Okey dokey,
Been a bit busy of late, so best get up to date.
The -mone extravaganza mentioned above never happened - she was giving all sorts of excuses for being tired, not really being into the comedian, etc. So, gave the -mones a miss that night as I thought they would have been wasted.
To put you in the picture, we have been having problems for a while and I had thought that -mones would give that little spark that is missing in our relationship. I haven’t tried them on her yet. However, actually spending time together, in my mind, is one of the problems in our relationship. We just don’t do it. Yeah, maybe sit and watch TV for an hour, then she’ll fall asleep, I’ll carry on watching TV, then we’ll go to bed and straight to sleep. No cuddling, a single kiss and sleep. I have to say it - it FUCKING SUCKS!!! I still love her to bits and she loves me, she just isn’t IN LOVE with me.
Recently I have been a bad boy European Grand Prix - Valencia and took my -mones on a lad’s weekend. Ended up having some filthy nasty with someone for the first time in almost three years. YES, I do feel a bit bad about it. However, I also feel a bit good about it. I’ll clarify this by saying, I now know that these things work. And boy do they work well! On the flip side though, I HAVE been unfaithful. My thoughts are this: I have proved that -mones work in an environment which was conducive to neutral testing. This single episode of unfaithfulness may prove to be the key to saving my relationship. I come to this conclusion by virtue that I have confidence in the products to successfully get things back on track. I have read diamond's journal "clinging on to the wreckage" and there’s a lot of good advice in there. Unfortunately, Diamond’s deal didn’t work out, although, I think he’s doing ok these days by the sounds of it.
Sorry for the post, I just felt the need to vent!!