Sue1Anne's Journey

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Women's Journals
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Hi there!

CAUTION… this is a l-o-n-g introduction!

I just got my 'mones today, and although I’m excited to try them out I’m holding off for a bit. I may experiment a little, but I got them for a specific purpose… I’ll explain in a minute.

First, a little about me. I’m a single 48 year old female (short, brunette, Italian roots and “voluptuous” (which means curvy and a little on the larger side, LOL). I have grown kids who are out on their own, and as much as I love them… Yea!

I’ve been monogomous all my life, so I’ve only been in two serious relationships since I graduated high school. The first (I’ll just call him Jerk) was with a man who promised me the world then turned in to a womanizer and abuser once he got me to his home town. I saved up my money and left him. The second (G) I was with for 27 years. I found out he was separated, but after all those years, even after I found out early in our relationship, he never got divorced. He filled the paperwork out, sent it to her twice, but never finished it. It made me feel like I wasn’t worth anything and eventually ruined the feelings I had for him. After all that we are still friends, and he is living with me right now. (He moved in because of problems at his apartment complex, but he has his own room and we work opposite shifts so rarely see each other except on the weekends when we shop for groceries and talk about who’s paying how much this month for bills.) He is more like a guy pal than anything else.

After being alone for the past year, before G moved back in, I decided I didn’t want another relationship lacking romance. I loved him but I also felt things had gone cold… really cold. He didn’t touch me, we stopped having sex, he loved me but wasn’t affectionate and had gotten comfortable just having me around. I wasn’t okay with that. I have a small personal space, I love to cuddle and be touched, and I was miserable.

Fast forward to just before Thanksgiving 2013… I’m on Facebook and I get a message. Hey this is (JJ)… do you remember me? Remember him!!! Of course I remember him!!! He proposed to me my senior year of high school. He was moving to pursue a singing career. I said no, not because I didn’t love him, but because I knew he’d be successful and I didn’t want to be that girl from high school that ruined his big chance. It was a hard decision and I tried to find him 3 days later to tell him why I said no, and to see if we could talk it out (maybe stay engaged but see what happened) but he was with someone else. I found out later he broke it off quickly… he wasn’t over me.

33 years after telling him goodbye and I have a week vacation planned in October 2014 to see JJ. I’m excited, scared, and torn between wanting to see him now, and not wanting him to see me as I am. When my relationship with G ended, I was depressed. I ate, and gained a lot of weight. I was alone and no man cared about me. I got a new job 6 months ago, and with JJ paying attention to me (long distance text and phone calls) I’ve lost 75lbs and 3 clothing sizes. He’s been my motivation. We poured our hearts out. He never stopped loving me… even wrote some song lyrics about me in his songs (yea, he made it in the music industry). I was so impressed! I wanted him to see me for the first time and have his jaw drop to the ground, so I worked hard. I did P90X2 workouts 5x a week, lunch and evening walks, and changed my eating habits. I look good, but not as good as I used to. Still I’m proud and I know he’ll love seeing me regardless.

So, I went searching the Internet for some love advice… I bought a few ebooks on how to get your man, but he didn’t seem to pick up on the long distance cues well. He’s romantic and loving but seems confused when I follow the steps and seems to like me being me best. I looked up “pheromones” trying to see what I could do to enhance mine and came across PheroTalk. I ordered some 'mones from AD. I wanted a little boost for when I see him. I’m counting the days until Oct 7th. It’s coming quickly.

Here is my current (tiny) arsenal: Instant Female Wardrobe ( IS/A, IS/B, IS, IH, and IO. I ordered an extra IS/B ToGo. I got a trial of P102.

Since I haven’t seen him for 33 years, I think I’ll start with IS/B for when I get off the train… hoping for a big kiss. :smiley: He’ll have to go back to work for a few hours, and hopefully think about me until evening. The next 4 days will be at a hotel, seeing his band friends, going to a resort so he can show me around, visiting a casino, and basically hanging out together.

Any advice is always appreciated! As you can see I like to talk, so I’ll be logging in and entering my experiences really soon. I may try P102 this Friday at the mall. I need new clothes because of my weight loss.

Sue1anne

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Welcome! Great introductory post! It’s good to know about you, it’s helps people feel your situation better.
I have to dash off to work now, but I will check back in as soon as I can.
Congratulations on all the weight loss! I know that is hard work, I am sure you are very proud of yourself, and deservedly so.

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Thanks somechick. I started reading the journals and yours was the first. I didn’t know you were still around. I’m looking forward to being here a while too.

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A few random things I thought about last night…

JJ and I have never had sex. He said he was afraid of me in high school, and although we got close once or twice it just never happened. One particular night we both remember was in his truck and ended with a police officer rapping his flashlight on the window. JJ fulfills my emotional, sensual and mental romantic needs. He’s the guy who picks daisies from the field on his way over to my house.

G is incredible in bed. He’s very giving and makes sure I’m satisfied first. Good thing because I unfortunately require a lot of warming up and foreplay. He learned my hot spots over the years, but out of bed is distant. It’s almost like I’m not there. When we were apart he did nothing but sleep, eat, take the dog outside and watch TV. That’s it. He looked almost homeless and let himself go badly… stringy hair, holey clothes, unshaven. I’ve always kept him going, got him out doing things and have steered his social life or I don’t think he’d have one. He’s given me flowers only twice in 27 years. I don’t require them, but even when we were splitting up and several people told him to just give me some flowers to show he cared, he didn’t. It was something small that he just couldn’t do.

I thought about trying one of my 'mones today, but we have a big company meeting and my coworker isn’t coming to work again (health issues), so that leaves me to take care of all technical needs for the company. I’d rather just hide today and remain unnoticed. Tomorrow is shopping day and I only work 1/2 days on Fridays, so tomorrow will be Day 1 of testing how the magic works for me.

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I intended to give my 'mones a test run today, but yesterday was such a disaster I think I’ll wait until tomorrow. Nothing like getting arrested to shake you up! My past employer said I was stealing but it was a misunderstanding that had a domino effect and is now blown out of proportion. We’re going to court over it. I’m thinking of using Shine in court. Any opinions? My court date is in a few weeks.

Today is payday… yea! I think I’ll pick up a few more 'mones before my trip to see JJ, which has been reschedule to the end of October due to recent events. Ugh… I’m so excited and don’t want to wait but I’d rather wait than have court collide with my plans and not go at all.

Maybe I’ll still go shopping later and spritz on a little P102 to see what happens.

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Ran errands after spraying myself with P102 ToGo regular strength. One spritz, pressed on my inner forearms, and dabbed on my throat. Young twenty-something men seemed to pay more attention to me. They didn’t come on to me, but seemed helpful… almost proud to help an older woman (40’s).

One guy in his late thirties was definitely a hit. It was so obvious. He stopped dead in his tracks, turned and looked at me and stared… hard! I smiled at him and continued to walk around the bookshelves to browse some books and DVDs for sale. I turned and he had come around the other side and was staring at me again. I caught him watching me four times. That’s never happened to me before. Usually I’m really approachable and people just walk up and talk to me or say “Hi”. At least I know what a hit looks like now.

I think I’ll try another one tomorrow. One of the “instants”, maybe IO. I’ll be shopping with G and I’d like to see if he’s affected in any way.

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I decided to try out IS this morning after my shower. Two sprays on my inner forearms, and front of my neck. I dabbed in my hair before it dried. I hung out with G all day running errands. Even though we aren’t together as a couple we’re still friends and he can be good company. I didn’t notice anything at all with IS. Nothing. Everyone in the stores walked past, cashiers seemed normal, even G and I driving in the truck in an enclosed environment… nothing seemed out of the ordinary.

We stopped to drop off some groceries at the apartment around 1pm, so I decided to go ahead and give myself a few sprays of IH. Same places… inner forearms and front of my neck. I liked the scent and at 5:30pm I can still smell it lightly on my inner arms.

G seemed a little more chatty after about an hour, but that was about it. No real noticeable hits from anyone else in the stores, at the restaurant at lunch, or from anyone around us. Maybe tomorrow I’ll try something else.

I tried to find something sexy to wear at Victoria’s Secret. Unfortunately the largest size still isn’t quite large enough. Disappointed, but maybe I’ll try an online store.

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Welcome! What a lovely story about your High school sweetheart! This is the second I have heard of a re-connection like this much later in life! and So awesome that you are working hard to lose your weight, you’ve made such huge progress! So impressive!Keep kicking butt and keep us posted!

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Thank you for stopping by LadyScientist. It’s nice to know some couples can reconnect after so many years. I’m hoping to be one of them.

As for my weight loss, I just bought a new pair of workout clothes. I was in a 3x top and size 22 pants. I’m down to an XL top and size 16 pants. Unfortunately no Victoria’s Secret yet… I tried this weekend and I’m not quite there. I sent a text to JJ when he asked what I was doing. I’d told him I was going clothes shopping this weekend. I said, “Sorry, I can’t quite fit in to Victoria’s Secret.” He said, “That’s okay, neither can I.” Ha ha ha… brownie points for making a lady still feel good. I had a good laugh and felt better.

I “cheat” on the weekends, so I had pizza, McDonald’s Egg White Delight sandwich for breakfast, some chocolate and diet soda. :slight_smile: I’m good to work out hard and be strict for another week. Back to fish, almonds, fresh fruit and veggies, chicken breast, and brown rice. I try to eat 6x a day, I work out 5x a week (P90X2 if want to look it up, Yoga, and weight lifting). All I know is it’s working and I’m slowly shrinking. I have some loose skin though and might need surgery, but I’m going to keep going and worry about that when I lose all I can. I’ve heard because your skin is a living organ you can help the elasticity with diet, moisturizing and letting it breathe. We’ll see…

So… on with the next week! Bring it on!

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I tried IH today with G while I was out this afternoon. No noticeable reactions, but again he seemed more chatty than normal. G is NOT a talker. He is quiet and usually keeps to himself. He usually finishes eating a meal way before me because I happily chatter away. He was in the military so he learned to eat fast. Most of the time I have to convince him to have a conversation. Today he just talked and talked.

I applied 3 sprays, one on each inner forearm and one right on my upper chest. I could smell it for quite a while right under my nose. I might try in my hair next time. He liked the scent and said, “I really like the smell of your new perfume.” I told him I was trying out a few new sampler scents before I bought a larger bottle. I don’t wear perfume often, so he would notice.

Placed another order today for some experimental blends, but don’t plan to use them for a while. I’m still trying out the socials and don’t want to get ahead of myself.

Have a nice night!

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So I’ve been counting down the days to court… next Thursday. Then I got an email from my attorney. October 2nd is NOT my court date. It’s just arraignment (where they read the charges and determine any bail - which my atty doesn’t think there will be any). So, what’s the big deal, it’s just a date right? Not exactly.

I planned to visit JJ for a week (my high school boyfriend from 33 years ago). It’s been killing me to wait. I’m trying out some mones before I go and I really want to rekindle the romance we had. (See my introduction post). I thought court was October 2nd, and thinking there might be a jury selection that could cause a delay, I moved my vacation date from Oct 9th to Oct 28th. Now it looks like it might collide with court. Sigh… I REALLY want to see this guy! Even if nothing comes of it he was a terrific friend and I miss him.

I guess I wait until Oct 2nd and see. The court date is expected to be 4-5 weeks after, but I’m afraid if I move it back to the 9th it might be sooner! I don’t know how many times I can move these dates for the train and hotel. I feel like crying.

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Interesting day today. I decided to play with some mones. IS seemed like a good one with my moodiness and anxiety. I sprayed my inner forearms with one spray and “blotted” between them, one on my upper chest and one on the side of my neck, “blotted” to the other side. I applied after my morning workout and shower at work, about 7:00am.

One employee in particular, Mark, was talkative, outgoing and smiling… Mark doesn’t smile. He’s usually ultra-business-like, short in answers and basically a hard ass. Most employees dislike working with him. He’s pushing in meetings and appears to distrust people, although I don’t think that’s really it. He just comes across as hard to deal with. Not today! Today he was chatting it up with me, smiling, joking and waited patiently for a half hour while I discovered his laptop had a virus, the day before his vacation. I’m sure this was from IS. This guy was NOT himself at all.

Heard from my attorney today again who informed me that he can ask the court to let me leave the state. This court case is not going to take weeks, but months. Ugh! So I mention this to my mom and she totally freaks out! She doesn’t think I should leave town (for months???). She says I should get JJ to come here. Well, I just got a weekend at the coast, so I text JJ and mention him coming here for a weekend. Not quite the fun week I had in mind, but hey, it has been 33 years since I’ve seen the guy so maybe a weekend will be a good start.

JJ sends a text back, “Would you rather I come there? I’m fine with whatever you want.” I tell him I would rather have him come here. He’s at work so I can’t really talk to him about it yet. He asks when I want him to come. I say, “Now!!!” Just kidding. I have to make reservations and figure out how to get him here. The stupid train is 18 hours both ways. That wastes two days just for travel and I don’t know if he can get time off.

I’m a basket case right now. I want to see JJ so bad it hurts. Court has my stomach in knots. I think I need a wild weekend with an old flame to let go of some of my stress. If I end up losing this case at least I had a little fun first.

I don’t think I mentioned this but I haven’t had sex in 6 year. G cut me off and didn’t touch me for a long time before we split up. 6 years is a long time to have no affection whatsoever. Even if JJ just kisses me I’ll be thrilled!

Time to experiment with some IS/A and IS/B before JJ gets here! I need to know what my magic mix is. :slight_smile:

Sue1anne

PS. I forgot to mention self-effects of IS. I do get headaches from my mones, but they might go away the more I try them. IS was too strong for me, so next time I won’t spray my chest and might apply to my hair. I do like the smell though.

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I wanted to try IS/A or IS/B today, but realized I didn’t pack it in my gym bag. So I used IS again and had good results today. I work around a fun, friendly bunch and today was no different. The morning went well and I"m lucky enough to get off work at 11:00am on Fridays, whoo hoo!. I went home and did a quick reapplication - One spray inner forearms, one spray hair, and one around my shoulders.

Took the dog for a walk to Jack-In-The-Box. Not the best choice, but the walk helped with some of the calories. I got my dog a hamburger too, Lol. One of the employees offered to watch him while I ran inside to order. I waited a minute at the counter and the employee who took my order offered to bring my food outside to the table. On the way home I passed a bus stop. A young couple grinned at me from ear-to-ear. They asked if they could pet my dog. Sure… It seemed hard to get away. They kept talking and talking. I passed a Hertz car sales lot, and the salesman waved and yelled, “Cute dog.” As I got closer I smiled and gave a half wave. He said, “Is your dog nice?” I walked down the sidewalk and he asked if I was interested in a car. I said not now. He said he had to ask… car salesman and all. He asked for my name and I told him my first name only. He asked for my number and I said no. He said, “Maybe if I asked for your number a different way I’d get it.” I said no again. He laughed and asked if he could give me his… in case I wanted a car. I said sure.

So, a used car salesman tried to pick me up. That was new. He said I was beautiful, asked if I was Italian (yes) and then asked if I was Irish (again yes). Pretty good guesser. Still not interested. :slight_smile: It was nice to get some attention for a change though. I attribute it to part dog, part weight loss and new confidence, and the pick-up… that was most likely the Instant Shine. LOL It was fun.

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Hey, thanks for journaling!..I also get headaches from IS if I apply too much.
Do like you said, away from your head, I find that helps.
Good luck with your friend. I recently connected with an old boyfriend ( college) and actually the romance is on hold, he is dealing with cancer, but I am finding ways to use mones to help him.
These are really amazing and there is a ton of great information and wonderful people to help.

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Mmj2013,
I’m sorry to hear about your boyfriend with cancer. I’ve been surrounded by people with cancer. My mom is a breast cancer survivor (adopted mom), my birth mom had uterine cancer, and my current supervisor is out with throat cancer. I’m thankful science has come as far as it has, but it’s still really hard. It’s awesome you found mones can help! If I ever get to see JJ I’m going to see if mones can lift his mood. It’s just really hard to get together when we’re in two different states and we’re both so busy.

Sue1anne

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Went shopping at an outlet center yesterday. I figured this would be a good time to try my IS/B. I started in the morning with Shine. I wanted to be in a good mood, and aware of everything going on. G went with me and talked the two hour drive there. I like him chatty. Usually he doesn’t say much… more like Mmm hmm, yeah, etc. I have to pry conversation out of him. So I started with my ToGo Shine, one to the chest a little lower than right under my face!, one spray to my inner forearms, and one to my hair.

A few hours later, we arrive at the outlet center. As I get out of the truck I do a quick few sprays of IS/B. The effects must be subtle. I didn’t notice much. Sprayed one to my chest, one to my arms (pressed together) and two quick sprays to my hair. The outlets were really crowded and busy. I didn’t notice any effects on others from my mones, which should have been pretty potent after all those sprays in a few hours! People were polite and friendly, but nothing seemed out of the ordinary. I’ll have to try IS/B again… or maybe IS/A and pay close attention for any hints of a reaction. At least I got some good shopping deals. :slight_smile:

In any case, I’m glad I’m trying these out before I see JJ, which sounds like it might be a while. I thought he was going to the beach with me, but he said he doesn’t have time off. He also just started doing shows with his new band, so weekends are pretty scheduled. He says sometimes he’d like to be a regular guy without the musical talent. The life of a musician isn’t easy. Poor guy.

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Instant shine is good of lifting up others moods. So isn’t TAA…and P75(for women) and p130…
Keep experimenting!

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Thanks. I should be getting a new order today. I forget what I ordered but it will be fun to try some new products. I’ll definitely keep the ones you mentioned in mind.

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Went to the mall yesterday. I was hungry and told G it was his turn to buy since I almost always buy when we eat out! He agreed and took me to a family style buffet. I wasn’t feeling very well and attributed it to lack of food, working too hard the day before, and staying up late writing work reports. Mother nature may visit me soon too.

Decided to go with P102 today. Three sprays on inner forearms, chest and hair. I didn’t seem to get any reactions, but I noticed last time they came from younger men and I seemed to pass mostly older men. That might be why. I think I’ll try P102 when I’m at the electronics store or somewhere there are younger males. It seems like a good one for getting respect from younger males in their early to mid-twenties.

Had a nice lunch with G, but honestly I just didn’t feel good. I didn’t talk, felt like I could fall asleep on the table and overall just felt listless. This could also have affected my P102 test today.

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Got my order yesterday…:slight_smile:
MX397 (2 bottles), MX235, MX274, and a complimentary C Molecule. (Thanks AD!)

I wore MX397 today to work and had good results!
3 sprays, 1 to each side of my neck, 1 to my inner forearms.

At first I felt a little headache that seemed to last awhile. It wasn’t a migraine, it was just a little throbbing and tolerable. I was working with Mark early in the morning. He was unusually pleasant and smiling. Wow, surprising reaction for two days with two different mones. His computer was still infected with a virus and he seemed okay to let me work on it, apologizing for inconveniencing ME! (This is my job and it wasn’t any inconvenience).

It started pouring outside and another coworker, CM, knew my driver side window doesn’t close because the cable broke and I have to replace the entire motor assembly. He insisted on getting some plastic wrap and tape so I wouldn’t have to drive home with a wet butt. I told him I could just use my towel from the locker room, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. My hero, LOL. :slight_smile:

Another coworker, JB, is Mr. GoTo guy at work. When no one can figure things out, he can. He’s just really good at coming up with answers for most anything…even things he doesn’t understand. He walked past my desk today, stopped, came back and asked me to take care of a few things today for him. I gladly took care of them and we worked on several other problems today, solving them all. He really is a valuable resource, so I gave him an award ($25 gift card to anywhere). He was just so friendly when he is usually very distant.

I really liked the effects of this mone. I think everyone respected my opinion and trusted me to do my thing. I got a nice compliment from a female coworker about how great I’m looking. I had some laughs with the girls about some funny things like trying to do a half plank and feeling like a chubby dachshund trying to get his belly off the floor, lol. Three of us really relate to each other. All-in-all it was a fun day at work.