posted 4.25.09 for events 4.23 10pm
the backstory
oh gosh it’s a long one. if i had to sum it up? … sarah did something bad, i got mad at her, we weren’t able to make up in time so she did not come out with me. part of the mix was in preparation of seeing her and easing her back in. the other part of the mix was the “me time” part. we all some time to breathe once in a while. since my gf wasn’t coming out, i threw in some goodies to be extra social. not to spite her or cheat on her or anything, but again, it was for me. give me my edge back and then return fresh to her.
the mix
2s 292 back neck
2s ifm back neck
2s 272 front neck
2s 203 front neck
1s 200 and 201 front neck
2d a314 jawline
1s 79, 83, taa, ishine hair
neroli products first, drydown, game products
wow, jayarea. that looks like quite the bomb.
when you read down the list, yeah, it looks like a bomb. however, the rookie jayarea would’ve increased the doses by 1s. that would be a bomb. this was toned down yet still powerful. most importantly, i know how to work each ingredient of my mix. if things went my way i would put 292 in the front and 272 in the back but since -none products still make me a bit flushed, i have to keep 292 in the back and 272 in the front. other than that, everything was in place for a good night.
break it down and get funky
292- [for girls] hello, my name is jayarea. you look ravishing tonight. i’m going to hang out with you, rock your world, turn it upside down and inside out, all without touching you or making a stupid decision, and then go back home to my gf.
[for guys] hello, my name is jayarea. i’m way cooler than you are. let’s go party. you have your eye on that girl? i’ll go bring her over.
272, ifm- prep for sarah. ifm bowls her over, 272 gives her a lift. since we hadn’t made up yet at that point, if she did come out, she wouldn’t have been in the brightest of spirits, and this was to help that.
203- sarah love potion, my go-to phero for interacting with white girls
200- i still am amazed by what this can do. very social, tweak it and it becomes very sexual. forget the reviews and browsing the search pages; if you have your eye on this, get it and use it.
201- to round out the corners. it gives sarah a general feel-good effect, perhaps it might do the same with other girls.
a314- the “boyfriend” potion, good status hits too.
79, 83, taa, ishine- mostly because i haven’t used much of this since i’ve been playing with my power goodies. you guys know the effects of these; 1s of each to diversify the mix.
tell us more, jayarea…
sure.
early in the night
very very very social. normally quiet people were talking, normally social people wouldn’t shut up, new people integrated quick and caught up. i guess the theme of the night was “social.”
main bar we all go to, party is picking up
sarah’s friends show up. one of her good/best friends was there. i think she knew of the situation we were in. she tapped me on the shoulder and then stood on the other side of the table. i had to win this one over. some jokes and comments and a few minutes, she’s laughing uncontrollably. all her friends are laughing. i call that a win.
one of her good younger friends was there too. she tags along with us sometimes and basically looks up to sarah as an older sister. to keep it short, i danced with her and made sure she had a lot of fun that night. this wasn’t an attempt to win her over, but an attempt to actually bond with her. that’s what you do. so your gf likes baking, and you suck at it? pick up a simple recipe, maybe work on it together, and show her that you care. in turn, she’ll make strides to enjoy the things you like. this friend has been with us even before we were dating but i’ve never hung out with her alone. i sent her home with a smile and i know that next time us three hang out, we can be closer friends.
hits?
hb9- nearly tackled me. big bear hug, the whole works. didn’t stay around her long enough for the mix to really hit her but from our brief contact, she seemed to like it.
bartender- i had a tall order, but i was patient, not yelling at him, being the casual cool cat that i am. he was very friendly toward me and filled my order with ease, and looked out for me on return trips.
some old friends- somewhere in my journal i mention a group of girls we used to hang out with. they moved on to new friends but occasionally stop by if we’re out together. two of the girls came over to say hi, one gave me a kiss on the cheek below the ear many times. a few weeks ago i had a “going out” mix on and she kissed me then too. she really seems to like some part of my mix, enough to kiss me on the cheek even though she has a bf and i have a gf. it’s all in good friendship though.
general good hits all around. as long as your attitude is right and you’re congruent, you can’t really go wrong with a mix like this.
*later in the night
*the gf of one of the party crew guys bumped into me like crazy while we were walking. yes, she was a bit drunk, but i believe there was something deeper. first of all, she could’ve bumped into anyone else. second, i noticed a change in her behavior towards me ever since i started using pheros, and especially with some blatant ones like 203 (i think that’s her “fave”), 292, and ammo. it’s like a forbidden fruit to her – she wants to love the mix, she wants to unleash what she’s feeling from 292 and ammo and 83, she wants to be free with ih … but she can’t. serious ltr with one of my good buddies, great friends with sarah; basically, she just has to hold it in. sometimes if i notice she’s really feeling a mix, i’ll give her a taste and then try my hardest to transfer the right amount of my sig over to her bf. he’s pretty shy and probably wouldn’t do it on his own, and if i give him too much, he won’t be congruent and may end up worse than how he started. back to the story. i think this mix broke her patience. she just had to have it, even a little bit.
the main hit: her bf was walking in front with some other guys, i’m about three feet behind, she’s at my side. at one point she was practically leaning against me, as if she was too drunk to walk straight. she wasn’t though, so we can almost conclude she was leaning into me to get close to the mix. the topics were very ioi - friendly too (speaking of ioi, def got a few of those). “oh, remember that time we did this?” smacks/grabs my arm i played this up all night and let her have it. in a sense, it’s good that we got to do this so that there’s not that awkward feeling between us of “gee, i think it’d be fitting to [do something flirty to him] right now, but should i?”
CRAZY UPDATE: last night (4.24) this girl hugged me. i’m phero free, she’s on a good buzz, i’d say 3.7/10. i’ve never gotten a hug from her. no idea what happened there. it goes back to the last sentence of the previous paragraph.
ok jayarea, i read all the way to here. should i be getting anything out of this post?
hell if i know…
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i’ve got a real-time update at the end but i can’t stress this enough: “me time” really does help. it’s not quite like a night with the guys/girls, but more of doing your own thing at your own pace.
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bombs and heavy clouds generally do not work well.
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given that, if you craft your cloud carefully, you can work wonders with it and turn it into a good bomb. i made a closer bond with a friend, eliminated a barrier between another friend and got a random hug, and cleaned my aura of the bad situation so that i could return to sarah in the best manner.
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200, 272, 203… if any of those have been on your wait list, get whatever you can afford. spray. enjoy your hits.
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201 works too, but since it’s just p93 and neroli, you could just get p93.
real-time update of events (4.25)
friday 4.24 during the day
apparently things settled down a bit thursday night over at sarah’s place. friday morning she sent me a text wishing my luck on an exam i had, and i replied saying she should go enjoy the nice weather outside. then i blew it. i stayed mad for too long. or i pushed a wrong button. or both. shit. it was a half joke, half serious text about something like “well if you hadn’t done this and that on wednesday…”. it’s crazy how this works. she does something bad, i get mad, she gets sad, i stay mad for just a bit too long, she gets mad that i’m staying mad (my upper hand is thus blown), now it’s my turn to fix things and her turn to have “her time.”
i apologize for making a bad joke and say that we should meet up in person to talk things over. we do. she apologizes again for wednesday, i give her another little taste of my pov (what happened wednesday was 99.999% her fault and 100% avoidable, and she knows this) but i felt like i had to rub it in a bit more so that it doesn’t happen again. we attempt to make plans for the night; i legitimately have something to do and i invited her, she said she was going to hang out with some other friends. we left with me saying “well, i guess i’ll see you sometime next week then.”
then she gets “her time.”
i text her saying i didn’t like how we left, and it’d be nice to see her once in the evening before she went off with her friends. i knew exactly what she was going to do during the day: grab her best friends, go to lunch, rip my shit apart. it’s very possible that’s exactly what she did. i added that if she didn’t want to see me, that’s fine; otherwise, i was free to meet in the evening. she didn’t respond for a while (probably bitching up a storm to any open ear) but later she said she would meet me.
friday evening
we met up and it was kind of awkward at first. i was sitting on a bench and she sat down next to me. i put my arm around her and kept it there the whole time. we basically just people-watched and made small talk.
i wore this:
3s ifm front neck
1d a314
fortunately for me, we sat so that she was downwind of me. constant breeze of my mix. as our conversation went on i noticed she scooted a bit closer to me and she never once pulled back from me rubbing her back and neck.
blah blah blah… we left on a good (or better) note. i hugged her, she was carrying her bag and phone and somewhat attempted to hug me as well. later on i get the lovey-dovey texts: i miss you, let’s never do that again, etc.
success.
friday night
i get done with my thing a bit early and she comes to sleep over. i was showered fresh and wore 3d of a314 on my jawline and wrists. right before she showed up i decided to put on 1s ifm split wrists.
cuddling, pillow talk, kisses all over her body… we’re back to being a couple again.
saturday
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friday was the last day of her monthly visitor. that may have had some effect on our situation, but i’m not holding anything against her. what i do know for sure is that she’s really horny and not expecting to sleep much tonight.
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a guy who is known to be fairly blunt and “talk first, think later” asked us if we were staying together after the school year / summer. we both graduate soon and our future plans do not involve us being near each other. we hesitate to respond, the guy knows that he probably just touched on a sensitive topic, and i finally say “well, we haven’t thought about that yet.” sarah mumbles something in agreement.
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fuck. sorry for cussing, but… fuck.
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i was hoping this wouldn’t come up yet, especially not at this time. whatever. it happened and now we’re dealing with it. she seemed a bit out of it for a few minutes after that and then all of a sudden she became very into me. i took a nap after she left and missed a text saying “i want to spend the rest of the day with you.” she comes over right as i’m waking up from my nap and climbs in bed with me, we hang out outside for a bit, go to dinner together, then tonight we’re going to hang out again. this could be for various reasons: she now knows our time together may have a limit and she wants to get the most out of it, or she’s feeling much better now and would’ve been like this regardless of what happened or what was said.
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great day all around
final conclusion
pheromones make my life better.
