Advanced, you clearly seem fixated on the notion that you’re ugly, and that no woman will ever want you. We get it, point taken. Now what would you want done about it?
You said you’re getting plastic surgery. While I’ll give you a little bit of credit for taking some type of action, your solution is as helpful as a bandage for someone who fell on a chainsaw. Each surgery runs for about $5,000, and you’re getting 6 to 8 of them. That’s a grand total of $30,000 to $40,000. If it’s worth it to you, we can’t stop you, but you’ll giving money to an industry that preys on people with low self-esteem. And if your surgeon has any sense of medical ethics in him, he’ll encourage you to speak to a psychiatrist before he lets you have the operation.
I’m actually sympathizing with you a little bit, because I used to feel the same way about life, although nowhere near as extreme. Until one day, I thought “WTF, this can’t be right”, and after going through a brief nihilistic phase, changed my outlook on life. I still don’t think I’m hot or anything, but I see it as a challenge to be overcome, not something that has the power to destroy me. However, I don’t think your looks are your only problem. You got a mindset that’s holding you back. Perhaps you have a neurological condition that you’re not aware of. If you’re willing to spend that much money on plastic surgery, you can easily afford to spend $200 to speak to a psychiatrist for an hour (and possibly save $30,000 as a result). This is not a shot at you, just advice from one man to another.
Speaking of psychiatrists, you’d benefit the most from something called Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). It basically states that thoughts lead to emotions, which lead to actions. In your case, your thoughts “I’m ugly” make you feel bad about yourself, which makes you act a certain way. A psychiatrist specializing in CBT will help you break that cycle. Do not go to a specialists that don’t say much beyond “I see” and “how does that make you feel?” (also known as Rogerian or client-centered). In my opinion, they’re not very helpful, and might do you more harm than good.
You seem very focused, almost preoccupied, on being a virgin. You know what? Get over yourself, and contact an escort service. My first girl wasn’t exactly a hottie, but if you’re saying that this isn’t an option for you, go the escort route. Now, they won’t reject you based on your looks, only on your inability to pay. And from what you told us, you can afford to pay. Once you get rid of that v-card, perhaps you’ll get some clarity in your mind, calm down, and look at things more rationally. Heck, spend twice as much and do a threesome, just to make your first time really memorable.
but we all know its because heterosexual males, by large, have no standards and will take pretty much any human female.
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