A314 and being a dick.

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Okay, I don’t mean this in a bad way at all… LOL…

I am a good natured kind of a guy, usually accomodating… And after enjoying six blasts of Spaceland earlier today I was flying high on the wings of the mones… Went for a walk, took alot of pictures, had fun… Almost ran into a gator… Good times..

Sweated myself to death and showered, and decided to give the A314 a tryp

Two drops. One split between the wrists, and another dropped on the wrist and then drawn about my jawline and neck.

I didn’t notice much of anything for a few hours, and went about my business. I “self monitor” my thoughts, the patterns of thought and work to modify them constantly to improve myself and make sure my mind lingers in goal oriented areas.

I noticed, after awhile, that my thoughts were more… Bold? I dunno how to describe it… But they lingered to concepts of conquest, more centered around already established goals that have to do with wealth and such.

When wifey came home, I showed her the new arrivals and we started talking. I found myself being somewhat dickish. This is unusual for me. I am absolutely in love with the best wife in the world, and I treat her like a queen. Of course, we have our banter and have good senses of humor, so its not uncommon for us to be a little rough verbally…

But I felt… Dickish isn’t the right word. Nothing was impolite about how I was feeling… It was more like.. “I am alpha male. You are woman. Worship me.”

Now, my wife is more than willing to oblige this kind of mentality. She treats me like gold… But, there was an underlying aggressiveness to me tonight that wanted to “one up” her jokes and conversation more than usual.

This is very difficult to describe as a phenomena, because everything was the same, really, but it was the internal processing of the information… I wasn’t being unpleasant, I was just being a little more aggressive, but the aggressiveness was accompanied by almost a certain joy at being aggressive.

Sigh, I wish I could relate the experience better than what I am doing here, and I am failing in articulating the internal workings of my mind but..

Mind you, I am using “dick” as somewhat of a catch all term meant to be read with humor… This is not an unpleasant experience… Quite the contrary, it is rather enjoyable…

Can anyone out there relate?:smiley:

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Second day, used A314 in the wild. Slept with it on, and showered this morning before applying two drops, one to the inside of my forearm and another to my index finger, which I then used to apply to my jawline and neck.

Definitely not the feeling of being a “dick.” I swear the whole feeling is like “Don’t sweat the small stuff.” I am finding it easier to stay on goal, keep focused…

Tried it in the wild today. Along with the A314, one shot of Instant Shine to my hair, and one shot of Ammo to my chest.

This mix feels incredibly powerful. There are times when I find myself losing focus because I am concerned about what others are thinking. I am hyper aware, and the twitch of an eyebrow can relay much information to me. Sometimes this is distracting to me, and I find myself working to make the other person “feel good…”

In other words, I take the bait. If I am dealing with someone who is hinting and attempting to be passive aggressive, albeit unconciously, I pick up on that shit and its in my nice guy nature to react to it. I think this is a weakness. It is possible to still be kind and firm, and not acknowledge or reward “Hey please don’t hurt my feelings” kind of behavior.

Today, I was still aware of it, but suddenly it no longer mattered. I went to visit a friend whom I had not seen in a long time and actually kept her on point during the conversation when she tried the “Oh whoa is me” shit for attention.

I spoke also to a female friend on the phone whom at first, I was surprised at my “rudeness,” but I wasn’t being rude… I was just refusing to deal with the emotional manipulation bullshit. And now she wants to get together. :stuck_out_tongue:

I dunno, its confidence in a bottle… The trivial shit that you deal with in conversation is acutely more obvious to me. Perhaps this is me studying behavior, but I am familiar with the internal processes and emotional mechanisms in my mind, and it is different.

Its like I am on top of my game, constantly, even if I am reading the paper on the toilet, going to get the mail, or talk to that pretty cashier at the grocery store today.

I just feel… ON.

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Excellent observations Sigil!

I liken your “dickery” to the connection you have with your wife. Wait, that sounds odd. One moment let me rephrase that.

You and your wife have a strong psychic connection that comes from a long relationship in which you have developed an intimacy with eachothers bodies, words, and … thoughts. When that connection is unbalanced due to an emotional charge, it would manifest itself in an emotional response. You being a dick namely. Think of it like the element water, emotional strength rushing to balance itself when presented an opportunity to expand… and for you to share your new found mental ardour with your loved one.

I too have felt the confidence and “don’t sweat the smell stuff” feelings from A314. Currently, as I am taking a break from pheromones for a few days I am noticing the small stuff. A lingering connection due to touch that was unnoticed before… A feeling of being balanced… a newfound appreciation for the natural masculine body odour that I have. As an aside, I have had many lovers tell me I smell naturally like marijuana, and I agree with them even if I don’t smoke the stuff.

To me, balance has become the key to successful use of pheromones as a tool for self discovery. And it is a certain kind of self-discovery that brings knowledge of all humankind.

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Ah, Balance! The brass ring!

I think we are going to become a pheromone household. She likes IS and Spaceland, but she says that she likes the effect they are having on me. We have an excellent relationship to start, but the imbalance you spoke of, that almost describes it.

It was like a recalibration. See, we can talk about anything. I will paraphrase how the convo went, best to my recollection.

Me: “Hey, why you being so bitchy?”
Wife: " Haha! You’re the one being cocky. You like your new perfumes?"
Me: “Hrmmmm… I do feel a bit cocky. Do you notice any behavioral changes in me?”

And we had a discussion from there. We consider ourselves blessed to be able to approach our marriage as an ongoing experiment with variables to be tweaked, so I guess the pheromone experiment fell easily into our regular modus operandi.

We haven’t quite discovered exactly what these things are doing to us yet, but we are really enjoying the ride so far.

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I think you found a good way to describe it. You feel “ON”. It’s like it makes you a man instead of a mouse. You aren’t a jackass, but you’re stern and not willing to deal with the little bullshit games people try to play with you. It’s very interesting.

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Yeah, that’s a good way to put it. I think that people, knowingly and unknowingly, use subtle and no so subtle body language to cause you to react in specific ways. Its not like you see through all the bullshit… Its just, you know its there and still stay focused on your goal. I am someone who feels deeply, and I can get tricked into the petty mode. I think I am mastering my way around it simply because of the new mode that mones are showing me.