lwatkins test log

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
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4/7 - 2x IG, 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray, 1/2 spray TUTH.

Didn’t see anyone all day at work. IG gives me a bit of a IDGAF attitude. Sometimes I’m less productive than if I was more concerned, although it does seem to give me focus.

Added another 1/2 spray TUTH to this mix. Went in to computer repair place staffed by two very attractive Arab women (the men are out today). At first they seem bored and disinterested in my inquiry, but after a 2-4 min, the woman at the counter starts to get dreamy and a bit flirty. She does not make direct eye contact. (thinking this is cultural). Flirt for maybe 15 min and she seems to be enjoying it.

Go to coffee / drinks bar w/ baby (sleeping) in stroller again for happy hour, add:
2x TUTH, 5 mcgs P75. Curious what effect this will have.
Lord, I feel like king of the jungle wearing this. Great self FX.

Sit down at large communal table. Blonde late 20’s middle school teacher w/ earbuds in trying to grade papers across from me, she turns bright red, keeps looking at me but pretending not to. She buries her red face in her hands and hides behind her computer screen, stealing glances. Woman to my left is French Syrian who came here for work, maybe early 40’s or late 30’s, very gracefull and classy, nice french accent. She keeps asking me permission to get up, do this or that. She seems mildly entertained when I talk to her and is extremely respectful, but she has some work to attend to, still I get a surprising amount of convo. After she has to leave and the other woman goes, I was getting ready to leave and a redhead with curly hair, maybe early 20’s very attractive passes, circles around and sits directly opposite me. She initiates convo and basically acts like we’re on a date. She tells me all about her self, figures out what my MBTI is (correctly), giving me dead-on eye contact and a lot of preening the whole time. Telling me about her living situation and job, her food & drink preferences, it just keeps going. She asks me what drinks she should get, is very open to suggestion, very flirty. She tells me where she lives. Eventually she says she actually has some work she needs to do (but doesn’t start) and I take that cue to exit. She’s like what you’re leaving??? Seems disappointed.

Come home, wife just got home w/ son. I add 3 sprays P74 @ 5 mcgs / spray.
Wife responds very warmly to mix. She makes us dinner w/o being asked (interesting since she never cooks) and wants to cuddle up on couch. Son is more creative and playful than usual, V. positive mood and unusually compliant.

I seem to feel more even-keel w/o the P102. I am not yelling at him or agitated. Maybe it was the P102 that was causing me issues before.
Wife and I drink wine, make brownies, and stay up late watching movies cuddling.
Baby ends up staying up all night so no fun times in bed, though she had indicated that she was willing and interested.

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4/8

Morning after, wash well. 1x IG right before all-male informal staff meeting,
actually just 1 spray of IG has a really good vibe in informal all-male company,
all younger guys in 20’s. Charismatic.

After work, add 1x IG + 1/2 TUTH + P75 1/2 spray @ 5 mcgs /spray. Wife is going to alumni school thing. I pick up 5 yo son from school & baby. Walk a block w/ him to outdoor bar/restaurant, it’s a slight chill and light breeze. There are super-long picnic tables that seat 40+ people under umbrellas and trees. Group of 3 girls next to us are on some bocce ball group thing for field next to patio. They offer us fried eggplant fries ? (which are insanely good!!) The women show some interest in talking to me of their own volition, the one nearest me is Asian. I spray 1x P83 25 mcgs on back of hands. Spread hands out wide. It makes me a bit unfocused or light-headed at first. Spacey. The girls seem to get more chatty, although they also start ignoring us and their chatter regarding work etc. goes into high gear. Another two women sit down at our other end want to sit down to occupy that space. I say hi but they don’t seem interested in engaging, they are in their ow bubble. Shortly after both groups leave. In retrospect, seems like things were better before I added P83.
We head back and I put son to bed. He’s not all that compliant, ignoring me.

Wife gets back, I add 2 sprays TUTH, each side neck.
forgot to add any P74 today
Also forgot to wash P83 off back of my hands. … ooops.

After 2x TUTH, she gets quieter (and more compliant / submissive maybe?)
Happy to snuggle up close, wrap legs up together
She needs to breast feed baby, she’s waking up
notice she turns her hips so that her ass is pressed up against me on couch

When she finishes feeding baby and she’s just laying on couch w/ her along side,
I’m still feeling very sexual, maybe increasingly so. I want to kiss her, and then kiss her again. Like I’m driven. She starts to complain that she doesn’t want to make out in front of the children / baby. I then tell her shortly after does she want to have some fun upstairs tonight? She says she just wants to get the baby to sleep and she needs her sleep. I say ok fine, but she doesn’t like the way I said OK FINE so she starts getting pissed w/ me. I say lets go upstairs, but she wants to stay up and watch TV. She says she doesn’t like the way I’m acting. But then she comes up and is pissy “we need to talk upstairs” etc. I go upstairs and get ready for bed, she doesn’t say anything, I go to sleep. I’m feeling so aggravated like I want to argue with her, but I just hold my tongue and get some rest. Let it pass, let it pass…

P83, and things went all wrong again. I blamed it on that.

4/9

Overslept. Late into work.

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I missed your pm. Post ? here please.

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7/9

1x IG - 11AM
1/2 spray TUTH
P75 1/2 spray @ 5 mcgs /spray
Confident self FX.

New Dentist! Female dentist was extremely jovial. Older male dentist comes in later and is also extremely friendly, a bit buddy-buddy. They ask me a lot of questions in a friendly way. I feel very confident and laugh a lot, cracking jokes and being a bit loud. Female secretary, african american, is a bit DITHL but all smiles. There was a lot of lingering going on, they were in the mood to hang out. It seemed like they didn’t want me to go!

pick up daughter, and MIL’s neighbors chat with me extensively on the front lawn w/ MIL, they also linger. Again, it’s hard to make an exit.

Add 1 1/2 sprays TUTH. 1 spray IG. - 3PM

Wife and son come home. Positive responses.
Wife spanks my butt at one point while I’m doing dishes.

Add 3 sprays P74 @ 5 mcgs / spray (15 mcgs total) 6PM

There is a condo association meeting outside, first for the building. Neighbor’s GF (latina, honduras) gave me several upper-arm touches and sat next to me. She leaned in close to me and kept sharing her big bag of kettle chips, only w/ me the whole meeting. She whispers in my ear “let’s get fat together”!!!

Two older gentlemen from a nearby house attend (possibly older gay couple) they both turn bright red! They are sitting to my immediate left in the circle. Lesser rosiness from women opposite end of circle 15 feet out. Light breeze, outdoors, 65 degrees. Later standing closer, I get good attention from all neighbors, respect & charisma vibe.

Later at night we get ready for bed, wife is noticeably quiet and reserved, and I am pleasant but feign disinterest, but tell wife to put baby in crib. As soon as she is ready & has baby asleep, I make moves approaching her from behind, and she shows no resistance. She’s soaking and starts dirty talking. She climaxes unusually hard and we’re out for the night.

4/10

I realize I have a meeting w/ boss about my performance today in morning

2 drops A314, 1 spray IG, 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray. 4:30AM

add 1/2 spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray (total @ 5 mcgs now) - 6:30 AM

Feeling extremely confident and a great status vibe. He kind of let me steer the meeting, even though it was really his job. I was able to frame his perspective on things pretty much however I wanted fairly effectively. Excellent results. I can see how P75 can be a bit of a bully w/ A314 (iron fist). I this context bullying my boss a bit was productive. IG softened it a bit. Adding IG makes it more of an iron fist in a velvet glove.

If I had the A314 B spray, I would have prob. used that instead of the P75 / IG combo, which was prob. a bit overkill in retrospect.

day 4/10 continued see below.

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Your good perceptions on IG charismatic and P83 being fickle beast. I am winding down testing putatives. IG and a social is hard to beat. Sometimes good enough is just fine.

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What do you think is in IG that softens A314 + P75? Must be some strong steering molecules!

Most of IG is just additional eRone no?

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P75 overpowers about all else. IG buffers 314 a bit.

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lwatkins,
I love P75, it is one of my favorites, but I cant wear it everyday or I get burnt on it. About 3 days in a row is my limit. 2.5mcg is my normal dose, but I have been wanting to make up a togo and cut it in half and try that.

Sometimes if I just need a pick me up, I just squirt a tiny amount and wipe it on my lip under my nose. Perks me right up. Cocky, confident.

Oh, and I never wear P75 without a buffer. It kind of pisses guys off. Big time crusty looks, scowls, etc. A little shine takes the edge right off of it and it becomes no problem. Girls dig it.

I have never had the limp noodle effect from it, but then again I dont usually have that problem. Last time I lost my erection while in the act, was back in college, I had a gal in the sack after a night at the bar, and she puked in my waterbed. Total buzzkill.

Maybe wondering if it was the P96? Too relaxing? Interesting. I will watch your journal for follow ups. Thanks, nice reporting..

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@ monesmadedoit

I wish I had your kind of certainty about things. My mind is more attuned to perpetually coming up with new options, new possibilities. And the more ideas I have, the less certain I am about anything. I do however find your posts by far the most convincing on this board. I admire your ability to cut through the BS so cleanly.

I can’t remember all my questions at the moment, but here’s what’s on the top of my head:

I was very intrigued by your comments about scent aversions among women a various parts of their cycle. I tried to look it up and came up dry. Any resources you could direct me to?

In some posts you have put forward that TAF is equipotent to TAK, and in another you felt that TAK may be twice as potent as TAF. It seemed like you were still figuring it out. I’m still unclear what is a good dose range for TAK when combined with other products you have tested. Others have suggested in journals that TAK gave them a “swagger” and untamed jerkish attitude, an alpha-ness. Did you get that? You mentioned testing TAK w/ P75, but I couldn’t find any results on that either. I’d like to determine a good dose curve for TAK.

@ CelticPrince

I’m a huge coffee addict so that might contribute. Stimulants can have that effect.
There is some tolerance effects going on.

the flip side, relaxing products like TAC make me extremely lethargic.
20 mcgs P74 made me extremely lethargic for ex.
hence, I imagine my tollerance for TAK might be quite low.

monesmadedoit mentions nodding off w/ 1 mcg TAK, hence the ng dosage testing.

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Both 10 and 1 MCG tak and taf can be similar. Makes no sense but it happens.

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day 4/10 continued.

add 1 spray IG, 1 spray TUTH, to neck @ 12:00PM.

Go to Yoga. Instructor gives me solid / smiling eye contact on several occasions. She adjusts my posture several times. On a couple occasions, she actually got down on the floor next to me to do some positions. I didn’t see her do positions next to anyone else, though I could have missed it.

get to coffee / bar location after work w/ baby. happy hour.
add 1 spray TUTH, one spray P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray to neck, 1 1/2 sprays P83 @ 25 mcgs (37.5 mcgs total) to back of hands / forearms. @ 3:30PM.

My confidence level from this point on was through the roof. it definitely showed in my body language and the way I spoke up or asserted myself. not really any second-guessing going on.

Couch area where I sit down two older women are chatting, they turn red but ignore me. I don’t like the chair where I’m sitting it’s too low. Latina waitress is new, heavy accent, when she comes to talk to me, she’s completely taken aback, she trips on her words, she’s basically starstruck or entranced, lost in my eyes. I actually saw her tug on the front of her pantie. whoa. She keeps talking to me in a circular way for prob. 3x longer than necessary, and she keeps coming back, and back w/ full eye contact. I keep catching her looking at me from across the room. Middle aged ladies on couch still ignoring me, really red. One leaves and I steal her seat. The funny thing was, when she left, she stood with her ass right in my face for several min, and bent all the way over a couple times to get her things. Now if I wasn’t any wiser, I easily could have been oblivious to any intent since the furniture pushed so close together and she had to get her things. But you know what she had other options. One of those situations where people are making every signal to ignore you, and yet the lingering and asses moving closer & closer your face are kind of hard to ignore. By this point I’d had two mixed drinks.

The other lady stays an puts in earbuds and focus on her laptop intensely - beet red. A blond lady very thin & long flowy dress circles around the room and decides to sit down in my old seat right next to me (lots of other options). When I open her, she says actually she’s her to work, cracks open her laptop and ignores me rest of the time there, although I made some jokes that were actually really funny (to me), she had no reaction. So that’s going nowhere entertaining. And yet, there were lots of other places to sit -she didn’t need to sit 1/2 a foot away from me, at a 90 degree angle. Waitress I still eyeing me when I leave.

I get call from wife laptop is ready to pick up from repair place I dropped it off weeks ago. Get to the Mideastern??-run corner computer repair / used cellphone place. There is a teenage African American woman there who I start flirting with immediately, she tells me how she cracked her iPhone, got her hat dirty, her boyfriend wasn’t around, her hair took 8 hours to braid (it’s the biggest 'fro I’ve seen in years, except it’s also curly), she’s got an unbelievable hip/waist ratio (tiny waist, big ass, long legs) and apparently she’s game, so there’s no way I’m passing up the opportunity to flirt/hit on her. Since I’m waiting around for the laptop for like 30 minutes, I spend the whole time making eye contact, slapping her on the thigh occasionally (she’s pretty tall w/ long legs, but sitting on a stool), and prompting her to keep telling me more about her life whenever she slows down. It doesn’t take much. I don’t think I hardly said anything, mostly I just kept smacking her thigh and listening! She’s got this dreamy look in her eyes, full on eye contact, it seems like she’s melting in my presence.
:slight_smile: I finally get the laptop, shell out a bunch of cash (so to avoid paying sales tax), and she waves enthusiastically when I leave.

After that I get back and make some quick dinner, we have a nice dinner and cuddle up on the couch. When she got home she said “I love you even though you’re stinky” - I don’t know if it was the 'mones or the synthetic workout clothes I was wearing for the second time (prob that). I tell her I wouldn’t stink if she had washed any of the clothes this week. It’s her “stay up late TV night” and I go to bed an hour earlier. I don’t feel like giving her any crap about it tonight. I did not get any negatives from wife this time around.

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I just noticed that AD moved Alpha Androstenol Spray to the Putative Pheromones section. Meanwhile Putative P74 and P79 have been available under the ExperiMone™ Series for a while now. What this says to me is that AD has a reasonable replacement for A-Nol, but not their b-nol. Or maybe, since A-Nol doesn’t really have a roll to play fallout, that makes it low priority. Are ExperiMones a fallout potential list? P74 and P79 seem to help fallout. All the T’s have potential of some sort. You can prob. make an icebreaker formula without A-Nol.

MEO-EST was listed under ExperiMones while it was listed, however it has since been removed from the list… in fact nothing even comes up if I search for it. Not that I even want to buy it considering the weight gain and cancer concerns - just a curiosity thing.

IO had a powerful effect on me, I felt an overwhelming urge to go out of my house / office space and go talk to people. I couldn’t stop. And I couldn’t stop chatting. Nobody else could stop chatting either. The problem is, it never goes deep, it never goes anywhere. It doesn’t seem to leave a mark.

monesmadedoit mentions in a post that P91 was more chatty than A-Nol. I can’t imagine what would be more chatty than what I experienced w/ 2x IO, but I never tried a-nol straight.

I did find P102 chatty at 5 mcgs. monesmadedoit compared TAF to P102 and also said it was chatty. However comments I got on high-dose TAF was that people were very focused on work. This does not sound like the leisurely water-cooler chattiness I got from IO.

Androstenol Synthesis Split Test Pack: MX384, MX385, MX386, MX387
was previously available from AD. Now it is not listed.

notes I found: WOW this didn’t go well, did it???
these must have been a rough synthesis.

MX384 - it stinks, bad looks, bitchy co-workers.

MX384 -385: Only used these on two occasions each because I do NOT like what they do to me. They make my personality clunky and wry. I find myself acting like a stereotypical jock with a speech impediment. It’s not entirely that bad but it’s hard to find something intelligent to say and when I do it’s usually a really harsh zinger… A friend commented that I was being an ass, and I honestly was. This was at one spray to the neck.

MX386 x4
Self Effects: Nauseating, I really hate this unscented. I’m also feeling very sedated like almost. The variables are the same from the previous day, same amount of sleep, same breakfast, same caffinated beverage. Heck even the same cup. I haven’t noticed anything yet as in terms of effects on others but we will see throughout the day.
This was worn throughout the day by me and I didn’t get any talkative effects at all. I even went out of my way to start conversing with people and try to get more information out but nothing was happening.

MX386 2sprays

Self effect:
No self effects.

Effect on others:
Just a normal working day.
People try to make fun of me.
And they wouldn’t really help me if i had a problem.
It happened 4 times today.

MX387 earlier this evening. Can’t say I like it. Stinks. I think it makes me irritable - I accept no nonsense bitch!

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I felt like P96 lowers testosterone. Like babies and tears. I associated it with that feeling after you’ve had a good cry, and start to feel better because of it. Some kind of endorphin satisfaction feeling. Low T causes depression in men, no? I thought that was the same problem with A1. Depression, low T. In any case, P96 seems to leave me to spent for sex. It’s like being too full to look at food. the appetite is not there.

You’re right, of course, P75 dominates any mix you put it in.
P75 goes with the other stimulants. It leaves a mark and emotions burn in.
But it is not “chatty” like the other stimulants.
Your comparison to opening the hot oven door was appropriate - but women seem to bask in it’s radiance.

eNone makes women chatty. Heat certainly does.

“Both 10 and 1 MCG tak and taf can be similar. Makes no sense but it happens.” This might drive me mad.

“I use A314 and pure Rone, but IG is a good, masculine product”
how much rone is supposed to be in IG 15 mcgs?
So you’re adding pure Rone to A314 - how much? or just pure rone as an alternative, w/ P74 and TAF?
I assumed that was your 3 molecule concept.
so if P74 is 7.5 and TAF 1.25, rone is 2.5. and enone added would be 625 ng. 2 sprays.

“Androsterone is the key to real attraction…and nobody understands it.”
“A314 oil and spray do not feel like 10-15 micros eRone.”
So that’s the question right, how do you buffer & steer that much rone?
or I wonder, maybe some of the rone is actually variants of rone, or different synthesis than the experimone rone.
like you said, it does not feel the same.

Rone is a sedative. alone with TAC, TAK. You felt that TAK is at work in A314 fallout.
Sedatives avoid panic, kills arguments. All 3 have clear attraction properties.

My mind goes back to the marriage therapy book, where they showed in lab tests that marriages that ran into trouble involved one or both partners reaching a high heart rate during negative emotions. The high heartrates would be measured before people knew they were about to start arguing. Keeping low heartrates and positive emotions seemed key, from the book. High heartrates need to be associated with positive emotions, it seems to burn-in an emotional state association.

P74 + TAF is happy land plus a burn-in. It burns in positive feelings. hence the boyfriend image.
once you get there, you have to minimize her panic, anxiety, racing thoughts. That brings us back to sedatives.
Sedatives allow progression without panic.

TAC + eNone. lower body sedative + lower-body stimulant. - Reminds me of Damiana.
sedatives allow small O’s to grow into big ones.

the Rone man is the “cool guy”

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P96 seems like A1 to me.

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[quote=“lwatkins, post:72, topic:60569”]

I just noticed that AD moved Alpha Androstenol Spray to the Putative Pheromones section. Meanwhile Putative P74 and P79 have been available under the ExperiMone? Series for a while now. What this says to me is that AD has a reasonable replacement for A-Nol, but not their b-nol. Or maybe, since A-Nol doesn’t really have a roll to play fallout, that makes it low priority. Are ExperiMones a fallout potential list? P74 and P79 seem to help fallout. All the T’s have potential of some sort. You can prob. make an icebreaker formula without A-Nol.

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No, no, don’t read too much into that… It’s just a database error I need to fix… Thanks for bringing it up otherwise I’d have forgotten about it…

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This will be a brief hijacking. Please remain seated. I liked that alpha nol split synthesis info you posted. I’m sending you 4 links via PM for your personal use only. No posting please. My gift from the Easter Bunny…for writing an honest and non-hyperbolic journal. One will give you a short overview of -enone / alpha nol oxidation and reduction.

It sounds like there were trace androstenes in those splits. Were those posts from women? The alpha nol > -eNone conversion is bi-directional. Or can be. Rough synthesis? I think so. Depends also the starting material. Something like a crude, cheap one-pot synthesis. Now you see why Chinese crap is such crap. The quality of the mones doesn’t matter, until your feminine alpha nol product is contaminated with male impurities. 1 mcg -eNone can really abreact with some women. And what floors me is that people selling mones out there have no idea what I just said…and don’t care.

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Thanks! Understood.

This one is from a female (somechick03862). blood type AB. Last post March 1st so she may still respond to PM’s. She posts about MX384 and MX385.

MX384 “within 10- 15 minutes she was very bitchy and aggressive. She was really rotten to one of our customers. Granted this customer can try the patience of a saint, but there was really no need of the butt reaming she received from my co-worker. She also seemed very short with the other customers and with me. In less than an hour she had made a bunch of pissy comments to me, and snapped at me when it was totally uncalled for.”… "Both days that I wore this around her, she was a MAJOR alpha BITCH! The third day, I didn’t wear it at all and she was her normal self. "
MX385 “I would say this MX is the reason for my quiet mood. I wasn’t sad quiet, I was thoughtful quiet. That isn’t a bad thing at all. It seemed like it helped me remain focused on my job and not get distracted by the things”…"she was very quiet, not distant or in a bad mood, just kind of thoughtful and quiet, but it was a very comfortable atmosphere, with me being so introspective and her being less talkative than usual. She is usually one who doesn’t seem comfortable with silences, but we both just did our jobs in a kind of companionable silence. " Self effects: Didn’t really notice any. I was hoping for a little uplift, but didn’t really notice anything.

I believe the ones I posted above were from males, I will have to go back.

MX386 was reported by P51Mustang (male). he added - “I’m still not getting any Androstenol like effects on this. I’ll shelve this for now…” seems like everyone ended up shelving these quickly!

check this post he wrote while wearing MX387

I can see where he’s coming from, but he sounds unusually irritated and cranky in this post.
“I’m not always miserable or cranky but there are times where I would normally brush it off and now it just irks me”

P51Mustang (male) discussing the test pack
MX387 x2 sides of neck
“after about 2-3 minutes of exposure, I literally have to walk away from them talking to me cause the conversations won’t stop. The topics are also completely random and have no discernible patterns about them.”
“I thought it was just me and my sense of smell coming back from being sick that this smelled a bit like Androstenone , I finally went over my Journal again and noticed twice that I did notice that the first time around.”
JosieW (Male)
Yep I notice a difference. I don’t like any of them. MX387 seems to be a little easier on the nose for me then the other 3. I think 386 is my least favorite, but I need to try it again. Also, I’m having a hard time believing all of these are nols. If they are, I need to adjust my thinking about how sexual nols can be.

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4/11 - 2x IG, 1x TUTH @ 3PM

I pick up MIL from her place and we go to Costco since I needed to pick things up and I forgot my card. She was very polite and we did well. At the checkout isle, she was very chatty w/ staff who immigrated from the same country. The woman is also explaining in Spanish how to get various discounts & being very helpful. A large 40’s- 50’s white man behind us goes completely berserk and starts shouting, ie. incredible hulk rage fit. He throws something and demands the manager. “speak English!” and all that. It was about the point I was already just starting to walk off with our cart after paying. Baby in the cart. I turn around and come back, start shouting at him that he’s full of crap & that’s bullshit so and so. I felt like I was about to punch this guy in the face. His poor old wife is is literally holding him back. The manager cuts in and we made an exit, thinking I didn’t really want to get arrested in a Costco. One of the staff begs me to write a note on the counter backing up the cashier & I did & then we made an exit. Also noted that the cashier and her assistant (Latina from Honduras & Nicaragua) gave me some attracted looks (totally checking me out) before the incident and were, in fact, taking it slow and lingering w/ the conversation… 76 degrees out and sunny - first warm day of the year here in MD. Later when my wife hears the story she says she would have bailed me out.

After wife gets home, P74 @ 15 mcgs.
we had some pretty hot sex either that night or the next morning, can’t remember. Maybe both?

4/12

A314 1 drop, IG 2x, TUTH 1x, Go to community garden planting in the morning w/ wife & son. Outdoors sunny 76 degrees, light wind. There were several latina women there helping. Several of them were very friendly and asked me all about myself, told me their stories. Were trying to make conversation. After that we spent time around the house cleaning & I add 15 mcgs P74. Sex again later that night, no resistance… though she’s a bit sleepy.

4/13 2 drops A314, 2x IG, TUTH 1/2 spray. We plan on going to Cherry Blossoms later in the day, which my wfie says she wanted to go to but I know she has a bad association because last year I went with the girl I wash cheating on her with… We go to church, son is very fidgety all over the place in the pew. On way back we walk over to french cafe and when I order a drink, wife gets super pissed out of nowhere and says I’m being stupid when order a drink that I like to make (I know they have the ingredients). She tells me to shut up several times, being really mood and sour. Then she brings up cheating in the cherry blossoms - ah yes, this is what it’s about! Big time jealously resurfacing. When walking back, she disappears and goes a different route, and then blames it on me when we meet up at home again and keeps reaming me out.

I put on 15 mcgs P74 - My parents show up and she’s all sweet again suddenly. I get some kisses?!!? She is all nice & fairly ok at festival. Thawing then actually quite sweet. It’s like 80 something out. We get bus to a pub and have some good food, she is in good spirits, hugs, close cuddle when walking. More kisses. She later says she had a wonderful time.

I wash at 5PM, put on 2 drops A314, 1 1/2 IG, 1 1/2 TUTH, 15 mcgs P74. Her friend comes over from work to watch Mad Men premier. All very friendly on couch.

She says she’s just tired and wants to go to sleep. OK…

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I was reading some ladies journals and came across some very interesting reports on P131 and P132. Certainly seems they had potential. I checked in with Brian F and it appears that P131 is not an endangered molecule. He was not sure of the quantity currently available, but would see about putting it back in stock. I have not heard any status about P132 yet. There were very few reports on these. As of writing this they are not listed in the store.

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4/14 - Leave last day’s mix on all day, don’t really see anyone.
I’m feeling enourmous “sensitivity” with the equipment.
I’m guessing it’s a result of the 1 1/2 TUTH I had on for so long.

Wash and apply 2x IG at 4PM. nothing else.

I end up jacking off, which I usually never do, because I’m starting to loose my mind w/ the sensitivity being there still.

I feel very irritable after that, bossy. My wife is extremely forgiveing about my attitude, and she seems attracted.

I take some vitamins just in case - ALCAR, muira puama, Vit K, PQQ, forget what else.

She wants sex that night, I’m hard at first but then loose it right about when she was getting into it.
She’s not happy about that!

Next morning, she tries again for sex, at 4AM when I’m getting ready for work, but I’ve got nothing. Limp noodle Well shit! Now I know, I know, I shouldn’t jack, but shit give me a break. It shouldn’t affect things that much, should it?

Should have taken some l-citrulline I guess. I’m out of epimedium. I should pick up a new batch.

Maybe I should get some P78 and see what that does for me? I’m almost out of 74 to-go sample. My wife is going to kill me if I place another order right now & it’s on the statement. Does AD accept money orders?

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In other news my cardiologist says that my pericardium is perpetually inflamed, but otherwise cardiac function / scan looks normal.

My dentist says that my gums are highly inflamed, with bone loss at a 4. Put me on 3/month cleaning schedule.

I read elsewhere that gum inflammation and pericardium inflammation are inter-related somehow. Wondering if there is some systemic cardiovascular inflammation that is affecting me.