welcome new readers dropping in from the p96 and PS posts, hello again to my regular readers.
let’s start with the basic timeline so that everyone is on the same page.
- monday, 8.24- exchanged a few words with a girl, cute, 22. soon to be SEG.
- tuesday, 8.25- first contact with SEG (surprise email girl) through what else, a surprise email. later that day, traded contact info and chatted for a bit.
- wednesday, 8.26- first real in person live contact with her. simple conversation. still thinking about what to say to each other.
- thursday, 8.27- buddy meets her for the “first time.” we all go out, she is fairly timid but opens up well.
- friday, 8.28- just me and her. i used spaceland and got some good alpha -nol hits.
- saturday, 8.29- buddy hangs out with her for the second time. very good p96 hits. opened up with mx301 later in the night and i think that set things off. she goes to bed with my buddy at the end of the night.
- sunday, 8.30- no interaction
- monday, 8.31- day of awkwardness. buddy finally sent her some contact.
so now we’re still a little in the past, monday evening. i couldn’t let things slip out of place so i took matters into my own hands and tried to make things less awkward.
3s mx332
if you are coming over from the p96 thread only, you can read this report here: mx331-334 (panty scorcher) pseudojournal - #74 by jayarea
or you can skip it and read the gist here: apparently she has a bf
when i first met her, she looked and acted single. flirted with everyone, lots of kino, etc. there was a rumor that she had a bf, but i’ve lost trust in rumors. after my buddy said he liked her, i worked some phero action to get her comfortable around him. it worked.
then, i think regret kicked in. or, a need to prevent future awkward situations. whatever it was, i don’t think it was conscience. if it was conscience, this whole situation would not have happened.
point of clarification: keen eyes may have noticed that i never once used any sexual terms to describe her actions with my buddy in this post. he divulged to me that while they did go to bed together (literally) nothing happened. the attempt was there, the clothes were off, but then there was some logistical error probably regarding condoms or something, and all actions were off from that point. it was revealed to me later that he slept on one side of his bed and had a large buffer DMZ between her, who slept on the complete opposite side of the bed.
i was presented with this issue when some of her friends told my buddy that indeed she does have a bf. he’s in shock. i can’t believe it either. i brought it up to her last night and in a very roundabout manner, she reluctantly admitted to having a bf. by this i mean she never outright said “hey, i can’t sleep with your buddy anymore because i have a bf.” it was always “well, i don’t know if i can go out with you guys at [a predetermined date] because this guy might visit me” or “next time i come over, maybe i can crash on the couch.” this guy this, this guy that, and after a few times, i got the hint. i dropped the subject and so did she. then i went to bed.
fast forward to today.
2s p96 @ 50 mcg
2s mx203
neck and hair
again, the subject was not brought up. no awkwardness whatsoever. same good p96 hits as usual, mx203 actually seemed to take a supporting role here.
conclusion regarding the awkwardness
it’s gone. back to normal friends now, perhaps even better off than before. can’t say much more than that…
conclusion regarding her
well… don’t know if i’ve reached one yet. this was a “touching the hot stove” incident; now we know better. my perception of her has changed, certainly not for the better, but not necessarily for the worse either. it’s just… changed. and that’s been the whole basis of our relationship – changing perceptions. we’re still gonna hang out with her and we’re still gonna see her in classes, so it’s not like we can just completely shut her away.
all i can say is that this could have turned out worse. i’ll give it some time to settle and keep you guys posted if anything happens. as for testing, i’ll still go with her but i might switch things up and not always focus on comfort.