Somechick's Journal

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Women's Journals
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Just thought I would share this amusing story. I went to the grocery store tonight wearing 50 mcg of EST, 20 mcg P74 and 12.5 P78 in Cookie scent. The first two were in neroli but I really notice the Cookie scent, because I rarely wear it. In fact, I had forgotten I had this ToGo of P78 in Cookie, but desperate for something to wear, I ransacked my stash.

So, I shopped my way through the store with my daughter who is 11 and we got to the cash register, placed our stuff on the conveyor and the cashier began to ring us up. She was about five items into my order when her head snapped up and she asked me, “have you been baking? You smell amazing” I told her no, that I hadn’t been. She continued to go on about how good I smelled. She told the kid bagging for her that she had the ‘nose of a hawk’ and she would figure this out. I played dumb but smiled because I knew she was getting the P78…

She kept it up the whole time and seemed to want to keep talking to me after she was done. She said, " I feel like I could come to your house and it would be all clean and there would be figurines and throws and it would be all welcoming and cozy"…I told her I wasn’t really into figurines, and she said " I don’t know what it is, but you smell yummy!" Then she proceeded to tell the next cashier over to come smell me! I smiled and left..

It was very over the top. She was probably in her late teens, maybe 20 and she raved about how good I smelled, so much that I would probably have been embarrassed if I wasn’t wearing something meant to get a reaction from people. It was so amusing that my daughter came home and laughingly told my son how crazy the cashier was about how I smelled.

it was a tough day, I tossed a cord of fire wood into my woodshed and battled ice in the yard the whole time, nearly breaking a leg in the process, so I dosed myself to try to perk myself up a little. It worked, and apparently worked well on the poor unsuspecting girl who rang up my groceries tonight.

I have such a hard time making time to report, that I didn’t even put the food away yet, just sat down to write this up while it was still fresh as to what she said and what dosages I had on. I had sprayed them about 30-40 minutes prior to our interaction and I was as close as one generally is when paying for groceries.

Off to put away my food…:slight_smile:

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Oh and it was probably the P74 that made her so chatty, but she was definitely smelling the P78…

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I have been wearing MX 335 lately. I have seen some interesting results. The formerly bitchy co-worker is extremely giddy and happy when I wear it. I am wearing 2 sprays of the ToGo . I don’t remember the mcg off the top of my head. She seems to be in the best mood I have ever seen her in when I wear this. It is more magical than anything else I have hit her with. I have been wearing TAH with it, but she never hit off TAH before, so I am attributing her mood to the MX 335. She is so up that it seems nothing would piss her off, and that is about as miraculous as finding a unicorn.

I also seem to get hits from young men. One kid, early 20’s, Wyatt, gets very DIHL when I wear this, and he calls me by name. EVERY time he speaks to me, he calls me by name, which he had never, ever done before. He comes in to work much, much more frequently lately, too.

Another youngun, James, 21, flirts with me shamelessly. I was talking to formerly bitchy co-worker about another customer the other day. Saying he was single, cute, and drove a Silverado, so he was dateable. (Not that it really matters what he drives, it’s an inside joke) and James was standing there. He said, “So, if I drove a Silverado would I be dateable?” and I said, “No, I’d still be old enough to be your mama!” and he said ’ Oh, but I don’t care…" big, toothy grin and total DIHL…

There is a crazy lady that comes in, and sometimes she is on her meds, and sometimes not. When she is not she comes in looking like she slept in a dumpster, with her last ten meals on the front of her shirt. When she is on her meds, she is all dolled up with makeup on, but she still sports a pretty respectable beard, so she isn’t pretty by any means, but she tries. She always wears some kind of headband, thus we call her HeadBand Lady. She came in the other day, never a hint as to her sexuality before, She was all dolled up. She came in, called me honey, did her stuff , came to the register and totally looked me up and down, then called me doll. She was trying to find reasons to hang out with me, it was a little freaky…

I can’t seem to get Hot Scott to hang around long enough to see if it affects him yet, but I think I screwed that up beyond repair anyway. I really like him, but he is so not ready, he just got divorced last winter, though it took two and a half years of fighting to get it over with.

I have a guy that lives down the street from me, that comes in to see me on Sundays. He started coming in with nice shirts and cologne on. His wife died last summer after a long battle with cancer. He is like 7 feet tall and I am 5’1" so we would look funny together…anyway, he has made it obvious that he likes me, but I don’t feel any chemistry. I like him just fine to talk to, or as everyone wants to say, as long as he is in the friend zone. I just don’t feel any spark with him. I enjoy talking to him, but have no desire to kiss him. I felt very much like this about my ex-husband when we met, so I don’t want to make the same mistake twice and be with someone that I don’t feel passionately about. I don’t want to hurt him.

I have a couple of guys from high school that are interested in getting together also. I feel like I won some cosmic popularity contest! It’s good for a girl’s ego, but I don’t want to hookup. I don’t want someone needy and clingy, like the ex Mr Wonderful. I am sooooo freaking happy without him!!! One day someone will come into my life that will be worth opening my heart, until then, I have fun just being me. Love my life with my kids, my dogs, my dog rescue and this big, ol’ dump of a house. I am not sure how long I can take care of this place by myself, but I am proud to say that I do it all on my own.

UNFUCKING REAL…Mr Wonderful has been out of my life for a year. I just barely write his name, he texts me! Grrrrrr! I haven’t heard from him in months and I loved it that way! Oh well, I am happy anyway :slight_smile:

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Another thought about MX335. I have been wearing it lately, because I love how people act around me when I have it on, and I love the smell. it blends nicely with a grapefruit perfume that I have.

Anyway, it makes people smile a lot around me. Big, toothy, ear to ear grins around me. Lots of wide eyed staring and big smiles. Every time I wear it, even people who never smile around me!

I ordered MX 235, I just feel I want to try it in another scent and I don’t think I want to put the chocolatini scent on me, so I went with MX235, but I don’t have it yet.

I had another 21 year old come in today. He has been coming in the store for a while now, he just turned 21 in April. Today he came in and said ‘Hello beautiful’, and he was all DIHL…he has had a little puppy dog look going for a while now, but with the MX 335, it was really pronounced.

I may have to reconsider being a cougar, although I wouldn’t go THAT young! I would feel icky about having a boy toy younger than 30…

I think I ruined the Hot Scott situation, so I will have to move on. I will definitely be interested in seeing what reactions some of my mixes have on potential dates. But God, I do wish I could make these work on Scott still! He is going to be the death of me! I am just going to burst into flame one day when I see him!

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OH.MY.GOD! I think MX 335 is pure sorcery if it is in high enough doses! I had on 3 sprays of it today. I wore it to work. I have been wearing it to work. I love the reactions I get when I wear it. It has all been good, smiles, flirty, light hearted banter…

Today a customer came in that has been coming in for a few years. His name is Rob, he is insanely cute, like all American boy cute. He has always liked to be a little mysterious, doesn’t use credit cards so no one knows his name, doesn’t talk a lot about himself, etc. I used to tease him about being a spy or a hit man or something. Anyway, he worked nights and took care of his kids days while his ex was at work, so he would come in for coffee on his way out for the night. We have always chatted, he is fun to talk to, he 's soft spoken, which kind of just adds to the mysterious air…but he is also a dog! I know this from the things he has said about his exploits in the past. Now, that is all good because it was just banter. He is ten years younger than me and NEVER ever hit on me. Before today…

Today he asked me to come over later and have a beer. I told him I don’t drink, and he said I could come over later and watch him have a beer. I was so stunned that he said that, that when he asked for my phone number, I didn’t even hesitate, I just gave it to him! So apparently I am under the influence of the magic of MX335, also.

Anyway, he has been texting me all afternoon! He wants me to come over tonight, and yes, it is very, very clear that this is just for sex. I am not looking for a new boyfriend anyway. I don’t need a man in my life, but I do really miss sex.

So, I told him I thought he was out of my league and he said he didn’t even know what I meant by that. I said he was too cute for me, and that I look like a lawn gnome. He said he thinks I am cute, too and he can’t wait to see me tonight and we should have done this years ago!

So, I am freaked out because he is young, athletic, freaking hot and he wants me to be his FWB! it is only because he is under the influence of the MX!

And another guy I know, older, always flirty, came in today and he looked me up and down, told me I was looking really hot and he was going to have to leave because he was going to get slapped, and because I was ‘doing things to him’…

I would have to say that MX335 seriously increases sex appeal! Now, why can’t I get Hot Scott to fall under its spell!?

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and I just totally wussed! told him I couldn’t…

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awww!! Why? (no judgey just curious?) I just hope it has more to do with running into him/being awkward than you thinking you’re not good enough! That’s silly!

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Actually, I wussed because I didn’t want to sneak out of the house while my kids were here. My daughter would have had a cow if she figured out I was not there. But yeah, there is a certain amount of not feeling good enough in there as well!

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So in love with everything while I am wearing MX335! I am going to write a little about the self effects.

When I wear 2 sprays with just perfume, I am in a great mood and everyone around me loves me. This makes me feel good and I am somewhat more confident and chatty, friendly, smiley…

When I wear 2 sprays with 20 mcg of B-nol…OMG! I am a frigging riot, I love music, to the point where I am beating some serious air drum while at stop lights, singing my little heart out and I want music on all the time!

When I wear 2 sprays MX335 with 20 mcg of P130 and 20 mcg of B-nol, in ten minutes I feel amazingly hot, sexy, confident and on top of the world. I am funny as hell, always laughing, making jokes, smiling. Got in trouble for being too distracting again at work, before 6 am even! The general reaction out of my customers was to leave laughing and shaking their heads. I DID skip across the parking lot on my way out one morning last week, much to the enjoyment of a store full of people. Hey, life is always a fatal condition, better make it a fun ride!

I am filled with energy lately. I was thinking it was because I had so many things going on in my life that I can’t do anything about and because I want sex SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad and don’t have anyone I am willing to get naked with, so I am ready to take up running. I have always hated jogging, but now I just really want to do it. I feel like I have the best body I have had in years, a little more work and I could have the best body I have ever had. Now that I think about it, I think all this energy is coming from the MX335.

I am so damn positive lately, too. I LOVE it! I just feel so good! Things still suck at times and there is a lit of stress but I am dealing with it without walking into the ocean daring it to haul me out to sea like I used to do when I was upset or stressed…

Oh, people want to touch me when I wear this, alone but even more so with the P130 and B-Nol. People touch me as they walk by, they touch my hand when I give them change, etc…I wish I could get close enough to Scott to get him to touch me!

The girl who cashed me out yesterday at Old Navy was my new bestie. She complimented my necklace, even though she could hardly see it behind my purse, she complimented my hair, she admired my resolve to not use credit cards, there was something else too, but I can’t remember. She also stared at me in a way that I can only call wistful…it was weird, but sweet.

Then I went to the grocery store from there, and this guy parked two spaces over was walking in at the same time as me, kept passing me in the store and was walking out at the same time as me. I got to my truck and was putting my groceries in and he yelled over at me, “Hey Tahoe Girl, I like your ass!” but then he looked a little horrified that he said it, I just smiled and said 'Thank you!"…

I think there should be 55 gallon drums of this available, I would practically mortgage my house for a lifetime supply of this stuff.

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I think another effect of the MX335, 20 mcg B-nol and 20 mcg P130 is that I will talk to anyone! I have always been scared to talk to people that I felt were out of my league. Not with this mix! I will chat up guys who are totally too hot for me, and for some reason instead of them acting all, ‘ew the fat girl is talking to me’, they seem charmed by me. of course, I am not the fat girl anymore, and I really wasn’t before. That was jus me calling myself that as a defense mechanism. If I insult me first, then it doesn’t hurt when you do it, kinda thing…learned that from living with my evil step-mother. It was a long time ago but some behaviors die hard.
This would be a great public speaking mix!

So, I have to confess that I ruined the thing with Hot Scott by sleeping with him. We have had this crazy hot chemistry for three years, he would have a frigging hard-on every time he walked in the store and saw me. I have never, ever had someone drive me that crazy, not even Mr Wonderful. He plowed my driveway last winter whenever I couldn’t plow it with my own plow and he kissed me one night, it was the hottest first kiss I have ever had. After he and I groped each other in the driveway(the kids were home) he left. He called me on the way home and we talked about how neither of us was looking for a relationship, but we wanted each other bad, and would make great friends with benefits. He told me we had to make this happen. So then he wasn’t around much and for one reason or another it was a month before I could finally take him home with me.

I told him all along that I have never hooked up, have only been with 4 men and I was in long term relationships with all of them. He told me to live a little and jump out of my comfort zone. I told him that night that I didn’t want a one night stand. He never said it would be, but he also never said it wouldn’t be.

The night he came over we were making out and I was so frigging hot for him because he is the sexiest man, in my eyes, that I have ever met. We went upstairs, kissed some more, and got in bed. I thought it was going to be amazing because I love sex, lots of kissing, lots of foreplay, etc…and he pretty much just climbed on and got off…there was basically no foreplay at all…I felt like I disappointed him, although he had told me once weeks before when we were talking that I was going to be so disappointed. Anyway, he was all huggy and stuff then he left, saying “I hope things won’t be weird at the store” and I told him they wouldn’t be.

I didn’t see him for a few days because he wasn’t working in the area. Then when he did come in, I didn’t see him walk in, I heard his voice and my head snapped up and we made eye contact for a brief second then I couldn’t look him in the eye. I couldn’t look him in the eye for weeks after that because I was embarrassed and kept thinking that he thinks I suck in bed. I know I am great in bed, I just never got the chance to show him.
SO now I can look him in the eye but he shows absolutely NO interest in coming back for more. It has been 3 months, and that ship has obviously sailed, but I CANNOT stop wanting him. I keep thinking about all the things I still want to do with him and I am all flustered, butterflies, crazy with lust every time I see him.

He got what he wanted and he is done. That’s not the kind of guy he always seemed like, or what he said, and I still would not think he was that way, but I guess he is…

What kills me, though. is he keeps trying to HELP me with my housing issue. When my dad died, he left no will, so our property is in probate. There are three of us and I have lived my whole life in the family home. I took care of my dad my whole life. We are most likely going to sell the house and land and it will end up developed and I will have to leave the only home I have ever known. Scott is a carpenter. He keeps finding possible buyers for me, working a deal so that I get a brand new house for me and the kids. The latest idea is for him and his partner to build houses here once the estate sub-divides. His plan was to build me a new house right where my house now is. He says he doesn’t want to see me get screwed over just so my sister can get a bigger check. He had talked about building my house on an adjacent lot, that already exists, but now he says he thinks I won’t be happy unless I am where I have always been.

I don’t fucking know what is wrong with him!!! I can’t stop wanting him! And now he wants to have to see me every day while he builds me a house!? Builds my damn bedroom!? He is making me nuts!!!

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Oh my gosh :frowning: WHAT?! Girl to girl, I feel your pain. I’m SO sorry to hear about how things transpired between you and Scott. Do you have any girlfriends you can talk things out with to get other opinions? Sadly, we have difficulty seeing what’s what when we’re “in” the situation. From the outside looking in, my opinion, to quote your words “He got what he wanted and he is done.” I’m sorry again somechick. Please-please-please do what it takes to move on and forget about him. It won’t be overnight but just as you moved on from Mr. Wonderful, you can do so as well from this, this *&^%@# Scott guy! The business about him wanting to HELP you with your housing issue is pure BS!!! He’s being opportunistic and that’s not cool :frowning: In the long run, he will prove to disappoint you in that regard as well. Wow, I’m pissed off for you. Please consider all your options and be wary!!!

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RE my last question: kids are always a great reason! insecurity-not so much! Hearing your defense mechanism with your step mother makes sense- my mother gave me so many self-esteem issues that took forever to work past. I’m sorry us women have to deal with so many body issues and only hope that you find peace and love for yourself, within all forms of your beauty.

Hot Scott is playing mind games, giving mixed signals, and sounds like he has all sorts of issues. Part of why I think he is “helping” with the house is bc he feels guilty for the way he treated you and is trying to make himself feel better about HIMSELF, not to make YOU feel better.

I also think that guys are dense and if you haven’t tried to reconnect with him after “the shouldn’t have been but became a one night stand one night stand” then he is likely getting mixed messages from you too. Have you tried to have a straight forward conversation about him after the night? Normally, guys don’t stick around trying to prove what a “nice” guy they are unless they also feel like they didn’t get a chance to show you what they really are or just trying to resolve their own guilt.

If I were you, the next time he brings up the house I would just blurt out “I think it’s really admirable that you are trying to help me with my house but the way we left things after we hooked up doesn’t really match with the way you are treating me now. Are you interested in being friends only or do you still have some sort of feelings for me?”

It’s scary to find out, but I think hearing his honest response, even if it reveals what an ass he is, will really help you decide if you’re ready to move on or not.

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I’m reminded to read this journal. For Lady and newer members venturing quickly into the MX line: try to test IS/A, B, TAL and TAH. This will help you understand the molecules of which the MX is comprised. When you do, you will be able to create any mood or influence you wish. It took me three years to understand IG and A314. As long to understand -enone.

Do this, and you will create the relationships you desire.

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Wow! I didn’t expect any response to my Scott confession, but for some reason my bestie seems to have voted me out of her life lately…so I had to get it off my chest and I figured this was a safe place to vent.

What I have known of Scott for 3 years just doesn’t jibe with the way things are between us now. He was NOT the kind of guy who wanted random hookups. Whatever…I am going to move on, I am going to find someone great, and I am going to be happy. It just won’t be tomorrow. It will take some time and a lot of distraction. Rob would have been a great distraction! And I really think he would have made sure he got the job done right.

Now in Scott’s defense, he does work 7 days a week, got divorced in March after a bitter 2.5 drawn out battle and has 2 kids. I didn’t talk to him about what happened after, we have both been acting like it didn’t happen at all. He probably thinks I don’t like him at all now, because I couldn’t even look at him. I am sure he doesn’t know why. He did come here one afternoon to pick up a map of my property. We talked on my porch because I didn’t want to bring him inside with my pack of hell hounds. He left and came back 1/2 hour later, this time he was chewing gum. The ONLY time I have ever seen him chewing gum, he was going to be kissing me. But he didn’t. He looked like he wanted to, but didn’t. His body language is still very open, he still positions himself so he can watch me at work, etc…but I am still MOVING ON! And it is his loss…I know that I am amazing when I have someone to love. I have even been told this by my ex-husband, though grudgingly. Mr Wonderful ate his heart out for ruining it for a long time, he still tried to get me back. Never going to happen.

As silly as it sounds, I talked to a medium and spiritual counselor a while back about some other things, on a whim I asked her about Scott. She nailed his personality dead on, and then said that he defined himself by what he DID versus who he IS, that he had to make sure his family and loved ones were safe and cared for and that was his priority. She is right, he does work 7 days a week so he can give his kids the best.

It’s just funny, lately I seem to have my pick, but the one guy I want is the one guy I can’t have…everyone tells me I have to say something to him, so I will know that he really isn’t still interested, but I think he has shown no interest and that is my answer. The one time I did say something, albeit briefly, I said he wasn’t going to check out my boobs anymore and when he asked why I said that, I told him because he wasn’t interested anymore, and he said that’s not true at all, but that was more than a month ago. Obviously, he got what he wanted. MOVING ON>>>>>

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More of my MX adventures:

Women are talking to me more, they seem to make a point to speak to me when I am wearing MX335. They compliment me on something, anything.

The other night at work, a lady came on and asked for a newspaper. I told her they had already been returned, but I would get her one out of the recycling and she could have it for free. She said, 'Oh aren’t you sweet!" and I said, 'Yes, spread the word!" and I laughed and walked around the counter. When I came around the corner, she said “Well, aren’t you tanned and.. gorgeous!” LOL, that is the first time I have ever had an old lady call me gorgeous!

A long time customer told me last night that I was on his Bucket List!

Another long time customer showed up at my house on Sunday(did I already tell this story?) to bring me his pool vacuum to borrow, even though I didn’t ask him to loan his to me. I made him talk to me outside, because he looked like he wanted to eat me up. I would have felt bad breaking his nose, but if he tried to kiss me, I’d have decked him.

The UPS man asked me out and offered me his phone number. He was very sweet about it, but he looks like Gandi. I would break such a frail little man.

21 Year old James keeps giving me these long, longing looks, seriously looooong looks. I try not to look at him, because I may turn cougar for someone like hot boy Rob, he is 35 and I am not old enough to be his mama, but James doesn’t stand a chance…ewwwwww! he is cute, if I was in my 20’s, maybe…

I feel pretty invincible when I wear the MX335 with the P130 and B-nol. It’s a frigging amazing mix! And it makes me so damn popular. I wish I had this stuff in my 20’s! I may have found me a better match than my ex-husband! But then I have 2 kids that I would die for, so I guess I was at the right place, at the right time, to get the right kids for me.

Now if only I could be at the right place, at the right time, to find someone to play with. I have had sex once in the past 13 months, at least with a partner. I really, really miss certain things about being naked with someone besides myself. And I have a great tan, and I am feeling pretty good about myself right now… no kids this weekend…can we find me an MX that makes me less picky!?

Actually, I don’t think I will lower my standards. I think someone worthy will come along.

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This is a very good place to vent. Bring it as much and as often as you see fit. Thanks very much for sharing and being open to other views. I was ready to kick Scott’s ass being that I’m protective of womankind and can’t deal with men who can’t “act right.” This is your playing field however and you need to do what’s best for you. I like what Lady Scientist and Monesmadedoit had to say. If or when there are new developments with Scott, hopefully you can get support from our posts.

Oh my gosh - YES! Hang in there and someone worthy will come along. I mean, live your life and have fun but not for the sake of compromising your standards. Sounds like you’re at the top of your game so it’s only a matter of time until you find a partner. I have my fingers crossed for you!

That killer mix you mentioned, MX335, P130 and Bnol - how much did you use of each?

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Will be back later, but for now I use 2 sprays MX335, 20 mcg P130 and 20 mcg B-nol…it’s awesome on me! I hope someone else will try it and let me know how it works for them…

Oh and the young, hot Rob came to see me yesterday and I came soooooo close to getting a kiss…

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So, Scott came in Friday morning and he had shaved his head and his face! I had always liked him the way he was, even though I normally don’t go for guys with a hairy face. He is just frigging hot!

Well, with the hair gone, all you notice are how gorgeous his eyes are! I mean, I have looked into them before but NOW, holy shit! They are amazing! And all kinda puppy eyed…anyway as soon as I made eye contact he got a big smile on his face.
He got to the register and I said to him, “put it back…” kinda pouty..
He said he was just trying something different.
I said, “You must be in love”
He asked “what? Why do you say that?”
“well you have a new look, every time I see you, you’re on the phone…”
He said, " I’ve got NOTHING going on…"
( he SO could have something going on, stupid boy!)
so, now I am all crazy because I think he thought I was insulting him with the ‘put it back’ comment…so I texted him and said that I didn’t mean he didn’t look good, I drooled. and that even though I hate facial hair, on him it was irresistibly hot…have a great day!..and he never responded…

Damn him! He looks frigging adorable and I am all crazy wanting him, and he is looking at me all soft and puppy eyed, but he shows his lack of interest in his lack of contact…

So, I am reading all these positive quotes and looking forward, moving on, being happy with myself. Liking my life the way it is, not needing a man, etc..

Little victory for me…I inherited my dad’s truck. It is a 1991 GMC pickup, been sitting in the barn for years, didn’t run, but it is mint. It has 31900 original miles on it. I pushed it out of the barn, changed the battery, got it running and washed the years worth of dirt off it. Today I registered it and drove it. It makes me feel good to be able to do this stuff without help. I have never been helpless but sometimes there are things we can’t do for ourselves. Like fixing my roof, that’s a little too much for me. I am, however, very proud of myself for getting my truck going. It is so nice, that tonight an old man came in to the store and on his way out, he turned, came back in and asked me if that was my pickup. I told him all about it and he said, “I have to go walk over and look at it. I was eyeing it on the way in, it’s beautiful” :slight_smile:

Yesterday morning, I had just gotten to work and hot boy Rob texted me. I was shocked! But then, he is super competitive, so maybe he is up for the challenge. Anyway, we texted for a while, then he came in to see me. He kind of cornered me in the cooler, but I slipped past him. I am so dumb! I should have kissed him! But I am a little intimidated by his age and looks.
We talked more after that I told him I didn’t think it would be so hard for me to find myself a FWB, and he said he tried to be mine. He wanted me t go over there last night but God has this funny sense of humor and while Saturday night would have worked out marvelously(no kids!), I woke up Sunday morning to an unwelcome visitor…but he did tell me I can text him any time and to let him know when I am alone next time.

After he left, he texted me and said in all seriousness he has always thought I was ‘mad nice, sweet and cute’! OMG! How can a guy like him like me!? And yes, I know this is just a sex thing, but I am not looking for some clingy guy. And that is a good thing because Rob would actually be the perfect guy in many ways if I wanted someone around more. He is independent, not clingy, super interesting, well traveled, uses good grammar( LOL), sexy, etc…he told me that is he is usually shy! LOL, I don’t know if I buy it, but he IS more serious when he texts than he is when he talks to me while I work. Kinda seems like he feels safe saying things via text that he can’t say in person.

So, we shall see! If I get a chance, I am GOING FOR IT! But I am really insecure about getting naked with someone that good looking!

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I received a free to-go of P91 with a recent order, put it with my stuff and forgot about it. I came across it today and decided to try it out.

One spray 5 mcg split between my wrists.

I didn’t really notice any self effects. I will try 2 sprays next time.

I don’t know if these were reactions to the P91 or not, but I went to pick up dinner and the very butch woman working there could not get close enough to me. She was constantly standing close, walking away to do something, but then coming right back to me. She was making jokes with one of the guys working there and he was making them back.( I should have said, they were joking about my order, she kept talking about my order, so she would have a reason to hang out with me) He was also totally flirting with me, but he usually does that. I didn’t really interact with anyone else. not a good time to test I guess.

Oh! Actually, I did put it on about 2 minutes before my ex-husband showed up to say hi to the kids on his way by. He didn’t stay long, and totally hightailed it out of here. It was a quick departure even for him, though it reminded me of why he is my EX…

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oh, Scott story, sort of…

He came in this morning for coffee before 7, there was no one else in there except me and formerly bitchy…he came up to the register yawning and saying how tired he was. He looked too damn good anyway, his hair is growing back.
He asked me what was new or something like that, I just shrugged and said 'work…'he said something about him, too. He does work too much, but I do admire how hard he works to take care of his family, because my ex will not give me one dollar more than the child support he is ordered to pay. He doesn’t help with any extra stuff. It’s all good, my kids will grow up with a better set of values because they are closer to me and I am a much better person than he is…not too be blowing my own horn…

So, back to Scott…he said he’d talk to me later and he left. We had a moment of prolonged eye contact before he left. After he left formerly bitchy(who had never even admitted that she knew what was going on with us) said 'Look at the two of you, you dye your hair purple and he shaves his head, could you try any harder to get each other’s attention?"

I don’t know what to think with him. The way he looks at me sometimes, is so frigging puppy eyed! But, I am sticking to my guns and moving on…he knows where to find me if he ever digs his head out of his ass. Doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt, though…