Dear Friends
I noticed the pheros that have helped me most reliably are:
Alpha
Tuth
IO
IH
I have been doing well with the above mix of pheros since i’ve been on the long distance with my girlfriend, making good friendships with decent young girls that i tried to keep just beyond the friendship line as prospects for a future relationship should things go sour.
I’ve always felt that given that she is in a distant land, neither she or i could be certain of fidelity in our relationship, to an extent accepting the possibility of her engagement in a fleeting physical relationship given our sexual needs in order to prepare myself emotionally for the worst case scenario, but trusting in the strength of our bond.
But recently I have had cause to re-evaluate the soundness of our relationship. She often works late because she starts around 12:00pm given her fondness for sleep. Being quite clingy she always likes to stay on an active call on skype whatever she is doing, at work, with friends or family, even whilst sleeping.
recently she told me that she got some bad reviews from work so would not be able to talk on skype, but write as she believed that her un work related internet activity as reviewed by IT might reflect badly on her in their periodic round table reviews.
This was fine by me, typically we could speak and she would initiate a call after 6pm her time after office hours if she was there. recently she stopped doing this. The Friday she was writing me on skype as usual and it was around 7pm, so having not spoken with her for some time i decided to call.
She declined my call and several other attempts i made. She said that her manager was around and she didn’t want to get in trouble. This was strange because firstly it was post business hours and secondly in the open plan office she works there is no way for anyone to tell that skype and her camera were active.
within 4 minutes, she had finished work and packked up and was downstairs waiting for a taxi, so she said, when she called me from her mobile. Well i asked her to go upstair and load skype because i wanted to show her something. But actually i wanted to confirm that she was actually at work.
she said she couldn’t because she had already booked a taxi. well, taxis can be unbooked can’t they or simply flagged down. Anyway she was soon at home an told me as much on skype. I immediately called her on skype and being really quite suspicious now asked her to show me what she was wearing.
She was not wearing her usual work cloths, but instead a pair of really sexy tight black pants and a black jumper immodestly low on her chest showing a healthy amount of cleavage. Which at first was covered by a very lite jacket that she wore and i asked to see under.
I asked her why she was wearing this today, her response being that it was casual friday at work. But i don’t remember her wearing such an outfit before to work.
I came to the conclusion that something was afoot and dropped the call, deciding not to speak with her for some time, seeing as she was insisting it was her normal work cloths and wanting to start an argument over it.
well, re-evaluating our relationship to date, the cumulative evidence for me was that i could not trust her and decided to end the relationship, telling her as much.
after several days of badgering i decided to answer her phone call to hear what she had to say. She admitted that she was not actually at work, but with a female friend she visited to have coffee - in the evening in that clothing.
well, i think that is a whole bunch of bull crap. And I think it best to stand firm and move on, cutting her out of my life completely. Hers reasons for lying are that she did not let me know about this meeting with her friend so thought i might have suspicions, seeing as she likes me to give her minute by minute updates of my activity.
But in the past she has had such meetings with friends and been happy to and even sometimes annoyingly insistent on skype calling me whilst out with them either pre arranged or adhoc.
But annoyingly the most is her approach, calling and trying to be clever on the semantics of whether technically she wore the outfit to work or not etc… and although she could not find an example…whether i have lied in the past to her or not..etc…etc.. Generally, seemingly uncaring or remorseful.
So, i conclude. Wipe her memory from my brain, Tuth up and go on that date with the nice girl from buckingham.
Or would you say that is harsh and i should hear her out?