Electric Smells: My phero Experience.

Sorry, I haven’t been around guys I’m fighting tooth and nail with doctors and my body and having a loosing battle.(in terms of finding anything out) All my blood counts are gutted (hemotologist baffled),hormones have an endocrinologist baffled,soon to see a liver doctor I used to see as a kid and adored (smart nice doctor). I will say that all of my docs now are exceptionally bright and really working hard to try to figure out whats going on but I’ve thrown them a major curve ball.My sanity is majorly being pushed at this point which is fairly normal when your hormones go bats and you’re so weak you can barely get around. I went back to see my Mom for her 50th and mothers day and had medical trouble on the flight so I’m not sure I can go home even. On the upshot its pretty and green here and the birds sound lovely in the mornings. Sorry, this isn’t one of my more witty silly posts I’m just super exhausted.

I miss you guys this is a good community,a good company and while I was more active and not feeling so ill a reason to smile.Thanks for adding a bright spot in my life.
Some of you have been so effin awesome.Seriously thanks.
Be happy ,be well and prosper.

Love to all.

Thanks for the update Electra. You seem to be upbeat and positive despite the fact that you are facing the unknown. That’s raw courage. Know that we all want the best for you and want you to recover quick xo

Home again or not? and a brief on the 4th with A314

Hopefully, this is the last series of tests they’re going to run I was hoping to be home after the fourth but my endoguy called and they scheduled me for an ultrasound on the 8th to double check some things.Ugh, oh well I guess its good hes being so through.

So delayed again. >.< roomie back in L.A. is gonna send me my last order asap told him to go ahead and test the products first and I suppose I’m gonna place order for here directly to save him the hassle if I’m still here next month.I’m so homesick and I miss my munchkin and my darned spoiled cat.Heck I miss the food out there!

>.< This place is starting to feel like a black hole and still no answers! Thanks for being such a gent Skittish.

Ok, on to the fourth and a trial with A314 on a different minded population.
I’ve been going out and getting flirted with more than I care for and I kind of wanted to get a bit of my old back the heck of vibe going so I wore a drop of A314.Bearing in mind my testosterone level is now officially in the mens ranges. Fun stuff that. Legs get five o clock shadow rofl PAIN in the arse.

Anyhow, I got dolled up as per my usual I want to go out and look cute but really honestly boys I just wanted to look cute for my sake.I’ve kinda fizzled out on romance because well I’m a hopeless romantic at this point lol.

Male reaction even from the younger male crowd which is generally the most likely to do the gufaw and flirt was positive but not flirty.Very respectful of my personal space the old ex that works at the store I went to avoided me and really I got to shop and just relax.

Mom who I fight with almost constantly as a general rule was friendly and upbeat.Two alpha women in the same house can you say headbutting and posturing?

Women were friendly jovial and actually pretty chatty a cashier tried to woo me into her line but I was still shopping.:roll_eyes:
I didn’t have my usual weirdos following me around like lost puppies and really over all the experience was a round about nice evening.:open_mouth:

My health has improved in general and things are looking up still no doctor answers although my hematologist is trying to get me gene tested as an XXY mosaic.He has another female patient who popped up as having that mutation so he wants to see if thats the issue with me. Which honestly given the other options would be a bit of a relief. After all I already knew I was an unusual girl rofl and I’m fine with that.Another thing on the tables is Chimera.
I’ve really left them pretty boggled with my labs lol. I run about a half female half male hormonal ratio no wonder I confuse people! Physically speaking other than the fruity hormones I’m all girl. :stuck_out_tongue:

Anyhow +++ on A314 as expected.
Always love the quality of Androtics products and recommend them heartily to my more open minded and educated friends.Thanks guys for getting my last order out even with the confusion.

Looking back.

Wow, I feel like I’ve been harsh to guys in the past but the opposite is also true.
Then again there was guilt on both sides rico suave scared me off by saying something super violent one night and possessive. Been there done that not doing it again.

Ex well is an ex but is also a friend. Things have come about that gave me some perspective on things and basically I’m an emotional but tenderhearted girl and that’s what I need in a guy.Yep, people I’m growing up. Anyhow, we simply work in different ways emotionally we make good partners on the mental level and physical stuff was fun. However, on an emotional level I just ended up feeling kinda bruised.

I’ve killed my replay/second chance rule and now am determined to not give second chances.Part of my issue was to a degree I was too sympathetic in times I should really not have been. So now its a like to like rule you get what you give.Which is how it shoulda been in the first place.

I’m in it for the long haul this go round and its a all cards on the table thing.
If time comes round I’ve got my eyes open and I’m alert but its gonna take some proof of intention. It’s really been a rough haul but hey I’m still here, still smiling, still friendly, and loving life.I’m bearing no ill will or grudges to the opposite sex so I suppose I’m not doing so badly. I really try not to judge people to harshly but its hard not to be a bit up in arms.

Playing the initiator,the support and the reliable girl has really worn on me.Lil bit of the same in return would be nice!

Do nice girls finish last too? Lol, and don’t mistake my words either there’s a feisty lil fireball of a sexpot there too. Not keen on being little sister or best friend zoned. Sucks as much for me as it does a guy.
Sorry, for the rant. Yes, I know gals don’t make any sense sometimes. I’m not immune.
Holy smokes, I’m a human animal after all.

It was great hanging with you on the webcast! Love this journal and can’t wait to see more from you. :slight_smile:

My thoughts on P103.

After working with P103 for a few weeks I have come to the conclusion that in my case it seems to function as a buffer/dissonance reducer.

I started at a fairly low dose 10 mcg mono-spray and worked my way up (to 40 mcg 4 sprays). In situations where I normally would have run into friction with other people two specific people I know social interactions were genial and relaxed.

I’m not sure what p103 does for the rest of the tester population but I’m a bit of an odd case as some of you may have noticed.Which I don’t think is that odd considering my hormone ratio is abnormal and has been since puberty.

I’ve also worked this putative with tal, A314, and p78 hence the extended testing phase.
Skittish has commented that this molecule doesn’t seem to stick around for long when most people use it but I’ve noticed that the scent seemed to rub off on one of the shirts I wore during testing.

P78 (10mcg) which I’m fond of seems to be fairly neutralized in effect at 2 sprays p103 but has subtle effects with one spray increasing p78 spray did not seem to affect the effects of p103 and A314 dissonance/social friction(male reaction) is reduced at higher doses(female high range for me is about 3 drops one normally is good and two pushes the throttle a bit much).Test molecule L tends to have people giving me a wide berth in heavy spray ranges I’ve run TAL at a 5 spray range.My Test Molecule L dose is also 10 mcg I tend to wear it in the 20-30 mcg range)

Another interesting commentary. Smell wise to me there is a very feminine dry down odor that reminds me of how some of my more bubbly gal pals would smell.I’m not sure what the scent is in terms of neroli at this point I’m pretty familiar with the smell and die down scent so I don’t think its neroli I’m smelling.I suppose to me it smells a bit like cuddly girl.

In discussion with Skittish he mentioned that other testers have made less than complimentary comments on the scent. I noticed no “funk” in my own runs with it so I’m guessing that perhaps its something to do with the way my own body chemistry is.

I actually do well with a fairly wide range of perfumes and scents. Although certain rose scents come off very “green” on me and smell more of cut grass.

shrugs I will say this though P103 I like almost as much as Mx335 even though the vibe is a bit different.

Mx335 was more of a goddess superstar vibe when I dealt with it and P103 is more of a girl next door best friend “likable” vibe.Mxx335 could be steered to be sexual but I’m thinking p103 at least in my case wouldn’t really mesh with steering in that direction.
where instant shine is like charisma in a bottle. P103 registers as calm,warm,amiable.

It’s a neutralizer in my case. The people I tend to run into conflict with tend to be none sensitive at least from what I can tell or alpha sensitive. On of the people I hung out with during my runs that normally I have friction with is because we’re both alpha kind of pack leader females and she feels this constant urge to jockey with me for position.
Whereas I don’t particularly care who’s in alpha I just seem to end up with it anyhow.

I’m more likely to juggle alpha or jockey with a male than a female.
Then again it depends on the male.

The other party was a None and alpha sensitive beta-male I have friction with possibly due to both my general personality. Rawr anyone? lol and my high androgen level. Although interestingly since I’ve returned to L.A. it seems like either my androgen level is going down or its either so high that he doesn’t seem as inclined to spar.Possibly though its simply him getting used to my natural sig and realizing I’m really not out to “get him” or whatever. Who knows. High testosterone or not I’m still all woman. I’ve always had a kind of “domineering” I suppose? personality. Only child syndrome a bit.
I have softened it over the years though me at 16 or 17 egads.Mothers lock up your sons. Being a bit of a cheesy geekette also doesn’t hurt.

I do my best on these reports but of late coming home and getting caught up in seeing old friends and whatnot has kept me pretty gosh darned busy.

My sincere apologies on that one gang.

Good morning from L.A.

Also Good morning. :slight_smile:

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Have you had any news on your diagnosis? Glad you’re having a good morning. :slight_smile:

They really have no idea at this point the genetic stuff came back normal and all of my scans have pretty much been within norms. Although I do have some tummy issues.The only thing that is off is the blood work.I’m on a doctor break maybe when I come back they’ll have figured something out/decided which crayola color I am..Oddly, my dentist figured out from my head xray that I’ve apparently had a badly broken nose for years.Which explains why I have off and on sinus issues.The high testosterone bit apparently does run in the family though just not to the degree they’re seeing with me. They put me on carb/salt/iodine restriction and that didn’t help at all.Actually made things worse swung into hypothyroidism for awhile and my testosterone levels spiked.Just a weird girl I guess.

Coming home to L.A.has me eating better food and happier.It’s nice to be able to walk to the store or over to see friends again.I’ll bug my doc out here sometime next month. That way he’s updated and some ones following up on things here too.

I think at the end of the day I’m just happy to be alive ,feeling a bit better and around friends.

Skittish has really stuck by me through all this stuff.
Not to mention other members of this community who have been rather awesome.

Thanks for the inquiry. :slight_smile:

How’s your day going? How are you doing? :slight_smile:

Glad at least you’re where you want to be. At home, where your comfortable. It always helps when you have solid support; good friends are such a comfort when this type of crap goes down. Family tends to react with ‘who next’ hanging in the back of their minds. Apart from the employment situation, good, thanx.

New beau? Perhaps? ok so after being single for a few months I have some rather interesting nibbles. Only one I’m pursuing and he’s a catch from what I can tell so far. Lots in common and good chemistry. He took off to see family for the holidays and is just getting back into town. Seems like I’m putting out more female pheromones now which is good. I’m probably not going to test anything on this chap as we already have good chemistry except maybe some of the socials or buffers I have laying around. However, I’m getting out more these days intermingling with both girls and boys as opposed to my usual mostly male company. I just placed an order for meo-est and I’m wanting to see if it has the same function now that it had before with my own pheromones at different ratios. WHile I’m on the subject of est’s I haven’t seen anywhere carrying it for awhile which is kinda a bummer. A brief aside I have a post to work on soon I’m working on about pheromone shifting and the scents that different people put out when they’re in different emotional states.I’ve become KEENLY aware of this the last few months and I’m wondering if anyone else has noticed the same thing?

Hi electra, keep reading your journal. you are a courageous person, the way you are dealing with all in life.. keep going… thats the way to live… i too have medical conditions to handle… and perhaps unknown effects but we are special in our own way. just know it and enjoy fullest whatever you are doing… in touch with you here…:slight_smile::slight_smile: