still nothing at 2s of mx304.
yesterday
put on 1s and headed to class at 3:30. no response from my seat neighbors. at dinner with some friends there was also no response. it wasn’t like i was ghosting, more like i wasn’t wearing anything.
sarah time, and the most important thing
sarah called and was feeling a bit lonely so she asked if she could stay the night with me. i said i would pick her up after working out, showering, and then running some errands. 30 minutes before picking her up and freshly showered, i put on 1s of 304. usually she gets in my car and we’re very chatty all the way back to my place. this time she was smiling as she approached my car and then instantly (or it felt like instantly) as she got in, she got a neutral/negative reaction. i tried to start our usual conversation and she kept giving me one word answers. no response to kino either, and she usually initiates it. back at my place she wanted to glance over the newspaper real quick before bed so i sat beside her and read a magazine. no good reactions there either. i tried to kiss her a few times and she’ll usually turn to face me or at least playfully offer her cheek; this time she nonchalantly offered her cheek as if it was a chore. it’s not like she was enraptured by some story in the paper either.
here’s the most important thing: we slept horribly. haven’t slept that bad probably since my camp days when we slept on cots with sleeping bags. usually (and i know i’m using this word a lot, but it’s what comes to mind) we sleep great together no matter where we are, my bed especially. we have a few sleeping positions that we like that give us plenty of room and are comfortable. last night we tried a variety of positions and just couldn’t settle on one. not only that but i woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t fall back asleep for an hour or so. i fidgted as little as possible so as not to wake sarah but i guess i woke her anyway. by the time i fell back asleep i was rudely awakened by the alarm and walked around groggy for part of the morning. she slept more than i did but kept tossing and messing with the blanket. in the morning she confessed that she did not sleep well and i agreed.
i’m cool with pheros going hitless or me ghosting or whatever. when pheros mess with my sleep though (haha i feel so lame saying that) that’s where i have to draw the line. i’ve read some reports of sleep habits changing with pheros and i can’t recall if any of them were attributed to this mx series but i think i finally experienced what everyone was talking about. i’ve worn plenty of pheros to bed before and under the same conditions, nothing like this has ever happened.
but (and there’s always a but)
we took it easy last night. some kissing and light touching but nothing serious. with 1s of mx303 i had my epic experience in bed. perhaps mx304 ghosted a bit with sarah at first and gave me a bunch of energy, then after tapering down gave sarah some “energy” too to go at it, thus explaining our restlessness in bed. it’s a wild hunch, yes, but with something as powerful as pheros, no hunch is too wild. look at ammo or mx292 for example.
so?
i’m going to run a self-test tonight. 2 sprays of mx304 about an hour before bed, similar to what happened last night. if i don’t sleep well, i’ll know to not use it before bed. if i do sleep well, i’ll continue the self-test the next night with 1s. as for the hits, i’ll just have to keep chugging away with my usual testing schedule.
today
had a great non-phero hit. i had on the residual 1s of mx304 from last night; it was about 15 hours old at that point. i’m walking to class and about 100 feet from the door i see a girl approaching the same door from the corner of my eye. she draws near me and paces at my side and just a little behind, very similar to what happened to me in a report many moons ago. i told myself back then i would slow down if this happened again and it did so i slowed down and prepared to talk or open. all of a sudden, she speeds up and boosts right past me and slows down in front of me, essentially cutting me off. she was wearing a shoulder bag on her right shoulder/side and that bag brushed my right thigh as she passed; that’s how close she was (think about it and it’ll make sense). normally this would be considered a dick manuever but after she got in front of me, she gave me a little playful look and smile over her shoulder. i had to quickly hide my disgust and return her smile. i noticed she was listening to headphones so i did not open or talk to her. when she reached the door she was probably about 7 paces in front of me. she stopped/slowed to put her headphones away and in that time i caught up to her. she opened the door and looked back behind her to see if she should hold it open, saw me, and actually seemed kinda surprised as if she didn’t know i caught up. i got the door and said thanks, and we parted. lots of smiles traded.
in my later class i had showered fresh and put on 2s. no responses. at dinner i sat next to a naturally nice guy and he was extra nice. i don’t know if he was having a good day or if the 304 was hitting him. if it was the latter, that points to the unofficial conclusion of me ghosting immediately after i put on 304 and then experiencing some hits after it’s worn down. i’ll need to test this more.
kinda don’t even want to fill out the report template, as there’s nothing to fill out.