You are attracting exactly what you believe my friend. You keep reinforcing to yourself and everyone you can that you are not a prize, not to be loved, or not to have women in your life. That’s what you are putting out there and that’s exactly what you will continue to get. Change your thoughts and you change your life.
Until today I did not see my ‘oneitis’ for over five months. It was my own fault we started talking/messaging again. Apparently she had a couple of dudes in the meantime, but hey, that was to be expected.
Usually she effectively blocks most ways of actually meeting, but last week she suggested we have dinner today. I cannot refuse.
I am one of the lucky guys to have ICM 2.0 in my collection. I have such high hopes of this stuff that I only use it for the most extraordinary occasions. I am terrified that it works and the bottle will run out prematurely. Today was only my third application since Steve sent it to me.
I did everything a ‘man’ should do. Picking a place to dine, dictate time, picking her up etc. I put on 3 sprays of ICM2.0 while in the car on the way to her house. One on each side of the neck and one split on the forearms. It smells great. Cover is original Fahrenheit.
I have put a lot of faith in this attraction/seduction/slightly sexual product. I can smell it is -none heavy.
So we sit down in the restaurant, and I keep thinking, she has to at least show some interest in me. She is a highly sexual woman. This has to be the signature that will have her to start viewing me in a potential sexual way.
One of the first things she says: “Your skin is so nice, did you scrub? Look at this pimple…it’s because I am on my period.”
Me: “…”.
I am still thinking: “…”. FFS.
I have only one thing to say: LOL
I feel like a million bucks today !
Today I had my final exam at the university. The one where you defend your thesis in front of a couple of professors.
Place of battle: classroom L 3-14
I took that as a hint and wore 3x A314 rev 27 along with a kickass suit. I looked like a suave ladiesman. Two out of the three professors judging me were women, so I wanted to look sharp.
They ate everything I said like a chocolate donut ! I got non-stop eye contact from the women. I had to break it every now and then because they would not break it. The guy prof, also my thesis supervisor, looked slightly intimidated. I am not sure that had anything to do with the mones, he is usually like that. Also, he stutters alot. The guy needs a makeover. But enough about him.
I am now officially a Master of Arts 
Tomorrow begins the rest of my life !
How’s the quest for lovin coming?
Congratulations.
Thanks !
Ehm, not sure what to say. Not much is happening. Whenever I am out and about and encountering women I try to pick up on IOI’s or other stuff that would communicate in some way they find me interesting/attractive. I never get one whatsoever. I know it is said that when one tries to search for ‘hits’ etc. it is hard to see and notice them, but hey, when I don’t actively scan there are no IOI’s either.
On a sidenote. A couple posts back I wrote I am back in contact with my oneitis. Two days after we had dinner she had sex with some alpha dude she just met. She now has a lot of symptoms that indicate she is pregnant. Earliest test moment is next saturday. As of now I am the only person she has told this. This is an illustration of my position as emotional tampon. She said I would be the only one not freaked out by it. The stigma: the single mom, without a relationship thing etc.. Somehow I find it hilarious. Man, our relationship is totally fucked up haha. I should write a book about this Mother of all Friendzones 
To be honest, I am kinda hoping she is indeed pregnant by that guy. It will seriously lower my desire of her. After a women has children, her sexual market value decreases by a lot, even for AFC’s like me. 
Tomorrow I am having a sit down with my boss. Me having a degree qualifies me for more responsibilities and a higher salary. A314 time !!
This girl sounds like bad news. Sure, be a friend, but reinforce in your mind that she will be nothing else. You deserve better. It’s cruel to yourself to think anything other.
Thanks. I know this ofcourse, but it is always nice to hear this from a third party. This shit is so fucked up.
Monday is the official graduating ceremony where they will hand me my Master’s diploma. Shall I mone up for hits? I am thinking Instant Shine, I am supposed ot enjoy the day right?
Ishine and IO. GREAT combo right there to have fun 
hey josie, first off, i would like to say thanks. you have offered me great insight into things i may be missing. well, i dont wanna say miss, but nor capitalize on the situation. my thing is, girsl or women rather, give me the smiles,the giggles,the twisting of the hair,the small talk etc. i can never tell if its just them being friendly,or if its more. the main problem is, i work with them. i dont wanna be unprofessional.
Heya Bolkie.
I’ve been reading through your journal, and it’s an interesting, albeit sometimes rough trip.
Sounds like you are having some of the same problems that ITnerd799 WAS(past tense,) having, and his journal would be a really good read for you. I’ve been trying to steer him in the right direction as I’ve done with several guys on here, and he kicked his longtime one-itis to the curb and had a f**king fantastic date with a chick of much higher quality, recently.
On his date he was showing every sign of a brooding alpha male and not one shred of the former AFC traits that he started out with…
Now I’m gonna pose something to you.
In your place, with complete silence, and no one around, try saying this over and over a few times, building up from quiet and somber to a POWERFUL ROAR from your chest.
Hell, pounding your chest like a gorilla wouldn’t hurt - in fact you may feel inclined to do so 
As a matter of fact, that’s an ORDER, SOLDIER!
“I AM MAN! THIS WORLD IS MINE FOR THE TAKING! I DO NOT SUPPLICATE! WOMEN MUST PROVE THEIR WORTHINESS TO ME!”
And picture yourself being surrounded by sex-crazed hot chicks with their hands all over you, at the same time that you’re saying the phrase (and beating your chest like a gorilla.)
Make sure that you are sitting straight, shoulders back, feet apart slightly wider than your body. Hell, you can do this standing up, too.
Now wait for it… wait for it…
You just did something that in business psychology, is called ‘anchoring’.
I’d encourage you to try this several times a day.
Once you start practicing it regularly, you’ll find that ANYTIME that you put your hand to your chest, your mood will shift and you’ll start feeling the same kind of power and confidence that you do when preforming the anchoring exercise.
Pretty neat, huh?
Another thing.
This ‘trophy girl’ is nothing of the sort.
Do you know what she does when she goes to the bathroom?
Pees and poops!
She might even pick her nose when no one is looking.
The point is, no matter how hot she is, NO woman is worth trophy-fying (Is that even a word?!?), because there’s nothing better than NUMBER ONE. NUMERO UNO. MI. ME. MYSELF AND I.
Here’s something to try:
Next time you see a hot woman, right before you start talking to her, think of her taking a poop.
YUCK, right?
RIGHT!
So there’s nothing to be nervous about.
Then when you’re talking to her?
Think of her screaming your name in bed, getting your rocks off.
If you don’t think that smiles come naturally, brother, you will after you do this exercise.
The mones will help.
But you must be congruent.
Chris
SAGE Advice right there Bolkie
I agree. Though it took me a long times to write this reply, I do really appreciate it.
They have updated the confidence subliminal, for you my friend I suggest downloading it and using it again in conjunction with whatever other subliminal you may be currently using. The updated version is supposed to be exponentially more powerful than the previous!