5/16
2x P75 @ 5 mcg / spray
A314 1 drop
1 1/2 to 2x IG (akuto)
went and purchased four 0.5 oz cobalt glass bottles w/ spray nozzles - from whole foods. They don’t do 1/2 sprays, but seem pretty decent quality - the sprayer is the same size as the entire glass container. I like them better than the Sephora sprayer. Also got one in 2 (3?) oz to fill with almand oil (carrier oil) and some Clary sage oil concentrate. Maybe 6 drops of concentrate to the oil. Apply as massage to face. My wife “what’s that smell? Are you wearing that pheromone cologne again?”. “No, it’s sage oil, I made it, do you like it”, “it’s okay”. Here she goes flipping out about the pheromone cologne again! OK, so I lied about the cologne. Why did I do that, I’m supposed to be telling her the truth?! Crap.
Some of the neigbors are going to visit a friend who’s throwing a party, I rally everyone to go to the party but it’s too late and the party dies before we get there, everyone is coming back before we arrive. I get a few of them to drink with me at their place for while. One hangs out outside w/ me drinking cider for an hour or so, super deep conversations about the meaning of the universe, politics, the future. super deep! Very very relaxed and mellow feeling. Truth serum level.
I add on more spray P75 to one arm, one spray Heat to the other forearm.
When he packs it in for the night, I head out to a dance club / bar down the street, there is a DJ, 20 somethings packed upstairs, busy bar downstairs. very tight environment, sweaty. The women keep dancing closer and closer to me without making eye contact. A repeating pattern is that a group of women will surround me dancing a woman will start leaning into me / body rub, and then friends will get antsy about it and try to cut in to break it up “whoa, whoa, whoa”. Women are rubbing their sternums around me constantly. This happens several times until one girl who is extremely attractive and thin-waist african american, a bit drunk starts dancing and rubbing her body all over me. I formalized it a bit with structure, having taken actual dancing classes a number of times. We danced for quite a while before she went back to her boyfriend. He never cut in or bothered me. Another extremely attractive / thin waist asian, I make make eye contact and direct her to dance with me as soon as she gets up the stairs. She then drags me over to the crowded dance floor area, the complete bump and grind action, we dance for quite a while too. she keeps smelling me and going crazy with the full body massage. then at some point she poof disappears, just like the other one. Well that was fun. I head back.
5/17
shower
A314 1 drop
1x IG
1/2 TUTH
2x P75 @ 5 mcgs / spray
I realize that my wife has found the 1/2 oz whole foods sprayers with diluted concentrate in my pocked from last night, and while I was sleeping hidden them. Not just those but also my to-gos. I can’t find them anywhere. She says that she has taken them away because I lied to her about using them. This is the same thing she does with our 5 yo, takes his toys away to punish him. Great. I don’t like that I feel like I need to lie to her about using them in the first place. It’s mainly because she freaks out when I tell her that I am using them, but everything goes so well when I wear them and she doesn’t know. This is not good.
We drive to sister’s dinner at big restaurant, it’s very complicated directions to VA on the crazy highways intersections there from the city. The rout I chose is closed due to flooding. She refuses to help me with directions - throws the ipad in my lap, somehow I’m supposed to navigate the ipad and drive the freeway that the same time. I can’t figure out where the correct exit ram is from downtown. She refuses to help me unless I beg her for help - she knows how to get there but she wants me to beg. I’m being the typical guy who refuses to ask for directions. Standoff. The children are not pleased. It’s hot out. I admit to lying about the cologne, and she eventually ask how to get there in a round about way. She never gets too upset, although she is very stubborn about helping. She can’t stay mad at me, even though we sort of had a blow-out fight, it fizzled out. I feel like I just can’t back down. We still have a nice dinner out w/ family. Some of the women rubbed their sternums and necks considerably at dinner, there were red faces, the environment seemed aroused, but quietly. Things went well & happy. Returned to calm. Late at night I find the to go’s, but the bottles I mixed are hidden somewhere else I guess.
5/18
we have sex in the morning.
I mix more xxxxxxx since she won’t give back the other bottle I made. I do my test. The whole-foods sprayers (Wyndmere cobalt color) seem to put out a lot more per spray than the (leaky) Sephora sprayer, but less than the AD cobalt sprayers. I find the Wyndmere sprayers completely adequate for testing. They don’t seem to leak, and are slim so I can fit several in one pocket (a bit more bulky than the to-go’s though). The 1/2 oz does not do half-sprays, not sure about the 1 oz yet as it uses a different mister cap. First reaction is similar to first time I used this molecule - I feel almost hypnotic, and I keep wanting to lock myself in the bathroom and jack off, or drag her to a room and tear her clothes off. Very aroused. It was bad enough that my wife took notice and asked me about it. (and this is right after we just had sex). I try to deny it (ugh, lying again), but later bring it up and confirm how I’m feeling - trying to be honest. Keep refreshing both of these pheros every 4-5 hours, make me really aroused! I keep wanting to dirty talk to myself, or to her. I keep mentally undressing all the ladies with my eyes. I could say anything on my mind. Muttering to myself, “I want to rip your panties off”.
We go to a baby shower outdoors. Make some sexual jokes. we are very touchy with our fingertips in the car. ..feeling very quiet. breezy outside. Women are very friendly and relaxed in my presence. Everything looks beautiful, colors, the light, shiny. I feel a bit surreal. I get a lot of the “smiling eyes” from a distance. One black woman I sat next to kept looking at me from way across the lawn and looking away every time I look up at her. For a little while sitting next to her the breeze stopped, and I started to feel high. She just keeps giggling and laughing next to me for no reason, but it all just seems “right”. . I get into several conversations where women are giving up all kinds of very personal stories. At the same time, there were several instances where I had woman add distance between me and them, maybe I was standing too close? I feel like I kept creeping up on people, I’m just uninhibited about space, but diffusion is not so good outdoors. it’s windy. I find out from my wife that when she was little she almost drowned in a pool - she never told me this before. I find out from her that her co-worker said that she got divorced because she always worked long hours doing the same job that my wife is looking to do, because he didn’t get enough time with her. She keeps coming back to this issue of how she she needs to make enough time with me (or she’s afraid our marriage will fall apart, but doesn’t say this explicitly, just suggests she’s worried about the consequences). Well I do feel I need enough time with her. At the same time, I don’t want to hold back her career. We went dinner with our friend’s house. There was a lot of very open frank talk, a lot of sexual inuendo type conversations, unedited conversations. People saying what they really felt. Very honest. At the same time comforting. I feel with this combo, your inner thoughts all come out, but when you retrieve and voice thoughts, they are subject to being changed. if at the same time, you can only think about things in a comforted and happy-feeling vibe (rose-tinted glasses), I feel like your thoughts are subject to being moved back to storage in a more positive vibe way than previously. On the way out, friend’s wife gives me a long hug - longer than usual. Wife and I have sex again! later that night (middle of the night). Even after the sex, I want to have sex again. This combo makes me insatiable! It seems there is no resistance to my sexual advances.
Wake up in the morning, it’s all cuddles and I love you’s. I wanted to stay and have sex again, but I had to go.
Wouldnt surprise me though. I have noticed some women secretly touching themselves briefly around my high none mixes. Maybe getting a little damp down south? Maybe just like guys adjusting the package?
