Don’t give up! Perhaps you should try and OVERDOSE! That’s what you need right now; a reaction. Other more experienced members may suggest what to overdose on.
Have faith, realistic expectations and interact with people around you.
Good luck.
Thanks guys for all the responses.
I’ll work on my game and overcome my fear. I was hoping -mones could give me that extra confidence I need. But that was the easy solution…
I’ll have to learn it the hard way.
Then when I’ll have a tight game, -mones will be usefull.