Hey I recently joined the forums, so I’m still new to this.
Well here’s my situation. I’m tired but I’ll try to explain the best I can.
Tonight I ended up hanging out with one of my X’s at my friend’s house. We all just decided it would be cool to have a movie night. Well even after the break up I’ve always still had something for her, and especially that she broke up with her ass-hole boyfriend recently, I really wanted to give it another shot with her as this is a golden opportunity.
As the movie started I was still walking around looking for drinks. I came back to look for a spot on the couch to sit (hoping there would be a spot next to her)… low and behold there was a spot right next to her screaming my name. It almost seemed like she left it open for me. So I smiled and sat next to her.
I didn’t want to make things awkward by sitting really close to her just yet so I kept somewhat of a distance to “test the water”.
Half way through the movie we both stayed relatively in the same positions, but I started getting uncomfortable so i stretched my legs out and scooted in a little closer to her. She apologized because she thought I was uncomfortable because of the way she was sitting and not giving me enough room so she adjusted also and leaned her legs next to mine. Deep down inside I laughed because this is pretty much what we did when we first started liking each other some years back. Later on in the movie we ended up scooting closer to each other. Finally she leans her head on my shoulder out of nowhere. Which made me nervous because I wasn’t expecting that at all. Made me so nervous to the point that I could HEAR my heart beating. But it was a good nervous so I took advantage of that and leaned my head on hers and the nervousness went away. After the movie ended we just got closer and closer. I remembered how I got her to hold my hand years back by tickling her. So I did, and again to my surprise, she blocked my hand by holding it. I adjusted my hand so that it was actually holding hers and not just being blocked, and she smiled and gladly accepted it. Everyone in the room noticed and was just staring at us. By the end of the night we were cuddling. And by end of the night I also mean 4am. We did some small talk here and there, couldn’t really have a full conversation because others were watching Fresh Prince on TV haha.
She started asking me questions such as “Did we hang out last Christmas?” “Did we do anything for Valentines last year?” “How long ago was your piano recital?” …etc. I told her that we did that all 2 years ago (when we were dating). She stopped and looked at me for a few seconds, and said “by the way, you did absolutely phenomenal on your recital” and smiled. At this point I just wanted to tackle her. But I didn’t because I’m lame. =/
She also told me that her xbf was a douche bag. I asked how he was dealing with the break up… but basically was told that he probably hates me because I am a “threat” to him. I asked her why I was a threat. and she said “Well because… you know. You and… umm.. me… ummm hanging out … and stuff…” which was said in kind of a shy manner. which really made me think.
Well she ended up going home because by then it was 5:30am and we were all tired.
I’m possibly seeing her tomorrow and definitely later on this week as her sister (one of my close friends) is dating another one of my closet friends also. And her family is awesome anyways so It;s always fun to go over her house since she conveniently lives 5 mins from my house. We are going Ice skating in a few days and theres some concerts coming up that she has no one to go with (opportunities!). I need some advice or whatnot as to how to keep this going and not fall apart like it did last time. We broke up last time because she simply just lost the “sparkly feeling”. Well I don’t want to hear that ever again 
. Bottom line is I really like this girl, and I want a serious relationship with her (minus Sex since be both don’t believe in premarital sex).
Also, what pher-products would be recommended for my situation. Where I want to girl to stay interested in me and feel happy around me, and I need to stop being so nervous around her. Just whatever would push what we have going even further. But also as a college student, I have a very tight budget.
Your help would be greatly appreciated! thanks.