ENTRY #11
Today is a Parish Council meeting day. I want to test p130 in that setting. I know that I am not going to play an important role in today’s meeting so leaving Royale out of the picture would be fine… I think.
1PM
1 spray p130 5mcg Stealth Unfragranced
I started with 1 spray to see if the same application will result to some hot afternoon delight
2PM
1 spray p130 5mcg Stealth Unfragranced
Before entering the Social Hall where the meeting is, I checked into the restroom first and sprayed another one.
630PM
1 spray p130 5mcg Stealth Unfragranced
At the Mall
First Impressions:
1PM
No smell at all. And I did not notice anything.
2PM
No smell at all. I felt inferior. Not the same commanding, confident type. Jealous feeling.
630PM
No smell at all. For the first time, I am consciously feeling the contentment.
Most Appropriate Environment:
I am not sure still.
Types of Effects:
1PM
After bath, I sprayed 1. This time I purposely tried acting sexual. But she won’t reciprocate. It’s another lazy day for her, playing a computer game. But this time, no reaction.
But then again, something happened before my application. She’s a bit piqued of some of my remarks before noon.
Before going to sleep, she told me that she’s pissed of me up until I went out to attend the meeting. So maybe that contributes from me getting nothing. ![]()
2PM
The inferior feeling hits me as soon as I decided to raise a suggestion. It was received with laughter and I interpreted it as them laughing at me. I have to muster enough confidence to stand up on the later part of the meeting to remind everyone involved in the publication about the deadline. I can’t look the elders in the eye as I distributed the guide I made for them.
After the meeting I fought the urge to go home, wash and save myself from further getting this kind of self-effect. I stayed and forced myself to engage on a chitchat with some of the elders. I am not smiling, I have to force myself to smile. Wow!
But then, everything started to warm up after 5 minutes of chitchat. I am starting to smile, and I felt that I am regaining my composure.
3 hours after the second application, as me and wifey are attending mass. I suddenly caught myself checking out the man seated next to wife. Shit! I became the jealous husband. Of course I trust my wife, and there is no sane reason for me to feel suspicious with the man seated right next to her.
I just closed my eyes and repeatedly told myself, “its the mones, its the mones, its the mones.” Had to pray hard too before receiving the holy communion.
An hour later, I am with wife at a mall for dinner and the emotional, jealous feel is gone.
630PM
I sprayed another one in the restroom after dinner.
And this third spray calmed me. I am content. By this time I am able to look back and make an analysis of the things that I thought were bad.
First, the laughter at the meeting, I now understand that they are not laughing at my suggestion nor at me. Rather, they are laughing at the possible feedback by some sectors. My recommendations touches the fund raising part of the activity we are discussing, and fund raising around our community/Parish always gets groans.
Second, the guy at the Church. Well, there is no seating arrangement in the Church, anyone can sit anywhere. Actually I understand this one as I am in the moment of that jealous feel, thus my prayer. ![]()
Third, the failure to have an afternoon delight with wife. This one, she confirmed by telling me before going to sleep. Anne says “you missed your chance” the moment I pissed her off. ![]()
Strength:
Both the inferior and jealous feel are strong. The calming is a slow burn. I never recognized when the calm feeling started.
Length of Effects:
Basically the whole afternoon.
Tenacity:
Not sure
Effectiveness & Consistency:
Can’t tell yet.
Diffusion/Sillage:
Not sure yet.