my attention, she was totally locked onto me. It reminded me of the woman in the coffee shop last week… wanting to tell me all about her life and all I had to do was look at her. This time, my wife is standing there amused but distracted by my son picking out a toy. I eventually just start ignoring her and we move on.
My wife as usual tried to order me around and I wasn’t having any of it this day. For ex. she insisted on walking to a different part of the train platform that was less crowded, but I refused to follow as I was happy where we were. She did not stay with me, but rather got on a different part of the train. She did not reunite with me until I arrived at the museum, where she was waiting. She later got mad that I was arguing with her in public when she did not want is to stand together i line (in light rain). Eventually she starts to follow my lead as I maintain a rigid frame. Basically it’s my way or the highway, and I’m not listening to her.
I get her cousin on the phone and we have a babysitter. Confirm neighbor is bringing boyfriend. Check email, everyone is in fact invited to go out dancing, not just girls. I go to pick her up & bring back.
Later after museum, we buy expensive jewlery for 3 month daughter at department store, she says she will take it without asking price, (it was 300).. I make light of that. But we get a 1/2 discount even though the sale is not until later in the week (don’t know if 'mones influenced that). Then she says the decorations in the lobby of the store look like penises. Her imagination is working overtime.
Neighbor makes drinks for me while we are getting ready to go out, we hang out. They want to split a cab it us.
2x IG, 1 1/2 TUTH, 1 1/2 P75 @ 5 mcg / spray, 1/2 spray P83 @ 25 mcg / spray.
Neighbor’s wife asks me to dance once while we were out. I’m no where near as experienced as she is. Other neighbor couple shows up. His GF has kept her distance from me so far, and continues that. I don’t like her very much, maybe that shows. Wife has a good time dancing with me, and also dances with both neighbors who are decent dancers, and some random older guy who was really good. At the bar when we got a snack, this one woman to my left keeps looking at me and flipping her hair, even though I’m with my wife. Seemed like she wanted to talk to me.
3/30
2x IG, 1/2 TUTH, 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcgs.
Rain and slush, terrible weather. In car to Costco, her parent’s house, and shoe shopping for her.
She gets really mad at me when I ask her to try on shoes that are 8 1/2 and she’s a 9 (sometimes a 1/2 size fits). When I ask if she’s getting mad, she gets even more mad saying I’m embarrassing her in public again. Then she says she wants to leave and doesn’t like anything (this is DSW with a billion shoes), and I wanted to get her something.
Then we drive to costco and target, everything is cool shopping there. Again she wants to split up different ways and then meet up again. She seems to be doing a lot of this lately.
We get hot chocolate on way out after Costco and target. The guy wants me to pay extra for whipped cream on , but then he says I don’t have to pay. Free discounts again?
Wife and cousin were very red while hanging out at her parents house in a small room. I start getting hard-ons watching the two of them bending over the computer at a 90 degree angle with straight backs, asses straight to me. Realized this might have been a sexual hit.
exta 1 spray TUTH late at night.
Wife gets very cuddly and wraps up with me tightly. No resistance to sex late that night, though she’s starting to fall asleep.
4/2 - 2x IG AKUTO, 1x TUTH, 2 sprays P74 @ 5 mcgs / spray, 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcgs / spray. 1/2 spray P75 @ 2.5 mcgs / spray.
Venue: brick inner courtyard outdoors at home. Neighbors sitting outside on yard chairs w/ drinks in celebration of girls’s BF celebrating his proposal to her. They are in a really good mood and hanging out. I come down to see what’s up with them and the girl, who normally has been consistently evasive and “too busy to talk” w/ other mixes, is extremely interested in talking to me this time around. She pulls up a lawn chair for me at a 90 degree angle to her, gets me drink after drink - port wine, champagne, wine, chocolate, etc. - never-mind that I already had a very tall glass of beer when I came down… she chats my ear off, and not about him. She tells me all about HERSELF. Shows me what I would consider a lot of IOI. this went on a few hours, didn’t get any negatives from the guy, he’s still smiling - he keeps at a distance in his chair. She is thin blonde, fairly attractive, late 20’s . She was hanging on me more than him. Interesting.
Another women - heavier set blonde woman late 20’s usually “too busy to talk” she also lingers and talks to me extensively, standing quite close. She tells me all about her work & career. Rubs her sternum / neck a bit.
Another woman who’s shown lots of IOI previously and is outgoing young blonde, she comes in w/ a friend who doesn’t know anyone (She’s also more shy and following her friend) I am able to stop them and keep them talking for hours. The other girl warms up slowly and chats w/ me.
My wife comes in at a few points, circling back to the house and again to take care of things. No negative reactions from her, which is great. No signs of jealousy (sigh of relief).
When I leave for a 20-min break to handle some stuff at the house I come back and everyone has gone inside. Apparently the wind blew and they all forgot why they were out there hanging out.
Later at night, wife is cuddly and ready for sexy time. Not just that night, but also the next morning! Quite unexpectedly.
4/3 - did not wash. Added 1x IG 10 AM, training with a few other guys in a small room respect vibe from other guys, then 1 spray TUTH, 1/2 IG 12 AM - go to yoga - I feel some of the women were looking at me, but were standoffish.
Picking up 3mo daughter from Mother in Law’s she wants me to stay and hang out very intersted in talking to me. Usully she’s alll buisiness and getting me on my way, but not today.
Around 3PM, add another 1 spray TUTH, 1 spray IG. 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcgs.. 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs. Hang out at coffee shop & bar location that I like in bar district of the city. Very nice open-windows weather 70 degrees. Couches everywhere, crowded. Waiter was kind of a dick to me and never brought my drink after 30 min of me asking him. Then he got a combative attitude and still didn’t bring me a drink. I was ready to throw something at him. There was a guy on the couch sitting next to me who REALLY wanted to leave after I sat down. Three other women around me, seemed to get hot and bothered, but were standoffish. I felt fidgety and “wired”, impatient, getting pissed. I go up to the actual bar and get a drink, feeling pissed and trying to cool down. Finally the waiter brings me my drink a full hour after I asked for it - at the bar, after I finish my other drink! Bar is strangely empty. Attractive woman comes around, circles by, sits all the way at other end of bar. Get a bit red, preens herself. Looks bored/ agitated. Two more attractive girls come to bar, wearing coats & scarfs. I make a comment it’s not scarf weather, they look annoyed / agitated every time I speak to them. I joke about their waffles in the afternoon, they look pissed. They avoid looking at me & refuse to make conversation. They start bitching to each other about politics, which I felt was bad mojo for continuing any conversation. I thought they were being jerks. They prob. thought the same about me. No men stayed within 10 feet of me the whole time I was there, despite the fact that the venue was crowded. Seems like I’ve OD’d.
I go home and shower, dial magetic, good scrub
Three sprays P74 @ 5 mcgs / spray. 1 spray P102 @ 5 mcgs / spray. 2 x IG AKUTO. 1/2 spray TUTH.
Wife comes home and her mood stays very positive. I direct her to make dinner and she is totally compliant, we cook together for 2 hours very pleasantly!
Dinner is super pleasant.
When I put son to bed, he is usually not very compliant about getting dressed. Usually ignores me when I yell at him and just does whatever. This time gets very upset when I yell at him. Things go back positive again very quickly when I apologize for yelling. he’s compliant after that.
Overall moods towards me very positive and forgiving with this mix.
Early morning, wife wants to wrap up and cuddle, buries her face in my neck. Doesn’t want me to go.
4/4 - 2 drops A314, 2x IG AKUTO, 1/2x TUTH, P75 2.5 mcgs, P74 15 mcgs.
Venue: meeting with high-level director at my work, broadcast TV industry. Trying to network. He seemed extremely impressed with me and wanted to chat as long as possible, is there ANYTHING he can do for me. Wanted to know my opinions about everything. He regretted having to leave for a meeting. Very polite to me. He got very red in the face, and was fidgeting with things constantly, like he was intimidated. He wanted to meet me again, and introduce me to two other high-level people at a future date.
Afterward - wife starts texting me can we do a lunch date (first time she ever asked), but I had been in a meeting. Then her coworker is having BD at a nearby bar / restaruant, so everyone is invited and she wants me to go to that.
I add (right after meeting) 1 xtra spray TUTH, P102 5 mcgs.
When I go in there is a huge table of all these late 20’s / early 30’s women - they all go red in a flash & start adjusting clothes. Gay guy gets super friendly and blushed too, he and two female coworkers insist, yes INSIST, on sitting with me. A couple of the girls are basically eye-fucking me, lip-licking, etc. the whole time. One of them came to our house for dinner earlier in the month with shy (supposedly PUA expert???) boyfriend. She keeps making jokes about (for ex.) her boobs to me, sexual innuendos. She’s sitting right next to my wife, who I later find out (during an argument) was getting jealous, but she was trying to hide it at the time. She wants me (not us, me) to join her to some other bar. My wife is like no, we have to go. We have a baby with us.
We go home I put on another 5 mcgs P74, bringing it to 20 mcgs P74. This makes me extremely lethargic. I have to take a nap and my wife is not so pleased about that. Keeps telling me to get up and help out.
Later that night we have some really good sex, no performance issues at all.
4/5 - Wife goes to PA for wedding shower that morning. I’m wearing 5 mcgs P74, 2x IG, 1/2 spray TUTH. She gets very mad in the morning when I go out to get some items at Target after she told me she had enough time for me to make the errand. She accuses me of cheating and says she doesn’t trust me. I must have been going out to screw someone (girl mentioned day earlier she mentions by name). She also says that the last few days I have been very irritable. I guess I have? Something in pheros is making me irritable w/ her - I do remember yelling at son more often and louder.
I take her to mother’s house so she can carpool to PA.
I meet up w/ our mutual female friend, get hungry, to to cafe w/ son near her house and say meet up with us here, I got a table. Put on P102 5 mcgs in car, plus 1 spray TUTH (bringing it to 1.5x), 10 extra mcgs (bringing it to 15 mcgs) P74. 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray. Did this in car, then went in.
Girls at table across from us at table had done color run - were all diffeent colors sprayed on the. Several girls kept looking my way. Old friend was very happy to see us. We had a big adventure at a park outside flying kites. A ranger got my kit out of a tree when it fell out and landed in the river right before a Dam, after talking to me.
Then we visit another old friend and hang out on their porch.
Things are very nice w/ wife when she gets back & I pick up.
Late that night, guys in my condo building want me to hang out with them, insist. They get beer pong table out and offer me shots.
I wash, put on 2x IG, 2x TUTH, 1 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray. 2 sprays P74 @ 5 mcgs/ spray, 1 spray P96 @ 25 mcgs / spray.
They offer me shots, a couple I don’t know showed who manages staff logistics at a gov’t agency has her BF with her, but stands with me for a very long time telling me all about her life and so on. She showed signs of interest & was very friendly. Other guys were trying to get me to hang out w/ them offering me drinks. This went on to about 2:30 AM, about 30 degrees out, slightly windy, with a fire pit & hookah. I had no interest in sex, just felt like cuddling up in bed w/ wife. Warm fuzzy / fizzy feeling.
4/6
wash, 2x IG, 1/2 spray TUTH, 3 sprays P74 @ 5 mcg / spray, 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs/ spray. We are supposed to get ready for church, go get JC Pennies family protraits, etc. I make breakfast. Wife gets very irritated w/ me and is storming around yelling after I spray TUTH at only 1/2 spray. It seems to agitate her a lot. She has not taken her meds for over 48 hours. We go to church, a new church we are checking out. I get a ton of looks, feel extremely confident. Everyone wants to shake my hand and look me over.
1/2 spray TUTH,
We drive over to get portraits done, wife starts warming up. I’m holding her leg, etc.
I keep adding 1/2 sprays of TUTH, six of these 1/2 sprays by the end of the day. Hanging out after portraits at her parents house… all the family gets progressively more and more warm, and seemily turned on, but all in great spirits. At one point wife, her sister, and her brother were all on a couch laying all over each other, with their legs completely intertwined the way wife and I do in bed. I look over an realized it looked very sexual! her cousin (who is usually aloof) was also getting closer and closer and her leg was against mine. her sister was getting very flirty and friendly. There was a very sexual and comfortable vibe that had me thinking is this real, am I seeing what I think I’m seeing? Later right after we left her sister tries to connect w/ me on google plus circles (she not a tech savvy person and hasn’t used these before).
Next morning, try to have sex with wife. No resistance, and she’s very ready / wet. However I have performance issues again. She flips over and tempts me the other way, which works better for me, but only slightly. Prob. just too tired / sleep deprived, and the bed smells like the baby (who’s also fussing the whole time in crib in other room). I haven’t taken my vitamins in a few days and too much drinking.