A314 oil based…well, for starters, the longevity is fantastic. I do get a slight (and I mean slight) -none smell by the end of about 10 hours or so, but it’s mild. By subtle I mean it’s smooth - I can tell the effects from my own behavior, and from the obvious difference in the way people behave around me, but it’s nothing like any of the alcohol-based sprays. Those are fairly dramatic, and have a self-effect punch that just makes me kinda zonkers in many cases…but they don’t build, and they don’t last. This is much more like what I imagine it would be like it my actual natural signature was A314’s composition. And man, people are politer, friendlier, and in the cases of women 28+ often flirtier. Random people went out of their way to talk to me the other day, asking questions about what dept I worked in (at work), how the job was going (at the local coffee shop), etc. I’ve had these effects before from A314/b spray but they were hit or miss. The oil is slightly less effective but way, way, way more consistent - and a broader range of people seem to respond to it. If it was possible, and I understand why it isn’t in terms of cost-effectiveness for AD, I would buy all the products I’ve already got in oil form. I think it’s more of a game-changer than I believed it would be. In hindsight it makes sense though.
Today, however, I tried something different - that’s right, I’ve finally decided to start SINGLE MOLECULE TESTING!!! cue dramatic music and thunderclap
One spray of P74, 5mcg (Neroli - I’ve really got to vary the scents I get, I’m starting to smell like a human fabric softener when I mix & match) directly to my solar plexus, on my shirt not my chest:
So P74 confuses the hell out of me. I can tell it’s doing something usually but it’s very subtle to me and since I’ve been using it layered with other stuff it was getting drowned out. But today I was able to pinpoint it. (I know, this is why you guys have been telling me to do that all along. I am sheepishly hanging my head in I-knew-better-ness) I felt emotionally more open. Like I could empathize, sure, but also like I could get drawn into the emotions of the music I was listening to. I felt that I could have easily gotten sad if I had let myself go down that road, or happy, or angry, etc…but I felt like some sort of “walls” were down a bit. Not in the way that other molecules have this effect, like beta -nol or P130, or P83. I didn’t feel disinhibited or necessarily more trusting…just, the option to follow an external emotional lead was more readily available. Just the option. Nothing slipping past my defenses or anything, but if I had been having a day where I was in my own headspace and not paying attention to other people’s state of mind, this would have helped me come back around and remember to pay attention to it. To connect. Subtle for me specifically, because I’m generally very empathetic and emotionally malleable anyway…these are some of my defining traits and I’ve put some work into turning them into strengths rather than crippling weaknesses over the years. But it’s why I couldn’t put my finger on what it was doing before - it was reinforcing already familiar territory for me. Gave me a slight headache, nothing like a -nol overdose or too much P130 all at once does. Jesus, the time I gave myself 3 shots of P130 12.5mcg all at once to see what a megadose would do…I have a whole new appreciation for people who suffer from cluster headaches and migraines now. That’s what that did for me.
I’m thinking of making up a little chart with tally marks for my A314 experimentation. Count the number of times someone talks to me and I feel it is out of the ordinary, count the number of times people misinterpret my age, my social standing, etc. All very subjective, of course, but it’s some raw data which over time could really help me (and AD) since it can be kind of hard to pinpoint the effects in the moment. Especially since pheros tend to give me wicked pherobuzz a lot of the time. Not that I’m complaining! It’s usually awesome.
Oh and one last observation - a few days back I tried one shot of MX297 which is…oh, of course, it’s a standardized strength so no dosage report needed. Ok, anyway, here’s something I noticed about the stuff - most pheros kind of make me a little buzzed, a tiny bit mentally slower like a moderately heavy meal or the post-orgasm sleepies or something. They take the edge off, which is great but bugs me sometimes when I’m doing intellectually challenging activities (like learning complex systems at work). MX297 had almost the opposite effect - woke me up, dilated my pupils, made my vision sharper…I figure it’s got to have TAF or one of the other experimones or putatives that I don’t have yet in it. (TAC?) Whatever it is that’s doing that, I needs me some of it. It really helped. I figure when my next round of purchases comes through (this job is paying me so much right now compared to my expenses, I love it) I’m going to snap up a bunch of random stuff and see if I can’t figure out what was helping my focus. Except TAF - that shit is 999.99 for non-reporting-users. I’ll just wait till it comes down in price or I’ve posted enough to be a reporting user. 