i guess now that i have actualy spent some of my own money on pheromones that means im going to stick around long enough to start a journal. My instant honesty, instant gentlemen, and bonus instant shine came in the mail a few days ago. I didnt want to use it at school because i go to a tech school now and there are like 7 girls there total including teachers, so i waited untill chi alpha (college church) tonight to use it. i took a bath arround 4pm and applied one spray of instant honesty to the chest before going to chi alpha (i had to spray it 3 times untill i heard it spray im counting this as one because i dont think it did anything the first 2 times.) on the way to chi alpha and takeing my seat i notice people looking me in the eyes perhaps more than normal. random people on the street i dont know and people in chi alpha from across the room. mostly girls, but i forget to smile. in service its hard to worship because i feel sorta buzzed and uncomfortable for the first half of service. i remember this happened when i wore IO to church too. mabye next time i just need to give myelf a half hour or so to get used to the stuff before i go somewhere. anyway i get used to it by the end of the sermon. afterwards we talk for awhile and go out to eat at chipotle. it did seem that talking with people was easier than usual. usualy i feel like a third wheel in conversations, cant get a word in edgewise and end up not talking to anyone. but today I had a number of conversations with people that usualy dont talk to me and didn’t once feel like i wasnt realy part of the conversation. this could also be partialy attributed to a number of factors:
i havent been hanging out there lately and mabye people are starting to miss me.
i have started dateing sence the last time i hung out with them and now i dont feel like such a looser which makes more people want to talk to me.
i am initiating more conversations than i normaly would in order to test the pheromones
but i think part of it is the mones. still I didn’t get any brutal honesty. I halfway expected someone to tell me some deep dark secret or confront me and tell me what they realy think of me. Im actually glad that didn’t happen.
ive heard instant shine gives you energy so on Saturday i put one spray of it on my chest before i went for a bicycicle ride on the trail. i do think i had a bit more energy than normal, but my energy levels vary from day to day so its hard to say. sunday evening before i headed out to the trail i sprayed some IS in my face. i still cant define the feeling. its not like drinking caffene for me. caffene gives me a noticable tenseness in my neck allmost every time. i did notice my forehead seemed to relax like it was being massaged or someting. when i got to the trial i rode for 2.3 miles one way along with a detour up a hill to buy some video games from a pawn shop. somewhere in the last half mile i guess i passed out and fell from my bike and got back on. i dont remember this but i have the scars. when i realized i was hurt i got off my bike and walked it the rest of the way back. i dont blame the shine. if anything it may have helped me to push myself further into exaustion without knowing it, but i knew of its stimulant like properties and i should have thought ahead to bring watter. or mabye it had noting to do with how thirsty i was. mabye i just ran into a log and fell or someting and bumped my head and thats why i dont remember i dont know. I have some nasty bruses including a good size bump on my head but i dont have any worrying symptoms such as throwing up, change of personality, unequaly dialated pupals, or loss of balance, so i think im ok. one things fir sure though im not going to forget my helmet anytime soon.
edit: the last thing I remember before lapseing was looking back at a hot girl running on the trail that had just passed. I think I must have ran into a tree branch or something while I wasn’t watching where I was going. looking back on it I think I vaguely remember suddenly being hurt and not knowing what was going on and thinking I was being jumped or something and that I should get out of there which is why I got back on the bike. kinda embarissing actualy
A few days ago I sprayed some ammo before getting groceries. the bottle was almost empty and it was sputtering. not knowing how many sprays made up a sputter I sprayed it a bunch of times attempting to use up the last bit of the ammo. As I did I started to get a hazy far off look in my eyes. Then I reached for the IH that had just a drop or two left. I started to twist off the top and my arm muscles buldged. I notice myself using more muscle power than usual while doing normal things without thinking about it when wearing ammo. thats all I had to say. Nothing special happened at the grocery store
There is a funny story about the ammo though idk if I shared it. well its not that funny. Back when I had a grilfriend I took her to the movies wearing ammo one night and I accidently opened the ammo togo in my pocket and spilled the whole thing. Later that night I was showing her my room when i took off my jacket and put it in my mini fridge to preserve any residual pherimones soaked into the pocket. This seemed to realy disturb her. she held her forehead and started blinking and looking at the floor for a second or two. I asked her what was wrong and she said she didnt know and then she left.
Next fall I had to chizel away the ice from my jacket to get it out of the freezer. when I wore it to school an old lady said good day to me twice in sucsession, then got a puzzled look on her face and said why did I just do that? to which i replied its ok I guess I will just have to have a doubly good day today.
I got my new 2x io and ammo along with some free shine which is good because im almost out. In the past these gave me the most consistant results. Io makes me a bit more self conscious and nervous at times, but with ammo on I dont care what people think which is why I figured I should wear them at the same time. I wore 1 2x spray of IO and regular strength ammo In my hair and on my chest and went to visit my old college church group. even though I allready graduated. I think church is the most awkward time to wear pheros ever but it wasn’t as bad this time. next time I’m thinking about trying equal ammounts of io and ammo. afterwards we went to the house and ate pizza and stuff. people seemed to be more open to talking to me tonight. I met some new girls and they all seemed friendly and easy to talk to. I didnt focus on the times people werent talking to me and tell myself how pathetic I am like I do a lot. This may have more to do with where I am psychologically right now, but mabye the pheramones have helped bring about this change? Also afterwards when I went to the grocery store me and the cashier had a nice friendly lingering conversation. It was late and I was allmost the only coustomer there
Whoa. Take a step back from that mentality. Not healthy at all. Focus will bring you everything, but only if you focus on the positive. Learn from the negative, and you turn it into a positive. Keep your head high when others don’t talk with you, maybe you need to take the initiative and strike up a conversation.
I know thats what im saying ive been doing better about that lately. Its kinda something I do without thinking sometimes. I have to watch myself. but I didn’t feel pathetic at all last night just kinda charming and friendly.
so I went over to lovescent and got me a bottle of A1. ive been expirimenting with it a bit and come to find out I had the dosage a bit high to begin with. One time I came to small group with probably arorund 4 drops I cant remember. should have posted that night. Anyway everyone was stareing at each other with blank looks and nobody wanted to engage in discussion, but later on after the lesson people started having fun and talking and we stayed a bit later than normal.
another time I wore it to church I think arround 2-3 drops. afterwards we went out to eat and one of my female friends brought her kid like she usualy does. I love this kid he is so wierd. he can laugh and cry at the same time. anyways he is usualy verry loud. if he is happy he is dancing and singing in his high chair and if he is mad he is throwing a fit. but this time he quietly ate his food without throwing any of it on he ground, and even motioned for a napkin after he was done and wiped off his hands. (note: I had been wearing some IO and some ammo previous weeks) im not certian if it was my pherimones because someone told me he had ben sick, but it made me realise that my pherimones may effect him and possably not in a good way. so ive been using less pheromones anywhere I may be arround kids sence.
today I wore 1 drop of A1 and 1 spray of IO-2x to church. after church there was a BBQ for the 20 somethings and I rode with this one girl over there. Ive “known” her for a long time and never realy talked to her that much. Whenever I talked to her it was allways kinda awkward like we never realy got to the point where we feel comfortable talking to each other. sort of a long time aquatince and not yet a friend, ive got a lot of people like that in my life and it gets more awkward the longer youve known them. Anyways we got to talking in the car and it was totaly natural like we were actualy friends or something. I think I talked with her more in that car than I ever have in my life. The bbq was cool too. nothing seemed out of the ordanary but then again a lot of the people there I didnt know so i didnt know what to look for.
ok so I work at some foster homes occasionaly. I don’t think I have mentioned that. I was filling in for my cousin at the house that the girl I used to go out with works at. so I decided to put on some pheros just incase I ran into her. I used some A1 and some ammo. It was one drop of A1 and I think 2 sprays of ammo. Come to find out she didnt work that shift and the only girls there were my cousin and my friends wife… Anyways I did notice they were both in a realy good mood. They were plessant and talkitave. When I got there my cousin started playing with her hair. I teased her about it because its kind of a girly thing to do and she used to be a tomboy. she stayed awhile talking with me and the friends wife even though her shift was over. usually people want to get out of that place because working with these specific foster kids can be very stressful. The guy I had to watch kept poking me and leaning on me. its probably normal for him actualy. he is new and I haven’t worked with him much.
Oh and I almost forgot to add, Sunday nights I go to a small group at church and I usually wear some sort of pheromone just to see what happens. I tend to use more socials because everyone there is married (cept me). usualy we end up staying afterwards and talking for hours. last week I didnt put on any pheromones just to see what woud happen and everyone left right after the bible discussion was over.
so ive been taking a break from pheromones for awhile to clear my head. Ive been focusing on getting a better job which will help with status, and give me another place to meet girls. Allthough I havent succeded in this task yet.
yesterday though I wore 1 drop of a1 and 1 spray of shine, because thats what I have the most of left. I noticed all the normal signs:
slight awkwardness in church:
I felt a little fake like the person I was acting like wasnt the person I was. Was real mild and Its probably all in my mind.
good vibes:
After church that I started feeling cool and dare I say it fly. Like nothing could bother me. Also my head felt more clear than usual, like when I am playing volleyball and I am focusing on the ball.
Easier Communication:
Because I was feeling good, after church when I was talking to people I wasnt worried about wether they would accept or notice me. I was just me chillin, you could talk to me or you could not which allowed conversation to flow more natrualy.
Extra attention from restarunt staff:
when we went to eat after church the waitress was verry chatty and checked many times to see if we had enough drinks, steak sauce, mayo etc.
makes me want to drive fast:
When I have pherimones on it makes me feel more rambunctious which makes me want to drive fast. later on I went to small group only to find they werent having it. I ended up driving arround just for the fun of it. doing things like breaking late, takeing corners fast, and going arround and arround roundabouts fast (nobody was useing it it was nighttime).
Hey its been awhile. I havent been using the little bit of pheromones I have left because I cant think of a good place and time. Im not going to school anymore cuz I graduated and most of the people I work with on the weekend are guys and older married women and I dont like wearing mones in church because it makes me feel awkward.
but the other day I decided to get a haircut and I figured it would be the perfect time to test the mones. I took the ammo togo bottle and squirted 2 sprays on my hair right before I went in to get a haircut. I think the tide smell works well in a place like this. It just so happened I got the one attractive young girl who was working at the time which I was thankfull for. ive done this before and it is wierd when you get someone who is old enough to be your mom after youve sprayed this stuff in your hair. anyways she was alert frendly and attentive sorta bright eyed and bushy tailed. Im not good at telling signs of attraction though. plus she was behind me most of the time so I couldn’t keep an eye on her. she did make extra effort to make sure I was taken care of and gave me a great haircut. After I was done she was following me up to the register so I could pay and she had to brush some hair she missed off my head idk if that says anything, mabye she was obsessing over the details to make sure I was taken care of, or mabye she just wanted to touch me? or mabye it was nothing. all my comunication that day was easier it seemed. Normaly I have a tendancy to mumble and talk softly and I think I didnt do that as much because nobody had to ask me to repeat myself. I like ammo it never seems to make me mad and at 1 or 2 sprays people actually seem to be friendlier toward me. I think I may have less of this pheromone than normal. I dont like things like football, wrestling, violence, confrentation etc.
I got my IH, IO, and customary free IS in the mail today. The snap on tops were detached when I opened it it smelled like some of it had squirted in the bubblewrap. It wasn’t much though. I put the smelly bubblewrap in my clothes drawer so mabye the good vibes will rub off on my clothes. I haven’t tested them yet but smelling them makes me want to try them out again when before I was kinda meh. I plan to use them a lot at the camp/confrence that I am going to next month. I also plan on getting some a314 to help me in getting a job but I need to get more money in my paypal before I do that. I have been trying out my A1 and my little bit of ammo I have left at church the past few weeks. This time I am using verry small amounts like 1 drop or spray. I have noticed that there is this one girl who seems to only say hi to me when I am wearing pheromones. Im not really intrested in her though. ive known her since high school and she has never shown any interest in me at all until now. we don’t seem to have anything in common. also a little side note, when I de iced my mini fridge the ice smelled like some of the pheromone products I had kept in there when it melted. its probably just the fragrance. I guess any fragrance kept in the fridge would do that but it was not something I expected.
Im still kinda trying out diffrent stuff. I havent actualy settled on a mone mix. I think I should though because the girls I attract I keep hearing rumors that they are Bi Polar. I might have said I like ammo best but I change my mind frequently. Actualy my best results I think have been with IO and IH when I was in college (when I wore basicaly the same mones for weeks in a row). yep still working with foster homes. Cant get away from it. Thats why I think I need to get me some A314 to help me get a new job. That and I can meet new people and test the mones on them on a day to day basis again. I did have a factory job for a month around january. I tried the mones on them but it was mostly guys so there wasnt much point. I did notice the guy I was working with started talking much more than usual about sex and flirted a lot with this one lady who I think was like 10 years older than him. i should have noted that that day but i was dead tired every day that month and just went straight to bed.
I put on like 3 sprays of IO and went to a service progect with church where we helped redo the plants in the middle of the concrete islands in the parking lot of a local school. The one thing I noticed is when we were meeting at church beforehand I ended up leaning against the counter of the snack bar confortably close to this one young lady. I forget who was first, I think I was. She is married so I didn’t feel like pushing things. It was just nice being that close. Normaly I would move over a bit out of nervousness or respect but I was testing personal space and it didn’t seem to phase her. This could be because of the pheramones or it could be because girls naturaly have a smaller personal space bubble. I ended up talking more to my other married friend to my other side. Its hard to tell if she was more friendly than normal because she is pretty friendly to begin with. All in all I felt real chill that day. part of that could be attributed to the fact that it was uncharisticly overcast and rainy. I didn’t feel as much social stress either.
I wouldn’t have posted because I didn’t feel like this was noteworthy, but it got me to thinking. All this time I have thought that pheromones modify your personal space bubble or other peoples reaction to you being in their bubble, but I wonder if the whole or most of the mechanism of a personal space bubble is actually facilitated by pheromones? maybe the whole feeling of uncomfortableness when you are too close to someone is actually the effects of their pheromones that we are not used to or maybe some of your pheromones actually emit a stay away message? That could be one of the reasons why girls have less of a bubble than guys when talking to each other because male pheromones are more standoffish.
I went to a young adult camp thing at the regional youth church camp like 2 weeks ago. It was cool because unlike youth camp they just let us do whatever we wanted instead of putting us on a strict schedule. We did a lot of frizbee golf, volleyball, swimming in the pool, playing ping pong, hanging out in the lounge, and sleeping. everyone did a lot of sleeping in the middle of the day. which was lame. I was like really? Youre not teenagers anymore but youre not that old.
The sad thing is even though the camp was for young adults all the single girls were like 20 or younger which is about the age of my sister, and about at the cutoff point for the date age wierdness sale (half your age plus 7). I think I should widen my horizons a little though because I tend to get along real well with girls who are about 20.
so on with the pheromone stuff allready. one day I was there, I think it was friday, I put on some IH and some shine. I think it was between 2-3 sprays 4 sprays total. (i really need to start writing this down) anyways I met an 18 year old girl at frizbee golf. I think she was kinda attracted to me me until I told her how old I am and she was like “you’re allmost old enough to be my dad.” we became good friends anyways. she said she knew me from a church where I stayed and did a thing called masters commission, which was a horrable time in my life but it was something to talk about and we ended up getting into some deep conversation. (probably helped by the IH) sometime that day everyone decided to go to the pool, I followed eventualy and decided afterwards that I needed to reapply my IH and shine because they probably washed off. This is where things start to get a little wierd. The mood that night at church service was real serious and the pastor was off his notes and started sharing painfull stuff from his life where the previous services while thought provoking were light hearted and funny. After church the girl I talked about and and this other guy that I met that I ended up hanging out with a lot were acting clingy and wanted me to hang with them all the time. The guy seemed kinda bitter that night. later on he made the comment that everyone looked like supermodels (probably the shine). he was kinda chubby so I see how this could tick him off a bit.
Also I have been testing the pheromones on vacation this past week. I put some IH and shine on before we tried indoor skydiving, because Im allmost out of the rest of the stuff. This time I was heavy on the IH. I was there for the preflight instructional time and everyone was real quiet. The instructor commented on it and said most of the time people are excited.
I think I have identified a serious tone to IH which is probably not helped by my personality. I don’t need to be more serious. I need to loosen up. In the future I plan on mixing it with plenty of lightherated socials and favoring IO instead.
haven’t been using the pheromones at all lately. I Don’t like wearing them at church and the only other time I get out is to bike on the trail. Ive heard that its not a good idea to wear pheromones while excersizing, that and im usualy passing people and im never near someone long enough for the pheromones to take effect. I usualy just work on smiling at girls, possibly even giving them a flirty look without looking creepy. But im not even bikeing that much ever since the heatwave hit. Maybe I should take my laptop to the library or coffeehouse to look at the internet job classifieds instead of staying couped up im my room.
That sounds like a good idea. Since you have a laptop, go out and find a place with free wifi. You can be looking through the ads and do yourself some people watching and talkin’!
The Heat wave is crazy… people burnin’ up on the street!
I have noticed I tend to use pheromones more for how they make me feel than what they do to others. Also my intrest in pheromones tends to go in cycles. I will start to miss the smell and the self effects and I will start using them again and then like weeks to months later I just get fed up with them for some reason or another. probably because they start to make me feel creepy and stalkerish and they point out my lack of game (to myself). then a long time later the cycle starts over again.
so anyways yeah I used up the last few drops in the takeup tube in my ammo and IH. before going bikeing didn’t really notice much except for self effects probably not enough to do anything. I should probably get around to ordering some new ones.
I got a new Job!!! Im moving to Colorado. This job seems like it will be much more condusive to wearing pheromones. I anticipate using them much more. Also the reports are there are lots of hot girls in the town I will be going to. I also plan on buying a pair of kangoo jumps and getting into shape. should be fun along with all the other outdoor activites I could do there like hikeing and mountian biking. kangoo jumps could be useful for meeting people as well.
They want me to be able to sell things and talk on the phone. my problem is I can be really shy around people I don’t know and if I get nervous I start to clam up and mumble. Im wondering if some ammo or maybe a314 would help with that. If its anything like the the headquarters in my hometown that I am interning at I don’t think ammo will be a problem. I suppose some socials such as instant openness would help as well on the customer side. what other pheromones make you louder?
Hi there, Untitled, glad to see things going well for you in Colorado.
For louder, yes, IO, though too much will get me babbling… I much prefer IH, though, I know that’ll get me in trouble if I don’t think a sec as a filter before opening my mouth. AMMO, IMO, is a good base and confidence booster. That’ll help to get you to speak up, I would think. THough, YOU have something to say, SAY it. Others WILL listen if you speak with CONVICTION and VOLUME. You’d likely react that way around someone that does that, right?
For the Other mones, P79, TAA, P102 get me going in wanting to be happy and sharing with others, though, that may be different in your case.
I much prefer IH, though, I know that’ll get me in trouble if I don’t think a sec as a filter before opening my mouth. AMMO, IMO, is a good base and confidence booster. That’ll help to get you to speak up, I would think. THough, YOU have something to say, SAY it. Others WILL listen if you speak with CONVICTION and VOLUME. You’d likely react that way around someone that does that, right?