diamond's journal "clinging on to the wreckage"

Field Reports & Anecdotal Experience Men's Journals
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Just for a change of tack, last evening, I had a phero blow out. 3 sprays TUTH to chest, 4 sprays IFM to hair and 10 (yes 10) sprays Shine to neck, wrists and inner elbows. I did this, more in hope than expectation in the knowledge that the wife was full of cold and just come off ‘that week’.

Effects, I spent most of the evening with a stupid grin on my face, the kids were as good as gold and I ended up posting jokes in the Lounge, the wife was out at a training meeting from 7 -9:30

Most noticeable self effect was a don’t give a f**k attitude, not in an aggressive way but more like what have i got to lose, just go with the flow, you only live once.

Downside, wife was very cuddly in bed but really not up for anything more (as I expected, she really isn’t well) so I lay there long after she started snoring with a tent under the duvet, a daft grin and no chance of sleep!

This morning, I think the mix is still working, have been flirting with one of the girls on here, still grinning like a cheshire cat and have just talked my insurance company into paying £350 ($500) more for my totalled bike than I paid for it. Just as well really, having just spent $350 in the store!

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Nice to see you’re still playing with IFM. Would love to get that on my next order. As of now, I’m just reading up the results of your tryouts with it, as well as other posts…

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Didn’t wait the couple of days to read your journal, Diamond - worth the time spent and some encouragement to me too.

Excellent reporting, hope I may eventually be able to do the same.

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Reading through your journal and didn’t want to reply before finishing it but damn, that line… Same humor as me. Couldn’t resist commenting on it. Great journal so far. =D

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OK, just checked and I haven’t updated this for two months!

Brief update on situation.

Home life has been steadily improving, communication is much better, IFM and IH continue to be my best friends! Whether or not it has improved enough, the jury is still out on that one.

A couple of weeks ago, we had to take a 500 mile round trip to drop mother in law at her other daughter’s house for emotional support due to incessant bullying by brother in law ( useless, lazy slob who hasn’t used a toothbrush in three weeks), she has filed for divorce and he is getting abusive. Quick call to former colleagues at her local police station (Swindon, for those of you who know it!) and a couple of six foot plus cops on the door within minutes. Got a bully in your life, 3 drops of A314 for me and 4 sprays MX300 for the wife and he was completely subservient, couldn’t look either of us in the eye and slunk off to his sisters for the entire day!

Other interesting hits over the past few weeks

Hot blonde in next door office continues to try to attract my attention, based on phero ‘memory’ of previous encounter.

IHx4 plus alcohol is not a good idea even when online flirting, way to much was said by me ( you know who you are!)

Last few weeks have been testing ammo 7 test pack, man I love MX275, can I have a custom gallon of that one please? Also got good IOIs from MX278 and lesser ones from MX276, MX277 and MX279. If you want to read the entire test, it’s here ammo test pack 7, could this be the holy grail?

P83 at 30mcg for some reason makes me have vivid erotic dreams, if I combine it with A314, I get super confident and crash my bike! TAF at 60 mcg makes me hyper focussed.

MX292 continues to taunt me from the bedside cabinet ‘ you’re not allowed to play with me until current (7 week) test is completed.

Layering 3 drops A314 with 3 sprays Instant Gentleman turns me into an aggressive, pain in the ass, dick for some reason ( or maybe that’s just the real me!)

Promise not to take so long next time!

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You won’t like it diamond, save yourself the trouble and post it off to me :smiley:

Either that or try it out with either a touch of ammo or tuth, 2/3 squirts of MX292 and 1 of either (but not both) of the above…

Thanks for sharing the P83 - had to buy some as some idiot (currently writing this) dropped and successfuly stood on the to-go bottle after first spraying :angry:

Will keep you, and everyone else updated as it goes.

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Yeah, OK, hmm let me think…

quote=farmergiles;208422]Thanks for sharing the P83 - had to buy some as some idiot (currently writing this) dropped and successfuly stood on the to-go bottle after first spraying :angry:

You muppet! lol

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You muppet! lol

Well Diamond I am glad to see that things are improving at home. I haven’t been real active posting but I do read your posts. Lots of luck

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Hey Diamond what did you think of the smell of MX276… is it just me or is it really spicy smelling?

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Bear in mind that I smoke like a chimney and had a shocking sense of smell before I started, once drydown has occurred, I get a faint smell, not spicy as such although there is a hint of something exotic, more in line with a very mild akuto A314?

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Right you guys are going to laugh but last week, the UK was effectively brought to a halt by snow, dependent on location, between 2 and 12 inches of the stuff.

Down here in the extreme South West, we have palm trees growing in the gardens, are unlucky if we get frost on the car more than twice a year, as you can imagine, we aren’t exactly used to dealing with snowdrifts of 3 or 4 inches deep The upshot was that most of my testing of MX279 was curtailed, schools and colleges closed so no target harem to tease.
Ongoing test pack marathon now being rested until this coming Saturday. OK, what to do, best part of a week with no structured testing, time to play silly buggers with pheromones!

Monday just gone saw us at a Keane gig, indoor venue of around 4,000 capacity, not huge but a useful testing arena given that the crowd was at least 70% female, aged 14 -45 or so. Having worn my usual 2 drops A314 to work, another 3 drops mid afternoon should ensure some personal space in the throng. Better soften it though…

Now, I’m sorry but, as I reached for the Shine, my subconscious took over and grasped the to go of MX292 and forcibly sprayed 3 shots, one to my hair and two to my wrists despite my very best efforts to overcome the temptation!!

No noticeable self effects and the wife didn’t seem affected but she was bouncing around due to her favourite band playing a live gig (4th time we’ve seen them in two years!). Single refresh of MX292 at 18:00.

90 minutes later and we’re parked, Having listened to a Kevin ‘Bloody’ Wilson CD on the way up (watch him on Youtube but make sure the kids can’t hear!), we are feeling decidedly stupid and giggly anyway. Walk round to front of venue, only about 30 people queuing so no standing in the rain and we stand a good chance of getting front row spots. 20 minutes later, the doors open and we get to the front row right next to the amplifiers!

Gig starts, fans go wild, etc etc. what is interesting is that I am getting significant looks from a couple of teenage girls stood next to me ( jailbait without a doubt) who blush and look away when I catch the eyes. Obviously, I’m not interested but decide to test the MX anyway. At the same time, the guy next to me ( from the next town to me as I found out in the myriad other things he disclosed that evening) was very sociable, volunteering information like there was no tomorrow. Likewise, his girlfriend ( stood about two feet away from me) is chatting away to my wife like they were old friends. Normally at a gig like this, I would be getting elbowed, shoved or having lecherous Spanish women pinching my backside etc! This time, there was a very respectable 8 inches or so all around me, doesn’t sound like much but everywhere I looked, people were crammed like sardines. In fact the only person crowding me was the wife who was now stood directly in front of me and kept bumping backwards ( ho hum).

After the gig, we decided to hang around the stage door to chat with the band, at least a couple of them always come out to sign autographs etc. The weather was cold but dry. The couple we had met stayed with us, chatting and generally passing the time. I was my usual chatty self but very quickly felt that the other guys ( 20s and 30s) were being very respectful and some minor interest from a couple of the girls, one of which backed off noticeably once she noticed my wedding ring. One girl who I had never met before actually apologised after spilling her life history to me and then carried on with more details for another 2 or 3 minutes until I had to cut her off and tell her that 2 members of the band were stood about 6 feet behind her!

What is interesting is that I could actually differentiate between the effects of the two mixes. A314 gave me the breathing space in the gig and had the usual, almost gratitude when the ‘lofty alpha’ considered the other males to be worthy of communicating with. Those of you who use A314 know what I mean, it’s by no means arrogance on my part. With the MX292, I got a distinct impression of more friendly, life of the party respect from the guys and some light flirtiness from the girls but without any of the almost hysterically funny silliness that I observed in the MX275 testing.

Apologies for the long post but I’m wearing a lot of TAF today ( will post about that later) and am feeling that I’ve absolutely got to get this log updated!

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You know what - Akuto is kind of the exotic spicyness that i’m smelling I think

Maybe they threw some EO’s in MX276?

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Well you never know, if we beg, Jasmin might just let us have the recipes…
yeah, right :smiley:

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OK, here we go. Today’s silly bugger idea, lets try the first three random bottles I grab when I wake up.

Right, what have we got… A314, version 18 batch 2. My special custom unscented I Shine (thanks Steve and the girls!) and 15mcg TAF. This is going to be fun

08:00 classic work mix, 2 drops A314, one to neck and jawline, the other split over wrists with 2 sprays I Shine ( even got my name on the label underneath) I assume it’s just regular Shine unless Steve has some dastardly plot that we don’t know about and let’s go with one shot of TAF@15mcg. No immediate noticeable difference in self effects, wife and kids seem normal but it’s always chaos at home this time of day. No unusual effects noticed on way to work, singing along to the radio maybe a little more boisterous than usual.

EDIT 10:30 Sorry, forgot to mention, added a further two sprays TAF and a further spray shine so that’s now a total of 45mcg TAF, 3 sprays I Shine (x1) and 2 drops A314

10:40 I’ve just noticed a slight pain in my right temple, nothing outrageous, it lasted around 5 minutes and was then replaced by a mental buzz, as if the brain was firing up all the spare capacity ready for whatever is going to happen next.

10:45 This is weird, I’m looking at my monitor and my vision has tunnelled to the point that the sides of the monitor are blurred, peripheral vision definitely narrower than normal. At the same time, my hearing has sharpened, I can actually hear my two colleagues having a conversation upstairs on the other side of our 1,500 square foot office. That is definitely out of the ordinary. I can also hear the traffic noise from the bypass 100 yards away, while that is not unusual, it seems much louder and sharper than normal.

11:00 I’m starting to shiver, not in cold, more like an excitable anticipation of something good about to happen. Colour perception appears heightened, primary colours, particularly yellow appear much more vivid. I am firing on all cylinders, focussed on tasks, such as the report I posted in my journal earlier today. Work that has been sitting to one side for days stands a good chance of being dealt with today. Focus on task, get it done, next task, done and so on. I’ve been decidedly unmotivated in the office recently, this might just be the answer.

15:45 All of the effects that I noticed earlier are still there, with the exception of the headache but they are all slightly intense now, still a little nervous about the peripheral vision, I’ve got to drive home in an hour. I’ve spent the day feeling like a sprinter waiting in the blocks for the gun to go off if you catch my drift, nervous energy is coursing through my veins, no matter how much I do, it won’t be enough and I’ll be looking for the next task. Hopefully this will last until the college class tonight, interesting to see if others have any reaction.

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Diamond, that’s actually a good idea for when you have no idea what to try.

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Intrigued with yesterday’s results so today I’m just going with TAF, to see if any of the self effects I noticed are evident just from this one molecule.

10:00 30mcg applied to throat area, within 5 minutes I notice my visual acuity is enhanced and narrowed again. I wear reading glasses at work due to spending most of my day on the computer. However, even without these, the icons appear sharper and the colours more intense although neither of these effects is as defined and vivid as yesterday’s test. There are a gang of road workers digging a big hole some 10 yards from my office window, I can hear their conversation through a closed, double glazed window. No A314 today, normally this would have my boss trying to get dominant and dictatorial, now, either he is in an exceptionally good mood today or the TAF is having a calming influence on him, although still his normal, moody self, he appears to be intent on getting his own work done although, when he is at the other side of the building, he reverts to type and phones me with various trivial requests.

13:00 further 15mcg applied to throat and within 1 minute I can feel myself descending into calm focus, the sensation is akin to that relaxation you feel when you start a deep breathing or relaxation technique. I can almost feel my pulse slow and my breathing seems to be slower.

I know that Diane uses TAF for much of her testing and am being to appreciate why she does so, all of my senses seem enhanced and I am becoming increasingly aware of small nuances of sound and colour.

Just before I finish off, a small hit from last night’s college class. I had applied nothing after 10:30 yesterday morning. At around 18:30, I was still experiencing the sensory enhancement, although these were gradually returning to my normal levels. A married girl who had displayed some IOIs during the MX275 test kept glancing in my direction from some 10 feet away. Nothing huge but I caught her quick glance at which she looked away, only to look back after a few seconds, hold my gaze, smile and roll her eyes. I winked, she blushed and, at the end of the night, looked at me and rushed out of the classroom, still blushing! Sometimes I wish I could read minds.

The point to note is that I would probably have missed the first, brief IOI but for my pheromonally enhanced senses. I imagine this molecule could have resounding success in a club/attraction mix purely from it’s seeming ability to help the user notice the small details.

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Hi Diamond

Nice report!

“Nothing huge but I caught her quick glance at which she looked away, only to look back after a few seconds, hold my gaze, smile and roll her eyes. I winked, she blushed and, at the end of the night, looked at me and rushed out of the classroom, still blushing! Sometimes I wish I could read minds.”

Now that I have gotten to know you a bit I’d say that you were being WELL SARCY! I wish these “nothing huge” moments happened to me on a more regular basis, with the opposite sex of course. :slight_smile:

xx

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Right, busy couple of months, not been on here much but a brief update. Finally concluded my ammo test pack with some interesting results, somewhat different to others I have now been able to read.

Major hit at college tonight. For those of you who recall, when testing the MX278, one of the girls, mid 20s hb8-9 brunette spent the evening subconsciously pulling the front of her blouse down and thrusting the cleavage at me.

Went in tonight wearing 4 sprays MX281 (don’t bother looking, it’s out of stock), she immediately grabbed the seat next to me. Revision session so no tutor just a total of 5 students. the atmosphere was light and comical. Tried a little bit of my game on her ( gentle negging etc) after complimenting her on her outfit, a fitted suit with short skirt. After twenty minutes, she asks for my number which I give to her to call her bluff. She then makes no protest as I place my hand on the hem of her skirt, in fact she encourages it. I’ve now been home 40 minutes and she has texted me three times. This girl knows I’m married with kids but still seems determined to have her way with me. Yes, I’m going to behave despite the severe temptation. It just goes to show, a social (P74 heavy) mix with a bit of courtesy and some game is all you need. So many guys concentrate on -none heavy mixes. Grab some P74, wait ten minutes, make them laugh and it’s job done :wink:

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Big heart to heart chat with wife last night, sans phero, both calm and happy throughout.

Those of you who know why I’m here also know how long I have struggled to make my marriage work. Those of you who don’t (particularly you married guys looking to rekindle, read this journal in it’s entirety and then re read bosshanks married guys thread).

After six years together and a good six months of phero use ( 4 months with her knowledge) we have decided it is time to call it a day while we can still be friends. Basically, when we met, we were both coming out of dark periods in our lives and, whilst we have grown closer as friends, we haven’t grown closer as lovers. Basically, even in a marriage, you can still drift into the friends zone.

In a marriage, just like you young guys who are trying to snag the hot girl at school, the attraction has got to be there, the mones can only enhance (How many times have I said that in replying to an intro thread?). Our failing was that we allowed the flame of passion to dwindle to a spark, that spark was then allowed to fade to a point where no amount of androstenone, A1 or any other product you care to name ( and my collection is huge) was powerful enough to reignite it.

Now please, I don’t want sympathy or anything like that, I want you all to read this and take it on board. Do NOT let your flame dwindle too far, take her to dinner, buy him flowers, whatever it takes, if you love that person ( or even if you aren’t sure that you still do) but please, do this for me, get it back on track, right now.

The scary thing is that we aren’t even sad about it. As for me, a whole new phero enhanced single diamond is about to be released on the female population of the UK. I fear that androtics may have created a monster.:open_mouth:

clinging onto the wreckage, hell no, I’m going for a swim with the sharks :wink:

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Yessir - even the ladies say this from Jasmin and Tisha and on down through the ranks. A good social mix and a sense of humor can take you far.

Thanks again for the vote of confidence and I am truly sorry it has gone in this direction for you.

I think Diamond has put it very well - it is all about relationship. Whether establishing it with the first hello and initial conversations, to growing it, cultivating it. The deeper the relationship, the more work it takes.

The pheros only enhance you and help things slide along a little easier. They do not do the work for you.

And we are here as always to back you up … hmmmm, I wonder what Xiphoid and Emmie are doing …?